Life is a beautiful thing!!!

You know i usually use this as my escape. I use this to vent my frustrations. But not this time! I think its time for a little ray of sunshine in a world of clouds. I have a lot in my life that i could really choose to be upset about and sometimes i do choose to be upset about them but today i just remembered how beautiful life REALLY is!! We all have moments of darkness or moments that we just want to give up and not try any more but that is NOT what life is about! The Lord sent us to this earth to learn and grow. I am personally of the opinion that everything in your life happens for a reason. Sometimes i really struggle to remember it because life gets hard but its so true. Everything that has happened in my life so far has shaped me into who i am today and im SO grateful for it all. It is so amazing to me how everyone's lives just fit so cohesively together that we influence each other just at the right time in your life. Being the music nerd that i am relate almost everything to a song.... In Wicked the song "For Good" says it perfectly! It says " I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason bringing something we must learn and we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return. The Lord is truly so amazing to me!!! that alone testifies to me that he knows all!!! Im so constantly grateful for the AMAZING people that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with throughout my ENTIRE life!!! You know who you are!! (even though like 3 of you read this) So i guess i just want to say that Life is so beautiful and we are so blessed!!! I am so blessed!!! so much more then i ever deserve!!

Who knows what could happen!

So lately the stress of becoming an adult is kinda getting to me. I dont even know why... like its probably not nearly the big deal that I'm turning it into but none the less it has put a definite damper on my mood. So Thursday night I had a bit of time to myself (some of my favorite times) and i was feeling especially frustrated. I decided to go running and get some of my energy out, give myself to blast my music and think. To make a long story short I came back, read some talks and scriptures and decided to take a shower and just go to bed. One of my favorite places to pray when i REALLY need to is the shower...i can really focus there and no one can really walk in on you....so i prayed about the situation and when i was done praying i just got this feeling that I should go to Europe. I prayed about what direction I should be taking my life, the things i need to be doing and how i can become better and that is the answer i got. And what really makes me nervous is that one of the talks i read was all about how when you recieve a revelation you need to listen to it. Even if you are scared the Lord will provide a way for you to accomplish it if you take the action. So i guess im gonna try to go to Europe!!!!! I am SO SO SO excited you would not believe!!! at the same time i kinda stress about paying for it. If i did do it i would probably have to take a lighter load of credits and get a job next semester.... Which would most likely put my student teaching back a semester. which isnt even really a bad thing! Im curious to see how its all gonna work and if i even actually go...but thats the plan for now!!! :) For now im just gonna apply and hopefully i get into the program to go!!! We shall see!!!!