Another survey.

I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go. I need you with me as I enter the shadows.

Not a real update, but meh. I'll get to it if I manage to get online somehow while at home..

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Someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say?
I'm not sure what I want.

Could you use some sleep right now?
Always could.

Name something great that will happen in the next few weeks:
My birthday.. maybe. Nothing great usually happens.

Who last smacked your butt?
Uh.. last I can remember was Bianca.

Was yesterday better than today?
I don't know yet, today hasn't exactly happened. Yesterday was great though.

Ever been called babe?
Yeah, it's weird for me. >_>

Are you happy with the way things are going?
It has it's ups and downs, I guess. But overall, I'm pretty happy.

Will this weekend be a good one?
It was a good one, but I'm not really looking forward to next weekend.

Did the last person who hurt you apologize?
No, she just suddenly left me behind without telling me, and I trusted her.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Not really, but it'd be nice.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
Nope, unless dreams count.

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
Yeah, a lot of my friends are girls and I sure as heck don't have feelings for all of them. >_>

Would you be more likely to fail Science or Math?
.. Probably science, Chem.'s a nightmare, and math's what I'm best at.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
I guess, though it's unlikely anyone does.

Someone tells you that you're beautiful, you say?
... Thank you?

Think back to June, were you in a relationship?
... Yeah, that was a bit before it broke apart.

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
Uhm.. I think Annie.

Where did you stay last night?
Upstairs most of the time.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Yeah, I'm pretty okay with life.

Have you ever laughed at something that wasn't meant to be funny?
I laugh a lot at things.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
Kind of on the fence, I got reasons to be happy but then I feel like I'm being pulled away from them.

Is anyone else in the room with you?
Just my puppy.

What are you listening to?
Shadows by Red

What time did you go to sleep last night?
Almost 2 AM.

Do you own more than one cell phone?
Nope, only ever had one at most.

Are you taller then your mom?
Yeah.

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
Nope

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos, if so what?
Nope.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yeah..

Are you dating the last person you texted?
That'd be nice.

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
Yeah.

Do you have an attitude?
I heard I do, I find myself pretty neutral though.

What is your real name?
Eric

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
I used to want to do that, but.. I learned to enjoy the present and look forward to the future. The past is only something to think about now, as much as I miss the year I went to school with Josh.

Do you regret anything in your past?
Yes, but they're things I have to get past if I want to be happy.

Why?
I made a lot of mistakes with people I was close to.

Can you spell well?
Probably one of my better traits.

Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Yeah, sometimes when I don't want to deal with any crap at the time.

Are you highly attracted to anyone right now?
Yeah, hate to say it.

If someone looked ON your bed, what would they find?
5 pillows, 2 blankets, and headphones.

Do you curse in front of your parents?
I have a pretty well-mannered mouth.

Was last night terrible?
It was really enjoyable, staying up and talking to her.

Have you ever snuck someone over to your house?
Nope.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
My princess and a house deed to move to Sun City. -Nods-

How do you feel about your hair right now?
Nice and sexy.

Do you get jealous?
It's one of the things I hate most about myself.

Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Yeah, not hard.

Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair?
People do it all the time, I guess I'm used to it.

Someone knocks on your window at 3 am, what do you say?
... How the hell did you knock on a second story window?

Do you forgive people easily?
Sometimes too easily. I'm not the type to hold grudges.

Do you ever get paranoid when someone is reading your text messages?
When I had a phone, I guess.. I was wondering how people could be so nosey mostly.

How many contacts are in your phone?
There were like 80.. but only about 10 of them did I really talk to.

Do you miss your past?
My eighth grade year was great, but it's not coming back. I gotta make the most of now.

Do you have any bruises?
I think on my leg.

Have you ever had a best friend that was of the opposite sex?
My current best friend is, and so was the last.. and one before that.. and then Josh. >_>

The person you like comes up to you and kisses you what's your reaction?
It'd be a mixture of "HELL YEAH!" and "What happened to waiting for months before kissing? o_o"

Could you go a day without eating?
Yeah, depends on how I feel. I like to eat a lot though.

How was your day today?
Just started, but yesterday was faaaaantastic.

Did you speak to your father today?
Haven't talked to my dad in a long time..

How do you feel about girls who smoke cigarettes?
Eww. Just no.

Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?
Yeah.. It's really great to hear that, but.. Because of things that happened before, I'm weary of when people say it to me now..

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/girlfriend every week?
Probably like every couple years..

Describe how you feel right now:
Lonely, tired, and longing.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon?
Maybe. I guess we'll see.

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
Nope.

Who does your profile song remind you of?
A lot of things, really.

Why are you confused?
Wondering how I'll adjust to things back in Yuma again..

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
Someday, maybe..

Has someone ever made you a big promise & broke it?
Yeah..

Do you miss anyone?
Gonna miss a lot of people.

Do you get butterflies around someone you like?
I haven't really experienced /that/ feeling yet.. just weak in the knees.

Are you currently talking to/ texting/ instant messaging anyone?
My onee-chan.

Do you feel that your previous relationships were a waste of time?
Nope, they helped build who I am.

