Short sleeves and flip flops

 Our trip to see grandma and grandpa was such a success!  McCoy was loved on and spoiled and I was able to nap everyday and just love the beautiful weather.  We went on walks in the stroller and McCoy was such a champ on both flights!  I was so grateful for that since I was by myself.

McCoy is also entering the fun stage of learning new things everyday so I thought I would highlight a couple of things he has learned.

-He has discovered his tongue and he turns it ways that I don't know how to.

-He is now eating sweet potatoes, carrots, corn, and squash.  He loves eating!

-He rolls completely over and loves to do it.  The video will show his other skill that he learned this last week. :)

-He has also discovered his hands and that they can bend.  I love watching him study his hands.  He is even starting to wave and he waved at tons of people at the airport.  He could wave a thousand times and I would still melt every time.

So in love with this boy and so grateful for my parents for letting us come visit.

Big 'ol Head

I decided that one of the ways to help me have a better attitude is to write down the things that I love about my McCoy Brian.  The nights are hard and we are not the best of friends, but he is so cute during the day that he makes up for it. 

I love his big 'ol head.  We get comments about it all the time.  It is part of the reason that he came by c-section.  His head just wouldn't fit.  He is learning how to sit up and he is constantly toppling head first into the blanket that he is sitting on because his head is so big!  With a big head comes a big face.  This boy smiles with his entire body and his smile lights up a room.  He is quite the schmoozer in church and we always have ladies coming up and talking to him because he just loves his fan club.

Another thing that I love about this boy is that he is very observant.  He will sit in his high chair for a long time and just watch what Brian and I are doing in the kitchen.  He also stares at people when they are talking.  He just loves to know what is going on and hates being left out of whatever is going on.

I love this boy so fiercely!  More than I ever thought I would and I fall more in love every day!

Happiness

Since we have been kind of down lately, I thought I would post some happiness.  Here is a cute picture of McCoy after getting his hair blow dried by daddy after a bath.  He loves to be blow dried and primped.  I have a feeling I am going to be fighting for time in front of the mirror for the rest of my life ;)

Here is also a video of McCoy talking and squealing.  He does this all the time!  We love our little happy boy and we hope he gets feeling better soon so that we can have him back!

Helpless

So last night, McCoy started crying at about 10:30, which is weird, so I got up and tried to comfort him and then fed him a small bottle.  When the bottle was done, he started screaming.  I tried walking him around the room, rocking, burping, EVERYTHING!  After about 30 minutes of this, Brian came into the room to find McCoy screaming in the swing and me, sprawled on the floor sobbing.  All I could say was, "I don't know what to do." 

Again, my husband is amazing.  He calmed me down and then calmed down McCoy and put him back to bed.  How did I get so lucky?

I think my body was just telling me, I have had enough!  I sat in bed crying and thinking through every worst case scenario as to why he was screaming like that.  I had not heard a baby scream like that since my niece before they knew she had cystic fibrosis.  Then I started asking the Lord why he thought I could handle this because it says He will not give us anything that we can't handle. 

I am exhausted and discouraged, but I am more concerned for my sweet baby.  I hate to see him hurt and wish that I could just take it away.  Here is to hoping that things get better soon!

Sleep deprivation

So it used to really bother me when I would read blogs where women just complained about being a mom because I wanted t be a mom so bad. Now I am humbled and less judgmental! Let's get one thing clear, I LOVE BEING A MOM AND I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH MCCOY.

Now that that is out of the way, I will vent a little. If you don't care then just look at he pictures:)  When I was pregnant everyone told me that I would never sleep again. I laughed because I had no idea how true that statement would be.

People would tell me how their baby slept a full night at 6 weeks and I told myself to just make it until then. That time came and went and I was still waking up every 2 to 3 hours. Then people told me 8 weeks or 6 months or when he starts eating solids. We have now passed all of those milestones and I am still getting up every 3 hours. Let me tell you, I am crashing and burning. I try all of the things my friends tell me and McCoy just doesn't respond.

Side note here, I have the best husband ever! He has been so patient through all of this. I cry a lot and I am impatient and it has just been hard on my body. He helps so much when he is home and makes dinner and is just wonderful.

People keep telling me that he will sleep eventually, but I don't want to spend my time wishing his life away. He is just about to crawl and he says dada now. I want to enjoy the things I love about him now. That single toothed grin melts my heart every time. That is what gets me through the day and sleep will return eventually and then I will probably have another baby and start the cycle all over again :)