My Digital World

This week, I am attacked by my supervisors. We discussed about my progress of my MSc project. They think I do not work well, which I partically agree with. My opinion is that going to school is to learn stuff and to getting feedback if you do soemthing wrong. They have too many expectations of me. I cannot pick up the things so fast, since I have no experience from electronic design. I miss that skill since we (students from our U) did not have any projects that are related to learn the skill.

Sigh, I have no mood for writing....

Today, I feel a bit bored and I was surfing around and looking for something I can watch. It has been a while that I watch Singapore serie, since I cannot download it. But recently, I find a website where they stream videos like youtube. At that website, I was looking for 黄金路. I get this serie from some forum. It was just a random pick and to my surprise, I get addicted to this serie. So far, I watched 4 episodes. I like Singapore series more than the current HK series, because Singapore series are more realistic and they use their brain to make the serie.

In 黄金路, I like the family affairs a lot. I notice that I like family in which poor is put into central. In contrast to HK series, where rich and love are overpowered. Also, in HK series, the whole serie can be divided into three parts. The first part is about setting up the story. That is the most nice interesting part. The second part is about love, which makes me sick. The last part is about nothing, which shakes my head more and more. In Singapore series, many unexpected things happen which make them orginal and interesting as well. The ending is not always good, which makes them very exciting.

Okay, I have to sleep now since tomorrow I have to get up at 4 AM. Tata!

I am told that I do not know how to say NO. Like, my supervisor at TNO
(Sjaak) said that I should learn to fight for myself. Actually, I will
only give a counterattack if I think the people foolish me. A few
minutes ago, before I take this train to Groningen, I have a meeting
with Piet. We discuss about my electrical design and again, he asks me
to find out this and that, which makes me sick. Sometimes he is really
blurrish or dreamy which I have to explain him twice or more. I also
notice that Piet is usually wrong when we have a more high-level-circuit
-design problems and effects. Because of this, he held me back to make
progress. But I will not be so easily beat by his comments. I continue
with setting up my wired communication with my PC, which I now almost
finished! But the headache comes when we talk about my paper. Because,
so far, I only have simulation results which I personally think it is
useless and stupid to show. Thanks to the support of Dafina, Piet
finally gonna push his step back and he bravely go to order the
components for me. :P

The Dutch train (NS) is really horrible! Last week, the delayed train
had changed the platform without informing the passengers by forehand.
Today, they said that the cable is broken between Amersfoort and Zwolle.
That is why I am in Arnhem now, on my way to Zwolle. The total travel
time increase by 2hours. I am usually mad the Duth public transport.
Esprecially the train. They rarely do a good job. In stead, they
increase the ticket prices every year because they have too much cost.
They also 'prove' that their trains ride on time, which I am fully not
agree with.

I know complaining to stay in Holland is useless. I am sure I can make
the society much better if I have the money and the supervision. JW
chatted with me yesterday on msn. He hold me he saved a man's life. That
man got a heart attack and collapsed at Rotterdam Centraal Station. At
that time, JW passed by and there were 3 policemen and 3 station guards
present also. None of took any action, which made JW furious. JW lied
that he was a doctor and tell those stupid guys what they should do. It
is a very serious blame on the policemen and the guards. If I make here
enough money, I am sure I will leave this country.

Shabir told me today at the U about the pass by of a kind of friend
of his parents. That guy was just 32. Shabir said that life is weak
and I need to find a girlfriend. I do agree that life is very easy
to end. Before it ends, you should do and getting through all the
things you want/like, so you won't have regrets on this earth. Shabir
thinks that having a girlfriend is a must thing. I do agree with him,
but not every guy can get a girlfriend. Being picky or do not have
time for starting a relationship are excuses. When I look around, I
notice that gals do not like good guys. As the Chinese says: 男人
不坏女人不爱. This verb is pretty true.
If I can choose between getting a girl which is actually not cup of
tea and waiting for the Right One comes along which might not exist,
my choice will be the second one. I know that my mom will be very
disappoint if I stay single forever, but that is my choice. I do
not ask to them for respecting me. But I do not play fool with girls.

This week, my canteengirl sent me an e-mail about shooting. She wanna
be my model. She said that she is free this weekend and the next one.
So, I try to make an appointment for the next weekend. Later on, she
noticed that she could not do the shooting. So, she asks whether I can
do shooting this weekend. But I say no without a reason.
I am not mad at her nor any having any bad feeling for her, but to make
an appointment with me, you need to give me time.

What's up for this weekend? I think, I try to start with writing my
paper for the conference. Secondly, I wanna try some autumn shooting.
I am pretty sure, I have to fix computers for my uncle again. *Sigh*,
that is never-ending-job!

The last thing I wanna write is about Albumprinter (the company where
I work as part-timer). I do not like this IT company. I do not like
my manager (Gabor). Gabor is a very sneaky and mean person. Because
Tantra is on vacation, he asks Sing to work. Sing wants to have a
higher salary, because in the past 2.5 years, his salary did not rise
any cents. Of course Gabor says no, since it will be unfair for other
part-timers like, Tantra, An and me. But the main point is that Gabor
did increase the salary of An secrectly. If I am Sing, I will quit.
Because he is just a temperatory substition of Tantra, since Gabor
will decide what he will do with Sing after Tantra is back. The real
side of this world is tough and very ugly.

