Tuesday, May 29, 2007

i feel like shit

i feel like shit.
not just the usual feeling-like-shit-because-i'm-bored-or-tired-or-whatever.
but like real shit.
haha.
what the hell am i doing.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Bridge to Terabithia

Yep it's finally the holidays. Been so busy having fun and working that I've neglected my blog. Either that or I'm just too lazy. Heh. Too many things to do online as well.

Anyway I've recently watched Bridge to Terabithia. It's really an awesome movie. You should watch it. Unless of coz you have absolutely no sense of sentimentality and cannot feel the meaning of emotion and imagination. Haha. How bitchy of me. But I do think it's a movie worth watching. Perhaps there's a portion of it that I can relate to. But you read further, if you intend to watch the movie, don't go on reading the rest of this entry, coz there are going to be some spoilers.

Towards the end of the movie, one of the 2 lead characters, Leslie, dies. The other, a boy named Jess, cannot accept the reality of this, partly because of his guilt he feels towards Leslie's death. The reason he felt this way was because Leslie died in 'Terabithia', because he wasn't there with her as he usually was, and because he wanted to go out with his female teacher alone (he had a crush on her i think) and didn't ask Leslie to join them as he should have. Of course, any one would say it wasn't his fault, after all, who would know what would happen? But I guess I understand how Jess felt. I felt the same way when my own sister had her accident. But I shall not elaborate on that.

I think it's really beautiful how the 2 children could create a whole new world of their own based on merely their own imagination. Amazing how the power of imagination can be really. I found so much meaning in the film. 2 misfits finding solace in each other... and using what they do best to complement each other and find that special friendship. Totally blew me away. And yeah, I cried my ass out at the end of it. Haha.

Bridge to Terabithia. I guess the movie is also trying to tell us how we forget the essence of things around us as we grow older and get caught up too much in the fast pace of life. There's one quote in the movie that I really like: The best prize in life is working hard and doing work worth doing. Many times we forget how fortunate we are to have what we have, and we always tend to seek jobs that gain us either money, prestige or status. But that's not important is it? Doing work worth doing. It's very similar to what someone told me just a few weeks before. Many people are contented with where they are and what they have, and thus do not have the slightest intention of making a difference somewhere. I'm not referring to something big, like the next Mother Teresa or Martin Luther King. But just something small. Volunteering at a children's home. Doing charity work (not merely donating money mind you). Consciously be aware of people around and lending a helping hand whenever possible. It's never always just about you. I'm not perfect. I also forget this point sometimes. But I try. I want to make a difference.

Well, what we can all do now is simply being aware of what's going on around us. Just being aware...