你都不是我，你怎么知道我在想什么?

Gratitude.Obligation.Guilt.Moral.Accountability.Sympathetic.Dream

//Keepin sane.

Black Thursday

I ve only heard of black Friday but yesterday was black Thursday.

A lot of shit happened within e day n a lot of ppl were upset. Knowin wat happened didnt make me feel very good either. Wat i can say is, dun do things irrationally coz it will only make u regret in time to come.

Be brave to face e problems. I mean wat else can u do besides solvin e problems rather than escapin? Tis is life, dun even blame anyone except urself. Nuff said.
I was watchin tis drama n e stupid guy was scammed into marryin his biological sister, got her pregnant n attempted to kill his own father. Wat happened next?

His wife also his biological sister, ran over to take e blow for e father so e stupid guy injured her instead n e drama ended. Super duper drama... aint life like sum drama too? Tell me abt it.

//Pls let Friday be better.

What Sex Is Your Brain?

Took tis test n e result was......

like wtf man................ ? Ders no conclusion.

Kelong Ley-long, Here I Come

Sum kind soul asked me along to tis Kelong getaway. I agreed e moment e question was popped coz i ve always wanted to experience stayin on a kelong, live w/o gadgets, entertainment n away fr everything else for a few days. And, when e nite falls, e scenary will be breath-takin. Wonder if i ll go bonkus when e time comes.

Spendin money is a good form of therapy, it buys u momentary happiness. List dat has been cfm includes:

1. Wallet
2. Shoes
3. HK trip
4. Kelong trip
5. Sydney trip
   

Probably, a new lappy, camera n ipod too. I realised when one is down, u tend to blog more often. These words need to be heard sumwhere out der, im a gd example.

Money is not everything, Love is not everything, Career is not everything, Health is not everything but Happiness is everything. If i can be happy for another 10yrs, i ll die as a happy soul -BAH-

//15 more days to go.

Marcos Hernandez - The Way I Do

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that i was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now i can't go on without you
I'm naked, i can't fake it
And i'm not that strong without you
Never thought i could love you the way i do
Way i do...

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in.
Don't rush tonight, i need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that i was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now i can't go on without you
I'm naked, i can't fake it
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought i could love you the way i do

I always thought i would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you've done

Now i can't go on without you
I'm naked, i can't fake it.
Now i'm not that strong without you
Never thought i could love you the way i do.

Never thought i could love you
Never thought i could need you
Never thought i could want you, baby
the way i do

Never thought i could love you

Never thought i could need you

Never thought i could want you, baby

the way i do

I love you
I need you
I want you
the way i do

I love you

I need you

I want you

the way i do

//Heres e song title, singer n lyrics to e prev entry.

Im TOTALLY addicted to tis song (all thks to Marian).. lemme serenade to u?

I Am In Love With This Song

//Cldnt find e original MV so heres one i chose amongst e rest. Its abstracted fr "One Tree Hill".

Random Thoughts

2008 hasnt been a great yr for me, i cant help but to wonder if its coz i visited e hospital within e same mth twice last yr dat causes it (heard its not too auspicious or sumthing?). I ve nv been very superstitious but when these things happ, i juz cant help but to wonder why. Anyways, im juz damn glad dat half e yr is almost gone.

Ironically, i was at e hospital last nite to visit my granny. Dad admitted her coz she din look good n yea, shes diagnosed wif sum heart-failure, mild one lar. Granny was stayin wif my uncle n his family yet no one did anything abt it. Tell me wats e point of havin so many children when her son-in-law is always e one doin these things. I asked dad:" Did they say anything?" Dad said:" They said Thank You." At dat moment, i cld only feel e vengeance in me but i did not go on. Lookin at granny juz makes me wonder abt life more. Shes 80, has kids who bear grudges against her n a husband who hits her. Her body n legs r swollen coz of her many illnesses n doc said if she was admitted later, she mite even haf a stroke.

