Another day at home...

Sigh. Was supposed to go tree-climbing today with Xintian or Xinyan at Sembawang Park. An invitation from Mr Boh, my college's discipline master cum PE teacher. Alas, it was raining in the morning in the north area, so the activity was postponed. Guess what? It's postponed to tomorrow at 9am to 1pm. I can't make it then because I have to do some charity ticket selling for Singapore After Care Association from 11.30am to 1.30pm. What a clash. Oh well. Anyway, the charity is in relation to the Yellow Ribbon Project. I really hope we can raise enough. My group is supposed to raise $3000. Don't even know if that is possible. Oh wellz...

So now I'm at home at the computer again. Really nothing else to do...except maybe studying. But I haven't the mood. Besides, with school starting soon...I have ample time to study. What could I be doing online the whole day then? Haha...well, Ive been reading Harry Potter fanfiction. Heehee...not on harry potter himself though, but on the other characters, mainly Remus Lupin and Hermione Granger. Lolx. Older guy, younger girl. Don't laugh.

Maybe I could get down to writing my own story. Lolx...I'm already in the midst of one. It's kinda dedicated to Serena, my cousin and myself. Haha...weird pairings that you can never imagine in real life. It's pretty fun to write actually. Just that I haven't got any inspiration at the moment. So I've been putting it on hold and writing other people's fanfiction. Heehee...

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Haha...this is supposed to be a time for joy...but I'm so darn bored now. Bro's sleeping...probably pissed off with me coz he wants to watch LOTR return of the kings extended version on my com and i was watching harry potter prisoner of azkaban. Lolx. Oh well. Anyway...every Xmas eve, I'm supposed to have a huge xmas party at my place...but due to some renovations this year...my mum changed it to a new year eve party. So...this is a pretty bad xmas for me I must say. Sigh...

Hmmm...someone sent me a Xmas card...without signing his/her name...just wrote 'you-know-who'...Haha...I have no idea however. Oh well...

School restarting soon. As much as i love school...i don't really wanna start school again. Can't get back into the hang of things. Sigh...

Don't...

Don't say you do when you really know you don't
Don't say you will when you know that you won't
Don't lie to me to try to steal my heart
Don't tell me that you hope that we will never part
Don't hurt my feelings, Don't make me cry
Don't say that without me you will die
Don't lie, Don't cheat
Don't break my heart. Tell the truth, Keep it real
It would be best if we were apart...

New blogskin!

Haha...I think I've sorta grown out of the previous one...not that I don't like animals. But I feel it's time for a change. Besides...I love this skin! Hahaha...Nice or not? Comments please! :)

Sigh...i'm so bored at home right now. No mood to study...no mood to do anything... lalala...tell me why...Sigh...

AHH!! My cousin has gone to HongKong with her friends today!!! For six whole days! Lucky pig...just she and her two pals alone. Man...I'll really be praying for their safety too. They're all a year younger than me. Three teen girls going HK shopping. Well, they've been duly warned by their parents not to shop too late I expect. Man, I miss my cuz already! Recently she and I have been writing (I'm the one doing the writing actually, she chips in ideas...lolx!) this story. Wahaha... her significant other in the story is Cristiano Ronaldo from Man U, and mine is...Haha... Hmm...Serena's in it too...so's Teck...Lol, Serena, this is actually the story meant for u, but since I put it off for so long, quite a few characters are erm, shall I say...outdated? Lolx. Oh well...

I must say it's getting interesting. Pity my cousin's not around...but I promised her a few more chapters done and ready for her to read when she returns.

This holiday is really zooming by quickly. Just a few more weeks... and the following few weeks wouldn't be really enjoyable at my house...there are gonna be tons of renovation going on. Dang...and my dad wants me to remain home as much as I can so I help to oversee the renovating...it's gonna be a looooooooong two weeks. Thank goodness for the OBS reprive in the middle of it!

Just quit my job today. Sucks man...no money no nothing...and still got chased out of the office. Lol...wasn't my fault that I got chased out of the office. My friend was being rather...temperamental...LOL! Damn funny...everything she predicted that the guy would say came true. It's kinda funny wanting to laughing while you are being scolded.

I'm so upset!!! I can't find my darling Josh Groban CD!!!! Dang...don't know who the hell took it out of my radio. I love that CD the most! And it just had to be the one that goes missing...RAH!

I still miss you...like crazy...

whooopeeeeeeeeeee~! NEwNew came back yesterday!!! A group of us went to pick her up. Wahahaha..10 pm at the airport. Guess what? She has her driving lisence!! She even took us for a drive around the carpark! About 9 of us squished into her dad's car...and we were all crying blue murder at every turn she took! "Hump! Slow down!...CAr car caR!!! WAtch it!...Ahhh!! Turn turn!!" Lol!!! She could drive perfectly well, but we were all making her nervous...lolx!

Oh manz...this is like so damn cool la...next time my boyfriend had better know how to drive. Wahaha!!!

Lalalalalla...on high now!! Just watched the Incredibles!!! It was fantastic! In fact, it was INCREDIBLE!!! wahahahahah... oh well... I would really love to watch it again man. Wahahaha...maybe after i finish up my surveys. Hope the movie will still be on...

Hmmm...taught Xinyan physics and math yesterday. Oh man...I actually taught her questions i didn't know how to do during the promo paper! Dang...I could have gotten full marks... wahahah! *dream on*

Hmmm...Jingyun gonna borrow accessories from me for her prom. Aiyo...it's not like I have fantastic stuff to lend. But Oh well, I'll help my little cuz when I can...LITTLE, yar rite...she's taller than me. wahaha...in fact, anyone is taller than me...lolx

wooo...mahjong...i won again! heehee....i'm pro manz.. 

i won~! 

wah... 

nice huh....too bad we are too old...this is for the kids.. 

windblown... 

wahhhhhhhhhhh 

ying, me rachel 

ying hua rachel 

settling in... 

Man...i just gotta say this... I love going to cruise!! Especially with my friends. Yupz~! Think it's kinda romantic if you go on cruise with your boyfriend or girlfriend...not as a honeymoon when you get married la..that's like so dots...but like just some sort of a date. Really cool...aahahha.. but expensive sia. Wait till i earn my big bucks. But perhaps that time, I'd probably wanna go places like London and Paris...whoa~! >.<

sorry people...too lazy to blog about my cruise trip. wahahha...if you wana know about it...either chat with me thru msn...or ... ask me wadeva...lolx.

extended my survey work yesterday...now at clementi...51 more surveys...aiyo...after this i refuse to do anymore. Sian...earning money is so difficult.

I wanna watch the incredibles!!! Who wanna watch with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Dreaming of you by Selena

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there)
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you, yes i do!

