Its 2.06am now, i couldn't sleep so i decided to post my childhood memories that gave me a very deep impression after a decade. And also to look back at this post in the future.
These are the following ones that have been running through my mind tonight, viewers discretion is adviced.
When I was 5, on a thunderous afternoon, my elder brother and sister and also me was at home. They found this particular newspaper about a soccer player who died named Foe. They then use his picture and teamed up to scare me locking up in the room, i bursted into tears. I'll definitely not forget that part.
I used to have this neighbour named Lisa whom i played with almost everyday, we will have self made letter box outside of our house and we will transfer messages to each other, thats kinda sweet and memorable.
There is also one night when i fell asleep at my sister's room. I woke up and decided to head back to the masterbedroom, it was my old house actually. Then, as i walk i can see the living room, it was pitch dark and i saw a figure sitting down back facing me like reading some letters etc, but i didn't really care and went back to sleep. Next morning I told my family about it and nobody believes me that sucks lei hahaha. :(
I would also still remember sitting on my dad's lorry controlling the lorry like machiam i'm driving which is god damn cool. They even took a photo of me! And that very night when we are having our family dinner, daddy was opening up the rice cooker cover, it was made of glass and it slipped and hit his feet, i felt so painful for him and i could still remember this!
There was once when i took my neighbour's broom and swipe it right and left on their corridor window. I was caught and ran back to my house, but they came and complained to my parents, however they are not angry about me and told my parents to take good care of me wah touched..
Ohyeah! And i still remembered this incident when everyone is sleeping cramping ourselves in the masterbedroom, one night i woke up and wanting to pee, i was so damn full of confidence and decide to close my eyes and walk to the toilet. Idontknow why but my six sense was so sure that the toilet bowl is right infront of me and i took a small peep which is very dark and blur but i just let it all out. Next morning to my surprise i got scolded by my mom for peeing next to the drawer's floor.
There was once when my parents are not really in good terms already, mommy doesn't allow daddy to go out that night, they fought and my dad's ring scratched my mom's finger. Daddy just went out leaving me and my mom alone in my sister room hugging and crying towards each other. This... Very memorable to me.
There was once in my nursery that i had a crush on this particular girl, and she suddenly kisses my cheek. Wow that feeling is just so awesome, its like love is in the air! how i wish i can rewind time haha. But there is also once when i really hated this girl so much that i kicked her stomach straight, wah thinking about it now really scares me and makes me so guilty hopefully you don't remember what i did i'm so sorry please forgive me.
In nursery, teachers are expected to pat us to sleep in the afternoon. I always hope not to kena this Mrs Foo because whenever she pats me to sleep she PAT SO HARD I CANT EVEN FALL ASLEEP LEY. -.-
I had also get to know this uncle Loo during primary 4 i think. He was my mom's friend, which will also be the best uncle i had. We often go out as three, going beaches chillaxing at the bar, watching movies every weekends sometimes fri and sat consistenly for almost like one year. So it was like money draining. Then uncle loo will always sleep in the theatre and snores v loudly until it catches everyone's attention however i dont find it very embarassing and i tried to even protect him like because he's tired or what lah giving excuses to help him. However he left us when i'm p6 becos he actually had a wife so yeah. My mom is sad and me too, he is not even related to me in anyway, but i felt so close to him and even treated him like a second father i shall say but he just left us like this. I guess this is fate, many of us do not have much choices to make in life.. Forget about it.
Then on primary six my dad were seperated from us and we moved into our new home which is now Blk 841. I still remember i still couldn't sleep well eat well, sadness filling my heart every night, having to take train to Changkat Primary School everyday and reached very early at times so i'll just tapped out of the mrt station sit there and think why my life is like this etc. damn loner. Lol.
One day, my brother and I decided to go eastpoint and play lan(Dota) then the lan shop was closed and i banged the malay rythm on the glass window of the lan shop which is damn lame, then the lan shop owner paikia paikia one came out and scolded me and even threatened to hit me but my brother just came out and push him backwards and apologize and requested him to chill his titties down and that is when I felt so honourable, proud to have this brother. HAHA BECAUSE I REALLY HATED HIM SINCE YOUNG BECAUSE HE DIDNT REALLY SHARE GOOD STUFFS WITH ME AT ALL AND I HATE HIM FOR THAT, but after this incident my impression of him totally changed. But when we walked home together it was damn awkward lah and i was thinking like what the hell had i just done.
On the first day of my primary school which is primary one, we were told to color our group color at the left sharp triangular corner of the paper and i was told by my group leader SERENE TEO to color it and so i did so, but instead i coloured the whole top 1/5 of the paper in blue because i was in blue group, the whole class laughed/mocked at me. :(
I'll also never forget Miss Elaine Ong and Miss Diana Koh for bringing such enjoyable and fun learning moments in our primary school, a big thank you to both of you.
There was once one of my hamster whole head was bitten off, and it was my favourite hamster the one and only kind and wont bite one, it was so depressing then daddy accompanied me down to bury it which is now built up as the Metta school in Simei.