Tis is life, ders barely anything u can do when ure old n poor. I really cant bear to see anyone dear to me gg thr all these so its best to die young since we ll die anyway. I think granny was really happy to see us coz she cld smile n questioned mum why she din visit her durin e past 2days ha

On another occasion, i was watchin e ch8 fund risin show wif a close fren on Sunday. Those celebs had to put on a pathetic look on their face n kept urgin ppl to donate generously. Sum were even smilin happily durin e show as if they were havin fun n e audiences, most of e women were wipin away. CMI... haiyah, i din wanna watch it but i dun call e shots.

My fren made a comment... she said, why isnt der a natural disaster in SG? Der shud be one so dat all e bad ppl will die n we ll learn to appreciate ppl ard us n treasure things. S'poreans haf it too good + easy n she hopes for an earthquake! ha I absolutely agree wat she said. We dun get to choose e life we r born wif but we get to choose e life we wanna lead after we r born.

Read Tis. Seems like my fren's wish mite come true? When is tis world gonna end?

//Was tryin to capture a lizard on e windscreen while drivin, dun think i got it.

Lost In Transition

"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known..

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

//Life only comes around once, make sure u spend it with the right person.

Mac-nor-neh

//Motion pics taken sum time ago

Sumbody was complainin dat she had to travel 40km to e venue.

Oh boy, dats e price to pay for movin so far away fr us but we had a good chat, supper + stroll n at least, u werent left wif 5hrs of slp when we left. I almost died at work lor.

Besides, u took a few nice pics wif e trees too, rem?

So, it was worth it -hiakz-

//G

人不为己, 天诛地灭

"Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me...

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say...."

//To each his own

Selfless does not exist; stupidity does.

CW & Lou s' Big Day

//Bridal car & e driver

//Pickin e bride on behalf of e groom?

//Drivin e beautiful babes to church. I agreed wif Lou, i think those passerby prob tht i was e groom & those paparazzi, they were scary -dang-

//Group pic of e relatives (not e entire kampong & village were present)

//My 猪朋狗友

3

2

1

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(dun blink)

//Ha spastical in action is our forte

//Swapped e car after churchin to da banquet

//@ Hyatt

//Groom & i

//Bride & i

//Bridesmaid & i (e other 1 was nowhere to be found)

//猪朋狗友 n i (lousy pic taken by sum stranger -booh-)

//Tis ones better coz i took it :D

//Nice n decent; so abnormal

//Yup, tis is more like it ha!

...wan more? Click on Flickr on e top right hand corner.

What Now?

Im not happy, i cant smile at wats happenin... am not proud either.

Put your head on my shoulder

Hold me in your arms, baby

Squeeze me oh so tight

Show me that you love me too

Put your lips next to mine, dear

Won't you kiss me once, baby

Just a kiss goodnight, maybe

You and I will fall in love

Some people say that love's a game

A game you just can't win

If there's a way

I'll find it someday

And then this fool will rush in

Put your head on my shoulder

Whisper in my ear, baby

Words I want to hear, tell me

Tell me that you love me too

Some people say that love's a game

A game you just can't win

If there's a way

I'll find it someday

And then this fool will rush in

Put your head on my shoulder

Whisper in my ear, baby

Words I want to hear, tell me

Put your head on....my...shoulder

//I've always love tis oldie.

Playin: Michael Buble - Put your head on my shoulder.

STRANGE Is The Word

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z....... these alphabets mean nothin, its juz a string of alphabets. Only when u mix n match them together to form a word to convey a msg den it brings out a meanin.

My name, its so strange whenever i see or hear my name: YVONNE MOK.

These 2 words gimme a strange feelin dat i cant explain, but to feel like a stranger to myself. Sumthing is amiss, i need n i wan it back in my life.

.

.

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//Hello Stranger.

I Blog

I ve been bloggin practically almost everyday...

to show dat im still alive n kickin

to let my frustrations/emotions out

to let ppl koe wats gg on in my life

to simply rant

to collect my thots

to keep my blog up-to-date

to kill time.

//Wats gonna happ if i stop?

It has been a tirin week coz i havent been gettin enuf slp.

Tonite, its gonna be another long nite plus early morn tomm n i havent even finished runnin sum errands.

Anyways, im quite concerned how my room will turn out for e Hen's Party, prob like a gamblin den? ha And when ppl of diff habits gather together... dat ll be interestin. Shud be fine lar since its an once in a blue moon occasion. Ppl who koe wat a neat freak i am shud koe wat im tokin abt. 知我莫问.