You're locked in a room with your last ex, any problems?
... Oh boy..

Would you go out in public looking like you do right now?
I don't care. I look like I should be in P.E. >_>

Do you get attached to people easily?
I used to, but now I'm careful about it.

Your best friend has sex with your boyfriend/girlfriend and thinks its okay, what do you do?
... Okay, I don't have a girlfriend. And if I did, that'd be lesbian sex. o-O I'd probably be wondering if I was bad enough to turn my girlfriend lesbian..

Who makes you the happiest?
Onee-chan and Annie right now. =]

What if I just pull myself together?

Would it matter at all? .. Would It Matter by Skillet describes my exact feelings for the last few months, for the most part.
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Yeah, apologies for not updating this thing in... months. Haven't exactly had a chance to, but I'll try to update it more often, every now and then at least.. First order of business, happy birthday 41th Dad.. next, a survey.

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Newest of the newest questions, you ready?
Yes.

How many people have you had STRONG feelings for in the year of 2009?
.. Two.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?
Not who I am entirely.

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
Yes.

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
Nope.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yeah.

Are you angry with someone right now?
Kinda.

Did anything wake you up in the middle of the night?
My puppy.

What were you doing an hour ago?
Waking up because it was cold

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
Nope

Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
Yeah

Are there any relationships you wish could have lasted longer?
Yeahh.. but right now I guess there's nothing really to regret

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
Yes..

Do you straighten your hair often?
Every now and then

Who did you spend most of your time with last night?
Mi familia and Vina

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Nah.

Your ex says "I'm sorry", what do you say?
Not your fault

If you are up after 3 am, what are you most likely doing?
Thinking because I can't sleep, playing a game, or talking to Vina if we manage to keep each other up that long 8D

Does anyone call you babe?
Nah. It feels weird when someone does.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
Yeah, I'm very huggy.

Is there a guy that knows a lot about you?
Yeah

If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be?
Eww, piercings.. I guess if I /had/ to it'd be a lip piercing or an earring.

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails?
Between lip and nails, get nervous a lot.

Are you listening to music right now?
Yes, Skillet.

If your best friend needed you to bail her/him out of jail would you?
Knowing me, yes.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
Not for a long time.

The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
Well, yeah.. that's a depressing question.

Are you nice to everyone?
Yes, it's who I am.

Are you someone's best friend?
A couple peoples' best friend, or so they say.

Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
Not today, yesterday though.

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?
The camping is fun, but the hotel with a few close friends is even funner.

What's something that bothers you about girls?
Lots of them can be bitchy and too many are slutty.. I'm glad the ones I'm close to aren't either of those.

Do you have anything you'd like to say, but cant?
Every day.

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
I think myself.

Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
Yes..

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately.?
A couple people..

I say girl, you say?
Vagina

Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
... No.

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
Why would someone try to make /me/ jealous? o-O

Is it possible to be single and happy?
Yup, that's how I am right now..

Do you like when people play with your hair?
They do it all the time, I'm used to it.

Do you find piercings attractive?
No.

First thing you do when you wake up?
Think, "..Fuck, it's morning."

Will this weekend be a good one?
Friday was hell, so I sure hope so.


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Going to the National Canine Association today to do some volunteer work.. I wonder how that's gonna go.
I'm hella tired though, I was supposed to sleep at midnight and Cher tried to send me off to sleep but I stayed up another hour to talk to someone. It was worth it, but I wish I got more than 5 hours of sleep again.
I'll update this thing more later today probably.

Does this match me?

'twas in a myspace thingy.. thought it kinda fit. What do y'alls think? 8D

★JANUARY
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover

Unwanted Responsibility

Grandma came over today.. She was talking to my mom in Tagalog, but they told me later in English..

Dad might go to prison. Court is soon, and dad's lawyer wants /me/ to testify and /lie/ and say my dad never did drugs or anything bad.. because I'm the oldest child living and I'm almost legally an adult..

If I do it, I lie for my dad again, and just regret even more.. If I don't, he'll hate me.. and I don't want either.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to be dragged into this again and again..

Happyhappyhappy~

Last night and this morning were so great~ Happiest I've been in a long time x3
I didn't want to sleep last night, I just wanted to stay with her <3 It felt somewhat regretable logging off, I didn't care how late it was.
And if only she didn't have exams tomorrow T-T! This morning felt so great~! I can't wait 'til Phoenix x3

Aishiteru, Rei~~~ x3

Craziness Randomness Blog Post Title

Right, so Thursday was our last school day. Once again it ended as if it were a normal day, only I got to see Siria this time. I also spent most of the day with Anna (and Ray, who put knives to my neck >>;) I said "Bye sister!" to Anna when I left, and she replied with "Bye sis-.. I mean brother!" which we laughed about but still 3< I like how she actually introduces me to everyone as her brother though

Friday was graduation. Went to see Jazz and Liz. And PSP reached cap limit, I'll post about this later.

Wow... [PSP]

"I'm here for you no matter what. Even if we're not related, I still consider you my brother.."

Anna's my little sister as of now.. Haha, I think she struck something, I feel like I got a reason to be here now.

Thank you, lil sis