I'll dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

(BRIDGE)
Ahh-AhhI can't stop dreaming of you
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that
You came up to me and said
I love you
I love you too

I'll be dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world l'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

(CHORUS OUT)

Clay Aiken-
oo o o

Never even thought to cry
when I heard you say good-bye
never said where you were goin

There's no laughter in the air
only silence everywhere
and so much left unspoken

Since you been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could seewho's to blame

(Chorus)
Without you where do I belong?
Without you how can i go on?
and no love like yours wil ever do
tell me how am I supposed to live my life?
without you

Kimberley Locke-
ooooooooooooooooooo

Was so lost in you and me
to the point I couldn't see
that what we had was dying

Now its all that I can do
to see photographs of you
and stop myself from cryin'
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories
but its not enough

(chorus) (both Clay and Kimberly sing together this time)

Clay- I feel helpless and oh so all alone
Kimberly-Like I never felt before
You made me feel alive

Both- but I don't know what it's like anymore

Kimberly- without you how do I go on?
(chorus)
without you how

Watched this programme on the Animal Planet just now. ‘The Extremes’. About the top 10 most disgusting creatures on the planet. It was mighty interesting though. The housefly ranked number one. Haha…did you know maggots are used in intensive care to treat wounds that don’t respond to modern-day antibiotics? ‘Cause these maggots only eat the dead cells and tissue, as well as bacteria…thus allowing the wound to heal properly. Cool huh? Though I must admit it’s pretty disgusting to see the maggots on your body, eating away at your wound. And I HATE maggots! Bad experience you see… =p

Some of the top ten were the Giraffe, the Koala, the Jackal, one type of Goat, the Cow, the Sea Cucumber, the Vulture, this type of seawater creature that looks like an eel… and one more which was number 10 and I didn’t catch it.

Well, let’s start with the giraffe. It’s 18-inch long tongue is used not only for grabbing the leaves off trees, but also to wipe its face and (would you believe it?!!) its nostrils…. They even had a clip on one giraffe digging its nose with its tongue! Oh my…ewww…let me tell you I was eating my breakfast when I was watching this show.

The Koala. You know the koala know eats the Eucalyptus tree right? It’s actually poisonous, but the adult koala has bacteria which can detoxify the poison. The babies, on the other hand, do not have these bacteria. So guess what do they eat? The FAECES of the adults! Coz the shit of the adults have these bacteria…oh God…talk about a shitty meal…

Hmm…the Jackal. The Jackal usually eats rotting carcasses. And the food that mama brings home for the kids…are well, already in her stomach. Yes, she vomits it all out for her kids to eat. And whatever the kids has left over, she gobbles it back up. *feeling sick*
And for that species of goat. During the mating season, the male will chase the female all over the place…kinda like a tag game. But to tell whether the female is really interested in mating with him…the male will drink her urine and check the messages! AHHH! No more kissing for you big boy…

Right, the cow. They can belch and fart up to 90 gallons of methane gas a day! *pinch nose* And 400 cows can give out enough gas to fill up a hot air balloon in a day. Oh man…but that is one heck of a smelly balloon..

okok...will continue later...gotta go!

Continued my survey work today. Met Hua at 11am to pass her the money for cruise first. Man am I bloody broke now. Sigh...then headed to the designated addresses for the survey work. Sucks...first it started pouring heavily, then people started slamming the door in my face. Felt totally lousy. Decided to quit after 3 flats and walked the downpour to the bus stop about 100m walk away. Totally drenched...but I didn't care.

Do I give up easily? I don't know...perhaps I do. I am the 'lone' kind of person...I hate being alone. I can't be alone...I screw things up doing them alone...in that case, how can I be considered a good leader? I can't lead. I can't motivate. How do I inspire others when I can't even motivate myself? Man I'm such a loser...

Anyway...watched confessions of a teenage drama queen when I got home. Wahaha...really good show. I love lindsay Lohan!! Haha, she rocks. I wish I could as talented. =)

Did my survey work again..this time with Zhaoxin. Got 2 done. F-i-n-a-l-l-y...lolx.. I did all I could for the day then helped Zhaoxin with hers...had to leave at 7pm though...so couldn't stay with her throughout. Ah well...but we both gotta finish our surveys by tue...Whoa...don't think it's possible...

Your an ice dragon! Congrats! Out of all the
dragons, you are most powerful but do not like
to show it. A rare and special creture, you
have artistic style and are great at expressing
yourself. You think friends and Familly are the
most important, and are a hopeless romantic.
But of course, as ice goes, you can be a little
cold or harsh at times. But not to worry, you
always apoligize later!

What elemental dragon are you?
brought to you by

Your half- angel. Not exactly human, but not quite
angel, you walk on earth freely. Half-Angels
have no wings, but tend to show some signs.
Some ways to notice these are that the girl
never menstrates, she cannot bleed, and her
touch seems to give of a glow. No one really
knows how half-angels are born. Some say that
when a child is born, one of the angels blesses
her with her gifts. Others say that they are
cursed creatures, because half-angels cannot
die, while their familly and friends around
them do. Hlaf-Angels are very beautiful and
Kind, and have the power to speak to animals,
but at the same time, sad that they are this
way. Some Half-Angels love being human. Being
able to see, smell, hear, taste,and feel are
all miracles to them. They crave to be more
human-all the time.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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I can't believe this...haha...you can see how bored I am huh...


Your like an angel. You pocess love and bring love
to any thing or person. You love being
yourself. Even though your cute or not. I think
your just awesome. Like you are peace:)

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I've just fallen in love with this song bu Shania Twain - You're still the one. Haha...the lyrics are below. It doesn't exactly fit my life now, but I like the melody. Anyway, I was just reading this comic - fruit basket. I'm sure some of you have read it or even watched it before. Well, just read this part: (translated) "Now that my friend has someone she likes, I'm starting to feel a little lonelier now..." That sentence kinda caught me by surprise. Haha...but I shan't elaborate it here.

I'm sick at home. Dang. Not really sick la...just a bad case of sneezing, plus a little headache. Don't dare to take panadol though. Not after the doc said I'm allegic to painkillers. Sigh...


Shania Twain - You're Still The One

When I first saw you, I saw love. And the first time you touched me, I felt
love. And after all this time, you're still the one I love.


mmm yea, Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might of took the long way
we knew we'd get there someday
They said, I bet, they'll never make it
but just look at us holding on
were still together, still going strong

~Chorus~
(still the one) You're still the one I run to
the one that i belong to
you're still the one i want for life
(still the one) you're still the one that i love
the only one i dream of
you're still the one i kiss goodnight

Aint nothing better
we've beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
look at what we would be missing
they said, i bet, they'll never make it
but just look at us holding on
were still together, still going strong

~Chorus~
(still the one) You're still the one I run to
the one that i belong to
you're still the one i want for life
(still the one) you're still the one that i love
the only one i dream of
you're still the one i kiss goodnight

you're still the one
(oooooh)
yeah

~Chorus~
(still the one) You're still the one I run to
the one that i belong to
you're still the one i want for life
(still the one) you're still the one that i love
the only one i dream of
you're still the one i kiss goodnight

I'm so glad we made it
look how far we've come my baby

AHHHHHHHHH! I never knew surveying could be this difficult. Crap. Got a job doing door to door surveying for NAtional Parks Board. Oh man...it's like super duper difficult lo. In one and a half hours, I visted 13 flats. You know why so fast? coz only one successful survey. The rest either reject me or are not home. They are like 5 vacant houses...oh man. How to earn enough cash for christmas at this rate?