*PS: Im sorry Annabelle, im a disturbin neighbour.

I can offer u a fag in return -winkz-

//Countin down to exactly 3 more wks; i hate havin to wait -BAH-

Everyone wans out of tis pathetic dot.

Bow To The Champion of English & European Football

Its gonna be a long entry so bear wif me.
Went to bed at 1am n woke up 1.5hrs later to catch e final of Champions League match between Man U & Chelsea (in Moscow). Abt 3wks ago, Man U beat Chelsea in English Football to clinch e title so i supp it will be a gd match hence, sacrificed my beauty slp.

Man U started off rather well n scored within 30mins. Shortly after, i heard sumone knockin on my room door. Guess who? It was dad, he came to join me coz he cldnt enjoy watchin in his rm or e livin rm. I supp he heard e commotion comin out fr my room after Man U scored, dats when he knew i was watchin too. I watched on my bed while he took over CoCo's cushion coz e air-con was too cold heh

Chelsea managed to equalise before half-time n players fr both sides got frustrated to a certain degree such dat they started playin foul. 1 Chelsea player got sent off n 3 Man U players ended up wif a bloodied nose n head. The players fought real hard as if they were fightin a war, quite absurd lar. Im beginnin to detest Chelsea players.. they r dark, ugly, big build but like air in e head only, ungroomed, hairy everywhere n a bunch of whiners. I cant stand their oily hair too. Eeeeks.. Peter Cech (Chelsea's goalie) wore an orange jersey, he looked like a walkin orange on e pitch n Michael Ballack shud learn to walk wif his legs close coz he walks like a gorilla, its unsightly.

Okie anyways, e match went on to extra time n penalty shoot out. Of all ppl, Cristiano Ronaldo's penalty was saved coz dat sissy hesitated to kick! Blardy hell.... his mistake caused every Man U supporters to bite their nails at dat moment. I think lady luck was wif Man U coz Chelsea was leadin 4-3 in penalty, suay suay John Terry of all ppl, Chelsea's Captain, kicked e ball out of e goal post n Nicholas Anelka's shot was saved! HA! I almost laff my head off, er you er bao. Go cry ur heart out.

After e last shot was saved by Van Der Sar (Man U's goalie), dad came to hug me like WHOOOA... i even asked him, win already meh? I dun think he hugged me dat tight when i was flyin to UK alone -twitch lip- Oh well, i kinda knew who ll win e trophy after Chelsea's successive misses. Too bad too bad too bad.

E trophy ceremony went on, saw e Chelsea lads got emotional n cried. All in all, e entire match ended at 530am. 2more hrs n i gotta be up for work already, i rem tossin on e bed quite awhile before i fell aslp coz my heart was still beatin veh fast -__-!!!

//Bloodied Scholes

//Hargreaves was da man!

//Wat a fantastic season for e lads

1 more silverware added to e Manchester United Museum

Its UEFA CHAMPIONS LEAGUE we r tokin abt -nice-

I Will Be A Changed Man

I ve heard e best n worst, dats enuf.

My patience has run out.

Words r cheap, wan sum?

Sumone asked me: when is tis world comin to an end?

-At e rate e ice in North Pole is meltin, i hope it wont take long.

Sumone said to me: u haf e same life line as me, our lives will get better.

-Hmm, my life isnt dat bad now.

Sumone told me: we ll live till 80.

-Geez, can i not? Its toooo long.. damn.

Im super irritated today, think i woke up on e wrong side of e bed.

Gwen.. can i steal ur fav phrase?
After 16th June, Keddy will be a changed man.

Anyways, went to a new hang out plc wif two unexpected ppl.

I ve nv been der but e plc looks gd man.. dark n cosy, juz e way i like it. I ll prob patronise e plc more freq rather than e same old borin plces.

One of them sudd asked where haf i been these yrs? It caught me by surprise n i was dumb-founded. I can only laffed at e way she said it coz it was kinda funny. Oh well, she isnt e first to ask me dat. I rem Aud askin me e same que when we bumped into her at Play.

