Bleeding Love

I HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY!

and I AM HAVING MENSES!!!

Fatie needs to sing this song to smooth my menses LOLS~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vzo-EL_62fQ

Time flies.. projects are stacking in my fileeand I have yet to touch on any tutorial yet. This semster is crazy, I am basically spending a lot of time reading the textbook and lectures note. Lectuers for this semster are gonna! I wonder how to pass for this semster. Goodbye to my good result ..
I think, I should try to apply one month no pay leave to sit at home to study.. the key word is try...
Sometimes, think again.. Do i really need one full month to study? when I can wake up at 4am to study (like previous semster) .. It is a useful method but killing for my body.

Sigh.. to work and to study..

I have to work cos I have my house, I have to study cos I want to have a better home.

Life is hard huh..

Many things happened these two weeks.. It make me realised that.. sometimes it may be just a growing up process. People make mistakes, people learn from it.

Fatie got me a new iPhone =)

July is a month of bustling bees.

FIRST OF EVERYTHING, I BOUGHT A 32inch LCD tv for my room. Something that shocked many people cos.. I don't watch tv. Reason for buying.. unknown but was not a impluse purchase.

School starrted on the first week of july. I started to drag myself to school on my 2nd lesson. I really dislike those Australian to be in the class. Their tone is forever monotonus and lessons are forever boring. 7pm to 10pm straight. We got to also face the fact that we can no longer be in the same team. Project groupings are formed by the lecturer. Calin and I refused to meet anyone up.. They are over enthu! They keep msging me wanting to meet etc.. I was kind of pissed cos I refused to meet. We are encourage to use different alternatives to discuss our project and not meet up ?! However, my bestie mate Calin is dying under her bossy mates .. My group members are so much nicer! =D soo lucky :P
Her's is bossy! ARrgh! Everythings end 24 September 2010. *PEACE*

The weekly class test online can be torturing too. My best story book for the semster starting from July will be Financial Accounting Theory.

Blar-ing with Stanley on one sunday afternoon, both of us decide visit Universal Studio in August.. But we can't wait. Both of us applied leave and there we go ! Universal Studio on Friday 16 July 2010. I booked the tickets on monday. Realised it was sold out on Monday night. Both were kinda HENG! ( As if.. )

Stan and I met pretty early on friday for early breakfast at Mcdonald. I was super anxious about the park but Stan was doing things very very very slowly on that day. He kept saying that is hooooliday, why is there to rush?! I am rushing cos I am very excited!

We reached the park about 10am. It was so packed and the sky was hohoho! Super black!
The moment we stepped into the park compound " boooooom" Mr thunder welcome us! We bought kid's poncho from the shop and from there we start our journey. Due to the train, the waiting time for the outdoor rides were queue-less. We took a few rides with only both on it. That's quite cool right LOL! Time always flies when we are enjoying. By 2pm. We have completed ALL the rides and photo shooting. Lalal! That's fast.
We have a long lunch and went for second round! Wooo~ Again, the rain keep tapping on us, that's why we are able to go for 2nd round.

The excitement was 101% cos we are able to go for TWO rounds. How many people can actually go for the 2nd times? without the fear of the scary queue line?

Our holliday ended with a nice meal at HardRock Cafe , a TOTO machine from the gift shop for Stan's mum and a goodbye firework before driving home. =)

The rain stopped tapping after we walked out from Universal Studio =X

Vincent celebrated his 21st Birthday 1 week ealier at St Games Playhouse. His ideal birthday party - Play games to celebrate his time to grow up 21st. Many young people + mummy attended. 72 donuts are DUPER scary but they finished all, two big boxes of delicious sushi and free flow of cans drink. When it comes to free flow.. we all tend to drink the more expensive drink like coke instead of soya milk etc.. They empted the coke and root beers.

Hongling drank mineral water. -facepalm-

His birthday present include a guitar for his PS3. Like what he has mentioned in his facebook. I am addicted to the guitar. I am so retard on that.. ... is so difficult to finish one full song.