Hmmm...my new diet plan. Eat normally for breakfast and lunch; dinner will just consist of meat, vegetable, fruits, etc. Anything but rice. haha...do without the carbo. And I have to eat at least 4 hours before I slp. Hmm, and drink lots of water. Oh well...too fat mah...what to do. I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT I AM FAT

hAHA...anyway, I slept for 4 whole hours the moment I got hom after school today! haha...don't know why I'm so tired. Guess it all builds up over time. Anyway, I'm pretty much rested now :). Though I can still sleep immediately if I lie on my bed right now. Wahaha...

Whopeeeeeeeeeeeee~! Haha...went to sentosa yesterday. David's birthday! Spent like a bomb man. Trying to recover from the burn now...both on my skin and my wallet. lolx. Hmmm...but though the burn sucks...I'm a nice tan now! Yeah~! Unless it all starts to peel off and I become as white as sheet again. bleah.

Hmmm...I wanna go Kayaking again sometime this hols. Maybe next weekend or so. Schedule's pretty much packed for the next week or so. And the SPA I missed when Keeonn stepped on me..I have to make it up on the 17th Nov...the day I've to go cruise. Fortunately (or unfortunately) cruise reporting time is 11pm...so I can still do the SPA in the morning. Oh man...I have to do the A level pract ALONE. KEEONN..*bish!*

What can I say.

I quit Youth challenge! In fact, I hardly began...but thank goodness I didn't start wasting my time in it. Should be seen that I won't be able to commit as much as I would need to. And that crap of a Lum thinks our lives should revolve around YC...goodness...get a life. His job might be in YC, but we have to STUDY. Goodness...he thinks he's so smart.

Anyway, I'm planning to find a job this hols. Need the extra cash. So broke. And there's so many things I wanna get. What else can I do? What with the ODAC expedition and cruise that I haven't paid for yet as well...lalala~ Task: Find a job. But what can I do? Dang...


You've got no choice, babe
But to move on, and you know
There ain't no time to waste...

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~! haha...I've gone mad. No la...just had a tiring day walking around Orchard. Lolx. Anyway, I forgot to wish my dear J2 seniors...ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR A LEVELS! GET STRAIGHT As OK!!! Wahahaa... got my best wishes sure can do well de. *winkx*

Hmm...while waiting two hours for my DEAR friends to arrive at orchard, I walked around in Kinokuniya. Love the place man. Got all sorts of book~! And oh man, I found 4 books that I absolutely must buy! But I have to save up first..
1)The rescue by Nicholas Sparks
2)The assassini by thomas gifford
3)Who's afraid of the dark by Sidney Sheldon
4)Angels and Demons by Dan Brown
5)Life of Pi by Yann Martel

Ahhhh!!! I want those books! damn...it's gonna take another month to save up. Still have to pay for Odac expedition and some class funds crappz. haha...

Tmr David's birthday! Weeeeeeeeee~! haha...going sentosa!! I'm gonna burn even more. :p

Know what? I think I might decide not to pursue my Vet career anymore. What do you guys think? I dunno...it's gonna be a tough long road. And the outcome of it may not even come true in the end. I got a ABBE for my promos...but my parents weren't satisfied because knowing I want to be a Vet, I have to get straight As. Otherwise I can forget going anywhere near that career. Lol...oh wellz. But what else can I do?

Lol. I'm now in the school computer lab, waiting for my group's turn to do oral presesntation. It's been quite some time since I last blogged. Been reallyreally..and I do man REALLY...busy with project work. My actual presentation is tomorrow...A levels. *faints* Anyway, I got back my results already. Just the promos one so far. I dunno the overall one yet. Hmmm, well the results were better than I expected but not as good as I hoped it would be. What would you make of that? Lolx. Sigh...

I'm quite worried for quite a few of my friends. They didn't do very well and might have to take a re-test exam...or even get retained! Ahhh! Cannot! What I'm afraid most is that they might decide to just go poly. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! *cross fingers and prays*

Zhaoxin birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHAOXIN!!! haha...that is if you even read this in time. But no matter...already sent sms at 12midnight. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Guess what? I cut my hair again! :) Been wanting to cut since last week coz it was getting a little long. Actually it's long enough to tie already. But after having short hair for this period of time, I figured that I enjoy haivng short hair. I hate having to tie my hair up all the time. Now it's so short that no one can mess it up no matter how they raffle my hair! Heeeee...

Almost hadn't anything to eat the whole day...except for a small carrot cake at 9am plus a can of fruit tree drink. So I decided to 'break fast' with Kat and Janna! Weeeeeeeeeeee~! So fun...ate at Yew Tee area. Gobbled the food like pigs man. And I can't remember the last time I'd been this hungry! Lolx. Gonna try fasting tmr. Well, I can break fast with ODAC bbq~! Good way to break fast. Lolx. But there's PE tmr morning at the first period. Let's hope I can tahan. :)

Anyway, I have something to say to WEIJIAN...I NEED HELP IN ORGANIC CHEMISTRY!!!! lolx! Maybe physics also but I'll read up a bit first. Wahaha...Oh well. I think if there is a need for me to frop, I have to drop chem, but if i drop chem, I have no courses to take in University already. Lolx. Oh well.

Btw, anyone knows the singer who sang the reply song to Ou De Yang's song? Female singer...hmmmm....I wanna try to download...

Such a wonderfully exhausting and exhilarating day! Lol...Kayaking one-star course! Wooohooo~! It's really damn fun! Other than 18 of us odacians, there was this other guy called Justin from Ngee Ann Poly too. Haha, I partnered him for the kayaking. Good choice! He's a great kayaker. Could totally coordinate with my paddle strokes and control the direction of the kayak. Haha...pro-ness sia.

Next week after our assessment, we are gonma play water frisbee! Yea man! Frisbee all the way for PJC Odcians! *grinz*

Justin, Serena, Xinyan, Yaolong, Yong Joo and I went to Bugis for dinner after the course. And window-shopped after that. Xinyan bought a belated birthday present for me...a wallet. DAMN EX!!! I can't say the price but it's closer to the 100 number. Oh man! I felt so guilty! She spent so much on me! So generous of her! Jaw dropped manz. The wallet is so freaking nice too!~! Weeheehee...

Whoa~ Long day today. Woke up at 7.30am despite my 'early' bedtime hour at 3.30am, for a PW meeting at Lot 1 at 9am. Well, kinda took my time a little and decided to eat breakfast, so I turned up half an hour late. But it didn't matter, I was the second one there. Pramodh didn't arrive much earlier than me either. Today's PW meeting went pretty good, in fact, one of the better ones. We actually managed to discuss a lot of things as a group instead of just doing some job allocation. Planning to do a little role play before the actual presentation. Whahaha! It's gonna be REALLY funny. Perhaps I can convince one of the audience to help us video it down. *beams*

Met Xintian after that, and together we headed down to my place where Serena was supposed to meet us. Throughout the bus journey, I kept having this feeling that I'd meet her on the bus, coz she was coming from SAJC open house, and she could take the same bus as the one XT and I were on, to my place. No prizes for guessing...we really did meet on the bus. Lol!

