Weeeeeeeeeelcome to UNIQLO!!!!

Its already known. I'm posting out on the 1st of Dec.

This information came too suddenly and too quick. I was just really getting used to all the nice people in Somerset and while this meant that i can wake up later, i will lose the chance to continue working will the Somerset staffs. And because of the latter,

I AM REALLY REALLY SAD.

These are the staff who i really respected and learnt a lot from, be it the PRC staffs of the filipino staffs, the singaporean staffs or the managers and supervisors, i am really starting to miss them already.

To make it worse, i'm the only MT that is posting out so early. Damned.

Maybe on the bigger picture, it is good and it bodes well on my appraisal. That's the brain talking but sadly, i'm a heart person who hangs on more to ties.

For once, i know that i brighten everyone's day when i make announcements through the PA system.They're are always so amused when i make announcements as i'll always start with a,

WEEEEEEELCOME TO UNIQLO!

Haha... Whenever they walk pass me, they'll mimic it... hahaha... but i'll always reply with a,

Enjoy it while you can... Cause i wont be here next thurs onwards......

The reactions are almost all unanimous. O.O :"WHY?!!!!!! YOU ARE POSTING OUT?! WHEN IS YOUR LAST DAY?! WHY DO THEY HAVE TO POST YOU OUT?!

With that reaction. i am contented. Knowing that i will be missed as much as i will miss them.

=|

I will miss somerset so dearly. Though i work like a slave there.

Sea of forgetfulness

I guess i haven't been to church for too long a time that i am really really starting to miss it. And also, i guess my work has been making me so tired all the time that all i want is just for some solitary time to sit and reflect about life and i guess, to hang out with my friends.

I guess its my fault that i didn't find out about the presence of an availability form that caused my sundays to go down to work. But not anymore! I hope... like seriously.... I need to go to my hiding place, my sanctuary.

Some bitching about work... I guess there's not really much to complain about except for the long hours and the shift work nature. Its in the job so well, i'll suck it up well. =) On the good note, i guess i finally learnt the entire package of shop floor duties after doing a whole day's shift of cashier duty. I must say that it is quite exciting as i has to be accurate and and smile at the same time and lastly be fast. And also, i get to make announcements. Haa..

Ok... Enough about work... I guess my life is much much better than my brother's as he seems to be going through a rough drought at his work. No biz for him so no commissions i guess. And his basic is really really low. I guess the next time i buy beverages for my parents, i'll buy for him too. =) That's the least i can do.

Walking into my brother's room just now, i hear songs of praise and worship playing and it immediately gives me a soothing feeling. Its like i walked into a tiny sanctuary where there is no need to worry about anything. Then i looked through his cabinet and saw this book that commemorates 25 years for God's love which is for his BB company's anniversary. That is a part of me that i'm losing fast in this race to grow up. I'm losing a major part of me that i recognise and am proud of and that makes me just sad.

As the songs of praise continue to play, i realised that i really miss church and there's a lot of things i wanna share to Him in His house. As i read His Words everyday on the train to work, i try to make it the quiet time i have with him as its the only time where i have totally no distractions. A totally of 30 minutes and more and i guess this is more that what i offered before besides doing preparations for DG. Oh yea.... And i haven been able to go for DG since i started work...

Just so apt, i chose this song which i played on my list,

East to West - Casting Crowns

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness 

The chains of yesterday surround me

I yearn for peace and rest

I don't want to end up where You found me

And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight

I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west

And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned

But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west

'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again

In the arms of Your mercy I find rest

'cause You know just how far the east is from the west

From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin

Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in

Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light

I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night

I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals

I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me

You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west

I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again

In the arms of Your mercy I find rest

'cause You know just how far the east is from the west

From one scarred hand to the other

One scarred hand to the other

From one scarred hand to the other 

Indeed. I guess i am drowning in this sea of forgetfulness. I almost became oblivious to why i am here, proud to say that i'm christian. I almost forgot my faith, which i clinged on to so hard to get me through so many of my rough patches in my life. I do admit that i have a blessed life. And that's why i keep forgetting from time to time and yet, i am always allowed to come back by His grace and wonders.

I am just thankful that You are always in me and that i will always be in You. Amen.

I WANT TO GO ON GRAD TRIP AGAIN!

As i started looking back at all the pictures that were taken in our grad trip, i just can't help but wish that we can do it again in the years to come.

The problem is still the same all the while.... While you're a student, you're restricted by moolah while being a working adult, time is of the essence. And this is a chronic problem as if we were gonna be planning such a awesome trip with so many people again, time coordination is O.o

I haven been to many place and thus traveling is always on my mind. I realised that somehow along the way, i became more focused on career and i guess this is something that bothers everyone. The questions that always comes to my mind are;

Is what i'm doing gonna help me achieve my final goal or at least lead me to somewhere near?

Is my choice of company right?

Is this really what i want to do?

and finally......

do i regret giving up engineering as a career? cos i believe i could do pretty well as a materials engineer too.


My brain says that i must endure. My heart? wavers a bit as there is undoubtedly adrenalin rush in going rebel and do something that you din study. However, my heart is at the same time excited at the work that i am doing now and the work with what i am going to do. Senior staffs kept asking, day in and day out on whether i'm coping well and the matter of fact is,

Yes... I'm ok.

I'm guessing that i'm just a bit anxious to get my management training.

However.... With my work, i am starting to find it a bit hard to make space for overseas trips which i would love to go on. And with that, i mean really long trips like 2 weeks or 3.... Argh... The sacrifices i needa make just makes me .................................

Nevertheless.... I am still waiting for news about the 1 week japan training trip.

Argh.... i don't like the feeling that i have no control over anything.

i need to start finding stuff to do during break times.

and find a way to pass ippt.

2 weeks into work...

With a blink of an eye, i am already 2 weeks into work already with tml, a saturday as the closing of my 2 weeks. I guess no management trainees or associates will ever do as much saikang as me. And when i say saikang, it is literally saikang.... i.e., throwing rubbish, cleaning etc.

Well i am not complaining yet. I guess i has the mentality that things were gonna be worse and maybe that really helped me a lot as i am not so affected by the unknown anymore. These baby steps that i am taking right now is definitely not just a test of persistence and determination but also a test of the mind's maturity.