I got to stick my butt on my chair and start doing research for my project..

Indeed a very busy month.

Hohoho!

Anger

I never talk back non want to say a second word. I just quickly finished up my prata and return back to my room.

Sunday morning, a shocking morning. I am being push to the edge to face the fact that all the money has been used for buying shares and .. there's nothing left for my coming school fee... I have to source for my own school fee.

Thinking back... all the not to worry about school fee blah blah sound so bullshit now... I am left alone here to think about sourcing for money.

Yes! I do have enough saving for the rest of the semester.. Those are my saving.. I have been consider "thrifty" due to the fact that I have a house coming.. and I am saving hard for it... Think about it.... it seems even harder for me now...

Disagreement

I cannot agree with my dad that investing the money on stock market is for the shake of us. This is COMPLETELY BULLSHIT! He was the one who promise that I can study with ZERO worry about school fee and now I am in deep shit. Stop saying that my mum have enough money for my school fee.

What if one day something happened and we need a lot of money?! Where do we get money for emergency use if I use that money for school fee. It takes time to convert shares back to money.. During emergency, do we have the time to wait money? Do my dad think that the bank will lend us money ? Do our credit card have that much of credit to "lend" us during emergency?

Cold hard cash eventually still rule right ...?

Have he ever thought of that?

My dad has contribute to the family endlessly thing. This is one of the thing I can not agree with him.. He cannot continue to dump money into the deep sea

一转眼我们都长大了， Michelle 都快要13 岁了。 。 时间过的真的很快。我们这几个已经开始工作了，Ah Ting 也坏了第二胎， 我们很快又要当阿姨了！

Aiyah.. english is faster and easier !

Today at grandpa's house. We made a small wooha about michelle intending to fold 1314 hearts for her boyfriend Levis. She has completed 600+ hearts and she has another 700+ to go .. This paper hearts are for 2 month monthlyvisary. Though many feel that it is something REALLY stupid and too free, think about it .. it is a very romantic and nice thing a young girl get to do. At least she has experienced and it formed part of a very sweet memories. It is sweet though silly.

Yah lah, I also agree that all this become junk or rubbish after break up.

Two weeks best friend = Puppy love.

Something depressing and worrying ..

I got my medical report via post on thursday. Report shows that I have low neutrophils . The normal range is from 2.50 - 7.50; mine 1.69

Neutropenia usually is caused by some form of infection. From what I remember, neutrophils are body's first line of defense, any form of bacterial infection will use up the body's neutrophil supply very quickly. If its virus neutrophil should not be affected but the lymphocyte count will go down.

And recently I got a skin infection which leads to a swollen lymph under my chin. How worrying. I did a lot of reading this few days and I am getting more and more confused. What should I do? Is neutrophils good or bad? I know high white blood cell is bad but too low is also bad ? I suppose. Is worrying yet helpless.
I should see a GP for 2nd opinions.. .. my boss just rejected my leave and course applications.
This leads more to more frustration. Sigh...

Job

Recently I got a tempting job offer. I am kind of determine not to jump this time round though the payout and stuff are so much better than the current job. What is better than a solid rice bowl? I cannot keep jumping .. I will lose out eventually due to time lag and whatsoever.. My boss face is blacker.. I know the heart of others might not be less black than hers. The working society is hash and cruel. There are many out there working with a mask and when they return home .. they remove that mask (They become caring mother or girlfriend) Hahahs!

The life of a grown up is tough and hash.

I miss my girls and my butty!

I bought a new kingkoil bed.. big pocket burn and the up coming genting trip will burn it even further..

My aim is 10k, if not there will be no long holiday for me =)


On the other hand, save so much for what? Health is not very good and I am kind of unwilling to see a GP for that. (Smack my own head!!) See GP means dig more problems and spend more money...

In the end, I got a lot of money and no health.. No "time" to spend whatever I save.

