Sunday, October 17, 2010
♥ Happy Birthday!!!
Sleeping for mere few hours on friday and got waken up by my mum on Saturday morning. Well, it's not that pleasant. I would have been in a foul mood. But, I didn't! I guess that's because of my 2 days leave (wed & thur), somehow was in rather good mood.
Set off on sat morning to hunt for the cake at TPY.. And managed to FIND it!!!! Wahahaha.. Treasure hunting on sat morning! Suddenly remember how "Sense of achievement" was... When was the last time I felt that???
Anyway, the cake looks really NICE! hehe.... Look so nice and good that you just wanna enjoy it.
Headed down to granny house after my satisfying task.... Celebrating her birthday! (nope, not gonna rem how old she is... just treasuring the moment ~ NOW)
So glad that my day is spent in a fruitful way. It's living life to fullest ~ spending time with love ones! =)
*Age.....
Definition from dictionary
My definition:
It's merely a numeric figure stating the period of existence of a being....
Well, age doesn't tell you much, or mean anything. It's the being that's count.
Set off on sat morning to hunt for the cake at TPY.. And managed to FIND it!!!! Wahahaha.. Treasure hunting on sat morning! Suddenly remember how "Sense of achievement" was... When was the last time I felt that???
Anyway, the cake looks really NICE! hehe.... Look so nice and good that you just wanna enjoy it.
Headed down to granny house after my satisfying task.... Celebrating her birthday! (nope, not gonna rem how old she is... just treasuring the moment ~ NOW)
So glad that my day is spent in a fruitful way. It's living life to fullest ~ spending time with love ones! =)
*Age.....
Definition from dictionary
- the length of time during which a being or thing has existed; length of life or existence to the time spoken of or referred to: trees of unknown age; His age is 20 years.
- a period of human life, measured by years from birth, usually marked by a certain stage or degree of mental or physical development and involving legal responsibility and capacity: the age of discretion; the age of consent; The state raised the drinking age from 18 to 21 years.
- the particular period of life at which a person becomes naturally or conventionally qualified or disqualified for anything: He was over age for military duty.
- one of the periods or stages of human life: a person of middle age.
It's merely a numeric figure stating the period of existence of a being....
Well, age doesn't tell you much, or mean anything. It's the being that's count.
6:57 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
♥ Attached.....
With my partner beside me, the cozy rainy sleepy mood and being force to stay awake.... That's how I decided to keep myself awake by doing something such as letting my thoughts flow and typing away to make myself awake!!!! Have a thought that flow through my mind this morning, what a nice timing that I can "pen" it down...
Today is the anniversary of my grandpa. And the fact is, I don't actually remember it! I know it's today because my aunt called and ask if mum is coming back for the praying. Unfilial you call it? But, what's the point of remembering? A date is a date, and it only comes with a meaning when one painted something on the date. Else, it means nothing. Does it matter that I remember it or not? So what it I remember it? The truth about it - My grandpa is no longer around in this world. So it doesn't matter if I remember the death anniversay or not?
Well, it occurs to me that, sometime, in fact, it's the person who have left this mortal world that I appear in my mind so frequent. I think about them pretty often, or rather, much more often than those who were alive. Ironic isn't it? But that's really the truth. It always amazed me how one can leave such a deep memory behind on those who are still alive. Actually it's after he is gone that I realised he had such big impact in my life. Something that I have never even thought of when he was alive. Trust me, I never know he plays such an important role in my life.
~I saw a bicycle, a parent or grandparent pillion the kid and it reminds me of him. - I still remember how its feels to be pillion on a bicycle (front or back).
~When I cycle, I thought of him - Thanks to him, I cycled well.
~I walk pass or see a playground and I though of him... - thats the place where I played and he read the newspaper
~I watched soccer match and reminds me of him. - He does have an interest in sport
~"Wheel of fortune" programme reminds me of him - He loves this programme. Recently saw an iphone apps on "wheel of fortune" & it reminds me of him.
~Swimming reminds me of him... - Always there with the hot milo after my swimming lesson =)
~fishes reminds me of him... - one of his favourite past time, fighting fish!
~bird reminds me of him... - Another pet of his...
