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gave tuition to my little niece today.
somehow, it gave me a sense of satisfaction.
taught her science, went thru' her assessment books and all.
i realised that tutoring kids is also not easy.
because you need to get their attention, give them break to let them feel refreshed again and most importantly, to impart the best you can to them.

headed to my gramps place after that for dinner and visited them since it's my grandma's birthday.
went the longer way back home with the songs playing in the car.
it would have been better, if you did not vent your anger that night.


i really want and need a getaway soon.


sometimes, it's just so hard to pen down your thoughts, isn't it?
there are many things that i want to let you know, that i want to pen it down but it hurts to recall the past though they were happy times.
i just want to seek a closure.

a whole day out.

headed down to suntec after lunch with jiawen to find the shop that we are planning to work for.
retail therapy and that girl really spent a bomb lah!
lots of walking and my legs were really giving way at the end in addition to the akready bad flu.
but thankfully, we ended the day at holland village, ate and drink at essential brews followed by cold rock ice-cream that made me happy despite what happened the night before. (:




thanks girl for making me feel better!! (:

the quietness at night gives me peace.
it gives me the right mood to reflect, to think and just to relax and read.
that's why i enjoy being up at night, just like most of us.
when i cant sleep, i surf around, read a book or just chat with friends until i feel tired.

well, honestly i think last night was one of my worst nights so far.
that i go to bed in pain, both emotionally and physically.

just wanna tell you how i feel,

i know that you are concerned.
that you are afraid that i have not enough sleep and might fall sick.
yes, i see that point.
but why cant we just communicate without violence?
why cant you listen to my explaination?
plus it was not very late at that time.

i was thinking thru about that after what happened.
i wondered if telling you or sharing everything to you was actually good.
i thought that being honest or being open about everything is good.
but i realised, perhaps if i didnt tell you that i was talking to my friend til 3 plus the other night, you wouldnt have nagged me to go to bed earlier coz you wouldn't have known.
and it is not every night that i go to bed that late.
instead, i've been going to bed earlier than before.
maybe it's coz you are in bed much earlier, to you it's really very late.
the thing is, even if i go to bed early, i cant sleep.
i dont know how to make you understand what i mean and im tired of explaining coz i know if i were to tell you, it's just gonna make matters worse so i decided to keep quiet.
but im really not happy.
do you rather i lie to you?
like going to bed very early like you want but im actually not sleeping coz i cant sleep.
i dont want to lie.

i know you care and i understand.
i will sleep early but i cant sleep that early like you want me to.
and i hope you understand my point.

a bruised ear and a broken heart. =((((


dear Lord, I have always been able to forgive.
I pray Lord that You grant me a forgiving heart this time and that You will heal my ear as well as the pain in my heart.
I feel hurt, O Lord and I pray that You will take away this pain and make me happy again.
I pray all these in Jesus's most precious name, amen! (:

saw this picture and i found it nice!

had a chat with one of my laopengyous today.
relationship/love was the topic and somehow i see some light or rather sometimes, it is only after you lost the relationship or when you take time to view the whole picture, the whole situation.

guys and girls are indeed very different.
it's a matter of how we learn to adapt to each other.
yesterday, i was placed in the perspective of guys, i found myself being in guys' shoes.
as i mentioned, i went to watch my bro's soccer match yesterday.
along the way, we picked up one of his friends.
this friend had just quarrelled with his girlfriend as she was unhappy that he was going to play soccer and he was just complaining to my bro.
at that moment, i realised how it is when you are on the guys' side.
and being a girl, i saw myself being on the pivot of a see-saw.
all of a sudden, i seemed to be able to balance both perspectives.

i was just thinking at that time,
if im in such a situation again, i would have handled it a different way.
but looking back and sigh/regret is not going to do any help.
i shall learn to look ahead and not repeat this. ((:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, MUMMY and to all the mummys out there! (:



sms his mum this morning to wish her.
as i read her reply, i could feel those droplets rolling down.
in that msg, she said that she was touched that i remembered her and told me once again how she still treats me like her daughter and that i could still call her anytime.
i cant help but feel sad coz i really miss the family and him. =((

went for earlier service this morning.

leap years.

rented some vcds/dvds to watch earlier on and i watched the leap years.
found it rather touching and interesting how the storyline was put into place.


something that the show mentioned.
'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." -Alfred Lord Tennyson

hoping that i can really believe in that.
it's really hard.