Had physics lesson with Mr Loo and some of the pre-u seminar peeps from 9am to 11am. On my way home, I was reading in the bus...and missed my stop again. Oh well...surprisingly I didn't sweat under the blistering heat while walking back to the right stop.

Went shopping with Mum in the afternoon for some pre-u sem stuff too. Mainly my clogg(is it spelt like that?) shoes actually...the rest were just bought simply becoz we were shopping. Lol. Oh well. I enjoy shopping with mum...not just because she pays for everything :p but also because I finally can spend some time with her, and not be disrupted by work, whether it's hers or mine.

In the food paradise in Ngee Ann City, I saw this really good-looking caucasian. Lol. Reminds me of Kevin Richardson perhaps...which is why I find him dashing. Mum didn't quite agree with my taste, but then again, we never did have the same taste in men. Lol. The guy saw my mum looking at him and he had this 'what?' look on his face. So cute~ But he has a pretty girlfriend with him la. Lol....

Hmmm...my friends tell me that I've changed. I don't know...have I? I never realised. They say I sometimes have this blank/faraway look on my face and when they try to get my attention, I don't answer. Strange. I don't recall any of that. I'm told that I'm different from before...and it's not a good change either. Tell me where have I gone wrong... is it because I'm too busy all the time? Perhaps I should have stayed in SAJC instead of transferring back to PJC. Too late for that anyway. Am I really crazier than before? Do I seem even more stressed up now? Perhaps it's because of the appraoching A levels. I don't know. I worry for my future. I'm afraid things won't turn out the way I want it to. I want a constant in my life...and so far...nothing has been constant...except change...

I'm so so so so so so tired....I almost fell asleep during the GP paper today. Can you believe that? And it's not like I didn't sleep enough...I dunno...I'm just so tired. Like screw everything man. SCREW IT. I'M BLOODY PISSED OFF.

My school sucks. I finally realised it. Took me almost 18 months to realise.

~.~

I just realised both of them have the same initials. This is so interesting. Lol. Perhaps it just means it wouldn't last as long as well.

Haha...What can I say?

I'm now at the school library blogging...feeling so down today. I don't know why. I feel like skipping a few lessons. But exams are coming...I shouldn't do that right? Sigh...so muh for feeling motivated. It has all dispersed...

A not so nice ending

The day finally arrived - 25th May 2005...my last day of house duty so to speak. Sigh...it didn't turn out as smoothly as I hoped, but well...it's over now.

The entire day was a rushed one for me. Had to see Mr Tan Boon Piang...turned out I was a student assistant for the fire drill session today...as well as Mr Kwek at 10am...for some speaker's corner thingy on Sunday, when the Minister and some MPs were supposed to tour the area, including our college. Missed almost an hour of chemistry lesson because of that meeting with Mr Kwek.

It was freezing cold and wet in the morning...and the exact opposite in the afternoon. So it was pretty fortunate for me that I was one of the student assistants for the fire drill (I got to sit in the shade with the teachers! :p). Everyone else had to stand under the blazing hot sun.

Following that was Pioneerama! I think it was pretty good. I watched it mainly to support Akbar and Gerald. :) When they came out, we all screamed! No, not in support initially...but because they were dressed like...OMG! Haha...Akbar was wearing his wig, together with a bandana. Goodness, he looked like a drug addict. Lol. Gerald's was a riot! He wore geeky clothes! Did a side parting...plus those kind of stretchy belts people used to wear over their shoulders connecting to their pants? Haha...and he wore high socks with working shoes! Oh man...oh yea...plus a pair of olden day sunglasses! Super dorky! Haha...the whole band also consisted of Hafiz who was the drummer, and two more guitarist. Akbar also played the guitar and Gerald was the singer. Well, to tell the truth, the performance wasn't as good as I expected...but hey, you guys still rock man! I guess it's just sound system. I was straining to hear Gerald's voice! The bass and everything else was way too loud. The last band (consisting of J1s) appeared much better because the singer's mike was way louder than Gerald's...the ability of the audience to hear the singing is very important I guess? Oh well...Well done Akbar and Gerald! Still love you guys...

Right...for the major event of today - the House Carnival. Sigh... No, cannot sigh. Curie did pretty well actually. Only that I was running all over the place looking for my runners...Lolx...but they all did turn up at the end! :) Proud of Curie. Haha...the only scary thing was that Gerald and Akbar were late...forgot that their race was the first one...oh well. Fortunately my darling odacians waited for my runners. Hehe...upon my begging of course. Lol. Oh well.

I'm like so darn proud of my champion teams! My 4x400m guys (Daniel, Darrell, Gabriel and Senthil) and 10x200m (too many...lol) Mr Alvin Yap ran in 10 by 200m as well...Gosh was he FAST! I so didn't regret putting him in man. We were all screaming in estasy when we saw how he sprinted. Goodness...I totally underestimated him...sorry Mr Yap! I loved watching my 4x400m guys run...Knew I could count on them. As for the 4x400m girls. The other Curie team achieved a second place. Sigh...my team could have gotten first I guess...but we switched runners...that plus I didn't arrange my team to suit our paces...Oh well...don't talk about it. At least everyone did their best and that's what matters. I don't need a medal.

As for now...I hope Curie can get first...I really and truly hope so...

Sigh

Just watched 'Hotelier'. It's this Korean drama which starred Bae Yong Jun. Man...he looks smashing in there! I just love the plot a lot. Well, it's my favourite Korean Drama. You know most korean dramas are so full of tears and such...Hotelier has the least of such nonsensical crying. I dunno...I just love the whole show so much! Haha...I love BYJ's character in that drama - playing the part of the cold aloof stranger yet having such passion for someone he loves. lolx...okok, don't gag on me. I'm just a sucker for such stuff. You have to watch it to fully appreciate it. Even my brother watched a few episodes of it. Hehe...Man, I keep thinking of the show! Haven't been studying since fri...:P So much for a long weekend huh.