And these is what that keep him so alive and living! He was so awesome in such a unique way! Cant believed that so much of him is in my memory and stuff I do. How can he not be alive in me when most thing I come across now - what I touch, see, experience reminds me of? When I thought of him through all these, I feel no saddness. But the warm and comfort of remembering someone and that someone is so close to my heart. Hence, everyday or anyday can be an anniversary - to remember him.
Like what's mentioned in the book "the little prince". The word is "Attached". The little prince had tamed the author and he felt attached.
Today is the anniversary of my grandpa. And the fact is, I don't actually remember it! I know it's today because my aunt called and ask if mum is coming back for the praying. Unfilial you call it? But, what's the point of remembering? A date is a date, and it only comes with a meaning when one painted something on the date. Else, it means nothing. Does it matter that I remember it or not? So what it I remember it? The truth about it - My grandpa is no longer around in this world. So it doesn't matter if I remember the death anniversay or not?
Well, it occurs to me that, sometime, in fact, it's the person who have left this mortal world that I appear in my mind so frequent. I think about them pretty often, or rather, much more often than those who were alive. Ironic isn't it? But that's really the truth. It always amazed me how one can leave such a deep memory behind on those who are still alive. Actually it's after he is gone that I realised he had such big impact in my life. Something that I have never even thought of when he was alive. Trust me, I never know he plays such an important role in my life.
~I saw a bicycle, a parent or grandparent pillion the kid and it reminds me of him. - I still remember how its feels to be pillion on a bicycle (front or back).
~When I cycle, I thought of him - Thanks to him, I cycled well.
~I walk pass or see a playground and I though of him... - thats the place where I played and he read the newspaper
~I watched soccer match and reminds me of him. - He does have an interest in sport
~"Wheel of fortune" programme reminds me of him - He loves this programme. Recently saw an iphone apps on "wheel of fortune" & it reminds me of him.
~Swimming reminds me of him... - Always there with the hot milo after my swimming lesson =)
~fishes reminds me of him... - one of his favourite past time, fighting fish!
~bird reminds me of him... - Another pet of his...
And these is what that keep him so alive and living! He was so awesome in such a unique way! Cant believed that so much of him is in my memory and stuff I do. How can he not be alive in me when most thing I come across now - what I touch, see, experience reminds me of? When I thought of him through all these, I feel no saddness. But the warm and comfort of remembering someone and that someone is so close to my heart. Hence, everyday or anyday can be an anniversary - to remember him.
Like what's mentioned in the book "the little prince". The word is "Attached". The little prince had tamed the author and he felt attached.
4:24 PM
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
♥ Some blogging after a long long break!
Wonder if anyone still read or even remember this blog address.. =P
helloooooo!!!! pls give some repond if u r still passing by here!
I have left it rotting for ages and even my browser doesnt have it in its "history" list! Goddess! Felt quite bad... But then again, what can one expect when there is a marvelous thing call facebook? almost 80% of my Internet is spent on there! Kinda scary to think about it.. On how it had dominate my time.
Hah! gonna feel thankful that there is some connection issue or whatsoever that allows me this spare time to drop some words here!
Well, every time i look at my blog title, I feel that I'm so far away from practising that. Living life to the fullest! And I began to ponder if I really did that or have I been wasting my time?
It amazed me by a lot on how different one can change to. Especially from early 20s to mid 20s. In just mere 5 yrs and I think I have change so much! And what causes that? work? Gosh... How can this be affecting me this MUCH? I really wonder..... And the saddest thing of all, what did I get out of it? Almost nothing! Even if there is really something, it ain't gonna be that significant, I guess.
Somehow, it kinda "bought me to senses" that I have been missing out, lossing myself and not being who I was or used to be. Recent conversation with Qq and Yi makes me realise how "bad shape" I'm in. Where is the active me???? omg.... No one believe that I am who I am now because the me in their memory is so different from the me I am now!
And I asked myself, "what have I done to myself!?"
This leave me thinking.. but not a lot of thinking though. God knows what I have been busy with... Time just seem to pass so quickly... and serious thinking is always half done.
Suddenly I have a sense of urgency to do something to myself. Coz I just felt something is terribly wrong with me! Trust me, I am still asking myself this "what do I want". "what have I done wrong". "what's going on with me?"
helloooooo!!!! pls give some repond if u r still passing by here!