One thing all the staffs and assist managers agree with us... and that is that when a person went through NS, our mindset changed. As in, we do not in general mind to get our hands down and dirty to get things down. Maybe that was why the previous MTs had such a hard time so much so that only 1 survived out of 5 hired.

This brings me to one realisation. The staffs are actually looking at us, the MTs and constantly evaluating whether we can survive the training that the company had prepared for us. How do i know this? The staffs are already asking on how are we coping and whether we find the job tedious or hard. I think i'll survive just nice. haa... That's my answer most of the time. To my comfort, they think we'll survive too and that was really an encouragement. =)

I guess the reason why we're bit tired is because we had our training really condensed. It feels like going through the company's form of OCS. Trained by the staffs, supervisors and managers, i'm gonna be an assist manager. Sort of like getting my one bar as 2LT. This thought kinda made me excited and at the same time, nervous. It is because i know how hard the managers work and i guess this is really leading by example.... My kinda thing. Love it.

Being on the shop floor for 2 weeks already, i am already quite sure of all the duties, except for cashiering which i never had a chance to try out. I'm somewhat eager to start management training soon and i know deep down that that entails reaching work earlier and leaving later. I guess that is the career path i has chosen....... Operations.

Work isn't as tiring as it used to be already. The staffs are really nice and they really treated us with patience... not that we make a lot of mistakes though... Haa... I guess having the position of a MT has its privileges too as people don't see me as a staff but rather an assist manager. I admit that i sort of savour the little bit of ego boost when the staffs start calling me assistant manager here and there when i was walking the shop floor, either mopping or running items.

"Assistant manager slacking ar..... mopping the floor...." says one of the staff......

Hahaha... I only had one reaction... O.o Hahha... I'm not a manager yet...... and i'm MOPPING!!!!!

HOWEVER. There is one thing i am still not comfortable with. Working on saturdays. I guess i have to come to terms with it and maybe i will in the months to come. Good thing i'm on opening shift tml though. Thank God... 

Career.... I understand now.... The difference between a career and a job. 

Maiden voyage

Looking at the 2 lab coats which are hanging in front of me, i can't help but be reminded of the experience i have gained in Heraeus and and the engineering life that i am about to leave behind. It is sort of a similar experience as compared to when you had to let someone important go. Some part of you is beginning to leave you while you try to procreate something new.

4 years in engineering did a great deal to me. In interviews, questions were always raised on why i didn't want to be an engineer when i spent 4 years on an engineering degree. I began to ask myself on whether i was really studying something that i didn't like. The answer?

No.

I had this german supervisor in heraeus who used to get on my nerves and he didn't really understand. Well... Sometimes, whatever you study and whatever you want to do in your future life can be totally different. I gathered that i really really liked MSE. Well.. It was tough and frankly i was regretting cause if i wanted to be in a tough course, i would have done so be joining in the Chbe gang. However, things turned out really well and i am really grateful. However, interest in academic knowledge might not give the best of job satisfaction. Somehow, i guess it is really up to me to break this tradition in my family where people stuck to the jobs which were directly related to what they studied. I broke the tradition. =)

These 2 lab coats which accompanied me through my 4 years of education and 9 months in heraeus really served as an important reminder of how proud i was to be in NUS Engineering. If i had a second choice where i already knew i was going to want to do business, i would have still joined engineering. It was my home literally.

A trip back to school for the EAS dinner was really really nostalgic. From SRC back to the guild house and the waiting for 96 late at night, so much memories are brought back in my face. I miss school. 

The situation had changed. No more am i preparing for my future. I am in the future. It is time to starting living it according to what i have and have not planned and i guess this is all i have now since i do not have much distraction too.

I pray that this decision to venture into unknown waters will bring about huge amount of treasures and i hope that this, is His plan for me.

Love

Today has been a good day. No reasons why but it just felt warm and nice today. =)

Many thoughts streamed in as i began to think about the life which i want to live, my career and what really intrigued me the most. I had always been telling myself that dreams can be wildly big and unrealistic, while plans have to be realistic. Thus, i am, not afraid to dream big and be atrocious at what i want ultimately. There is no mistake that my ambitions can be considered as naive but when we should ask ourselves one very important question at the end of the day and that is,

"Who are you ultimately accountable for for how your life turns out?"

Is the answer going to be your parents? your friends? No.. Ultimately, it will be to yourself. I try to not see myself being accountable to my parents because ultimately, it is my life and my job is to live mine to the fullest. I see me more of being responsible for their lives from now on as i guess it is time for them to take a step back and relax while i take my turn to step up and man on.

A lot has been on my mind since this job search started. At first, there was a rush for further studies and i guess i got absorbed into that too. My working friends are slowly enrolling into NUS for further studies and i guess i was a bit peer pressured to further my studies too. Not that they are asking me to join them constantly but i guess its just human to want to keep up in a sense.

After a while, i started to gain some perspective. No. I need to determine my career path first before any comes into play. This has however been a problem since a lot of opportunities that come doesn't really fit to what i might want. The job don't really need to fit exactly, but most of them fell far from expectation. This wasn't exactly helping as many a times, i just went home with disappointment knowing that i just went to some interview that i don't even want and its just a waste of my and their time. Some saving grace came though towards the end of my temp contract with heraeus as i finally got some things going for management trainee positions. They are namely;

Cogent (Which i rejected)

Uniqlo (Waiting for results after final interview)

BAT (Verbal and reasoning test tml)

A few too many people has been warning me about Uniqlo's programme as it is really really tough. I saw the training which the MTs have to go through and yes, i think it is really tough. At the same time, it is robust in its training and the management training teaches and trains MTs in all aspect of management duties like procurement, advertising and inventory control etc.

When i saw the programme, i was excited for the first time. For the first time, it was excited nervousness and not scared nervousness. Well, i guess my sight wasn't too much on what is going to happen to me in the short term but rather, what am i going to get out of the career which i can start. That said, i really really pray that i get that offer. I am actually worried that i don't get into this shit.

Besides career, what about my life? There's really so many things that i want to learn and do and there's just so little time to do everything! A proper scheduled plan must be in place. And this is really frustrating know that nothing can start if i don't get an offer! O.o *pulls hair*

To george! I have 5 year plans also! Or really really short termed ones.