STUPID

Bleh

Work have been extremely heavy ever since I return from exam. Ms Halal has went away with 5 days of hospitalization leaves, 4 days of MCs and 1 week of vacation leaves. She is practically out for 14 working days. As her covering officer, I have to cover her for the whole day and her job scope require us to laison with the bank regards to money DAILY. The full job cycle will only be completed after the bank have called to confirm the placement and the other department checked with money on hand to play. This is the part that I hate because these group of people start work at 9am and ends at 6.30pm. I start work at 8am and ends at 5.30pm. I don't have a choice but to wait till they confirm the necessary. All these lead to - No claim overtime. SIAN! Yes! I can start work late but.. I always want to go home early leiii ..

Beside covering for her.. working in a statory board is like a student in the exam. Every quarterly we will be given "exam" paper to complete. I have 4 sets of exam papers and some other major urgent things to settle. This leads to a glumpy face all day cos.. I have to do cover for her and my part it is too heavy to anwser those paper ... leaving the fact that is my first time doing those

Work and work and work and work.. she is now enjoying her music camp vacation.. I am down here doing my fund manager report... and snaking at the same time.

The long weekend was fun! Fatie and I watched Sex and the City 2 at Jurong Point on the first day of show~ Hoho! is good that I didn't stupidly want to attend the dinner cum SATC movie show at Vivocity. The ticket cost $99.00 per pax. How not worth it.. The movie wasn't up to my expection. =(

Friday was a slow day.. I sleep for 50% of the day.. I got my hair dyied at the saloon. Treat from mummy! Hoho!

Saturday was BEACH day. Yes! I am super scare of snowy licking me but I love "scrubing" her LOL! Well.. She is quite naughty.. but cute also. BBQ was a success all owe to XiaoWei and Kaisin.. I skipped my responsibility half way.. due to "conflict" of interest. The weather was really good though a little hot, we all have fun flying kite, catching up and many many more! Finally we went to the beach after soooooooooooo soooooo long.




Sunday! Fatie and I went for studio shoot. Aiyah.. I toldl him, we must heart pain one time pay for the shoot and keep those as very beautiful memories. Didn't know that taking photo can be tiring. It was really a different experience beside the big hole inside my pocket.. The photographer was a lady.. a funny lady. We are still waiting for the photos to be out ! Wee!

Oooh back from Calvin Birthday Party @ MindCafe.

Is a party that gather most of our poly friends together. Not really most but the closer one .. But too bad lah! George is not able to come. We missed his buibui look!

MindCafe is something that Karen don't really fancy cos.. I sucks at board games.. I am good at nothing actually. Is the company and the laughter that brighten the day.

Playing the "bang" game picked by our "Special" student Mr Tan Liang Chuan was one of them - OH my God ! why he picked that game! Not only me.. Novin and Stanley has the same sentiment too. I was really lucky enough to be the "President" of the game, so if someone kills me .. that we end the game. From there.. I can see that Novin is trying real hard to end the game - By killing me.. The game only went around TWO rounds. There comes Xueyi and the staff walked off. The monent she walked off.. WE ALL KEEP THE GAME Muahhahaha! That's one of real funny action all of us did.

Our day ended with two cups of drinks that Stan went to take when everyone stood up preparing to go.. LOL! That's a little LOL! Florence helped him with the drink and there we went off after polaroid pictures.

We made the right choice by getting him a polariod camera =D

First I say GOODBYE EXAM




Second I say HELLO to ALL THESE GOODIES from StanStan



and lastly

WORK SUCKS

Exam is TOO MUCH

Exam made Karen to wake up at 4am everyday morning just to study.. I am too tired now. I took a half day leave to replenish my sleep...

Why not study after work? I work late most of the day, even if I don't by the time I reached home, my soul will be with the TV. I am too shagged to study...

Looking at the rain outside.. made me feel like taking a FULL day urgent leave. Sigh.. Should I or should i know? I am going to work not because I siao on but because I know I have a MOT submission today and moreover.. I will be on leave from tomorrow all the way to next tuesday.