I have left it rotting for ages and even my browser doesnt have it in its "history" list! Goddess! Felt quite bad... But then again, what can one expect when there is a marvelous thing call facebook? almost 80% of my Internet is spent on there! Kinda scary to think about it.. On how it had dominate my time.
Hah! gonna feel thankful that there is some connection issue or whatsoever that allows me this spare time to drop some words here!
Well, every time i look at my blog title, I feel that I'm so far away from practising that. Living life to the fullest! And I began to ponder if I really did that or have I been wasting my time?
It amazed me by a lot on how different one can change to. Especially from early 20s to mid 20s. In just mere 5 yrs and I think I have change so much! And what causes that? work? Gosh... How can this be affecting me this MUCH? I really wonder..... And the saddest thing of all, what did I get out of it? Almost nothing! Even if there is really something, it ain't gonna be that significant, I guess.
Somehow, it kinda "bought me to senses" that I have been missing out, lossing myself and not being who I was or used to be. Recent conversation with Qq and Yi makes me realise how "bad shape" I'm in. Where is the active me???? omg.... No one believe that I am who I am now because the me in their memory is so different from the me I am now!
And I asked myself, "what have I done to myself!?"
This leave me thinking.. but not a lot of thinking though. God knows what I have been busy with... Time just seem to pass so quickly... and serious thinking is always half done.
Suddenly I have a sense of urgency to do something to myself. Coz I just felt something is terribly wrong with me! Trust me, I am still asking myself this "what do I want". "what have I done wrong". "what's going on with me?"
8:49 PM
Thursday, February 04, 2010
♥ Reflection?
Oh.. Wanted to do some sort of reflection for year 2009, BUT.... it's always so "incomplete" and difficult? haha...
Anyway just some thoughts that run through....
I am grateful and blessed because.....
- I have my gal friends there to celebrate my actual birthday in 2009 after "all the ordeal I had been through that day"
- I have a hair stylist who remember me and offer a slot out of his busy schedule in CNY. Coz I just cant be bother about doing anything to my hair for the upcoming CNY, and hence, didnt SMS to ask for one.
- I have friend cum colleague @ work that makes my day less horrible
- I have friends who remember and cares for me!!!
- I have someone(s) to have lunch with each day
- I have my devoted badminton gang who will always be there be it rain or shine
- I have "old" friends who nag at me because they CARE
- I have friends who care and concern about me so much more than I do to myself!
Alright, the thing that touches me most for Yr 2009 is..... when my mum asked me to go meet my friends on my birthday despite what had happened to her.
And so, I am sooo thankful for what I have! =)
I guess I do learn quite a great deal in yr 2009, be it the ugly or pretty side of life.
Anyway just some thoughts that run through....
I am grateful and blessed because.....
- I have my gal friends there to celebrate my actual birthday in 2009 after "all the ordeal I had been through that day"
- I have a hair stylist who remember me and offer a slot out of his busy schedule in CNY. Coz I just cant be bother about doing anything to my hair for the upcoming CNY, and hence, didnt SMS to ask for one.
- I have friend cum colleague @ work that makes my day less horrible
- I have friends who remember and cares for me!!!
- I have someone(s) to have lunch with each day
- I have my devoted badminton gang who will always be there be it rain or shine
- I have "old" friends who nag at me because they CARE
- I have friends who care and concern about me so much more than I do to myself!
Alright, the thing that touches me most for Yr 2009 is..... when my mum asked me to go meet my friends on my birthday despite what had happened to her.
And so, I am sooo thankful for what I have! =)
I guess I do learn quite a great deal in yr 2009, be it the ugly or pretty side of life.
10:39 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
♥ 这个十一月 - 找回自己!
I have found myself back in this November!!!!
The cumulonibus cloud that's "resting" on my head for the past few months (should I say for half of the years?) is temporarily "blown" away, what lies above is Cirrus cloud!
Great!!! The good old "Me" is coming back, I can sense it... "yeah, it's me!!! it's me!!!"
All I need is just one solid month - good quality month.