5 year goals

1. Become a store manager (One who knows all there is to retail business and be confident to start a business)

2. Improve and optimise the pet shop business with all i learnt (Especially marketing)

3. Learn Korean

4. Learn Jap

5. Pick up drums (Got chun kit interested)

6. Start my investment engines going

7. Teach sign language to the youth ministry

End goal

1. Be my own boss with a thriving business

2. Be the store manager of one of my own business and have fun while at it with my grandson

3. Travelled the world

4. Build my own house on a piece of land that oversees a beautiful scenery

At the end of the day, these are motivations that keeps me going and as what george says, aim for the sky and you'll fall in the stars. I don't want to fall in the stars. I will strive for the stars. =)

Actions speaks louder than words. Its time.

On my spiritual health,

I have been lost for a while... due to many many things that really bothers me and yet i have no control off. I kinda took a break but well, i am on my way back on track. Serving as a befriender always makes me really really nervous, but i guess i had gotten my assurance today finally. Somehow. Today's praise and worship was loving and i guess my heart is softened once more.

So this is the truth, and i have the opportunity to do more. Peter has asked me to come up with a plan to teach sign language to the support singers and maybe to the ministry starting next year. I have always asked God on how am i going to served with my passion for sign language in the church since we do not have a deaf community or ministry.

I guess He answered. On top of that, He got things going on for me and had people interested.

This is going to be fun and yet, meaningful. I guess, in one shot, i am spiritually fulfilled and i am loving it. =)

Life will be awesome. Amen =)

charting new waters

Heraeus is in my comfort zone, no matter how reluctant i am to admit it. However, i do not see myself long there.

An interview coming up tml. Procurement Executive with Union Steel Holdings. Pioneer Road.

Awaiting another from an oil and gas company as a procurement specialist.

Oh well... At least i am still making money while waiting. =)

a little smile

being pushed out of the operating theatre,

grandpa asked the nurse: can i go home? (in english)

nurse: oh no no!!

mum and uncle, overjoyed by the cuteness of the dentureless old man.

Good Lord.

Savior, Please...

Savior, please take my hand

I work so hard, I live so fast

This life begins, and then it ends

And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long i'll last

I try to be so tough

But I'm just not strong enough

I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me

I try to be good enough

But I'm nothing without Your love

Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand

I fall so hard, I fade so fast

Will You begin right where I end

And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah

Everything You are to me

Is everything I'll ever need

And I am learning to believe

That I don't have to prove a thing

'Cause You're the one who's saving me

breath...

waiting is a process which comes inevitably with a requirement called patience.

in the process, sighs occurs here and there to take our breathes away.

at the end of the day, disappointment or not,

one thing that we need to do,

and its just to take another breathe.

Desensitise

A process to numb.

Baby steps. Good thing work's starting soon.

fairytales...

a story can be a nightmare or a fairytale to one.

a fairytale doesn't mean that it will end with happily ever after.

it can also mean disappearing in the form of foam and bubbles.

foam and bubbles.

Captain

In a plane or on a ship, the person in charge is the Captain. The people on board are the passengers. It is for the sake of the passengers families that the Captain carries on the responsibility of keeping the passengers from harm. No matter how great the storm is, the Captain has to overcome. This is the person who we call, Captain.

In life, the philosophy is just the the same. We start out as cadet pilots as we take the first walks of our lives. The first decision we make might be when they body of us refuels, as in, have our meals. We're ignorant of any dangers that are near, we're just cadets.

This is why we have Captains in our lives before we get promoted to being the Captain of our plane, as in, our life. They are, our parents. Step by step, we walk out of our comfort zones of our homes into the world, our first voyage. This might not be a lot, but to our Captains, their cadets have started learning to fly. =)

Slowly, we start to learn more through experience. Our mentor remains the same but more comes into play bringing us on many other journeys. As we start to take flight with these Captains, we gain more experience and these are to top up on what we had learnt from our parent Captains.

Slowly, we progress and start making decisions which are more important. We take on minor flights on our own but still, under the watchful eyes of our Captains. We make mistakes... We forget to lower the landing gear when we're about to touchdown, we might run into trouble with weather conditions, but we do not fail ultimately. It is because, our Captains who were sitting beside us all these while had been watching and correcting our mistakes before any major accidents happen.

As we start out our journey to learn to fly on our own, our myopic sight makes us think that we're the only passenger in our plane. However, we, ourselves are a Boeing ourself. Everyone linked to us, are a passenger on our plane. It is because we not only accountable to only ourselves for our actions, we of course also accountable to the Captain who is sitting beside us and also the people who are concerned for us. As we mature, the plane we fly starts to grow, as we start to know more people and the number of passenger who we are accountable to, increases.

As we still live under the roof of our Captains, we're still considered as First officers. Finally, there comes a time, where you become the Captain of your life where our Captains let us take flight fully finally. This is where you know, that you are fully responsible for people who you are about to Captain and accountable to the people who had watched you closely since your first flights and those who had entrusted their cadets on you.

Being a Captain is never an easy job. However, its all we're waiting to do isn't it. As we start to step into the world as full fledge pilots, we fly and soar with all our might and wait....... until a co-pilot comes along and then........ the cadets who comes along who can come only by the blessing of the one and only, God.

Lets get ready and begin to take flight my friends =)

God Bless,

Khengsoon

A week of deadlines, a week of submissions, a week of major relief.

Submissions due for the week.

Monday: MLE4202 paper presentation
               MLE4203 Assignment paper

Tuesday: SSA221 Essay 2

Thursday: FYP Thesis

Next Monday: MLE4202 Assignment paper

Next next Monday: FYP presentation

Finally, the end is near. An inexplicable feeling that is bubbling in my tummy and it is definitely not a pleasant feeling. After 20 odd years of education, of hating exams, this comes the time where the universe is making us let go of out life as a student.

After 6 months of work life, i finally get to know where people are telling us schoolers to treasure the times we have left in school. As much as i know that its time for us to go out and start our lives, there is a major part of me clinging on to the very fond memories that makes up the me that you are seeing now.

This is not just moving on to another phase of schooling. This is worse than what i felt when i had to leave all my pri school friends after pri 6 and move to sembawang from whampoa. This is the start of another phase of life. As much as i try to console myself, the feeling is just......... queasy...