Arghh, i hate tis.. it feels so pathetic, it makes me feel bad -BAH-

"I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change...."

BACK OFF!

I hate it when sum ppl poke their nose into my life. Look, under certain circumstances we are acquainted but dat DOES NOT mean u haf every rite to koe abt my personal life or anything else. I din even haf a choice to be acquainted to u in e first plc, shit juz happened.

Its rude to even ask alrite. I hope my frens respect my privacy n stop tellin tales to ppl whom i detest. If ure fuckin nosey, come to me else, mind ur own business.

Kellylicious

//Latest cantonese album '08 (LISTEN)

Indeed! Look at dat, shes yummy. She has been my goddess for more than a decade. Its an open secret. I din catch her here in March n im still very very very sore over it. I blame everyone who knew but nv inform me! Wat were u doin, Keddy? (SHITO)

But i will be seein her soon, am countin down... :D

Sushi In Da Making

I was sorta dragged out of bed coz i havent even slept enuf but NN & KK were on e way to pick me so i had to jump up fr my nest n rush off to prepare. Bathed n swallowed my lunch n they were at e carpark already! Dat explained why all e pics i took looked like cork. I was really tired, wat did i do e prev day man. Anyways anyways, its all worth it.

Its surprisin coz i always tht makin sushi is rather complex besides, e ingredients n steps were so simple but it turned out quite well. Eh dun play play, i koe how to make an authentic sushi now!

Not forgettin e 2 imps wif us. E younger one is sucha princess... she was cryin when KK picked her up till we brg her to e supermarket n bgt her sum snacks. Its actually quite tirin to baby-talk, it makes my jaw tired seriously.

At e end of e day, Man Man not scared ordy. She juz walked n slumped onto my lap when we took dat pic hah

Check it out:

//I was da monster scarin em

Listen To Her

//I like her coz shes also called 诗曼 :D

Sweet Nothings

I ve said n done many things
all i can do now is to wait for time to pass... time is all i need n time will prove everything
i will learn to live my life over again coz i dunno wat ll happen

I feel i ve lost too much n i cant afford to lose more
im sure its nv too late to realise
its nv too late to wake up fr ur mistakes n correct em before e situations get out of hand

E situation im in is not in favour of me
its always ez to say but given a chance, i wanna let my actions do e tokin.

"Running in circles, coming in tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start....."

"Made of Honor" was good.

//I guess u nv realised certain things till ure abt to lose it forever.

To Wendy: I live by our sch motto 礼, 义, 廉, 耻, 忠 孝, 仁, 爱 ;D

Infinity Whys

Why humans cant be simpler?

//I hate it when i put my stakes on e wrong ppl. Worst, they are e closest ard me.

Mixed Feeling(s)

I ve got an urge

e urge is to slit myself

n see e blood oozin out slowly

i wonder how much blood i ll lose

n how long it ll take to stop bleedin.

I feel like gg on a spree

n spend all my money

n gamble away everything i haf

n dump my savins into e drain.

I wanna jump into e ocean

n swim as fast n far as i can hold my breath

i wanna leave tis plc for gd

fr everything, everybody n tis country.

So Jenny huh?

//Read.

Keddy doesnt like it when she feels frustrated
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels sick n tired
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels lost
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels irritated
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels confused
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels hopeless
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels uncertain
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels disturbed

Keddy doesnt like it when she feels insecure
Keddy doesnt like it when she feels her life is in a mess.

U dun really reap wat u sow, its an illusion. FUCK.

//Will u catch me if i fall?

Muse - Time Is Running Out

Silent Is The New Loud

He says: why does my heart feel funny?

It makes me very uneasy n its painful.

I wanna cry but im unable to.

Can i not slp at hme tonite?

I will be back tomorrow.

Wedding Bells Are Ringing

//Sacred heart

E day is ALMOST here after postponin it several times. MudMud is gettin hitched on 24th May'08! I rem gg thr sum of e preparations wif her den, fr searchin for hotel till takin bridal photos.

