My Digital World

Nowadays people around are busy with their study, relationship or jobs. My current life is focussing on study and doing my part-time jobs well. The seconds, minutes, hours and days are passing without my notice.

At Thursday, I have four appointments planned. I cancel one appointment. That appointment is about a job. It is impossible for me to do 4 part-time jobs and two Masters. So that is why I cancel the appointment. The other appointment is about the meeting of the study consellor. We talk about our job as a tuitor/mentor. To be quite honest, I thought that this appointment had been cancelled. But Bou let me know that I am wrong. I really don't like the meeting since I have other very important thing to do. That is, working on my peace-maker project. This week, I have no time for working on it. Thursday after the lecture, there are some hours left before my appointment. But a part of the hours is taken by the study counsellor.

Anyway, after the meeting with the study counsellor, I rush to read and understand the electronics in making of the paece-maker device. The mathematical part is finished. The principle of the electronic is not too difficult. And I am glad that I have prepared it well since at the meeting with my professor, he notices that I have worked on it 'well'. I have some questions that he cannot give me answer. hehehe...which he surprises him again. Sometimes I like to test my professor for their understanding.

After the meeting, I go to Rotterdam to meet some friends: Jessica and Faruk. Before the summer holiday, they like to meet me. But we cannot pick up a day where we can meet. So finally, we met last Thursday. I cooked for them. I made the famous Chicken Rice of Singapore for them. Although I don't have the complete stuff that I need to prepare. After the dinner we have some ice cream and I do the dishes while Faruk and Jessica are doing their Chinese homework in my room.

The next day I have course in the nuclear institute. JB (a friend of me) had found it out some information about this course. The course fee is 5000Euro in stead of 15000Euro. The level we are participating is one of the highest level. Our level is for Master/PhD students or working people only. There is one level higher. But if you like to participate that level, you need to have many years working-experience on the nuclear laboratory. After we finish the course with succes, we receive a diploma.

By the way, I thought that the course name was "nuclear physics safety", but I am wrong. It is "radiological health physics". The course is not too tough for so far. But there are lots of homework to do after the first week. We have completed 7 chapters in the past two days....

During the lecture, I try to pay attention. But most of the time I am fighting with myself more than I listen to the teacher. I mean, I try to keep my eyes open, but somehow they like to close to make me sleepy. That is why I fell asleep during the lecture which the teacher lasts a break. I think he notices my absent. Maybe he thinks that if I drink coffee in the short break I will stay awake. But he doesn't know that I do not like drinking coffee from the coffee-machine. So the next hours I still wanna close my eyes...

Well, that is so far my last two days. This week, I receive a very wonderful e-mail of a friend that I know for 18 years!!! She knows me from the Primary School in Holland. She sends me an e-mail about a meeting with all of the Primary School pupils. They know each other from a website and they all want to meet each other one day. I am so happy that I 'jump in the air'. I wonder how everyone is after so many years. I don't know when the meeting will be. But I definitely will be present.

There is one song that I like it very much currently. The lyric is good and I like the style how the singer express 'the mood' of the song. I copy the lyric of the song below.

(YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME)
在我眼里你永远最美　连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给　以为手不放开就是痴心绝对　太愚昧
难道笑容没了　距离有了　快乐也走了
还是真心死了　彼此不信任了　终于懂了　真的

很想说有你是幸福的　很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了　很想说你真的忘记了 MY LOVE

笑容没了　距离有了　快乐也走了
还是真心死了　彼此不信任了　终于懂了　真的
很想说有你是幸福的　很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了　很想说你真的忘记了 MY LOVE

很想说会好好疼你的　很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了　很想说你真的忘记了

爱了　就有坚持理由　别说　我会留在路口
不会走　爱你会直到最后

很想说有你是幸福的　很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了　很想说你真的忘记了 MY LOVE

很想说会好好疼你的　很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了　很想说我们可不可以　复合


My translation of this will be:
(YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME)
In my heart you are always, the beautiest. Even your smile will make me drunk.
You said you want the happiness that I give to you. Don't let it flip out of my hand. That will be perfect.
There is no more smile. Happiness is also gone.
The love you is dead. Finally be understood.

I really want to say, having you is my luck. I really want to say my heart is yours.
I really want to say what you misunderstand. I really want to say you have already forgotten. My Love.

There is no more smile. Happiness is also gone.
The love you is dead. Finally be understood.
I really want to say, having you is my luck. I really want to say my heart is yours.
I really want to say what you misunderstand. I really want to say, what you have already forgotten. My Love.

I really want to say, I will take good care of you. I really want to say, loving you is free.
I really want to say, no matter if you listen or not. I really want to say, what you have already forgotten. My Love.

Love. Will last forever. Don't say. I will stay
And I won't go. My love for you will be last.

I really want to say, my fate is yours. I really want to say my heart is yours.
I really want to say what you misunderstand. I really want to say, what you have already forgotten. My Love.

I really want to say, I will take good care of you. I really want to say, loving you is free.
I really want to say, no matter if you listen or not. I really want to say, whether we can. Being together again.