I guess i got too comfortable. I guess i am VERY resistant to change. I am missing school already. I miss being young. Haiz...

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Its been really a long long time since kit, tim, jack and me had hung out together. The feeling was just awesome. We even had our fall out parade with kit as the DN and his dad as the DO. We actually did drill in his house. O.o

Worship and praise with these buds are well treasured. Pray that it is not always this rare that its strength 4 present 4.

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Haiz... Time to get this week over and done with.

God bless all,

Amen....

How to save a life - Grey's Anatomy Cast

Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS x4:

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Grey's Anatomy Music Event is awesome. Some weird and clueless no link singing though BUT it was awesome. Think i just love Grey's too much.

2 most iconic song of all times from Grey's: Chasing cars and How to save a life found its way back into my playlist again =D 

Somehow... This songs speaks to me... literally.

Since my mse friends won't see this, i'm already at 30/25 pages of my thesis. Generally, this would be a good thing. Cause it means i only have to cut out some nonsense. However, there is still one part of the expt which i have no idea whatsoever on how to explain the trend i see. My mentors asked me to ask Prof He instead cause she is as baffled as me.

Enough of that, i just realise that i forgot to book a slot for my 4202 paper presentation and thus leaving myself with a sucky slot. 

FML.

One more SS paper to rush too as it is due just before thesis submission. Right... Topping it off would be 4202 presentation just before it on Monday.

Guess.... I'll be in school again on Saturday. 

What am i doing all these for? the 0.03? haiz....

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My comfort has always been lunches and doing works together. NOPE. Its somehow impossible for MSE/4 undergrads as you're generally left to die ALONE.

Nevertheless, some new found relaxation activities that i've found. Recitals in YST. Percussions, chior or strings, they can all calm and slow me down from the neverending work. I swear its the Narnia of the NUS world.

TRUE STORY.

Perhaps its just me. I'm quite a sucker for music too. =) Oh... I just realised... The xylophone is one of the most AWESOME instrument EVER. I guess thats the only chance a percussionist can play melodies... 

There's gonna be an ensemble on this Saturday, 1930... Interested people tell me. =)

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I just went to see Kumar's show in the 3 monkeys yest with shimon and janis after a recital in YST. One word.

AWESOME.

I have never laughed that hard before. Gosh.... Wenhao, Eddi, Sebas... WE HAVE TO GO THERE AT LEAST ONCE! FREAKING AWESOME.

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One thing that i shared about myself in DG. Obedience. 

Have i been obedient? No. More than often in fact, i'm complacent. Maybe its just how the world is training us to be. I rely on my own strengths, i push aside quiet time and i am constantly forgetting to pray.

What fuels this obedience? Is it the chance to go to the promised land? Is it through following laws that we get to Him? The answer would be yes if He did not come. The answer would be yes if He did not come here to die for us. The answer would be yes, if He did not bring unto us the new covenant.

Faith should be what fuels our obedience. Not fear. The only thing that comes from fear is ultimately anguish. In this obedience we experience love. We feel that God is Good. In Him then we will trust because He is always right. Quiet times and prayers are not done so that we can go to heaven. We all know that. It is done because we know its His words that we're studying and Him to who we are talking to. Its because we know that He had created us from scratch and had knew us even when we were in our mother's womb. We are obedient because in Him we have our faith, that He had always loved us, when we're rebellious against Him and when we're just plain ignorant.

So now we all strive to do our best to be obedient. The effort should not be seasonal for it is more than likely to be the case. Thus, it is then the case of how far our faith will take us and how willing are we to take up the challenge to be obedient. He din't tell His followers that keeping the faith would be easy. In fact, He prepared each and everyone of them saying that each one of them might be persecuted just because they spoke and teach about His words. This journey as a Christian will be tough. No one said its going to be easy.

For me, i firmly believe that there is a verse in the Bible for everyone of us. It will speak of our convictions, our beliefs and our faith. 

I'm am excited to find out which it will be. =)

Peace be unto you,

khengsoon

Japan jiayou!

1 thing that has always been on my mind during my commuting time.... News about Japan.

There is a constant urge to find out what is happening and how is the country dealing with this calamity. 4 earthquakes with each stronger than before, it is just heart breaking to see such a great country fall into such drama. It would not have caught so much of my attention if it were a war, though i would still read about it cause of the actions but this is different.

I guess i am really inspired about the human spirit. Don't get me wrong... I still think that human can be the worst of all creatures that God had ever created. BUT, when this is concerning the survival of a race or nation, maybe the real innate spirit of man comes flowing.

50 workers of Tepco stayed behind to maintain the conditions of the cooling rods of the nuclear plant. The greatest thing that they gave to the world was not a chance to live, its their lives. I know that they are working to ensure health qualities of Japan and their neighbours but what they are exchanging for that is their own lives, or the chance to live a normal life.

Human sacrifice is the greatest gift a person can present to the others. Mind you... Its not mindless sacrifice for nothing. I just pray that God be merciful.

March training camp hike! =D

The weeks hasn't been kind to me... Papers are rushed... Midterms were lumped together... And FYP is worrying. In short, my brain is always filled with what to do next and what can be done concurrently. It is literal that i am applying operations management in my life now just to cope with the work.

The epitome of being terribly pissed and depressed came when i lost the day's result because i overwrite is with an unfilled excel sheet. ONE DAY'S WORK. I was so pissed with myself that i went to sleep at 9pm.

Ok.. enough of the emo rambling...

March training camp is HERE! As usual, i'm helping out in the hike which essentially means that i'm following one team throughout the whole thing. The experience was simply put, fulfilling. It was usual as the sec 1s were weaker and required some pushing and motivating. Nevertheless, throughout the whole hike, they never really complained. Yes, they started needing to rest whenever they see a bus stop but that was already after almost half the whole journey.

The reason why we were the 1 of the 2 team that complete was because my sec 3 plotting the MGR real quick and thus we start rather early. Due to staggering of groups and time differences, a lot of teams were really held back by a lot. I am really impressed by the sec 2s this way round as they showed really a lot of what it takes to be a leader. Not only were they motivating in words, their actions of volunteering to carry the sec 1's bags were really worth praising. They were not very big size. In fact, they were about the same height as the sec 1s. The sec 3s were less impressing but they knew what they were doing in navigation. So they were rather dependable to bring the boys from checkpoints to checkpoints.

