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Wednesday, February 1, 2012, 1:57 AM
if you are reading this which is you will read my shit cos i fucking dont knowhow to privatise this damn blog of mine.
when i already know no one will read this shit.
so count yourself lucky piece of shit cos youre kinda reading invading my privacy.
but i fingers cross no one gonna read this.
im smoking and im blasting this too late to cry, the beat is giving me this mixed feeling of everything.
im a mess deep inside. and thats the main reason why im blogging again.
not that im lacking any friend to bullshit with but nahhh im just so confusing at times.
i dont understand myself really.
one moment im happy and the next i feel im at my lowest pit hole.
i have a beautiful complete family, a boyfriend who loves me with all his heart,
a bestfriend who constantly misses me and tons of countless good people who care.
but sometimes im just a fucking loner.
i feel the comfort of being alone.
and im an owl who suffers from damn insomnia.
i think im suffering from anorexia too. i feel im fat. trust me im that crazy and weird.
i feel insecure deep shit.
told ya im bullshitting.
theres a part of me that is still trapped in the past.
im scared of getting hurt.
im just confused deep inside. and i crap alot.
Labels: i wont lie anymore.
1:27 AM
i am starting a clean slate over here.i dont think theres gonna be anyone keeping track of the things im shooting.
so imma shit.
whatever it is i dont know how long and sincere im gonna be in this,
im always sucha sucker for diaries blogs journals blah yada yada.
they never stayed for real.
but suddenly i miss blogging in my own world.
cos i tend to miss doing things i used to do.
im gonna rant in here count my contentment, list down my blessings,
keep the goals on track.
for now, im at this bless mode.
this amazing man in my life he completes me in total right mind.
Bobby Safranski.
how he just simply dumps me beautiful words every single day.
poems that make me smile and feel them straight from his heart.
with him, i just love being me.
cos i cant hide as much as i ever want to in life.
he is simply amazing and im real blessed to be loved by this man.
love, you may not get to read this.
not now. but i will plonk your poems that youve shared with me.
and i thank god ive found you.
you dont know how impactful you are in my life.
you keep things real and we will make it real.
*i wanna privatise this blog.
sue! youre the luckiest girl on earth.
so when the rivers run dry
and the water dont flow
and the music dont play
id still be there loving you.
Labels: you are the light of my life.