Although it's not a 1 mth FULLY away from job thing, but its doing me good. Thanks god for this! Just being 80% away is real good enough!!! semi-break from the nonsense ppl in my daily working life is a great form of relief. I'm enjoying every single moment of it, and LOVING it! =)
I'm so FREE now.... hahaha... SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!! lalala.....
free from noise pollution
free from nonsense request
free from sarcastic remarks
free from someone disturbing behaviour
free from illogical "LOGIC"
free from mental toture from M&D
free from "direct poking"
free from the presence of someone-s (x2)
free from gloomy mood!
free from depress???
free from "sick and tired" mood
I goes to work without dragging myself!!!
I shall treasure and enjoy this November as much as I can... I wish I could stay at where I am for the rest of this year!!! =P I don't wanna GO BACK!!! =S 14th Dec, pls don't come so fast!
I feel...................... LIGHT n FREEEEEE!!!! let loose.
Life is so peaceful..... so wonderful and great....
I'm finally able to pamper, relax and enjoy myself! Such as having a "tai-tai lifestyle"? haha...
OMG.... FINALLY a GOOD massage, spa, pedicure, facial, saloon, shopping, movie.... and what's most important, GOOD MOOD (ie. good state of mind? positive thoughts?)!
November 20009 - I shall mark this month in my "live life to fullest calendar" =)
P.S I'm ALIVE now!!! - Alive cat (only in this November Season)
The cumulonibus cloud that's "resting" on my head for the past few months (should I say for half of the years?) is temporarily "blown" away, what lies above is Cirrus cloud!
Great!!! The good old "Me" is coming back, I can sense it... "yeah, it's me!!! it's me!!!"
All I need is just one solid month - good quality month.
Although it's not a 1 mth FULLY away from job thing, but its doing me good. Thanks god for this! Just being 80% away is real good enough!!! semi-break from the nonsense ppl in my daily working life is a great form of relief. I'm enjoying every single moment of it, and LOVING it! =)
I'm so FREE now.... hahaha... SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!! lalala.....
free from noise pollution
free from nonsense request
free from sarcastic remarks
free from someone disturbing behaviour
free from illogical "LOGIC"
free from mental toture from M&D
free from "direct poking"
free from the presence of someone-s (x2)
free from gloomy mood!
free from depress???
free from "sick and tired" mood
I goes to work without dragging myself!!!
I shall treasure and enjoy this November as much as I can... I wish I could stay at where I am for the rest of this year!!! =P I don't wanna GO BACK!!! =S 14th Dec, pls don't come so fast!
I feel...................... LIGHT n FREEEEEE!!!! let loose.
Life is so peaceful..... so wonderful and great....
I'm finally able to pamper, relax and enjoy myself! Such as having a "tai-tai lifestyle"? haha...
OMG.... FINALLY a GOOD massage, spa, pedicure, facial, saloon, shopping, movie.... and what's most important, GOOD MOOD (ie. good state of mind? positive thoughts?)!
November 20009 - I shall mark this month in my "live life to fullest calendar" =)
P.S I'm ALIVE now!!! - Alive cat (only in this November Season)
11:42 PM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
♥ sweet, lovely thing....
One of the loveliest scene I’ve seen today ~ a lovely old couple!
It just feels so warm to see the couple, nice old couple with excellent manner and nice temper.
Thanking me profusely for so little that I have done for them.
It’s hard to pen down all my thought in words, all in all, they just brighten my day! =)
Anyway, it’s just hard to find such scene nowadays. I see more of those bickering than lovely moment around!
By the way, they don’t stay here. Probably migrated…. Hmmm… I wanna go TRAVEL!!!!
It just feels so warm to see the couple, nice old couple with excellent manner and nice temper.
Thanking me profusely for so little that I have done for them.
It’s hard to pen down all my thought in words, all in all, they just brighten my day! =)
Anyway, it’s just hard to find such scene nowadays. I see more of those bickering than lovely moment around!
By the way, they don’t stay here. Probably migrated…. Hmmm… I wanna go TRAVEL!!!!
4:32 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
♥ Jealousy
Perhaps a little recap on this subjec to all my friends, and a little reminder on this - powerful, scary and sinful word/noun / feelings....
Jealousy as stated in dictionary:
1 jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3. vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.
The above mentioned just fit someone perfectly. And so, I realised Jealousy would probably be the root of the evil acts that has been cast upon me? Whatever it is, never underestimate the damage/ harm Jealousy can caused.