One of the sec1 was rather amusing and motivated while the other was quite patience testing. Ok.. One of them was bigger in size and so i can see that he should be able to endure. However, his lack of fighting spirit / motivation is a constant drain of energy. However, he din't complain throughout the whole journey. He simply walked slower than the pack which requires me to push him constantly, physically and mentally. However, i knew he was really tired too, but he simply din't complain. All he said was," I'm ok." when i asked whether he was ok. 

The other was a much smaller boy. He is the entire opposite. A energy filled motivated boy who is limited by his small size. Though tired, he always smiles when i smile at him and that really motivates me to bring them all the way back to school, completing the hike. His favourite question.... "Are we near???? How long is it??? Can we rest a while after we reach the checkpoint???" Throughout the whole hike, these are the few questions i have to answer over and over again. But... Its a pleasure to tell them, "Its just 2 more km... we walk faster, we can rest more. Its very near already." Why do i say he is filled with energy? Its cause he's always the one who wants to run to the checkpoints too.

Seeing the boys enduring the hike till the endpoint, it just happens to bring back a lot of memories where i was a boy. The officers were motivating. Now, i know what was going through them brain. Its not hoping that the hike ends faster, its not lamenting that i was not on a safety vehicle, but simply,

The boys' safety and whether they learnt their navigation properly.

All in all... Though its one full day of no work done, it was an awesome day spent. I am spiritually fulfilled. =)

A song of ascents.

I lift up my eyes o the hills, where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

He would not let your foot slip, he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you, the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you all from harm, he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going, both now and forevermore.

- Psalm 121

Its the start of the annual march training camp for my BB company. The boys are already sleeping in YTSS now. As a special projects officer, here i am again! Doing my part for the company. =D

The hike starts tml from 7am to 4pm. Weather forecast - Rainy.

So everyone! Pray for favour from God so that we can have good weather and SAFETY for everyone! The boys, the primers and for the officers! =D

WHAT THE HELL!

argh... 1 day of work gone...

pure stupidity.

='(

雖然想起你心還是會揪

我不再怕 - 梁心頤

分手快一年了　頭髮剪短了

手機也換了新號碼　現在的我不太一樣

我不再怕　少了你的晚餐

少了你溫度的小毛毯　現在的我有長大　有長大

雖然想起你心還是會揪　雖然深夜並沒那麼好過

勇敢是我對自己的承諾　再想念也不能回頭

一直不敢去面對的寂寞　習慣就好也沒那麼難受

也許我該謝謝你離開我　讓我找到真正的自由

翻著我的日記　從分手的那頁

到晚上睡前寫的心情　我的筆畫慢慢堅定　

我才領悟　曾害怕的事物　像開車或對付一隻小蟲　

不知不覺變得輕鬆

雖然想起你心還是會揪　雖然深夜並沒那麼好過

勇敢是我對自己的承諾　再想念也不會回頭

一直不敢去面對的寂寞　習慣就好也沒那麼難受

其實我該謝謝你離開我　讓我找到真正的自由

雖然想起你心還是會揪　雖然深夜並沒那麼好過

勇敢是我對自己的承諾　再想念也不會回頭

當我發覺再恐慌的寂寞　現在我都能平靜的度過

才明白雖然是你離開我　是我得到真正的自由　我真正的自由

Strength toughening

Finally~ 2 midterms and 1 essay down.... 3 more papers, 1 more midterm and 1 FYP to settle. Hmmm....

True to what hong said, NUS did one thing great. It trained us well under extreme pressure. Stress is a constant thing in the life of a NUS student and well, guess we'll go into the society strength toughened. The thing is, we have to be good enough, so as not to yield and undergo necking as failure would inevitably be the end result.

Hmm... I think i had too much of polymers already. =)

Midterms was alright. I might have screwed up for my FYP prof's midterms... Haiz.... At least its over. SS paper was ok... I din't know whether i was doing the paper properly but its all over now also. Haa~

*rambles*

Something that got me a bit demoralised was the steady state status of the number of papers i had to do. Before the recess week, it was 3. After the recess week, its still 3. Yea.... Though i finished one of the SS paper, one more assignment came up from my TE. 

WHAT THE HELL...

Oh well... As if this wasn't enough, my mentor had to drop a bomb on me that 4 of the samples were blended wrongly. -.-".... Louelle... No its actually not ok... I did my job properly which was doing the experiment. She should be careful when she blended the samples. Cause 4 samples actually meant 24 runs of experiments and that usually keeps me in lab for 3 days. On top of that, this means that i had spent the last 3 days on the 4 old samples for nothing. I am very irritated. Really~ I do not have much time, i can be understanding, but there's a limit to my patience.

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The constant thing in my life. The rush against time. Steady state of workload. Reminder of a certain fact. 

Argh~

Panic attack...

Gosh... I think I might just have a little too much on my plates...

Mon: SS trip to fort canning and the National Museum.

Tues(Today): Study for MLE4203 mids..

Wed: 2 interviews... OCBC at noon and IPPFA at 1600..

Thurs: Study for MLE4203/ MLE4202

Fri: Career fair in the day, wedding logistic support at night...

Sat: Wedding logistics duty...

Sunday: church in morn... Study MLE4202...

Next Monday: MLE 4203&4202 mid terms...

Conclusion...... Looking in all ways, I'm quite dead...


Pray for me people... =(

First job interview....

Hmmm... I am greedy.. I really want a banking job... But i want a safety net to fall back in if i do not get it...

Tech Semiconductors... Procurement... I do hope i get an offer...

Like i told sebas... Being offered a job is always better than not being offered one.... Right?

So... I hope things go well... May He light my way. =)

God Bless!
Khengsoon....

Keeping myself sane.

Nope... I do not mean physical strength which i think i would need much help with in the coming IPPT. Haiz.... 2.4km... The bane of my existence. The one thing that stands in my way to a silver and even a pass.

This week has been good. Left with 2 more samples with all those that require rework done, i'm a bit pleased with myself. Time is not on my side. But who cares, if you're not with me, i'll just race faster against you.