Sigh...so little time left. I have a week less than most people coz of Pre-U Sem. And moreover, it's during the week when all the lectures and extra tutorials are held. Oh well. What can I say? I just have to try and put in more effort now. *stressed* Sometimes I wonder why can't I just have something simple as a career goal? Working in a hotel doesn't seem like such a bad idea after all...Lol, nah, I think it's just because of the show. I wish I had some particular talent...like a musical talent for instance...so I could just be a piano teacher. Easy...

Oh well. Anyway, there's this song by Guang Liang which I totally love now. It's Tong Hua... love that song...Haha...wish it could happen to me sia. :p I'm day-dreaming...

Energise my life

I'm suddenly motivated to study hard! Haha...had a relief teacher for math today. Good thing too! Almost any teacher is better than Alice Seah. Heh. =p Ok, that's mean. But hey, this relief teacher, Mr Tan, is a whole lot more friendly and well, he is just able to relate to us better I guess. He's so darn funny manz. Called Kee Onn Porky cause Keeonn called Akbar a black dog. LOL! Man, can you imagine any other teacher saying the same thing? Except maybe Kevin Ang and Mr Kwok. But...Mr Tan is whole lot better looking la...so...lol.

Well, he's darn smart. 4 As and 2 S-paper distinctions! Oh man...and he's from RJC. Haha...almost went there myself. Dunno why, I'm just motivated to do better. He did talk to me about my vet career...a little. He's doing medicine in NUS. Haha...he does seem to know his stuff. He actually knows which university I'm refering to when I said Murdoch and that I wanted to aim for a scholarship from AVA. Heh. He's real motivating. Oh wellz.

Time for me to do my NYAA award book. After that...bio...chem...boo...

What kind of girl am I?

You're a sporty tom boy. That's not a bad thing.
You're friendly, competitive, athletic, and you
love to have fun. You attract a lot of guy
friends and make many girls jealous. Don't pay
attention to them. A lot of boys might think
you are aggressive and might be intimidated.
Don't worry, show them the other side of you
that makes people so attracted to your fun
personality. You also are a profectionist. You
have to be good at everything. But please don't
stress yourself out. You're just fine the way
you are.

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You're a sporty tom boy. That's not a bad thing.
You're friendly, competitive, athletic, and you
love to have fun. You attract a lot of guy
friends and make many girls jealous. Don't pay
attention to them. A lot of boys might think
you are aggressive and might be intimidated.
Don't worry, show them the other side of you
that makes people so attracted to your fun
personality. You also are a profectionist. You
have to be good at everything. But please don't
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you are.

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Curie rocks!

Heh~! This is actually about yesterday's heats. I was so really darn happy! Curie was the only house whose runners ALL turned up! Really jubilant about it. :) Bellini didn't have any teams in the heats in the first place; Hawking only had three of their teams turning up; Fleming also had three; Gama had 4. Well, the truly exciting thing was that Curie won three of the five events yesterday! :D Both 4x400m for guys and girls, and the medley relay (the medley is a race where there are 4 runners, 2 guys and 2 girls. 2 people must run 100m, one runs 200m and the last runs 400m.). Pretty cool huh? We were all jumping like anything! However, the first 2 races were the 4x100m races, both of which we did pretty badly. So we got kind of demoralised...but it didn't affect the result of the rest of our races! Yea man! Curie Go Go GO! Oh yea...Gama won the girls 4x100m and Hawking got the guys 4x100m. But now that Curie got an extra team in the finals....we're so gonna rock!

In case you don't understand. There are supposed to be 2 teams from each house per event. Actually a compulsory team A who will go to the straight finals, team B is supposed to go the heats and compete with the other team Bs. Only the best house will get into the finals. Meaning the house that gets through the heats into the finals will have 2 teams in the finals...meaning a higher chance. Moreover, as long as you are in the finals...even if you get last...you have points. In fact, the last gets 3 points. First gets 9, second gets 7, third gets 6...and so on...

Well, I ran my 2.4km run today. Sucks like crap. So gonna run again next week. I can't stand it! :p

Incomplete!

*scream!* I'm watching BSB's new vidoe - "Incomplete". DAMN NICE! Haha...I totally love the video. I'm watching it over and over...no need to study anymore. Heh. Man I totally love Kevin! Haha...but Howie looks really...full of emotion in the video. *Swoons* Haha. Okok, I shall TRY to get a grip on myself.

Don't know what's wrong with me today man. Kept whining a lot. Even left my house at the latest possible moment. Hmmm...but still reached school at around 7.10am. Hmmm...about half an hour later than the time I normally reach...but still considered earlier than most in the school. Hehe...complained a lot of Sam today. He thought I'd gone bonkers! Haha...perhaps I have. Don't know what I took up so much duties before. Now everything is just taking their toll on me. Damn tired. Feel like just giving up on it all, though I know it's impossible. Sigh. I feel so dumb man. I feel so envious of Kim now...she doesn't have much to take care of. Even her CCA is only once a week! Man...should have done the same.

Still feeling the effects of a lack of sleep for the whole of Friday night (due to ODAC induction camp). Lucky (or unluckily...I miss a lot of the fun man...) I didn't follow the rest to Pulau Ubin, or I'd have been eve more shagged. Missed the second day because of Pre-U seminar. And after that, my mum still brought me to tutor some of her colleague's kids. Man...I could have died! Felt so damn tired...but still had to spend 5hours tutoring some not-very-smart primary school kid. Winner right? Oh well...

I don't wanna go school....