It draws to me how scary it is that a person can act/ behave under the evil feeling of jealousy. It seems like the soul has been sold to devil itself... resulted in a series of sinful acts. I do hope that someone is kind by nature (as what I used to think), and was blind by jealousy in a moment of foolishness. However, I do not know how long will that "moment" be, and since I haven't any idea when it started, I have not a clue on when will someone come to her senses.
I shall not elaborate on what's been done on me. But, I do not wish these to befall on any of my dear friends, who have been true and sincere to me. Hence, my reminder to my dear friends out there - beware of those jealousy around you, and try not to forget the danger that Jealousy could indue on one's mind that would have an impact on you. I had brush through the idea - that someone was jealous. And now when I think back, it is because of this jealousy feeling on an individual that triger all the un-justness and evil acts. I should have been more careful.... Mind you, my friend, a person can go through great length base on jealousy.
I was rather down and troubled, but after reading through some quotes, I have a new feeling.
I should feel happy, because I am better, more capable, and things is going on well on me and that's why inviting jealousy! So, I am actually doing well!!! =) Good. That's all I need to know.
And for that someone, this is what I have for her:
Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ~Jennifer James
Below are a few other quotes to share:
~ In jealousy there is more self-love than love. ~François, Duc de La Rochefoucauld, Maxims, 1665 (That explains why someone is so self-centered )
~ It is not love that is blind, but jealousy. ~Lawrence Durrell, Justine, 1957 (yes, it blinds you and you do the evil acts. hope someone come to senses soon, before it goes too deep & wrong & then, there will be no return. )
~Jealousy is the dragon in paradise; the hell of heaven; and the most bitter of the emotions because associated with the sweetest. ~A.R. Orage
~ Envy is the most stupid of vices, for there is no single advantage to be gained from it. ~Honore de Balzac
~Whoever envies another confesses his superiority. ~Samuel Johnson, The Rambler
~ Envy is a symptom of lack of appreciation of our own uniqueness and self worth. Each of us has something to give that no one else has. ~Elizabeth O'Connor
~ A show of envy is an insult to oneself. ~Yevgeny Alexandrovich Yevtushenko
~Envy is a littleness of soul, which cannot see beyond a certain point, and if it does not occupy the whole space feels itself excluded. ~William Hazlitt, Characteristics, 1823
Jealousy as stated in dictionary:
1 jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3. vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.
The above mentioned just fit someone perfectly. And so, I realised Jealousy would probably be the root of the evil acts that has been cast upon me? Whatever it is, never underestimate the damage/ harm Jealousy can caused.
It draws to me how scary it is that a person can act/ behave under the evil feeling of jealousy. It seems like the soul has been sold to devil itself... resulted in a series of sinful acts. I do hope that someone is kind by nature (as what I used to think), and was blind by jealousy in a moment of foolishness. However, I do not know how long will that "moment" be, and since I haven't any idea when it started, I have not a clue on when will someone come to her senses.
I shall not elaborate on what's been done on me. But, I do not wish these to befall on any of my dear friends, who have been true and sincere to me. Hence, my reminder to my dear friends out there - beware of those jealousy around you, and try not to forget the danger that Jealousy could indue on one's mind that would have an impact on you. I had brush through the idea - that someone was jealous. And now when I think back, it is because of this jealousy feeling on an individual that triger all the un-justness and evil acts. I should have been more careful.... Mind you, my friend, a person can go through great length base on jealousy.
I was rather down and troubled, but after reading through some quotes, I have a new feeling.
I should feel happy, because I am better, more capable, and things is going on well on me and that's why inviting jealousy! So, I am actually doing well!!! =) Good. That's all I need to know.