*Rambles*

My MLE4203 paper is about done. Not sure whether what i have written is what Prof He wants but, its better to get things done and edit later rather than be rushing to get it done last minute. The topic for SS first paper is out. Guess i will use my entire recess week mugging for my numerous midterms and settling this paper. Set. Backlog of tutorials are almost cleared this week, except for MLE4203. I guess i have to start staying back in school already. 

Someone told me that next week is recess week. Caused me to panic realising my FYP is nowhere near the thesis writing stage and i have like 3 midterms? and papers to write.....

Who says MSE is not stressful? The amount of time i spend in school or in IMRE....

Who says our design project is easy? Making a window is easy? A self-cleaning window? Wait till you have to come out with the technology and the technique to make it and then do an expt on it.

Ok... This is exactly the feeling i felt last semester.

SCREWED.

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year had been a holiday which i sort of enjoy as i get to see relatives who i really rarely see. They include people who took care of me and really brought colours to my life when i was young. Its always the case where they will tell us to come visit them when we have the time but we end up only seeing them during chinese new years.

Maybe i have gotten old. Maybe i am no more nonchalant about family ties. I mean... Everyone's really ageing and this can be seen literally from every little wrinkle on everyone's faces. Who would have thought that i would have lines on my face too? As what my cute freshie pointed out, i already have laugh lines on my face... Thanks ar.. Jasmine... =)

This year is different. I am, as quoted from louelle, a quarter of a decade old already. I think... God's plan on how my life is going to be like might be getting a bit clearer now.

I have seen life on both sides. The really well-to-do side of my family, the doing-ok side and lastly, the really saddening part of my family tree.

Firstly, my paternal side....

I just realise that the Gor Bo who i have been calling are my granddad's sisters. 3 of them actually but 1 of them is in johore and thus i do not see her. Nevertheless, i think they are really doing very well as they do not have any worries which i can think of. I think their families are doing really well and i think this is why they seem really well. I guess the only thing that might bug them a bit might be the loneliness that comes with the losing of their partners who are already passed on now. Children have their own family, some aboard in US, some busy doing what they are doing and nevertheless, i guess they still get to see them often. =) So... These 2 gor bo, my granddad's sister, finally i got the relationships right... Haha.. =)

Peh gong! My granddad's elder brother. I think they're the coolest side. I mean.. They really doted on me. Hahaha... I guess the highlights of the first half of my life were mainly crafted by them. Being the nonchalant me, i never knew what they worked as. Weird right... Hahaha.. I just never asked. However, i just found out that i think besides my 小姑, all my uncles and aunties are NOT working anymore. Hmmm... Ok... I am just as stunned. I mean... Besides the mentioned, they are 3 uncles and 1 aunt... Apparently my dad says that they have no need to work anymore... They are already living comfortably and have retired since they are not married. I always knew they were doing very well, i never knew they were doing this well. I guess... I am really happy for them. They are really nice and good people, they got what they deserve... Maybe not on the "being single" part, but ya... 

Peh gong is going strong. Ever since his stroke and lost of mobility functions of the right side of his body, i think he has gotten really strong. He fractured his right thigh during a fall which caused him to have a shortened right leg, but guess what, he has the ability to walk now with a platformed shoe. His hand had gotten really strong from pushing his own wheelchair though! I tested him with a handshake. Not bad at all. =D

Here, i come to my Ar gong's branch of the tree. Well... I am really clueless on how my family is doing though. Hmmm... I have a latest and youngest cousin. His name is Colin and i am exactly 24 years older than him! Goodness. Seriously, when i see him, i am at a loss on how to play when him anymore. He is my youngest uncle's son... Oh well... I will find out how to play with him when he's around 3 years old... With the exception of my eldest uncle, my dad's siblings have all started a family and have their own places already. I think many will start to think my granddad has gotten a bit weird but i think he's gotten a bit cuter. Haha.. He bought all these 10 casettes for 1 buck in sungei road and started playing them when we were having our reunion dinner and when people visited. I thought it was hilarious as everyone was puzzled as they din't know what my granddad was doing. I think... Seeing him being so old.... Everyone just laughed it off. =)

All in all.. I think... My paternal side is indeed blessed. 

On the other extreme, my maternal side is just saddening...

1 younger sister, 2 older brothers, 2 younger brothers my mum has. I never got to know any other branches higher up in the family tree as my maternal granddad passed on even before i was born. On the contrary from my paternal side, none of my uncles and aunties on this side even had the chance to finish primary school education. My dad always said that my mother's side was really poor and without the chance and ability to study, it led to a vicious cycle of the poor being even poorer.

The 1st to 3rd uncles are all jobless. 1st uncles gets bullied all the time when he was working as dish clearer in kopitiams all because he is a bit slow. When my grandma was going to pass away, she told my 1st uncle to stop working as she cannot bear the thought of him being bullied around outside. So, he left the job and became unemployed. My 2nd uncle suffered some emotional trauma which he never recovered from. So, he just lies on bed and speaks to himself the whole day. I just found out, this chinese new year, that he might have lost his sight. So my 1st uncle is taking care of him now everyday. All these, is just too depressing for me to see.

I just found out too, that my 3rd uncle is unemployed. The worst thing is that he is married so there's 2 mouths to feed. He's got a 1 room HDB i think which he was intending to pay with instalments BUT when he declared himself as unemployed, he was demanded to pay the whole sum off instead before he can get the house. -.-" This is giving him a headache.

A tiny consolation comes when i look at my aunt's children. Ar girl and ar ting. Good that you are both doing ok. I know you read this and so i am going to say this here. Study hard! 

Coming to my youngest uncle, its one damn sian story. I just found out my youngest cousin boy is going blind too. Gosh... Luckily the sister is only wearing specs. My uncles seems to be able to make a living and provide for the family which is a really good thing. I mean, i just wonder how he does that when he is almost blind himself. Argh... This is just too depressing thinking of them.

Blindness... It would be better if they are hard of hearing, but to be blind is like missing out on almost everything. I have come to realise something. It is really hard to lose someone, but seeing them living in such conditions, its just damn saddening.

This Chinese New Year is nothing special from the others. Yet... I gained much more from this CNY. This year, i found out that its not only my family i have to take care of. I have to keep my maternal side in view too. 