It is awesome how busy my life is in the past two days. At Tuesday, I go to Rotterdam and Delft. I have two appoitments. The first appointment is with an international student, Yan. She is interested in learning Dutch and I offer to teach her. At some moments, it reminds me the time when I came to Holland and where I got lot of tuition from teachers and a girl that I now know for 18 years already!!! It is incredible how fast time fly. Well, now it is my turn to bring my skill over to people. When I was in Delft I immediately go to the canteen to look for Yan. But she was not there and I saw a friend and we get into talk. Then Yan comes along and I start with my tuition.

There are several things that non-Dutch people, especially the Chinese people, encounter. It is the pronounciation of some letters. For instance, the letter "g" and "h". When I was in Singapore, my friend Adrian told me that "g" sounds very strong and he heared lots of "g" sounds. Yan finds it very difficult to pronounce it correctly. I cannot hear the difference in "g" and "h" of Adrian and Yan. But overall, I think Yan is a very fast learner. She is very good for the first time and hopefully she will pick up some Dutch after my tuition.

After the tuition, I rush to sport centre where I have another appointment with two students of my own group. Yan belongs to the group of Bou (the friend I usually ge along with when I am in Rotterdam). I keep the two students waiting for 5 minutes which I think I am very bad. By the way, we wish to play basketball, but the indoor field is just painted for some hours and we are not allowed to play. So we go to play beachvolley. We miss some people and I call my friend Bou to join. After playing for 15 minutes I decide to check for the free places to play basketball. I finally find one hall free and I ask for the permission to play. Fortunately they are nice this time and I am allowed to use the hall. So we play basketball till the people who play basketball every Tuesday are coming. They are semi-professional players and we are asked to train with them. It was very nice and I hope that my two students enjoy yesterday too.

After playing sport, I rush to Rotterdam to plan my week and doing some preparation. At Sunday night before I go to sleep and when I open my mailbox for checking e-mails, the project manager sends me an e-mail. His name is Hans and he invites me to join him and other managers and director of the project for having a dinner together and talking about the project. However, it is not necessary to be present. But I try to make time for them and I write that in the mail. And today, Hans sends me an e-mail to cancel the invitation. I am very glad to receive that e-mail. I am really too busy for catching up with them. I am in the nuclear institute of Delft (and that also holds for the Netherlands) for doing my course "radiological physics safety" whole day. After completing this course, I will receive a diploma which I am very proud of: I have some meaningfull in my pocket. There are two 'bad' sides: 1. I have to pay 100euro for the tuition fee and 2. it takes me two whole days a week.
I am told that the tuition fee is much and much higher if you are graduated nor you are sent from your company. I don't know if this true: the fee is about 15 000euro!!!
The second is unexpected. I thought that it is only once a week.

I am running out of time now. Yesterday (in the very little space in time I left) I put the rest of the code in MATLAB. Like last week, I don't have time for doing my pacemaker project seriously. I plan to do that tomorrow morning after having lecture which ends at 10:45h. I have an appointment with my professor tomorrow afternoon and there are lots of work to do......

This week, I have been very busy with many things around me. They are not related to my studies, as what most of my friends think of. In stead, they are about the things that happen suddenly. For instance, I have to put a lot of energy in choosing a new person who will live with me and the other guy in Rotterdam's room. Also, the appointments with my International Master Students take me lots of time. There is one typical thing that I notice during the lunch meeting. The students have never had a lunch with me so far. Most of them have had their lunch already.

I spend too much time on trying to be a good mentor. I even don't have time for myself anymore this week. Last Thursday, I spend some hours on working on my research in the development in improving the pacemaker after I have had my dinner. It is a rush work and I feel a bit guilty to my professor that I do not spend enough time on it. Therefore I tell myself that I focus more on my studies and try to be less 'good' as I wish for the International Students.

Every weekend, when I am at home (in Groningen), I am very tired. After being busy at the University, I have to rush to work in Groningen. I notice that I am very sleepy in the whole weekend. I thought I can handle that. But that was past since I am very weak now after such a very-serious operation. And maybe I am getting old as well. When I did gym this schoolyear (in September), I could not take many weights. For instance, before the operation, I could weight lift for max 70KG (lie down on a bench). I started warming up with 50KG although I cannot have more than 40KG currently. I hope I will get stronger later. There is one thing that I am afraid of. That is the training for my belly. My 6packs turns to 1pack after the operation and I don't want to force my belly. My belly was of my strongest part in all the gym exercises. But now, it is the weakest.

This weekend when I came to home, I receive an invitation-letter of a company that offers me a part-time job. They like to talk to me tomorrow afternoon. But I am reminded by a classmate that I have lecture. I can't remember what job I have applied for. Currently I am only interested in the very big project. So, I decide to make a call to cancel the offer tomorrow morning.

Talking about the very big project, this weekend I receive an agreement to sign. I will do that in these few days and I am prepared to do a nice job for them. I don't know if I can handle such a huge task and responsibility by myself. But I believe that if you do your best, the results won't disappoint you. You may fail, but at least you have done your best and there is nothing to regret.

