Woots~ I'm sick again. Not the fever kind of sick. The super irritating flu with juice dripping from my nose kind of sick. Lol. Ok, that sounded very gross. =p Oh well. Can't seem to stop sneezing. When it comes, it comes in bouts of at least 5 huge sneezes. And I still haven't eaten dinner! Haha...but my cup noodles is almost ready! =) My appetite is kinda dropping lately. Maybe it's because I'm not under the influence of Wanhua this week. Lol.

So sad...of all days Xintian not around. Haha... sick and alone. Lol. What a crappy woe-is-me tone. But well.... in future I'm definitely gonna make sure I'll never be alone. Not in the sense I must have someone with me at all times..but like I have good friends I can rely on...with a warm loving family...and possibly that special someone. But to me...friends and family are the ones I can really rely and depend on. Best friends that is. Haha...not the mere acquaintances. I really don't need a BG relationship at this phase in my life. Just a needless distraction to my life. I should just get to know more people and make more friends...and in all of these... hopefully find the good few lasting friends for life. =)

All righty...my cup noodles are almost ready. Gonna eat a bit. Ciaox~

Oh man... what an absolutely tiring day. Had driving at 9.50am in the morning...so I left Eusoff at around 8.50am. Met Candy Ho there. What a coincidence! Lol. She's in NTU business...just started learning driving. Haha...haven't seen her since I crashed NJC in J1! Whoa... I feel so old now. After driving, I went to warren to gym. The timings of the buses were all just in time! When I reached the BBDC bus stop, 188 came. When 188 reached CCK bus terminal, the warren bus came. Lol!

Hada good time in the gym. Finally managed to do a decent bit of running. Managed a 6.3km in 33min. Not too bad... but I think I could have done at least a lil better. Probably due to lack of food. I didn't eat breakfast nor lunch. Haha... In fact my first meal today was dinner...first bit of food rather. Before that was just water. Lol. Which reminds me... I lost 1kg! Lol. Yeah~ Some people are probably gonna say I don't know how to look after myself again, but oh well. No time to waste on food today. I caught the 1.40pm shuttle bus out of warren and headed straight for tuition with weiling. 2.30 to 4.30...followed by tuition with Joshua at 5pm to 7pm. Gosh. I'mn dead beat.

Man did I gobble my dinner when I reached home! Lol. Yupx...went home today. Met mum at her shop. Did a bit of grocery shopping before heading home though. Haha... wanted to do a bit of baking! Yupx. I just finished the batter. Now I'm just waiting for them to be baked. Hehehe... gonna share them with Hall mates tmr. Too bad poky will only be back on fri. Haha...I'll save some for her anywayx. ^.^

This one week break is moving kinda fast...yet in a way...not fast enough. Haha... I wonder why.

Gosh I can't believe how late I woke up today! 10am!! That's a record since uni term started. Lol. Well... I slept at around 2 plus am last night...so... it's still not more than 7 or 8 hours of sleep. Lol. But still ... I don't remember waking up so late since term started really.

Well I've been trying to play my guitar... trying is the key word here. Rachel lent me her gospel book of songs...with all the guitar chords! Lol... Yeah~ I'm happily trying to strum to tune...which I must say totally sucks. Furthermore, I don't know all the chords. Wahahaha... only know the basic ones... A, D, G, C...something like that. Hmmm... my problem is mostly with the strumming. I've no idea how to strum. It keeps going just down-down-down-down... wahahhaha... it's supposed to have some sort of variation right? Guess I'll just ask Rachel when she gets back from netball trials.

Speaking of which, there's softball trials for IHG tmr! Hahaha..might just wanna try for it. Damn fun to play manx. Still remember my PE sessions in JC. I play well most of the time...except the odd moments when I suddenly can't catch the simplest throw...and lose the game for us. Lol. Kevin Ang (my PE teacher) never ever let me live that one down. In fact he never lets me live down any single one of my embarrassing moments. Tsk. All my PE teachers just enjoy suaning me to no end. Wahahaha... something about me that invites suaning. Lol. And bullying.

All righty... let me get back to my guitar a while...den I shall start a bit of studying. LOL!

It's now my one week recess break. Lol. Time for a good rest...NOT! Time to catch up on work... So far I've wasted my weekend. Lol, haven't done much stuff...other than doing tuition of course. And I think I'm falling sick. Been having flu more frequently recently. Perhaps it's due to my lack of sleep. Speaking of which I've been sleeping wayyyy to little. I think I average only about 4 to 5 hours of sleep a day. Haha... apart from studying I suppose I'm just spending time with my friends. Doing some self-reflection...just finding the need to have a good break I suppose. Now that the 'break' is here, it's time for me to do some work. My term papers and project are due soon after this recess week.