Everyday after school i'll go to my cousin's house and take a nap because both of my parents are busy and their maid can tke care of me, i'll usually napped for 5hrs and wakeup. There was once when i merely requested for the first time like asking the maid to pour some water for me becos i am just so tired after waking up she then shouted back at me "POUR YOURSELF LAH I ALSO NOT YOUR MAID" hahaha dammit!
Primary three.. I have this form teacher name Mr liau, he teaches us maths. And whenever talk in class did badly in class result like shit, done a certain question wrongly, he will like pull our hairs, sideburns real hard which is so frigging pain and whacked us on our shoulders two to three times, he also did it on the females which is so heart wrenching to see it happening and worst couldnt do anything about it. But afterall, my maths got band 2 lah so super duper happy because i always fail my maths.
It was also a trend to buy nike water bottles those that can spray one and spray on our friends. If i'm not wrong, our school banned that type of water bottle after that hahahha.
Guess this is all about it. Gotta sleep now, business process modelling module for tommorow, another hectic day. Goodnight readers :)
Hi all, its been such a long time posting a post on my blog. My not very reputable blog, looking back at all my past posts i felt so embarassed, funny and a little bit of happiness. I've never regret meeting those people in my life, doing regretful stuffs, creating miracles because these are the story you're gona tell your kids in the future. Damned! This blogger app is so good and convenient, i guess it will become a habit again for blogging. Hmmmm.
Two years of studying in Republic poly is gona pass soon. Shall say i'm lucky to met this class for this sem. Those fun loving peeps never fail to brighten up everyone's day. Gona post some pictures of us later too! And i cant believe i went clubbing with my poly mates, its like the first time as i always go with my outside friends. And wtf is wrong with my english structure all so cui.
Alright, lets welcome our brand new 2014 and hope everything goes smoothly for this year for each and everyone of us!
Pictures:
At zouk toilet :)
At a bridge near zouk. Before partying :)
My lovely polymates/friends
I'm sharing this story, because I want the world to know how amazing you're.
When I was just a little 3 month old puppy, I joined a wonderful family and was named Chanel Ho.
I was a tiny and timid Maltese with tear stain, a baby girl who is scared of thunder and will get frightened easily when something dropped, or even when my Ah Gong sneezed loudly...
I am a little stubborn and choosy when it comes to food.. and I loved Pumpkin, Potato, Sweet potato, Carrot, Pear Pear, Apple, Papaya, Milk Milk, Xiao Man Tou and even chocolates ( For Dogs)
Daddy taught me how to shake hand and roll-over.. and i'll be given treats if i do them well!
However, on one particular day, I fell really sick, and was diagnosed with Liver Shunt (aka Portosystemic Shunt). It is a condition where an abnormal vessel allows blood to bypass the liver. As a result of this, the blood is not cleansed by liver, resulting in toxins going into the other parts of my body...
Surgery is the best treatment for the shunt, however, in Singapore, the success rate is only about 50%...
I had some clinical signs, such as abnormal behavior, pacing and aimless wondering, pressing my head against the wall, sudden blindness, poor weight gain, drooling, and at the later stage, seizures, termors and excessive sleeping and lethargy.
I was on long term lactulose to help me pass motion so that I can reduce the ammonia production and absorption in the intestines. But because of the lactulose, I had diarrhea and had to trouble my wonderful daddy and mummy, my dearest ah gong, ah ma and gucci to help me clear my "gold"...
Because of my condition, Daddy, Mummy and Gucci read up a lot about Liver Shunt and its cure... They have tried a lot of ways to help me and make me feel better... I must say they are the most wonderful people in the world and I love them so so so much....
On end July 2011, I suddenly had a relapse.. I was unconscious... Daddy and Gucci drove to Mt Pleasant @ Whitley Road immediately.. I remember the doctor telling them i may not be able to make it, but daddy and gucci make sure I have all the medical attention that I needed to save me.. I was given glucose, oxygen, drips and many other medications and was hospitalized for four days... Whenever Daddy, Mummy, Ahgong, Ahma and Gucci visit me, they will tell me I must be strong and how much they loved me... So I told myself I have to be strong and be back to tell them... I made it back home and was feeling much better...
Knowing that my condition was worsen, Daddy, Mummy and Gucci brought me to Dr Jean Paul Lye at Animal Recovery Veterinary Centre to see if they can help me...
Dr Lye is a fatherly and experience vet.. He put me on a special liver diet and some supplements to help me. However, he told Daddy, Mummy and Gucci that there is only 1 solution to my illness, which is surgery... The bad news is, the success rate is only 50%.. If it fails, I will not be able to see everyone again...
It was a tough decision. If I don't go for the surgery, I may die very soon... but if I go for the surgery, I may not be able to take the stress from the surgery and may be gone forever...
Everyone was upset and worried for me.. they wanted to help me but were facing a dilemma to whether to bring me to surgery...
My condition seemed to worsen as week passed... I started to have shivers/spasms because of the toxins in my body. Soon, I lost weight and dropped a lot of fur... I started having some red spots on my head and tail ( which could be due to my condition) and could not control my hands and leg movements...