Another thing is that I find another nice part time job. It is giving lessons in Physics at the Secondary School. It is what I did a few years ago. I have written a letter to apply be a Physic teacher. I wonder if they need me. Time will tell.

The most beautiful thing is that a friend of me in Singapore is going to marry! I am very glad to hear that. It is a great pity that I won't be present at his most wonderful moment of his life. Hereby I wish him having a nice life with the one who can make him happy.

This week I am confronted with the questions of "when will you get a girlfriend?" by my friends and other people. I think that my mother is wondering too. I always joke with my friends that there is no one who likes me or that I am not attractive. However, all might be true. But I think having a relationship now may not be a good moment. Why? First of all, this year I will be very busy. I don't have time to get in touch with people. Second, I like to go oversea to finish my Master degree. Suppose that I have a girlfriend now, we will get seperate when I leave. Indeed, I can take her with me if she likes. But that will be very difficult.
I am very carefully with finding my One. I want her to be THE ONE. I told to myself, if I will have a girlfriend, I will give her all the best things of this world. My thought might be too "optimistic". But I really want to make this true!

This weekend I watched a programme in which they made a documentary about the life of kids. They are trained to be a (succesful) acrobat later. I am very sad to see how tough their life is. Their training last 12 hours EVERY day! You see them cry when they fail. You see them suffer since they always face to new challenge which is much harder than the previous one. They have no choice since their parents are poor and they hope that they will have a better life in the circus-world...

Some people fight in their whole life for only 3 meals although some people save their money for buying a super-expensive brand (e.g. GUCCI). The world is so unfair! If we all care each other a bit, maybe this world will be nicer to the poor ones.

In that documentary, the kids are not well feed. They are not allowed to become fat. They are hit by their master if they don't do things well. The world would be more colorful if their life is not so tough. If I am a person who can help them a bit, I would like to do that.

The last few days, I was wondering what I like to do when I finish with my study. I notice that I don't like to work as a pure micro-electronics engineer. After a long talk to the professor of Biomedical Engineering, I find out what I am searching for. That is, I like to contribute some good things for people. Since I am not a rich guy, I cannot donate money for providing education for the poor people. The only thing I have is my knowledge I gain from my university. With my knowledge I like to help people who suffer from deceases or to make someone's life easier/healthier. To be a succesful Biomedical Engineer is very hard since you have to be an expert in Medicine and designing electronics. But my way to be a good Biomedical Engineer is not so though as the kids in the circus. Time will tell how my further will be.

By the way, today I did some portrait shoots. My cousin and her friend were my models. Since they are new to portrait shoots, I have to teach them how to pose and what they should wear. Here are the results:


It was ages ago that I did portaits shoots. Hope that my skill won't be worse.

Currently I am at my friend's house. There are lots of things I have to do. For instances keep all the International Msc Students updating about our next meeting. This week I have met them. Most of the International Msc Students come from China. And some of them from Europe. In the past few days (to be more precisely: 2,5 days), I have worked for 38hours!!! I started at 8AM and end at 10:30PM. What have I done? Well, I worked as an IT co-worker. My task was to help International Students for fixing their notebooks and installing three kind of internet accounts we use in my University. I like that job very much since I can get in touch with the students and my colleagues.

At my last day, one of the project managers offers a very great part-time job. I am asked to take participation in a very huge project that many big companies sponsor. For instances companies of "Rotterdamse Haven" (Rotterdam's Harbor). One may know that the harbor of Rotterdam had been the world's largest harbor. Anyway, the project is about building small models of the living in Holland. There is a link of the project: project

My task is doing the programming in assembly languages (it is one of the computer languages at one level above the binary coding). I have to control the car traffic. For instance, once the car approach the corner, it has to be slow down and show its blinker. I always want to control the car. That will be a chance and beside it is very challenging for myself since I am the only one that have to do this project. I have thought about someone to help me since I might be busy with my study.

To be quite honest, I don't understand why the project manager picks me up for doing such a great task. I am not the smartest one among all the people. He asks me many time for the job. When he leaves, he also says that he is waiting for my reply. Today I have sent him an e-mail to ask more information about my task. I am really very happy that I have such a great chance. And sometimes I doubt that I cannot handle.

There is one more good new: my neighbour will move out!!! I am very happy to hear that. Soon I will have a nice and clean room without the worry of that someone uses my stuff without my permission etc.

By the way, this week, there is an anual event in Rotterdam. It is the "Wereldhavendagen". At that event, there was firework you can see. Yesterday I went out to shoot firework. One of my shots is here:
Wereldhavendagen

It was my time that I see firework in Rotterdam. I notice that the firework is quite differnt from the one in Singapore. The firework here is not so "big" and most of the shots stay at the same height. Therefore some of my pics are overexposed or losing details of the pattern of the fireworks.

The last thing I want to mention is my forum that me and my friend have created. At our forum one you can find our self created forum. No matter whether you are international students or locals are allowed to join as well. Our goal is bringing all the students in Netherlands together. Let's make our life more beautiful!