Raining heavily...it just has a way of ruining things doesn't it? Was on the way to this Scholar's choice seminar. Walking to the interchange...then it started pouring cats and dogs..and mice and cows and donkeys...Haha...totally changed my mind about going. After all, I hadn't really felt like attending anyway. The rain just weakened my resolve to go. I'm more interested in Australian Universities. This seminar offered those from UK and US. The only reason I wanted to attend was because it might give me more ideas as to what other career options I might choose...and perhaps plus the fact it's free. Wahaha...cheapo Singaporean huh?

Less than 100 days left to A levels. I'm terrified I won't perform up to expectations. Apparently my name is on the list that is sent to all the teachers - stating the names of students who didn't perform up to expectations. Well they were pretty much shocked to see one name from 04S02...REBECCA TAN. Lol. Oh well.

Anyway, David asked Ms Aw during chem lesson if she had marked the transition metals test papers yet. She said that she only marked the MCQ section. The average was about 7. I thought that well, at least it's a pass isn't it? Then David asked what was the highest.
Ms Aw: I think Teck hean...with a 8 or 9....wait...I think someone got full marks. David, I think it's you leh...

Crap!!! Haha... I was indignant! Lol. Was competing with David for this test you see. So I asked Ms Aw if she remembered how much I got.
Ms Aw: I can't remember leh...
David: Is it 11?
Ms Aw: Oh yar! I think so leh...

Man...David was so gleeful. Lol. Never mind... still got the open-ended part. *cross fingers*

I am so damn scared. Very very very scared.

What if I can't make it? I seriously don't know.

I'm afraid it's too late. Everyone expects a lot from me. I guess I have the ability somewhere...but...what if?

Don't know. Just study first.

Pray.

Sigh. Damn tired now. Like really super tired. Haha...probably due to a lack of sleep. I've been waking up at 3am during the weekdays, and sleeping around 11 plus each night. I get more sleep during the weekends of coz. Wouldn't torture myself so much...but hey, I work a lot better in the wee hours of the morning, as in the period after waking up, not before. Perhaps I should do the same during the weekends too. Need to do major mugging now that I only have about 90 days left to A levels.

I can't seem to be able to save money! Sigh...spend spend spend. No matter how hard I try to save...there always seem to be something I need to pay for - class funds, prom, presents...sigh. Damn broke. I hate spending so much like this. I want to save up for my mp3! Looks like that will never happen. No matter...I can still use my discman.

NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! Faty old me. Shorty old me. Haha...how does one lose weight? I've got tons of spare tires. Need to rid myself of them. Oh well. Time to get back to more important business for now...mugging...

I'm getting very tired lately...not that I'm burdened with tons of work or anything...I just can't seem to find the energy. I'm kinda like always lagging behind or something. Maybe it's because I'm eating lesser in school now. Pretty cleared out this month so I've gotta save up a bit. Hardly have any cash left for meals in school so I either wait till I get home to eat, or I bring food from home. And for those who know me...I can't help but look longing at those lovely warm bowls of soup or steaming hot plates of rice my friends eat. Lol. Oh well. I can learn to live with it.

:(

I broke the ring that Desmond and David gave me as a souvenir from Australia!!! :( I'm terribly upset...I can't believe I spoilt something that someone gave to me!! And that was a really nice ring too...it's made of iron ore. I guess that was why it broke so easily when I accidentally dropped it. Well actually it slid off my fingers coz the ring was a little big. AHHH!! Sigh...I saved the pieces though...*sobs*

I think I suffer from Obsessive-Compulsive behaviour...and I think it's getting steadily worse. I don't know what's wrong with me really. I haven't been truly myself recently, or rather, I'm becoming a much-too-extreme version of myself. Bad...I don't really know how to describe it. I can just feel it I guess. *shrugs*

My mid year results were pretty bad. As expected anyway...considering the lack of work I did during the June hols. Haha...don't know what came over me. Oh well...anyway, considering my O grade in my physics paper, I naturally assumed I'd be down for the remedial...but today the teacher announced that only one guy in my class was down for it! After the lesson, I asked why I wasn't in. He said, "Physics remedial is for those who need to be pushed. You need to be pushed meh? Don't need right? But if I see that you don't deserve this privilege, I'll whip you ar!" LOL! Surprised as I was, I'm super pleased! Coz physics remedial is held during my short day...giving me a break of 3 hours before the remedial starts...Lol....thank my lucky stars!...well, maybe except for the ring.

My dad is finally coming home today! He's been in Vietnam for the last five days...and he's finally coming home! :D His flight is coming in at 9.45pm and we're gonna pick him up! Yeah~! I miss my dad so much manz. Absense makes the heart grow fonder. It's separations like these that make you cherish your relationships more. That is if you have a good relationship with them in the first place I guess? I know 5 days isn't exactly a long time...but hey, I'm a sentimental freak...the separation period for the 'I-miss-you' feeling to occur is decreased by at least 10 times. Lol.

Time to study now~! Mugger beck...hehe...