And for that someone, this is what I have for her:
Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ~Jennifer James
Below are a few other quotes to share:
~ In jealousy there is more self-love than love. ~François, Duc de La Rochefoucauld, Maxims, 1665 (That explains why someone is so self-centered )
~ It is not love that is blind, but jealousy. ~Lawrence Durrell, Justine, 1957 (yes, it blinds you and you do the evil acts. hope someone come to senses soon, before it goes too deep & wrong & then, there will be no return. )
~Jealousy is the dragon in paradise; the hell of heaven; and the most bitter of the emotions because associated with the sweetest. ~A.R. Orage
~ Envy is the most stupid of vices, for there is no single advantage to be gained from it. ~Honore de Balzac
~Whoever envies another confesses his superiority. ~Samuel Johnson, The Rambler
~ Envy is a symptom of lack of appreciation of our own uniqueness and self worth. Each of us has something to give that no one else has. ~Elizabeth O'Connor
~ A show of envy is an insult to oneself. ~Yevgeny Alexandrovich Yevtushenko
~Envy is a littleness of soul, which cannot see beyond a certain point, and if it does not occupy the whole space feels itself excluded. ~William Hazlitt, Characteristics, 1823
2:01 PM
Thursday, September 03, 2009
♥ Bomb, then follow by nuclear!
What happened today had shaken me so much. The statement came just like falling bombs. I thought that was enough to affect and end my day. But I was wrong, what comes next is, a nuclear!!! Impacting me more than the early half....
After a more than an hour talk, filled with surprises, realisation and shock.
I have come to realise this....
To manipulate is a skill, & to see through manipulation is an Art.
I reserved my benefit of doubts. But still, certain facts are speaking out loud. I seem to have just waken up from a 2 years dream. Perhaps, with more sharpening, I will have lesser of such dreams, I don't have that much of years to spare!
What appears to be a 1.2 meter deep swimming pool end up to be a 5 meter deep pool! Have never thought that it will get that deep. How foolish I was to think that it's actually 1.2 meter deep while others thought it's just a puddle of water, when in fact it's deeper than I perceived.
Well, whatever it is, grateful for the talk. It had indeed enlighten me by a lot.
It was quite a lot to digest though, but going through it bits by bits helps piecing up the picture. And it all boils down to the self-centeredness of an individual which I had found out much earlier, but never occurs to me that it had such deep impact!
It's both scary and eerie how one can move from self-centeredness to defensiveness and how one thing leads to another. The next thing you know, it's a formation of a series of evil thoughts and actions! And manipulation is, but one of the tools used.
I do certainly hope that I will attain the art of seeing through manipulation soon, no matter how carefully conceal it is.
Ps. Woman are petty, never offend one.
After a more than an hour talk, filled with surprises, realisation and shock.
I have come to realise this....
To manipulate is a skill, & to see through manipulation is an Art.
I reserved my benefit of doubts. But still, certain facts are speaking out loud. I seem to have just waken up from a 2 years dream. Perhaps, with more sharpening, I will have lesser of such dreams, I don't have that much of years to spare!
What appears to be a 1.2 meter deep swimming pool end up to be a 5 meter deep pool! Have never thought that it will get that deep. How foolish I was to think that it's actually 1.2 meter deep while others thought it's just a puddle of water, when in fact it's deeper than I perceived.
Well, whatever it is, grateful for the talk. It had indeed enlighten me by a lot.
It was quite a lot to digest though, but going through it bits by bits helps piecing up the picture. And it all boils down to the self-centeredness of an individual which I had found out much earlier, but never occurs to me that it had such deep impact!
It's both scary and eerie how one can move from self-centeredness to defensiveness and how one thing leads to another. The next thing you know, it's a formation of a series of evil thoughts and actions! And manipulation is, but one of the tools used.
I do certainly hope that I will attain the art of seeing through manipulation soon, no matter how carefully conceal it is.
Ps. Woman are petty, never offend one.
12:58 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
♥ Wow... what is being said abt sagi...
Just accept this "request" in facebook... Gosh Had so much request pending, was clearing throgh 50% of them...
Took me some time to read finish coz this is all in CHINESE, TRADITIONAL CHINESE stroke! Well, I'm slow at reading them, but I still managed to finish reading and UNDERSTAND. =)
Here it goes...