I'm really enjoying sharing a room with Xintian. Haha...my best friend of almost 7 years. It's nice to have someone you can confide in...share your problems with...do things together...and she's just on the other side of the room! Wahahaha...how cool is that? Staying in hall is fun...friends are just down the corridor...you can easily find someone to hang out with after studying...just simply go for dinner/supper together. Making lots of new friends around too...as well as strengthening old friendships from before...like Rachel. Never really knew her till now. Lol...probably because we were house rival captains before. Heh. Most of my current hall buddies are from Xintian's OG. Haha...wasn't really close to mine. Let's see... Rachel, Tiffany, Ghim Chuan, Christine, Jiarui, Kim Ong...anyone else? lol. Then a couple from Kim's OG...and some other friends who live in my block. Hehe...we got closer because of IBG. Hee...oh btw... B block achieved 4 golds!
Boys - Touch Rugby, Sepak Takraw
Girls - Soccer, Basketball

Let me say that I scored a goal in basketball! Yeah~! Haha..who says short people can't play basketball huh. Lol. We weren't expecting the win either. We were up against A block. They trashed us in the heats 22-4... now we won them 8-4! YEAH~! Hahaha...fantastic match I must say.

Had lunch with David, Kim and Wailreng yesterday. Haven't seen David in ages!!! Wahahaha... super happy man. And he grew another 3cm... he's 184cm now! Wahahaha... that's like 30cm taller than me. Boohoo. After lunch at Sakae Sushi, we went to the arcade. Played this starwars race game. We played 3 times. First time - I got 3rd. Second time - I got 2nd. Third time - I got first!! Wahahaha.. and I was the only one to complete the race! Wahahhaha...the first 2 times we played..no one completed the race before the time ran out. Woots! So fun. =p Yeah yea i know... we are overaged. But what the heck..gotta let loose the kid once in a while right?

Had dinner with Hafiz at Great World City...Siam Kitchen. Woots he treated me to dinner~ Haha... he insisted on treating me in fact. Tsktsk...some people just dunno how to save money. Lol. Had a nice chat and stuff...den we walked around a bit. Headed to orchard after that coz I wanted to check out Popular for a N level math TYS for my tutee... couldn't find it. What a wasted trip. Lol...so we just wandered about the food fair at Ngee Ann city for a bit. Was getting tired so we decided to call it a day after that.

I lost my guitar pick! I wanted to bring it to hall to practise on my guitar... guess I left it in one of my pockets or something...coz I can't find it now. Boohoo. Oh well. It was given to me by a friend. Guess I gotta go get one myself now. I hate losing stuff that people give. Speaking of guitar... I still can't play for nuts! Sheesh... no musical talent. Need to try harder. Kim Ong plays damn well. Should get him to teach me. Lol. He let me listen to some X Japan stuff...they're way cool! Perhaps I should borrow from him one of these days. Pity he went back KL for a bit...otherwise could make use of this week-long break to have a good few lessons. Wahahaha...

All right. Should get ready to return to hall now. Adios~

Joy Enriquez :: How Can I Not Love You
Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss,
Cannot have eachother
Must be strong, and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do i not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
Cannot dream,
Cannot share,
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel,
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you?
Must be brave, and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you when you are gone?

"Never Alone"

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

[Chorus:]I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

[Chorus]

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

[Chorus]

Just want to mention something before I head for bed...

Today I went back to PJC with Janna... we went really early in the morning...before assembly started infact. I left Eusoff at 6am since I was supposed to meet Janna at 7am at PJ bus stop. Turned out we were both a lil late. We met up at 7.30am instead. Lol.

Well it was really really nice to see all the teachers again. Miss them alot..especially Mdm Shafa, Ms Aw, Ms Lim...sigh. Wish I could be back in JC. Haha.. but anyway, what I wanted to say was what happened in a little conversation between Ms Aw, Janna and me.

We were just teasing me Ms Aw about her being popular since a couple students had came up to her since we started talking, to give her Teachers' Day gifts. Then the subject of the gift we gave her this year when we collected our A level results came up. My clique, including Akbar, gave me a huge photo frame consisting of a photo collage of all the pictures I had taken over these two years of my class - 04S02. Told her how Kat, Akbar and I had spent so much time piecing the photos and arranging them nicely...that included cutting various pieces and putting them into weird and comical positions. Anyway, Ms Aw said that whenever she was frustrated or upset, she would look at the photos...and remember how 'alive' my class made her feel before. Well basically she said that despite the difficulties she faces now as a teacher, she would still remember us and know that she could teach...that she could make a difference...that there were people who appreciated her. Know what? She actually teared while saying it! Ms Aw! THE Ms Aw was actually tearing! OMG!

Man I was sooooo touched! Ms Aw never never ever displayed any form of such personal inner emotions with us...mainly such things that moved her. We would know if she liked certain things or not, but she would always joke around and half-deny etc...so this display of emotion comes as a first for me and Janna. My gosh.

Never knew my class actually reached out to her that much. I guess to a teacher, it's the students who show appreciation that make the job worthwhile. I could only hope to have such students when I become a teacher next time...