For my 3rd birthday, Gucci decided to do 1,000 paper cranes for me. It is an ancient Japanese legend promises that anyone who folds a thousand origami cranes will be granted a wish by a crane, such as long life or recovery from illness or injury. I loved it so much and i really thank all of them who has helped to do it...
On 29 December 2011, I had struggled to open my eyes, but was ok after that...
On 30 December 2011, I started to feel not so good... Daddy decided to bring me to the vet... So Daddy and Ahgong brought me to Animal Recovery Veterinary Centre at night and the vet put me on drip to help me flush out the toxins...
Before Daddy and Ahgong left the centre to fetch mummy, Ahma and Gucci, they caress me and wave goodbye to me"...
However, on 31 December 2011 early morning, I had a seizure.. The vet quickly controlled my seizure, but soon after, my breathing stopped and left Daddy, Mummy, Ah Gong, Ahma, Gucci and everyone that loved me...
I am sorry and sad to leave them.. But they have looked after me so well for 3 years, and it is time for me to look after them now... I want them to be happy and not to worry for me... I know that they were very sad I have left them, however, they do not have to worry for me now because I am now staying in a place with lots of angels... I am also now a very healthy dog...
To My Dearest Family,
I am sorry to leave all of you.. You all have taken extremely good care of me for the past 3 years and I felt I am the most fortunate and happiest dog in the world... It's time for me to look after you all, so I have left to another palce to watch over all of you...
I will remain to be the Little Baby Chanel that you all Loved and everyone that "Wahh ! So cutee!" and I will be looking after all of you, protecting all of you and loving all of you... Trust me, I am always by your side..
Continue to stay happy and don't feel sad that you can't see me under the dining table, in between the chairs, at the main door, on your bed or anywhere in the house... for I am actually still with all of you, watching over all of you...
One day, we will meet again.. and I am sure that I will be part of this wonderful family again... Thank you for bringing me into your life and thank you for giving me all the joy and happiness these 3 years...
Love,
Chanel
Dreamt of you last night again... Little Baby..
31/12/2011 when you're gone...
ppl happily celebrating happy new year.
such a bad start for 2012.
Chanel, i misses your everything..
i miss cooking potato , making papaya, pumpkin, clear your poos and pee.
i complained last time.
this year i started to cherish you even more..
but you gave me such a shortest time to take care of you.
i misses you , when i wokeup every morning, i see you behind my bed lying there,
i miss that. i cant stop thinking about you. from 31st i knew no such things would happen again.
i knew you wont be back, waiting for me to come home, whenever you hear plastics bag sounds..
you would think its food and rush to me.
i misses your smile.. i just hope everything is a fucking dream.
a fucking dream,
im sorry for neglecting you last time, you are always alone at home.
finally sch hols im able to accompany you..
hug you tight and watch chnl 8 together.. bring u out gaigai you rmb ?
the vet says u only have 5 to 6 months to live, when im studying for O's.
i took it for fucking granted, i thought you will at least be with me till im 20 plus ?
you just fucking leave me, fucking leave us, i cant even see you the last time.
before that day, when you are hospitalised.
you cannot even stand properly,
they brought u to the vet and i thought nothing will happen. as usual...
but who knows thats the last time i see you. i touched you, i feed you, i clear ur poos.
i wanna know where are you now. Where!
God, please let her come back to my side, well i know its impossible,
reality reality reality, REALITY.
Chanel, 28/11/09 .
iloveyou ....
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Apparently its not very promising .
What a dream about you last night.
You've done something in my dream which is UNBELIEVABLE!
Gosh i can't stop thinking !
If is not that Javier wake me up !!!
my dream would've continue ! and have a happy ending...
climax not even reached yet want resolution !
agrh.
but anw ytd played bi xian again ._.
which is fking immature and dangerous.
he's in the chalet.
I've always thought there will be no single spirit in a chatlet ._.
knvm. then asked about olevels.
he said we can make it for poly!
just like how we played last year to ask for our nlevel results.
i felt .. so eased now. but he's only 10 yo.
Hesistation leads to contemplation .
let just hope we can make it for poly alright !
and one day miracle will come back.
my C will comebackkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
regretted nvr ask something personal in my life ytd night.
haa nvm its all over and gone .
time to bbq ! BYE!
if you have ever come to this blog .
Ha, will be glad (:
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Well well well..
31 cut off points for prelim might as well don't take O level.
biggest crap ever!
But I really do hope I can make it for Poly!
although there are limited courses, but I don't wish to waste this precious one year!
Just hope everything will be alright aye!
The rustling of the wind....
A sudden tinge of electricity just trickled down my spine when I saw you.
I just loved the way you laughed at me.
Especially just now when my friends told me you're laughing at me ._.
as I wasn't looking at you.
I felt like I'm chance-less already. And at the same time rejoiced.
I wanna make things change!
Change from impossible to POSSIBLE! same goes to Olevels.
Just start everything with my sweetest smile :D
it takes courage to do so.............. I mean I will ! Retarded ._.
Kha Khun Kupppp!~ :D
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B4B4B4B4B4! Freak you.
at least give a B3 for chinese and i can kiss goodbye to you already what.
why torture.
freaking merit. My distinction for oral can't seems to find his owner.
YUCKS!
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