Lastly, my family. =)

How do i know my relationship with my brothers are good? I know when i get up early in the morning and disturbed them so much that they wake up to bai nian. I admit i was really a nuisance but they just accepted my nonsense and played along with me... Just like old times... =) Looking at my granddad and peh gong, we just joked that i am going to be the Tua Peh Gong if we all had families. Gosh... I am so excited. =) I want to be a Peh Gong and Tua Peh Gong! Of cos... A ar gong also.. Hahahha! I guess this holiday brought us brothers closer =)

I guess i get my nonsense from my dad. How do i know this? He walked around on the first day of new year in his pants and crocodile polo shirt with his NEW crocodile belt happily. I knew he wanted to show off his new clothes and belt and so i asked," How much was the belt?"

"32 dollars!! 我是有钱人" He said happily.... i just rolled my eyes and after that, he went on bringing out a necktie asking me if he should put on the necktie with his polo shirt. As you can guess, i said,

"Wear lo.. Haha.."

So there he went putting on his necktie on his polo shirt and his belt and walked around the house parading.... I am just dumbfounded. Hahaha... I guess he was really happy to be wearing new clothes. Hahaha... Its the only time he bought new stuff though. Gosh... Somehow... Its good =) I feel happy that he is this happy. 

Lastly... My mum... She really complains a lot. She is always picking on something that she feels is wrong. Well... I think its just her. Amidst all the complaining, she's just one very compassionate woman. Quite understanding i guess? Haha... At least i got baptised with her approval. That is really something. Ok... When she's not menopausing, i think she's just funny also. And thus, my love to disturb her when i'm free or am taking a break from studying. Well... I can say something's the same between my dad and me... We just love to disturb my mum. =D

Well... Hong says that i am an elite. No... I think my family is just doing ok. I am pretty much contented with what i have. =)

Every new year is different for everyone. I pray and hope that there is one more constant thing besides change, and that is happiness and peace are with all who are just and kind. Amen.

God Bless,

Khengsoon

Fine...

Weather has been like that described in the bible.... The great flood. I guess the world needs some flushing cause its too dirty. All signs shows the coming of the day. Maybe its tomorrow... Maybe its in another decades time.

By then, i hope that i am still in Him, or should i say that i will be in Him. The bible says that the dead will be risen first. Its when body and soul reconcile again in the kingdom of God. 

Eternity is the truth, the promise of God if we believe in Him. If we follow His ways....

Many of my MSE friends were offered jobs in Tech Semiconductors on Sunday straight after interviews on Saturday. Many were offered engineering posts and Bernice got her procurement post in Tech too. This led to me thinking really hard...

"Why was i sorta jealous?" Hmmm... I guess its the fact that many dropped resumes together with me and they got the job straight away. So fast...

It is always greed that comes into play. Engineering posts is something that i might not even accept even if they want me. The thing is, there is no harm in having more offers for you to reject. I applied for procurement in Flash. I keep telling myself that it is a non engineering post in an engineering company. The thing is, is it really what i want?

What you want and what you do might not be the same thing. Its a universal fact. However, it is up to us also isn't it? Go can pave a road for us, but if we do not walk on it, He won't do anything too. As i was pondering hard on the problem of jobs, i recieved a call from OCBC for the first round of interview. I was excited.

Financial Protection Specialist. As i read the jobscope once again, it fits what i might want to do. Consulting clients on investments and financial plannings and also with insurance. This is what vincent is doing too. I mean... 

Chances to make money - Checked

Chance to not stay in office whole day - Checked

Interaction - Checked

Learn about financial planning and all - Checked

The thing is... I might want to go into emerging business partly to see how i can help with the business, either on expansion or diversifying. But no... Financial Protection Specialist is actually a good start i think.

Reasons why i want the job:

The job is about helping people help you. The nature of the job is that you help people plan for their future, even their families' and from there, when you make a sales, you get commission on top of your pay. Nice... The moolah... My principle in this. Its a win-win situation. I think its the same with all those in this trade too. Its just whether they need to meet quotas or not. I just think and hope that i do not need to meet sales target. I think i will still be very motivated to work hard though. 

Secondly. One of the most attractive thing about this job... The chance to go around. I never liked staying in offices. Air con gives me a headache at the end of the day. So ya... I rather be on the move. Ar... The great outdoors...

Thirdly, Interaction. I'm not an excessive extrovert. I do get a bit nervous meeting strangers. But ya... I really don't mind meeting and networking. Get my sorry ass around meeting people in formally and not in camps anymore. Haha.. 

Haiz.... Interview ar... First round... Means got few more rounds... I better ask vincent more... Cannot dress up and look like an idiot. At least my portfolio is almost done. =)

Reminder to self: Print unofficial transcript.

Well... 

God Bless,

Kheng Soon

What do you want to be in future?

I am guessing that its time to answer this question.Yearly, i have been answering this question with "i have no idea yet, am keeping my options open.." However, its time that i really make a decision instead of procrastinating.

In today's channel 8 prime time news, they deemed the career fair in NUS today the biggest one of the year creating about 6000 jobs available. Well... I was having a headache and was half unconscious in bed... But i definitely heard the "biggest" part.

The career fair was not fantastic yet not disappointing as well. No... I do not mean that on the organisation aspect. I meant it in a way on how the jobs available attracted me. Yup... I did not have the "woah i'm so totally gonna do this" feeling. However, i did find jobs which i may/may not be interested in.

In the end, i went for mostly executive and management programmes of various companies like SGH and even SMRT. I gave my resume to Micron too but my choice was in procurement. The funny thing was, when i gave my resume and applied, the HR lady looked at my resume and said," You are actually very suited for an engineering post especially when you are majoring in materials, do you have engineering post in mind?"

I simply went," er..... no? Hahaha... "

Hmmm... Do i really dislike what i am studying now? The answer is no... Actually i am quite ok and interested with MSE as i did chose a specialisation which i am interested in. Polymeric and Biomaterials. Luckily, i did went for a specialisation which was supposed to be hotter in the market which is Nanotech. Why don't i want to do an engineering job? It is simply because most of the engineering jobs i see are related to semiconductors and the wafer fabrication industry. I simply HATED that part of my course.

Why not an engineering job? Its because of my 6 months experience in my intern company. Maybe its because it is an MNC... I just hated it and i can't stand the feeling of sitting in the office or standing in the lab whole day. No.... Long exposure to air con gives me a headache.. Don't get me wrong too. The engineers in my intern company were really really nice people. I had fun with them. There isn't backstabbing or anything. I just din't like the culture of working though it made me learn a lot.