Dilly-dallied too long in my place. The two pigs stole from my private stash of goodies. Lol...espeically Xintian. Wahaha...what's new? =p But all of us didn't exactly have a proper lunch though. Had to rush for youth challenge meeting - me and xintian that is. Serena went home for piano lessons. wahahha...almost 40minutes late. Poor Kat had to wait alone. My other friends were waiting for Xintian and I as well, but at least they had a group. Poor Kat alone...Awww...

The youth challenge was about as long as I expected it to be - 4 hours. Cool huh...that guy can really talk A LOT. Lolx...Oh well. There's gonna a lot of fund-raising and projects coming up, but that can wait till AFTER OP. Oh heck with PW! *screams*

I WANT TO SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

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Faint faint faint. I'm getting stressed up again! Lolx. Self imposed stress I think. Doing too much at one time. ODAC paper work, PW stuff, tutorials, revision, external projects...oh crap. I think I wanna die. Haha....

My knee sucks. Hmmm...the doc said my ankle's ok...but I think it's not my ankle at all. It's the top of the foot there. It does hurt quite a bit sometimes, and sometimes at the toe bones. You know....like the nerves are all related or something. Crap. But that doesnt really bother me...what bothers me most now is my knee. Shucks. Bought a knee guard already. Hope it helps.

I should never try to be something I am not.

Hmm...I can't believe how unfit I am now. Haven't been training due to a sudden onslaught of injuries, so I guess it was inevitable. Have to start building up my stamina again. But my knee hurts everytime I run hard. Shucks. I feel like scolding profanities already.

Why don't ever things turn out the way you want them to? So weird isn't it? It never turns out EXACTLY the way you want it to, no matter how similar. Oh well, it could be for the better or it could be for the worse; i choose to see it as better. After all, everything in life is decided by yourself, especially how you end up feeling about it. You can choose to feel grumpy about coming to school and attending lessons, or you can choose to be happy about seeing your friends again. Ah well...life is a matter of choices. It takes a strong character to make the wisest ones. A wise choice may not seem so at the moment, but it will turn out even better in the long run...

Sigh...just discovered I have an allegic reaction to drugs related to painkillers...such as asprin. This totally sucks. No one else in my family has any allegies at all. I'm the first. Got some painkillers for my knee last night. Ate it, and woke up this morning with extremely painful red eyes...that swelled up till I look like goldfish. But at least goldfish look good with swollen eyes. So I missed school. Sigh...missed the career seminar. I was supposed to be the student facilitator...for the Business/Media one. Timothy Go was there! Boohoo~ And everyone's been telling how great the talk was and how cute he was...blahblah. Damn it. Of all days to discover an allegy.

Today JC2 farewell assembly. Sigh. Marks the end of something. It was a pretty good 'concert', if you can use that word. Mr Sas and another female teacher were doing this ballet dance...and boy was Mr Sas fantastic! My jaw so totally dropped. He looked damn good. His movements were so fluid and everything...Whoa~

Anyway, I've got a knee injury...not really an injury, but it got worn out...so now it's damn painful. Sigh. Can't run again. It's fated. Going OBS on 13th to 17th Dec. Don't wanna go anymore, coz it clashes with Kat's birthday. I don't wanna miss her birthday! Sigh, gotta find some way to make it up to her.

Someone's Watching Over Me

"Someone's Watching Over Me"

Hilary Duff

Found myself today

Oh I found myself and ran away

Something pulled me back

The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is just you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny

Shining all the time

And I wont be afraid

To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong

Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say

And it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll fly high

And it only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe

That I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe

That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over

Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Hahaha...interhosue games are over! Woot! Curie got second! Haha...behind Hawking by 12 pts, which is quite a fair bit. But never mind, won Fleming by 2 pts! So close! Can't believe my house beat Shaun Goh's house! hahaha...Gama had pretty strong teams, but thanks to the ORGANISED and RESPONSIBLE Gama captain...lolx...they got last. Which was what most people expected. He really doesn't care. So i guess everyone got their just desserts~

Anyway, i'm seventeen now! Woohoo~! One more year till I can start buying my own DRInkS~ Den I shall become a bad girl. :D This had been one of my most fantastic birthdays ever! Possibly even the best! Lolx. at 12midnight, so many frenz sms to wish me happy birthday! Lolx...my bro was so pissed at the persistent beeping of my phone. lolx. he wanted to slp. Den in school, first thing that happened was that HE wished me happy birthday! WOOT! And the best part is that my darling friends, Kim David Khadijah Teck Desmond Serena Janna Yvonne Boonbee held a surprise birthday party for me! I never suspected a thing! The first five on the list made a HUGE jigsaw puzzle for me! I was sooooooooo touched I cried! Like bawling kind manz. Hahahhaa...They spent two nites making and piecing it all together. David Kat and Teck got huge scoldings from their parents even! Oh man... I really don't know how to thanks them enough! And they gave me 17 items in total - one to represent each year of my life. 14 assortments of tidbits, 1 card, 1 cake and the jigsaw precious moments puzzle.

XINTIAN CAME OVER TO PJC TOO~! She still has exams lo! I screamed when I saw her! My dear best friend since Secondary school took time off studying to spend some time with me on my birthday! I'm so happy! So touched manz. Still can't believe how my friends are able to plan all these right after promos...actually they told me they started planning it before promos! Oh my goodness....I really really really... I don't even know wad to say!

Thank ou my darling friends!!!! *muackx!*

Underneath this smile

"Underneath This Smile"Hilary Duff

What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue between the lines
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the whileI'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile

I have walked this earth with broken bones
I've been keeping secrets under all these lights
But when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the whileI'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out too long
Underneath this smile
Underneath this smile
Oh, yeah

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the whileI'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?Underneath this smile
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath thisUnderneath thisUnderneath this smile
What I'm standing on is sinking in

Went to the dentist today. It's gonna take longer than what Dr.Hong initially predicted, bascially because it's gonna be done by a new dentist this time. Dr. Hong is going UK for a course for about a year, so he transferred Teck's case and mine to Dr. Chiong...one of his colleagues who has another clinic nearby (Ang Mo Kio area). Oh well....I don't mind how long it takes so long it's taken out before prom next year. Wahahha..

Well, my next dental appointment with the new doc is on thursday...this coming thursday. At 10am. You can't possibly comprehend the feeling I got when I found I could not change the time to any other...

Hold on by Jet

"Hold On" by Jet

You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are

When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [2x]

For you to belong to

When it’s hard to be yourse
lfIt’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are

When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [2x]

Hold on [8x]

When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [3x]

For you to belong to

Gosh...it's been a horrific three-day worth of exams. My brain is totally drained already, and I'm hardly halfway through my papers! There's still Math and Physics paper 2 tomorrow. Hmmm, I think it's the most brain-draining exam day. Both are really big papers. And both of which I have to get As for. Sigh...I really do hope I can do it. If not... I think I can almost just kiss my dreams goodbye.

Sometimes I really don't know why I push myself so hard for. Even my mum wants me to drop Biology, so I can take it more easy. Thing is...I don't want to. There are dreams to accomplish...I want to achieve my goal. And that is to be a vet. I know it's going to be a really long and hard road, but hey, it's the things that are hardest to come by that you treasure the most. Despite this resolve, I'm already so tired. The holidays won't be easy for me either, cause I'll be using it to try and improve my bio, as well as to revise my J1 work, so J2 wouldn't turn out to be too difficult. I don't doubt the teachers' words that J2 work requires a deep foundation of J2's work. And on top of all that, there's also Youth Challenge. I do hope I can cope. Time management and all that. Okay, it's not like I'm gonna be a realy mugger or anything. I still have ODAC expedition...class chalet...cruise with Hua...Yep, there's still time to play. I'm no boring Jack yet...or Jill for that matter.