Kinda excited abt it coz der r a couple of things i need to prepare too. A perfect time for me to hiao? Shes like my closest fren since Primary 2 or 3? Its a blessin to haf a fren whom i haf known so long n remains so close. I rem suanin her like shit when we were in primary school but i must say she puts up wif my nonsense very well haha dats y e suanin continues thr secondary school n tertiary school n its still gg strong till now.

She sent me a few files to catch a glimpse of e day so im kinda lookin forward to it. Thanks for lettin me be ur driver instead of ur bridesmaid (Like DUH! Wat do u think my choice will be?) N dun sia suay me by askin me to make a speech hor? Dun u dare sabo me on dat day else, i ll make u sing n dance along to dat "Nipples, Elbows, Knees n Toes" song! HAHAHA

Yah, i juz wanna haf fun n be merry lar. I wished i cld find a partner to go wif me but i ll haf my best-est pals wif me n probably botherin me too kekeke Guys guys! Im also lookin forward to our own HEN'S PARTY @ my hse on da eve -winkz-

//fugly (she was e 1 who sent me tis pic)

Dedicated To Moi Boss

She has been supportive all these while n she was one of e first who tried to pull me out fr e pit-hole. May it be my personal or work life, she has been great thou sumtimes abit too persistent. Knowin wat was best for me, she told me e outcome before it was officially announced.

I knew she did it so i cld concentrate on other stuff n lessened my burden. She knew very well it wld boost my morale n it wld make a huge difference in my life at dat time. But ultimately it was my effort n hard work to be able to stay, still, i ll hafta thank her. I ll continue to give it my best to assist her in PSG, like wat TC said. N thks for takin e initiative to push him for dat bonus, it meant a hell lot to me.

She made my day -winkz-

Thank You, Boss!
(Come to think abt it, she was juz another hot babe fr e dept next to us ha)

//Juz tht tis pic is cute

At Wala Aka Walau

Walau Walau(dats wat Wendy calls it ha) has became a weekly dosage for us.

We haf been gg der at least once a wk, be it a weekday or weekend coz we need LOUD music + booze. Were kinda influenced by e ppl cam-whorin away so we started doin it. But of coz we wldnt start dancin like e drunken woman n bunch of Caucasian old fools we saw too; damn er lar.

I koe these pics r loaded on my Flickr ordy, i cant help but to upload them again here coz i think i look damn cute wif da rosy cheeks! Aha

NO, i am not drunk yet. (BITE ME)

*Am still waitin for rest of e pics -hint-

The Familiar Place

Alritey, tis blardy plc has finally been brightened up after donkey yrs. I rem writin in to complain but nothin was done.

Dat was when i was still a student lar, damn free n had nothin better to do. See, it looks so much better now. Not as depressin n dull lookin as before -applause applause-

I Heart Colors

As dusk falls, it is e most frightenin.
It used to be e best time of e day n e most romantic moment. Keddy has not found a reason yet, other than a series of upcomin getaway to run away fr all these.....

TIME WILL TELL

TIME WILL TELL

TIME WILL TELL

TIME WILL TELL

TIME WILL TELL

What A Sunday!

My Saturday nite into Sunday was spent at Wala wif Sue & May. Ate, drank n laff lots and Shirlyn + Co played sum nice songs thr'out e nite for once heh coz most of e Sat, i dunno wat they were singin. Best thing was, we bumped into Miss Pok! She was catchin up wif Sue so i waved to her to make sure she saw me too. Next thing i knew was she SCREAMED like really loud -deafenin- Dat prob happ when u havent seen sumone for erm (counts) 10yrs? GEEZ.. n yeah, we exchanged our nos after dat -nice-

Later in e noon, i met up wif Sue (again :P) to get a tatt fr Wendy in JB. It was quite a gd trip i supposed, except for e gg hme part. E crowd was horrendous, much worse than buyin TOTO so we had to take a long walk out of JB back to SG (juz keep walkin juz keep walkin) instead of bus-ing. Alrite lar huh, we had a chance to burn off sum fats -hiakz-

*Eh Sue, rem u owe me SGD 50! Call me a loanshark :D

Finally got hme b4 midnite, was surprised to see pa n ma still awake. Tht they were waitin for me coz they knew i was gg to JB Aha fat hope... anyways, they were watchin e final 20mins of e last Man United Premiere League match of tis season so i joined in. Was good, rather excitin i must say coz Man United n Chelsea were fightin for e first plc n Man United was playin an Away game to retain e title.