Ok... In short.. I am actually quite excited. If i have the chance to step into the banking arena, i'll need lotsa prayers, i'll be super nervous, but its the good kind of excitement. =)

So... What will i be? I have no idea still. One things of sure... Follow Him and i will know.

God Bless,

Kheng Soon

p.s. i need to STOP having headaches!

Fishers of men...

"Come. Follow me," Jesus said. "I will make you fishers of people."

Matthew 4:19 (NIRV)

Today was a wonderful youth service joined with brothers and sisters from the LCS (Lutheran Church of Singapore) youth leader's retreat. They all came in red, apparently their camp tee shirt and it really looked like the red shirt army in thailand.. Hahah... 40 of them was really a crowd and it filled our Luther Hall to its maximum capacity. It has been so long since the youth service had been so packed as some of the young adults went over to the adult ministry already. Well... I am still in the youth ministry! =D

Finally... I understand why we had to build an auditorium on our rooftop to house the youth service already. Our Luther Hall wasn't big enough anymore for our expanding ministry. Well.... It isn't something bad at all isn't it? It means that our outreach programme is working just fine... =)

Bishop Kee gave the sermon today. The title? 

The calling from God.

A simple story with a simple gist. If you are sure that you feel the calling from God to serve and that providing for a living is a problem, have no worries, go ahead and serve God and the church will look after your family. 

As what Barney from HIMYM would say, True Story.

However, be sure that the calling is real, not just a moment of folly such that the moment you enter the bible college, you start to question why you are there. God chose you for something, God will provide. Official stats of christian counts in China recently came up to the number of 23 million! I was like O.O!!! Amazing...

I thought WYD for the Catholics was damn cool la... Seeing catholics from North Korea and Japan and even Russia...

Now... I think the Lutheran Church is just as awesome la! Many stories are about how pastors persevered while being ousted from states because of their evangelistic activities. These growth of little churches around the world touches our hearts. However, there are many instances too! Where churches were built with over 23 million bucks and were given to the pastors for their work. It can even be bigger than the temple of Confucius in his very own hometown! Mega Awesome. =D

Today's service was service of good hope. If its God's will, He provides. And sometimes, its even more than enough.... His wedding was one of the story. Haha... It is indeed a blessing to hear him speak today...  

Jack came for DG today. Good. Awesome... Half my prayer last week came true... As boon chun said, that is 50% cause the other was Timothy. He has his own DG though so its ok... Jack came.... =D Anchors has too many inactive members.... Its time to do something. =)

God Bless,

Khengsoon =)

dum dum dumm.... dumb...

Virtually just stared at all my references for my assignment paper for the whole day... Haiz.... Too dumb am i..... =(

The wind blows and the tree starts to sway...

After hearing much, after seeing much, i look at myself and ask..... What's different? What gives me the ability to advice others on what they can do? In fact.... I do not have answers... I am no better myself.

Many things do happen. Some expected, and some somewhat out of the blue. Many a times we understand the cause and effect of situations that had taken place and sometimes, we are just left buffered. Even with the application of the golden rule, question marks still fills our brains.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Cor 13 : 4-7

Love comes easily.... Or do they? Searching our hearts, we should ask one question. Do we really love or it is only an proclaiming that we do based on some infatuation? Can we continue to show love to each other even though you know that it is not going to be reciprocated? Is things going to turn bitter when things do not go your way? If your answer is yes, i think, to put it bluntly,

You have NOT loved.

Of course... Things are easier said than done. The feeling is nothing short of depressing. Yes. However, if you truly loved, won't you continue to love as per normal like before you have been rejected? Won't it hurt more to stop loving? Well... I really think its harder to just stop loving. It really is...

This is however a bit different. You stop expecting a reply. You unload the burden which you left on the other person and let him or her go free. You do not change anything else though. You continue to care for the other person, you walk behind her to watch out for her, you smile when she smiles.

No one said that love is a journey that is going to be all sweet and easy. Same as life, love comes with ups and downs. The more downs you encounter, the more you cherish the ups. Every moment should be cherished. Every memory that you have, you keep. Wrongs, you learn from them but do not keep records. After a sleep, clean slates should be restored. After all, you loved that person, right?

This world is full of temptations. They sway your decision. They sweep you off your feet when you are not careful. So people, as you love, guard your hearts and remember your position. Have a brother in arms remind you too. We're all in the same fox hole. We'll look out for each other. Keep each other strong. A small wind cause a small waver that causes virtually no problem for the roots. A simple harmonic motion of wavering, cause a whole different deal of damage. The wind, topples even the strongest of buildings. Nevertheless, remaining as per normal is always best =D There is no need to build up fortifications. It only causes more hurt with all the wire fences.

Now that i have come to this. He is the greatest lover, isn't He? Experiencing the greatest amount of rejection, He continues to be faithful to us. He continues to walk behind us waiting for us to one day, turn around and give Him a hug. He wasn't only rejected by a girl, He is being rejected by His children constantly and i think it is the absolutely worse thing that can happen to someone. Thank goodness, He is no someone, He is God.

No matter what. We have the greatest role model in front of us. Emulate Him.... We'll do well.

I'm sure we will. =)

God Bless,

Khengsoon =)

New phone... New casing! =D

whee! With my iphone 4 in my hands, my day is made already =) Finally, i have data plan and that i am holding a virtually no lag iphone again. Woah... =D On top of it, i am paying lesser for my plan now compared to my itwo value plan. Although i am not paying for it myself, its always a good thought that i am saving about 6 bucks per month for my mum. =D

Early Birthday presents: From myself (Iphone) + Louelle (Iphone case)

I have always been buying myself presents with money i have set aside. =) Guess this is what guys do right, Ben? =D This year, i have a new phone! and data plan! =D

So.... I was supposed to meet louelle for lunch in school after getting my phone. To my surprise, i have a present waiting for me!!! Haahaa... Just what i need at the right time at the right place. =DD

THANK YOU LOUELLE! =D HAHAHA! I REALLY THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA SHOP FOR MY CASING... HAHAHA...

My iphone casing! =D

Ok... Seriously... My day was made. =D I am beri beri happy today... Hahaha!