〞★ 射手座終極完美分析
樂觀與憂愁：射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊心，敏感也情緒化。因為射手座人心中是驕傲的，所以他們拒絕低俗，不喜歡任何俗氣的、粗魯的事或人。如果可以，他們希望一切有關的事物，都是優雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能讓他們覺得值得交朋友或談戀愛的人是很少的，雖然表面上他們是很隨和的。多情：很多人說射手座多情，尤其是男性。其實在射手座人的心目中，對於愛情確實有理想化的傾向，和他們談戀愛，是一件高難度的事情。他們非常討厭俗氣的人，所以你不能很物質或喜歡談錢，但是他們又很現實，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必須有一定的實力。物質與精神，你必須平衡的剛剛好，才讓他們覺得你值得去愛。或者，你有足夠的神秘感，可以讓他們不知道你的缺點在哪裡，而盲目的愛你。一般，當然是沒有完美無缺的人的，所以，可能像金牛座這樣永遠會讓射手感覺捉摸不透的悶悶的人，會非常吸引他們；或者象雙子那樣，足夠機智，懂得察言觀色，捕捉他們的情緒，才會讓他們感覺到愛情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一階段，你們還不熟悉，他（她）愛上了你，非常熱情。第二階段，你們逐漸熟悉，而他（她）開始龜毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，無論是背地裡還是當面。如果你有幸通過他（她）的挑剔過程，基本挑剔出的毛病為零或者你把缺點保密的非常好；那麼進入第三階段，他們就又是忠誠和熱情的愛人了。但是基本能通過第二階段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一說。其實射手對戀人的挑剔，是源於對愛情的挑剔，對喪失自由感的恐懼。射手座人的人生，往往是幸運的，因為他們是聰慧的、明朗的、通透的。與眾不同，也許是他們終生追求的夢想，希望每一個射手人，可以找到他們的夢想！ 人人都說射手座是感情的騙子，對愛情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心與沖滿慾望的象徵。朋友們…你們瞭解射手座最真實的一面嗎？射手座是大孩子，天真與善良，遇到愛情時，可能讓人感覺不認真，付出的比誰都少。可是，知道嗎？射手座很想愛，卻也很怕愛！剛開始他們只是慢慢的付出，謹慎的愛，好怕自己會受傷。可是在一句一句的愛，一天一天的相處下，射手座把帶刺的防備丟掉，開始不顧一切的去愛他們所愛的人，在別人眼中，只是射手座為了達到某種目的而作的行動。可射手座不介意，他會在自己幸福的想像中陶醉，希望對方能感受自己的愛，想對方覺得與自己一齊是幸福的。在射手座愛上了一個人，他會把自己放到最後。有苦自己承擔，可能會因為吵了一場小架而不開心，卻也是最快認錯，無論誰的錯，他們都會包容，知道嗎？射手座會因為深愛一個人而原諒他的背叛，會因為你的一句話付出很多。他們愛玩，在玩的同時，也希望把那一份好心情帶給你，射手座是樂觀的。 人們總覺得射手座的世界很快樂，可是呢？射手座難過時沒有人知道，他不想讓別人可憐自己，射手座不堅強，可是很善良。在你難過時哄你開心，讓你有依靠，分手後，他會哭者去想屬於你們倆幸福的回憶，也不想愛的人因為同情而勉強和他一齊。他比誰都希望自己愛的人快樂幸福，卻常常忽略了自己，全身都是傷也笑著告訴你，我很好不用擔心。 在所有人看到他的笑容以為他沒事，卻不知道失戀對射手座有多大傷害，華麗的外表下有一顆脆弱的需要別人瞭解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一點關心，心思細膩的射手座會記得你對他的好，把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，射手座是不被瞭解的，可他們不會怨誰。他們會傻傻的認為，讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。所以，不要讓快樂的射手座痛苦，別讓他們最有魅力的笑容成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝，認真愛射手座。你會知道射手座的愛，是充滿淚水的...
Took me some time to read finish coz this is all in CHINESE, TRADITIONAL CHINESE stroke! Well, I'm slow at reading them, but I still managed to finish reading and UNDERSTAND. =)
Here it goes...