This should be the part where I say I have to go back to studying, but nah, I'm too lazy. Totally wiped out. Hardly picked up any math or physics to revise at all. Sigh...well, we'll just see how smart I am...whether my brain can function without any revision or not. *fingers crossed* I place it all in God's hands now. Come to think of it...maybe God has another direction for me. I shouldn't worry so much. Who knows all these hard work may come to naught and I end up doing much more simpler...and yet more satisfying...who knows?

Hey y'all! Yes yes...I know I'm supposed to be studying, but hey! I can't help it. Just returned from the dentist and my teeth is aching like crazy. Thankfully dinner's gonna be just instant noodles so there's nothing hard to chew.

Hmmmm...my papers went quite ok yesterday. Four papers in total. Two for General Paper, one Chem MCQ paper and one Chem SPA paper for A levels. Yuppz. It was pretty taxing on my delicate brain =p So my clique (David, Kim, Khadijah and Janna) and Desmond went to Jurong Point to do some stress relieving. It was all in all a good day. Janna's mum actually allowed her to stay out till ten! Can you believe that? And she usually has to go home before six? Whoa~ her mum's finally letting the little tweety out of its cage! Hehee...

Going Serena's house to study later. And stay over. Woohoo~ it's been such a long time since I last stayed over at her place. After studying, we could have some late-night chats! Yipppee~! Haven't really had much time to have a real long conversation with her nowadays, what with the exams and million and one things to do in JC. Haha...you'd think my exams are over already...the way I'm acting.

Right then...time to study. And you guys better do too! Cheers~!

13 more days...

Sigh...my organic chem is getting worse than ever. I think I'm confusing myself more with every word I read from the Chemistry study guide I just got. What is wrong with me? I can't seem to comprehend what I'm reading at all! In fact, now that my bio's getting better, my chem is falling down into the pits.

Got a 31/38 for today's Bio MCQ test. It's aint great, but it's not too bad for me either. But I'll need a LOT to get my C for Bio overall. David calculated out about 70%-80% for the promo paper...so I'm prepared to dig my grave. Like how will I ever manage that kind of marks?!?! Sigh..

Know what? I've only one truly heart-felt wish....just one...but it's never gonna happen. He doesn't even know it's coming. I only need two words...Lol, lost? Oh well...

I'm longing to do Math and Physics, but I know I need to spend more time on my Chem and Bio if I want to do evenly well for my promos...but what I'm afraid of is that I'd spend too much time on Bio and Chem, and then neglect the other two...which will totally suck. I'm telling ya, if I don't get A for math, and at least a B for physics...I'm so gonna kill myself!

Sigh...study study study...

Busy busy busy busy busy...that's about the only thing I can describe my days now. The promos are near darn near I can hardly think of anything else. I'm not too worried about Maths or Physics...but my chem and bio...Sigh...I really don't know what to do anymore. Bio might not be so bad actually; that is if I can start memorizing the million and one facts, but they are basically more memorizing. Whereas for chem...I HATE ORGANIC CHEMISTRY!! Like totally! Sigh...I can almost cry doing it. When Ms Aw was explaining it to us...I was just ................ Don't understand! Wahaha...Poor Khadijah and Janna almost died explaining it to me. Perhaps it's not really because I don't understand the basic concepts, but I just can't apply the concepts to suit the question! Sigh... Hope I don't get below a C for promos...that's all I'm aiming for Chem and Bio.

Going with Teck to buy birthday present for his *ah-hem!* tmr...hope we don't spend too much time out though. I really wanna spend time on my Chem. Of all papers to have on the first day of exams. Sigh...sometimes I wonder if I should a subject. But that would almost totally ruin my chances of qualifying for a scholarship. I aim to get one to go overseas for Uni. *cross fingers*

15th Oct is drawing nearer everyday. Sigh. So I'm kinda treasuring everyday now. Every second really means a LOT to me. Haha...only my good frenz will know what I'm talking about. I wonder if I will ever see my seniors again after their graduation. Chances are that it won't be very likely. Oh well...A time to meet, a time to part...at least I have the memories of the interval between the meeting and the parting to cherish. Though there are many things I felt a little regret doing, I'd rather regret something I've done than for something I've not done...if you get what I mean. The feeling of not knowing can just kill me! =p

All right, I guess I better get back to studying. Hmmm, or I shall just sleep now...and wake up at 3! Wahahah, yup, the latter is a better suggestion..coz I'm totally beat. Nitez y'all!

Yeah! I can finally blog again! At home! Woohoo~ so happy. Think my dad finally caught the TRojan horse that was in the laptop...or whatever it was. *beams*

Just watched the Cinderella Story starring Hilary Duff. Man it was a really cool show! What a sweet fairytale. If only my life could be like that...though I was really upset when her dad died. But she did get it all in the end. And she did learn a lot of values after all those soul-cracking problems. It's some sort of a motivation for me I guess.

Know what? I believe the many problems presented to me this past year have really made me stronger as a person. I've learnt to take things more easily. I don't feel so stressed up anymore. And well, though my perception of the world has changed, I don't think life is such a struggle anymore. :)

Sometimes I really worry for some of my friends though. It's like I feel some of their problems are much worse than mine. At least I have wonderful parents who understand me and give me my freedom to make my own choices. But some of my close pals are faced with problems they don't make and can't control. I feel helpless, except perhaps to lend a listening ear and just be there when they need me. There's so many problems related to money nowadays. It's almost as though money means everything. Which is technically true. You really need money for most thing. Food...clothes...rent...I know you can't buy happiness with money, but it does get the necessities.

Being a food-lover, I really feel the pinch when I am broke and can't buy food to eat during recess. It's not that I'm starving or anything, but sometimes you just wanna buy some snack to munch...and well, you just don't have the money. And I like to treat my friends to stuff to eat...but I don't have enough cash to even pay up my debts. So...oh well.

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live
How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby

yoyoyo........ now in school blogging again. Haha...seems like it's gonna be the only place i can blog now. How boring. Wahahha....anyway...just had three tests today. two of which are A levels kind. Bio SPA and chem SPA...and then this crappy physics spatial test. some researchers from dunno where wanna do some research or something....haha...of all schools to pick. Pick the school with the kiasu people. Really!! Not saying EVERYONE la...but the poor lady kept saying and saying that it was just a research thing...not something related to the school at all, but so many people kept discussing, and that was ruining the accuracy of the survey wad! Stupid la...wad's wrong with these people?!?!? so kiasu for wad?!?! not even counted in CA or anything la. So pissed until I nearly screamed at Daniel and Pramodh...Kept toking and DISCUSSING. Then this Daniel said, "This is not called discussion; this is called arguing. what you are doing now is discussing...so you are in the wrong." I was like WHAT THE HELL??? hahah...snapped back, "you don't know what is the meaning of discussion? Want me to take dictionary and show you!?!!?" Stupid bloody assssssssssss. Oh man! *faint*

oh well...very easily pissed nowadays. it wasnt a really good day for me at all. Sigh...