Zoo outing~

I had a zoo outing with Group 3 today! Ok, maybe not the whole group, just Weijie, Pauling, Weishan, Nafeeza, Hafizah and Chris Fok. Haha...not a whole lot of people, but hey, we still had fun! Tons of it~ :p

Well, I woke up late. Supposed to meet the rest at 10am at CCK control station but I overslept! Wouldn't even have woken up if not for Mark messaging me at 9.45am. Yep, that's the time I woke up. Horrible of me right? Goodness...I can't believe myself either. One of the rare times I actually oversleep...and of all days to do it too! Oh well, maybe it's because I was having this cool dream of this particular horse. It was magnificent I tell ya! A huge BLACK STALLION. Totally gorgeous! And it's so smart! When I want to get on, I'd only have to tell him so and he'd kneel down for me to go up! Haha...weird dream really. I was supposed to do some quest or something and I rode the horse all the way to wherever I was supposed to go...and it even climbed the stairs and stuff! Really cool! Man I so wanna learn to horse-ride; I did say I would after A levels...that's like so late! I wanna learn it now! Haha...but no time la. I haven't been studying as well as I ought to already. Sigh...I love horses...

Anyway, I met the rest at the zoo instead. Got them to go there first to Nafeeza who was heading there straight. Didn't want her to wait there by herself when it's my fault I overslept. Haha...well, we kinda just walked through the whole zoo area. We saw loads of animals! The sunbear, camels, maned wolf, polar bear...just to name a few. We even went to see the wild dogs....Weijie was so funny! Just because of the 'dog' part...he was terrified of seeing them! And they were like in such a great distance away...lolx. Damn cute. Then again, he agreed in the end that the wild dogs didn't really seem like dogs, probably due to their multi-coloured coat. Lol.

I so love the wild cats area too! Haha...have a thing for the big cats. I think they're really beautiful. All the intricate designs of their lovely coats. Haha...and we heard the roar of the lion! Damn loud! Haha...do you know that a lion's roar can heard for a 8km radius? Fortunately for my ears, the Alpha male didn't perform his best roar today...or I'll be deaf. Haha...and it was a loud and hallow-sounding roar nonetheless. Awesome!

Ahh yes, the reptile garden! Nafeeza's favourite place. Don't ask me why she has a fetish for snakes. Lol...but don't get me wrong. I think they're splendish creatures - they just aren't my favourites that's all. Heh. Well, it was here that Nafeeza had to leave. Her grandma is ill so she couldn't stay any longer. Quite sad...oh wellz, hope her grandma is fine though. :)

We had lunch next...at KFC at this children's play area...it was really crowded! Probably because it was lunch time. Lol. Had a short lunch and we were off again. This time, Hafizah had to leave...so it was just 5 of us left. Goodness...seems pretty little doesn't it? But number is not a factor in having fun right? Hehe...anyway, let me tell you two traumatic experience of mine: first, I was walking towards the play area when suddenly the girls started squealing and shrieking. I stood rock-still and anxiously asked what was wrong...the guys just stood there and gaped. Dots. Suddenly I felt something thrashing about my leg and when I looked down, I saw a SNAKE. I was stepping on its step and so it couldn't escape! I gave a shriek and jumped away, and hid behind Weishan....LOL! It wasn't that I was terrified of the snake...but it did give me quite a huge shock! It's just a small snake actually. Those kind of grass snake or garter snake I think. Poor thing...hope I didn't hurt it too bad...but considering my weight... :( Anyway, the next thing was that I was walking and chatting to Weishan and Pauling when suddenly this little girl in front of me suddenly yelled out, "LIZARD!" I gave a jump back and missed stepping on this baby monitor lizard by mere centimetres! Goodness....appears to me that I keep causing almost-deaths to innocent animals there...rather than appreciating them. Lol.

Another stop was the Animal Land. More like farmland to me...the animals there were all of the farm type - sheep, goats, pigs, cows, ponies...and HORSES! They're almost like that in my dream...just that they're brown instead of the black station I had. But they're magnificent nevertheless! I kept on trying to pet their flanks, necks, face...lol...even if I had to go through the bushes to do it. Hehe...I really LOVE horses to bits! Hehe...Oh, and there was the animal show! Weijie was so funny! He was so scared! Haha...I shall not say what...don't wanna embarrass him further. Lol...Anyway, the animal show was about three dogs: Charlie, Brandy and Major. Hehe.. two brother Border Collies and one Rough collie. Pretty! :) And way smart....Major could climb up to the roof of this wooden shed! It had to be at least 2 metres high...

We caught the last animal show...which was the sealion show. They're such intelligent creatures! Haha...never got a cue wrong at all. Such sleek animals! I really wanna know how they feel like though... and to end the whole show, this Alpha male sealion got the whole front row wet by splashing out lots of water out of the tank! Lol...we were sitting in the second row and got a little wet as well...though I must say it was way better than the first row...LMAO!

Met Mark in IKEA and we all had dinner there. After waiting ages to get a table...we finally settled down to eat at about 8.15pm. HaHa... Food at last! I was having a headache from the lack of glucose in my brain manz. The food is great as always...next time I have to go there with Mum, then I can get more food...Lol...since she will then pay. I'm dead broke manz...what with all the presents of the bday pple this month. Wahaha...we finally left the place at about 9 plus.

All I can say is that we truly did have a roving good time! Hehe...well, there's gonna be another outing next Sunday. We're gonna support Alvin's band performance at Botanic Gardens. Haha...at least we don't have to spend so much money this time. Heh.