〞★ 射手座終極完美分析
樂觀與憂愁：射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊心，敏感也情緒化。因為射手座人心中是驕傲的，所以他們拒絕低俗，不喜歡任何俗氣的、粗魯的事或人。如果可以，他們希望一切有關的事物，都是優雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能讓他們覺得值得交朋友或談戀愛的人是很少的，雖然表面上他們是很隨和的。多情：很多人說射手座多情，尤其是男性。其實在射手座人的心目中，對於愛情確實有理想化的傾向，和他們談戀愛，是一件高難度的事情。他們非常討厭俗氣的人，所以你不能很物質或喜歡談錢，但是他們又很現實，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必須有一定的實力。物質與精神，你必須平衡的剛剛好，才讓他們覺得你值得去愛。或者，你有足夠的神秘感，可以讓他們不知道你的缺點在哪裡，而盲目的愛你。一般，當然是沒有完美無缺的人的，所以，可能像金牛座這樣永遠會讓射手感覺捉摸不透的悶悶的人，會非常吸引他們；或者象雙子那樣，足夠機智，懂得察言觀色，捕捉他們的情緒，才會讓他們感覺到愛情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一階段，你們還不熟悉，他（她）愛上了你，非常熱情。第二階段，你們逐漸熟悉，而他（她）開始龜毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，無論是背地裡還是當面。如果你有幸通過他（她）的挑剔過程，基本挑剔出的毛病為零或者你把缺點保密的非常好；那麼進入第三階段，他們就又是忠誠和熱情的愛人了。但是基本能通過第二階段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一說。其實射手對戀人的挑剔，是源於對愛情的挑剔，對喪失自由感的恐懼。射手座人的人生，往往是幸運的，因為他們是聰慧的、明朗的、通透的。與眾不同，也許是他們終生追求的夢想，希望每一個射手人，可以找到他們的夢想！ 人人都說射手座是感情的騙子，對愛情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心與沖滿慾望的象徵。朋友們…你們瞭解射手座最真實的一面嗎？射手座是大孩子，天真與善良，遇到愛情時，可能讓人感覺不認真，付出的比誰都少。可是，知道嗎？射手座很想愛，卻也很怕愛！剛開始他們只是慢慢的付出，謹慎的愛，好怕自己會受傷。可是在一句一句的愛，一天一天的相處下，射手座把帶刺的防備丟掉，開始不顧一切的去愛他們所愛的人，在別人眼中，只是射手座為了達到某種目的而作的行動。可射手座不介意，他會在自己幸福的想像中陶醉，希望對方能感受自己的愛，想對方覺得與自己一齊是幸福的。在射手座愛上了一個人，他會把自己放到最後。有苦自己承擔，可能會因為吵了一場小架而不開心，卻也是最快認錯，無論誰的錯，他們都會包容，知道嗎？射手座會因為深愛一個人而原諒他的背叛，會因為你的一句話付出很多。他們愛玩，在玩的同時，也希望把那一份好心情帶給你，射手座是樂觀的。 人們總覺得射手座的世界很快樂，可是呢？射手座難過時沒有人知道，他不想讓別人可憐自己，射手座不堅強，可是很善良。在你難過時哄你開心，讓你有依靠，分手後，他會哭者去想屬於你們倆幸福的回憶，也不想愛的人因為同情而勉強和他一齊。他比誰都希望自己愛的人快樂幸福，卻常常忽略了自己，全身都是傷也笑著告訴你，我很好不用擔心。 在所有人看到他的笑容以為他沒事，卻不知道失戀對射手座有多大傷害，華麗的外表下有一顆脆弱的需要別人瞭解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一點關心，心思細膩的射手座會記得你對他的好，把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，射手座是不被瞭解的，可他們不會怨誰。他們會傻傻的認為，讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。所以，不要讓快樂的射手座痛苦，別讓他們最有魅力的笑容成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝，認真愛射手座。你會知道射手座的愛，是充滿淚水的...
12:18 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
♥ dumb founded
I was left dumb founded once again by the same question!
It’s the second time that the same question was thrown on me. “what is/are your wish/es?”
It’s rather… sad? Alarming? Whatever you called it. How can I not have any wishes??? Dohz…. Come to think about it, wishes came off my mind so easily in the past. If anyone were to ask me “tell me your wish”, “I’m granting you your wishes, list them!” I would have easily say it out without any delayed!
OMG… This is a sign… I’m losing my focus! That’s bad, really bad….
It’s the second time that the same question was thrown on me. “what is/are your wish/es?”
It’s rather… sad? Alarming? Whatever you called it. How can I not have any wishes??? Dohz…. Come to think about it, wishes came off my mind so easily in the past. If anyone were to ask me “tell me your wish”, “I’m granting you your wishes, list them!” I would have easily say it out without any delayed!
OMG… This is a sign… I’m losing my focus! That’s bad, really bad….
5:43 PM