I can finally blog!

Yea! can finally blog again!After like almost 2 weeks? Lolx. But I'm not at home now; in school blogging. Yepz. About hlaf my class got kicked out of math tutorial for not doing a math question he set us to do yesteday. But the fact is that David and I both distinctively heard him say hand in on Monday! He's getting back his attitude problem again. Simply refuses to listen to reason! Kim and I weren't kicked out for not doing; we weren't even allowed into the class coz we were late! Had some large business in the loo you see =p Well, even if we didn't have, we would also have been kicked out coz we also didn't do the math question. HELLO, there was a Bio lecture test today! Was studying like hell for it la. Had almost 3h consultation with Ms Lim regarding so many components of Bio which I didn't understand. Den went home to study somemore lo. My bio sucks, what can I say? Have to spend twice the time on it than I spend on my other subjects...except perhaps chinese...coz I simply don't intend to do ANYTHING for chinese at all! Can fail that subject for all I care. =p Oops, Teck is gonna kill me. Wahahha...

WOOhooooo~! Miss blogging so much. Just letting your fingers fly across the keys. Lolx. Haven't been going online much either. Starting to panic about Promos. Have to begin revision. THOROUGH revision that is. There's just too many things that I don't know! Oh man. I'm just gonna die academically.

And I'm so embarrassed about the announcement I made for my Curie House today! In front of the whole college....intended to see only the committee members, but I screwed up and said ALL CURIE HOUSE MEMBERS!! I think everyone were like laughing at me. AT least 3 people (my friends) were telling me about it. As in they were like 'huh? all the curie people? isn't that a whole lot of people?' Lolx. What can I say? I'm still learning to be a leader.

Speaking of which, this is just so weird! In Nanyang, I was a total nobody....then when I came to PJC, I started getting stuffs to do. Stressed me up like hell! Coz I simply don't know anything! And I really not as smart as some people may think! Oh crap. Pressure pressure pressure. What for? Haha...feel like just simply not caring about anything anymore. But it's just not my way la. Wahaha...oh well. =p

oooh, this is finally a pretty long entry after such a long time. Wahaha...but I shan't be blogging very often anymore. Just too busy. Maybe after promos. Already having a problem completing my own diary! Lolx. Oh well.

Anyway, I'm asking dad if I can get my own computer. As in using my own savings. I think I have just enough for a normal one. Been saving since P1! Wahhaa...I'm actually a little reluctant about spending it... coz well you know, saving for uinversity and all that. But I don't really like sharing computer with the rest of my family. Not because I'm selfish, but because I don't like to compete in using it. Everyone has their own work to do and I don't really like to bother them while they are doing theirs unless I have urgent stuff I have to do immediately. And with so many viruses infecting my dad's laptop recently...it's really quite dangerous. Could lose ALL my stuff anytime. If I lose them...I'll probably just die. Uh huh. Wahahaha...

okok...that's enough for now. Gonna spend time surfing the net too! Tata~!

I Don't Give A Damn-- Avirl Lavigne
Everytime you go awayIt actually kinda makes my day
Everytime you leave
You slam the door
You pick your words so carefully
You hate to think you're hurting me
You leave me laughing on
The floor
Cause I don't give it up, I don't give a damn
What you say about that
You know I don't give it up, I don't give a damn
What you say about that
You know I'm not gonna cry, about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that
I thought we were just hanging out
So why'd you kiss me on the mouth
You thought the way you taste
Would get me high
You went to all your friends to brag
Guys are always such a drag
Don't you know the reason that I kissed you was to
Say goodbye
Cause I don't give it upI don't give a damn what you say about that
You know I don't give it up
I don't give a damn what you say about that
You know I'm not gonna cry about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that
Hanging hanging out, I am simply
Hanging hanging out, I am simply
Hanging so why'd you kiss me on the mouth?
Don't you know that I...I don't give a damn about you
I won't give it up not for you
I don't give a damn about you
I won't give it up not for you
I'm not gonna cry about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that
I don't give it up
I don't give a damn what you say about that
You know I don't give it up
I don't give a damn what you say about that
I don't give it up
I don't give a damn what you say about that
You know I don't give it up
I don't give a damn what you say about that

Freak Out

"Freak Out"

Try to tell me what I shouldn't do
You should know by now,
I won't listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go

You don't always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
And put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air
Like you don't care

Cause I'm alright, I'm fine

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

On my own
Let it go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Just let me live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compramise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go

Gonna freak out, let it go
Gonna freak out, let it go

Something Sweet~

Whoa~ I received a really sweet card today! From pa actually. Smsed to tell me to pick up a PARCEL from the locker. *Imagining a brown package* Turned out to be a packet of Jap Gummy Sweets and a card...tied in RIBBON...*faint*HAha...indescribable really. It's just those feelings everyone gets when they receive a really nice card from a good friend! :D First time I got one of those cards really. Whoa~ feelin' happy!

Intended to cut hair today, but circumstances forced me to change my plans and cut tmr instead. Lol. Oh well, seems like I have to go with Kim to cut after all! Kim!! you hear me?!?!? HAha!

rite...there's Bio SPA tmr...better sleep earlier...

Lol... Oh well, I had mass PE today. I'm actually excused coz of my injured foot. But I decided I'm sick of sitting around while the others had so much fun...so I joined in the Captain's ball game! Wasn't too bad...really hopped around! Did try to run a bit...sorta like a limp run. Wahaha...nearly sprained my foot further. Oh well, all part of doing sports? Hee...

Torn Between Two Lovers
by Mary Macgregor

There are times when a woman has to say what's on her mind
Even though she knows how much it's gonna hurt
Before I say another word, let me tell you "I love you"
Let me hold you close, and say these words as gently as I can
"There's been another man that I've needed and I've loved,
But that doesn't mean I love you less,
And he knows he can't possess me, and he knows he never will,
There's just this empty place inside of me that only he can fill"

(chorus)
Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving both of you is breaking all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving you both is breaking all the rules

You mustn't think you failed me just because there's someone else
You were the first real love I ever had,
And all the things I ever said
I swear they still are true
For no one else can have the part of me I gave to you

Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving both of you is breaking all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving you both is breaking all the rules

Couldn't really blame you if you turned and walked away
But with everything I feel inside, I'm asking you to stay

Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving both of you is breaking all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving you both is breaking all the rules

Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving both of you is breaking all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool
Loving you both is breaking all the rules

ACt CoOl~ 

^_^ 

Lol...David AC as always~ =p 

greedy me~ 

Me david Kat Janna and Kim at Swensen's today! 

hahha...i spoil the pic! Kim so pretty and David so handsome...wahaha 

Coming online is a nightly ritual. Wahhaa...I really do come online every night. Can't seem to kick the habit. Might be a good thing. Might be a bad thing. I choose to see it as a good thing.

Went to Swensen's today! Spent the $80 voucher that my frenz and I won at some competition. Woohoo~ Guess how much we spent in the end?? $80.25!!! So accurate! Damn cool huh? David paid the extra 25cents. Haha...Swensen's earthquake! Apple crumble!!! Shiok...never had some good food in a long time I think. Wahahhaa...