There are ups and downs in life. This week, I face to very serious
problems with respect to my MSc project. The first one, which makes
me very sad is about the wired communication from my microcontroller
with the PC. My day was a very cloudy at that day. Luckily, I manage
to solve that problem next day.

The more serious problem was about my coming publication about my
read-out electronics. Since I made an improvement in the design, I
returned this benefit in the reality. To be short, I have to find
a new (you might say, my own) method for measurement on the amount
of oxygen. Therefore, I have to state with my own theory, which is
not possible, since I do not have the brain cells that will work
for me. It should be possible to use the current theory to save my
time. But using the current theory, I will lost the good thing of
my read-out electronics. Is life really that bad for me?

Maybe my life is bad, but I know that I can make people very happy
with my things. Last Monday, Jok had had his PhD graduation. He
asked me to be his photographer at his very important day. He said
he will pay for the pics I took. It is funny that Jok wants to pay
me, since everyone knows that I give my friends free service.
Besides, I like to attending his PhD defense and I feel honor that
he trusts my lousy skill in photography. I asked him to come along
to my room for checking out what my skills are, but because he was
very busy (and me neither) we could not meet up. He said, he trusts
me and he believes in my photography.

I notice that my friends have full confidence in me. They trust me
as their friends and they trust me in things I do. Sometimes, I
wonder where they get this information from. Let's get an example
of Celeste. I met her when I was at the end of my second year
Bachelor. She was my colleague from the Secondary School where we
gave Physics lessons in all kind levels. Somehow, we become very
good friends. She let me stay at her place when I visited her when
she was in Barcelona. I also offered my room for her when she was
editting movies for her sister's wedding two weeks ago. While I fell
asleep she continued her work. Chinese people always as that it is
not good to have a guy and a girl in one room. I do agree with them
partially, since nowadays people are too mean.

Anyway, talking back to Jok. Jok did a very great job. His PhD work
is published in Dutch newspaper: Telegraaf. He would be a great
researcher if he continues his career in the Science. But he chooses
a life in Deloitte. I think, he will do a good job too!

After a one day of taking pics, I make OTs nights for editting and
creating a nice DVD for him to show his family members in Hong Kong.
Next week, he will go on vacation with Siu Mei (Jok's girlfriend,
who is my good friend too and the girl whom I go to London) and his
parents. Theferefore, I put the paid assignments asides and Wati's
wedding pics. When Jok saw the pics and the movie, he said he is
very happy with what I have done. He didn't expect me to do this.
Well, this kind of service is only for my good friends. ;)

This week, I met a new girl. Sing took that to play badminton last
week. This week, she also play badminton. When Sing and Shabir left
to Rotterdam, I stayed in Delft for discussing our business with
Bou and ZhoaDuan. Before the discussion, I was hunting for food. So,
I asked that girl whether she likes to have a dinner with me, Bou
and ZhaoDuan. She said yes.

She is a nice girl to play with. I made a lot of jokes about myself,
which she says I am a weirdo. Although, I am a weirdo, she gave me
her phonenumber very easy. Plus I have her msn. In case of the
canteen girl, things are so tough. I have to use so many side ways
to get her msn and I still do not have her phonenumber. This world
is really unfair. But, but, she contacts me this week for a
photoshooting, since I asked her to be my model in the summer. After
making up her mind, she said 'conditioned' yes. She wants to have
someone to take with her when I did a shooting with her. I wonder
who she will bring with. My feeling says, it must be her boyfriend.

This week, I receive an e-mail from Shan Shan with her wedding pics.
She looks nice on the pics. Does she do not look pretty? Well, she
is already pretty, so her beauty on the pics is nothing special. On
the pics, she looks very happy with her prince. I hope she will stay
happy forever!

I knock off now. If Jok allows me to put his graduation on my
multiply, go to check them out!

I have a very busy and stressing month to go through, since I have many deadlines. The first one comes from my third paper. Twee weeks ago, Dafina asked me to write a paper about my read-out electronics, since I "prove" that mine read-out electronics is much better than the one that TNO used. So far, mine electronics are simulated successfully and they need to be build for further testing. At the end of this month, my paper (which has been accepted by the Safe workshop), should be finished and send to the organisator of the conference....so, I hope can finish with testing.

For that conference, which is in The Netherlands, a poster needs to be created. Also, I have to prepare for a 1-2 minutes presentation. This is a big challenge for me, since I talk too much once we are talking about my work....:P

On top of this, my business comes to its end. This weekend, I was busy with designing the layouts of all screenshots. I got some feedbacks from my businesspartners who are ZhoaDuan and Bou. But I notice that Bou does not take this project too serious. He is also very easy to satisfy. In contrast to ZhoaDuan, he gives me a lot of critiques for improvements. I notice that ZhoaDuan and me are on the same car in terms of business. We talked alot at U. I hope to work with him more and more in the future.

Recently, I was busy with taking pics. Those are paid assignments. So, money flows in and my life becomes busier and busier. I hope more assignments will flow to me. Keep me busy please!

Enfin, I upload a new profile photo, since I am asked to do that. This is my new hair cut. Anyone see white hairs in the pic?:P