The result? Obviously my fav team won, 0-2.
Lookin forward to da Champions League finals, GO FOR DA DOUBLE!

Enough Said.

Tell me why i shudnt feel e way im feelin now.
It was my honeymoon, damnit.
Now it has bcame other ppl's.
Im turned off n thanks.

Bare My Soul

Consciousness catches up wif u as u grow.

Ur priorities change as time goes by.

Ure obligated to ur liabilities as u bcom more aware.

Like how e law deals wif u when ure below/above 18.

These r things dat ll change. Sumhow, i feel i havent been able to catch up wif e space.

I ve been stagnant for e longest time. Everything else ve changed except me, i am still me.

Its not good, Ked needs to change.

Its 2008 yet i feel like im still in 2000.

Maybe i refused to? Im laggin too far behind.

Der are too many things i wanna do but i am only human.

I can only think, dream, hope, regret n whine, dats wat humans do best.

Der r things i feel i cld haf done better.

Juz coz im passive, i can take 6mths to do sumthing while another takes a mth.

Humans dun realise wats impt n wats not till its too late.

Ders no right or wrong, e ans always sits on e fence.

At e end of e day, it is always about urself. Ur selfish self.

"In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...

Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,

This world you must've crossed... you said..."

Maternal Family Aka The Little Kampong

//Everything seems surreal since dat day till now; everything seems unreal but it is real.

Not a very well taken pic, where was i? hah Spot me if u can.

I koe sum of u been wantin to kpo so here's one i stole fr my cous, nothin fantastic.

Today Marks The Final Journey

Drove past e familiar strs when i was lookin for my lost dog almost every nite at wee hrs. I rem exactly how i felt, it was one of e hardest time in my life. I tht i wld break down but i didnt. E thots ran thr my mind..... wound down e window n breathe in e air as e breeze brushed thr my face. I wonder how he is n if he is able to fend for himself? He is a timid dog which puts up a fierce front infront of other ppl n he left me a scar of my left leg before he went missin. Nonetheless, i hope he is well n alive juz like e way i am now.

I had a beautiful dream, its been awhile since i had one. I stayed in a villa, fought hard in e dream with e enemy to live my life. Woke up by a call n e dream ended. Ay, i was jerkin thr'out. A sweet dream can be anything n everything u ever wished coz its juz an illusion. When ure awake, u ll be back to reality... n REAL LIFE.

Pa was tokin weirdly. He said he wans me to join them in their activities such as, to pick up playin golf etc. Took a bunch of veggies for me durin dinner n they started teasin me dat im still their baby. GOSH! I can only 'ya' n brushed them off. Haiya, am such an introvert. STUPID.

Who e hell in tis world will make u laff ur head off when she tells u: Eh, ur fren! N e other replyin, ur father! upon seein an ABNN? ha 3souls at a beach, pourin their hearts out. I always believe dat at sum point of ur life, u ll need certain ppl more or less. Its gd to haf a balance, but jugglin is a chore thus, disappointment is inevitable. I see ur pain, do u see mine? Am bleedin profusely n it sux.

Ders so much to say, so much to be felt yet so lil time. Sumtimes, i wish a truck can juz ram into me n der i go... even e pain will be minimal, im exasperated. Wat am i doin everyday? I haf no idea n today is e deadline. Im totally fucked. Dun prompt, dun see, dun hear do not mean everythings gonna be ok but if i fail, its gonna be livin-in-hell.

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你

我真的沒有天份

安靜的沒這麼快

我會學著放棄你

是因為我太愛你

//e break-up plc

//3:07am

Playing: Blowers Daughter by Damien Rice

Some Backdated Pictures

Am not very impressed but am juz gonna let it pass. Doin things on an impulse is not Ked's style. Hence, bloggin is da best medicine.

Chris, where are e pics u promised?!!

//Silly gooses

//Gangster sia

//Wat's wif e tongue man?

//Dun u miss seein dat smile?

//We had sex on e beach