Went to study with Pa today. Lol...cleared quite a few doubts. Hope tmr's physics test will turn out ok. Too bad he doesn't take Bio. Now that's sth I REALLY have problems with. Lol...

Was just discussing with xintian about appreciating the simple things in life. yuppz. Both of us have this one thing in common, probably that's wad makes us so close and so happy most of the time. Lol...we find joy in really the smallest things. Laughing together...chatting about anything and everything...enjoying nature...exercising...appreciating little things that we like or that people do...stuff like that. Haha...don't many of us take a lot of things for granted? Well, don't. You'll just live to regret it. So why not just enjoy...as in really really enjoy what you have not...and thank the people you appreciate now? Now, not tmr. Haha...before it's too late

Rah!

So far 3 or 4 people have commented that my cookies were nice! Haha~ So my baking skills have not deteoriated for the past 4 months that I didn't go anywhere near the oven. Lolx! Oh well... don't think I'll be baking any time soon. Baking really quite tiring...and promos coming... No time No time~ Heehee.

Sigh...I've made a resolution with myself. I shall always choose to be happy despite any circumstances or situations. Well, we all have a choice of whether we want to be happy or sad when faced with a certain problem right? We can choose to stand around and whine, or sit down and start thinking of a solution. It's the same thing I think. Why let one minute of anger make you lose sixty seconds of happiness? Life is too short~

There were certain things that made me rather pissed today. But I shan't dwell on them. Just forget it and move on. It's over. Who cares? Let it be. Move on... One thing you learn about life is that it goes on...

Happy teachers' Day!

Ok...so it's not yet teacher's day...but I like being early...so HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! Wahahaha...oh well. I'm like staying up so late to bake for my teachers...faint. Lucky Pa staying up with me to chat online...or I will just die of boredom. Uh huh.

Anyway, exams are coming up! Die...one more month. Same time I had left to pia from 22 points in prelims to 8 pts in 'O' levels. Lol...But I dun feel the same urge to study as hard. Sian.... Maybe I'll make better use of my Sept hols. No more playing then...much that is. HAha... as they always say, All Work and No Play makes Rebecca a dull...whatever. I'm gender-less...so...call it what you like. Wahaha!

Bored

Well, just finished my power series math tutorial. It's not that hard after all actually. Now I just have to practise my application of differentiation. Have yet to do that tutorial. Oh well. Later.

My foot still hurts. Sigh. But not that bad already I guess. Hopefully the swelling will go down by monday. I don't really enjoy wearing slippers to school. In fact I don't enjoy wearing slippers period. Lol. And for the first time ever, I can't run and jump about! Deprived. Like to feel the wind against my face and stuff. Oh well. I guess everything happens for a reason. Only God knows what it is.

My biological clock is all hay-wire now. Sad. I've been sleeping so much!!! All because of the medicine. Makes one drowsy. Oh well, might as well make use of it to get a bit more sleep first. Coz when I finally finish the medicine, it's time to get back to midnight mood. Wahaha.

Right. I think I'll go back to my studying. Ciao~

Heng ar...

Well...no fracture to my foot after all! But it's a real casty sprain and the doc said I wun be able to run for at least 2 to 3 weeks! Boohoo~ I wanna run! How am I gonna relieve stress like that? And if I want to maintain my fitness, the doc said I'll have to do exercises that don't require pressure on my foot - like stationary cycling. Oh man... running is lots more fun! How often can I do stationary cycling anyway? Sigh...



==You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending==

broken foot broken soul

Haix...some accident during PE today. My foot is all swollen up and everything now. But not the ankle...the top of the foot there...doc at CCK poly can't confirm if there's a fracture or not. So they'd arrange for me to have an appointment with some specialist at SGH. Sigh...but whether the diagnosis is true or not, I won't be to run for at least a month. A WHOLE MONTH! I feel like dying la...

Miss so many lessons...i will surely fall WAYYYYYYYYYY behind! I already can't catch up after LTC le... :( oh well... stupid accident...

Determined!

Hmmm...just receieved a huge nagging cum scolding from Teck Yen today. I feel really bad...like I've let him down. My too. And most of all myself. I haven't been doing as well as I wanted or ought to. Maybe due to too much other activities? I don't think so though. All a matter of time management. But I will prevail! Time to get cracking and start studying. Properly. No more feeling sorry for myself that I can't do this, I can't do this. I must do something about it. Ask my teachers, ask my seniors, ask my friends...whoever! Haha...

Well...All the best to everyone taking exams soon~! Study hard now and get good results so you can enjoy for life! Whoa~!

Amunching race!

My com kinda crashed yesterday so I couldn't blog...but here I am now, to talk about yesterday's Amunching race! My team, comprising of Janna, David, Khadijah and me, clinched a first! And you know what? The best part is that the first price is an $80 Swensen's voucher! Yipppeeeeeeeee~! I'm lovin' it!

First stop: Westmall
Had apple Stiz...that's the name of the shop I think. Somewhere in the basement. We had apple toffee - chocolate-coated apples! Yum! It was fabulous! I'll probably make some and share with my friends or something...coz I tell you, it's way overpriced there! $3 for one! Goodness...it's just apples and choc! But good business though. Quite creative. Hmmmm...
After that was Nasi Brani at the food court in Westmall. Whoa~ It's one of the better Nasi Branis I've had! We had to eat it with just forks. I tell you...the four of us just dug in totally! Like monsters who haven't eaten for days!

Second stop: Food stalls opposite Beauty World
To think I've been in Nanyang for the past 4 years and I never knew this place existed! The most heavenly kind of prata I've tasted! Hahaha...tissue prata. Weird name huh? But it's fried so thinly till such a perfect crisp...*melts* Gosh I could eat ten of them..but too bad we were in a rush. Wahahha...and there we also had Milo Dinoso! It's super super thick milo covered with lots and lots of milo powder on top...with a cherry too. WHOA~ I immediately made more of it when I got home...shhh! don't tell my mum. *chuckles*

Third stop: Hawker centre in Geylang
Satay of some sort. Instead of meat, it's FATS. EWWWWWWW...fats! Taste quite nice...but the knowledge of it being fats...*puke* And it's so chewy and almost impossible to swallow! Oh man...I think I need to run ten rounds on the track tmr. Samuel was nice, he bought us a few packets of bandung to drink on the way.

Fourth stop: Far East Plaza
HEar Hear people! This shop at the fifth floor! Some indonesian fast food restaurant! They sell DELICIOUS grilled bananas coated with delightful condense milk and covered with lots of chocolate rice and grated cheese! It's almost heaven man! Heard that the chicken meals there are good too but didn't get to try yet. Never mind! I'll bring all my frenz there to eat next time! *grinz*
Had also had this drink at Ice Gotcha. Ewww....bittergourd, ginger, celery and lemon.... YUCK. I nearly puked! The memory of it...*shudders*

Fifth Stop: Goodwood Hotel
THE BEST OF THE BEST! For me that is... DURIAN CREAM PUFFS! Oh gosh! The most fantastic and ultimate durian puffs ever! Really! I love durian and most durian puffs are such fake imitations but this is totally real! It was almost like the ReAL thing! YUM YUM YUM YUM!!! You really just gotta have a taste of it! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Yuppz! Tmr my team will be going on the ramp to receive our price. Lol. Amunching race - first price. The team of the biggest gluttons! Wahhahaha!

What aBad DAY

Wad a lousy day. Supposd to study in school but Kim asked me to accompany her to walk out of sch. I relented lo. Then on board bus 190, I slept...nearly falling asleep on this army guy's shoulder sia...lucky woke up in time to find myself leaning towards him, so i said a quick sorry and made myself lean all the way to the window, so no more in danger of leaning anywhere else. Stupid me forgot to check the actual destination...by the time i woke up again...already in orchard. Crap.

On board bus 14 from orchard. Didnt sleep this time...but guess wad. I missed my stop again. Not my fault! The stupid bus uncle missed my stop and continued on to the next one! Faint... had to walk an extra half hour. Sian...Moreover as I walked past the bus stop i was supposed to alight at, this 40-plus-year-old lady asked me or $1.90 to take bus to clementi or somewhere. I told her I didnt have money.LEft only 2 buck note. Then she begged me to help her coz she didnt dare ask anyone else. Sigh...what to do, I give lo. Just hope she was able to use it. Broke now man.

ODAC ROCKS~! haha.Xinyan, Serena and I made the ODAC tepestry tiles today. Whoa~ So nice! I love it! And it's the biggest there! :) Right at the top, so now it seems like it's a ODAC noticeboard or something! Wahaha. So proud of it! *beams*

Hmmm, really impressed by my x-odac president today. Calvin's really a born leader sia. People say that leaders are made, not born. I dunno, but I seriously haven't met quite a leader like him. Not toking about the adults but around my level ones. Guess there are always those people who command respect without even having to try hard? HAha...cool.

Promos coming !! AHHH!!! Die...i think from next week onwards...i WILL stay in school to study no matter wad. Haha.

Perhaps

Well, I guess it's time to stop feeling stupid and start trying to become less stupid. Gotta start studying forPromos. I have no intention of failing anymore subjects man. Wahahaha...so i will start my intense revision tmr nite. MAybe tonight...but i'm pretty tired. No point studying when u are tired. wahhahaa....

went to eat at Mac's with Kim Janna and Khadijah today. So damn full now. Akbar, Pramodh, chunzhi and Tsung Hsien came later. I so totally smashed the remains of my Big Mac (lettuce and sauce) into akbar's hair! LOL. DAMN FUNNY!

Self destructing

I'm dying soon la. So stressd. Can't do any work well at all, nor can I understand any of the notes. Sigh..I'm becoming more stupid with age. Let's see..shorter, fatter, uglier and dumber wit age. By the time I become an adult, I might as well just die yar?

Man I seriously do with some M&M's right now. Remembered how I used to throw them up in the air and catch them in my mouth...fun wad. Simple way of destressing...dun even have to move much. Sigh..

When a problem can be solved, it's useless to worry about it; when a problem cannot be solved, there's no point worrying for it.

Mum, Selwyn and me at Kuching like around 10 years ago?! 

My grandpa, my cousins and my siblings...all young happy and carefree...and together.. 

I feel good~!

Wooooohoooo~! Haha...I finally am able to get some work done! Yep! Woke up at 3am today to do my work. I think I did a lot more than I had during the entire weekend! Haha...Don't know why I haven't been able to concentrate lately, but this morning's h/w session was way cool! :) Feeling quite high now. Hee. But too bad I have no time to run still. Later I have to continue with work when I reach school. *shrugs* Oh well, you can't have everything.

Went studying with Pa yesterday. Hardly any work done, like I said, I couldn't concentrate! Wahaha...so many things on my mind yesterday. Hmmm...Then pa told me that the pastor at his church was talking about Worries. That 40% is absolutely unnecessary; 30% is too minor to actually bother with; 12% is about health worries which NEVER comes true; 10% is some other nonsense thing too but Pa can't remember (haha!); The last 8% is really the only portion worth worrying about. Lol. 8%...can you imagine. It was a real research done by some professor or something.

Does anyone believe in totally platonic friendships between a guy and a gal? I do. Hahaha... when you get past the stage of talking through stuff about relationships and stuff, I guess the friendship will really remain purely platonic. Uh huh. HAha...well, you're free to debate about it. I'm off to school now. LOOOOONG day ahead...but I like! Gonna treasure all the school years I have left now. Only less than a year and a half. So little! It's bound to zoom past. Like what Xintian said, University doesn't seem like school years at all. So JC is the last stage of my school life. Too bad I'm a sentimental person. HAha, gonna find it hard to let go when the time comes...

Interesting day...

Hey people! you must go catch "The Notebook" !!!! It's like super super super nice! So sweet and romantic! MAn...I cried like a baby la! The guy was so freaking sweet...went all out to win the girl's heart and all...trying to get her back and all that. You seriously don't find that kind of guy any more. Well, maybe there are but I haven't met any yet. This movie is 100% recommended for all the couples out there man! In fact...just go watch la! With anyone! Too good to be missed...heck, I wouldn't mind watching it again!

Now after a good day of fun, I shall start intense revision. Exams are coming and I have NO intention of flunking any of my subjects. In fact, I have to get at least a C for all of the 4 subjects. Good Luck to me...

I don't think I can cope much longer

I seriously don't think I can cope much longer. Don't know why the workload never seems to decrease. There's really so many things to do that I don't know where to start! What with PW, ODAC, homework, tests, peer support...There's gonna be one dead becca soon.

I really starting to dislike Mr. Tham alot. He's the one making himself so unlikeable! You know you have to give a little consessions to those who went LTC la...I mean come on man, we missed a whole week of school. We're bound to need time to catch up! Moreover Math is the one subject that is moving so damn quickly! They finished up one whole topic while we were gone. Then during today's math tutorial, I really could not understand most of the workings he was doing coz it involved power series which was the topic I missed during LTC. Crap. And you know what he said? "I don't care about what LTC or CC, just do!" So pissed off. Then he set a question that required the Math TYS. I didn't bring it. He was telling the class that whoever didn't bring the TYS would have to do outside. He asked me for my TYS. Glared at him right into his eyes and said, "Never bring." Janna tried to help by saying it was my first time not bringing and stuff. But it wasn't really necessary though I appreciated it. Tham just went on and on about "BECKY" this and "BECKY" that. Heck. Still didn't sit outside in the end.

So sleepy. Can't wait for sat. Perhaps I'll be able to get a little rest after the 7.30am Math test...

tired and stressed out

Die la. I think I'm gonna break down soon or something. Feeling so damn tired! Only two hours or less of sleep last night...and it seems like tonight won't be any better. So much to do. Physics test tmr but I haven't yet studied for it. What is wrong with me??? Can't seem to do anything right. And I'm so behind in my work. Will take a decade before I can catch up. So I might as well just die. Ya?

Better go back and study...

deputy camp commandant!!! 

===me and WeiSeng=== 

NYGH ROCKS~ 

=maddies= 

Guan Boon, Xinyan and me at LTC 2004~ 

Me and Xintian at Esplanade!