The rain is pouring like nobody business and thunder are really scary these day... should I ?

I pity Calin who is stuck in the office now. She intend to take 1/2 day so that she can come back to sleep (She thinks that taking am half day is super boh hua) I guess she totally regretted it now. I doubt she can come home.

She regret not taking am 1/2 day and I am pondering if I should take full day.

Sighhhh!


Fatie has been very corporative in promoting sleeping at 10.30pm when he knows that I wake up at 4am to study.


Thank you =D

Nick Vujicic

feeling quite emotional in class after watching this video played by my lecturer.
Those really hard time flashed cross my head.. If I have to redo every single thing again to be where am I now.. will I still have the courage ?

I have being brave before.. and at that point, I have used up all the courage I have in my life.. to redo my O level. Perhaps to many out there.. this is nothing. This is because, you all didn't went through what I have faced physically and mentally. It wasn't easy at all.

I am still very proud of where I am today but.. now the challenge is not to look back but to continue to march forward to a better future.

I am so scare that I will fall again.. Will I be able to stand up again IF I fail ?

I doubt I have the courage to be like Nick.. " If I will I try again and try again"

I hope I will look at life differently.. life will be lighter and happier.

I am feeling so teary now.. The past of mine, do scared me off.

We are so stress up over work and projects!

My Birthday :)

A very very very quiet and peaceful birthday.

I woke up with mee sua and two eggs ready for me, very nice greeting from my parents. These are very nice and sweets.


In the past, I used to celebrate my birthday with my secondary school classmates. We always have meal together before my birthday.. This year,I was tied down with work and didn't have the chance to meet them out.

Nancy, she used to come over on my birthday to exchange gift with each other. This year.. She has a boyfriend to celebrate with .. and I missed one birthday lighter .. ( She gives me one lighter every year!)


This year, Stan made me a very very very special bread ?! or rather.. he got bread and magicalise it ? ARrrrgh Really? HAHAS.

Calin, calvin, novin and LC got me a super duper green STARBUCKY !! I love it so much ! I can use it on those days that I have schooooooool ( More latte coming along~) Ooops!

Bakerzin is having a small sales! THOSE ARE MY FAVOURITE! $1 each. Is super expensive but since is MY birthday, I decide to give MYSELF a treat =D




It is a simple yet very very sweet birthday. Thank you everyone for their greetings and wishes! Thank you :)

My Sunflower

"HAPPY" NEW YEAR

The most "MEMORABLE" Chinese New Year to My family and IIIII.

First few days of new year started slow and boring. Not much of gambling and the CNY mood wasn't there.

Vincent met an accident on the 9th day of CNY, a broken finger. Two days later I was hospitalize due to acute appendix issue but in the end, it was due to ovulation problem. I was hospitalized for 30 hours in the A&E ward. On the same night, my dad had a great fall at home while removing some new year deco at home.

The year of tiger, start off lousily and painfully for the family...

Instead of blessing in disguise. It should be disgusting blessing.
Well he is in pain sleeping in his room now. At least back home with a big big drumstick!

When mum called on Monday. I completely freak out. I was doing my lunch time revision and suddenly everything seemed to spin the wrong side. I panicky packed my stuff. Rush to my boss cubicle blurishly told him that I need to go and -pew- I was out.

How lucky to meet a new taxi driver! It was his first day and he is not sure where is the A&E. When you are kan jiong everything don't go in your way. He drop me at the normal enterance. It took me awhile before I found my way to the A&E. A saw a big group of army officers standing around. Next to them was my brother. Wah! Super relief! At least he was standing not lying.

First thing I asked was not "what happened" I ask them "Hows my brother" at that point I have no time to care what happened. Lol

His finger got snap during training. Broke finger with it didn't fall off because his super duper strong skin held his bone. I saw the whole finger! And of cos his smashed bloodly meat etc. Quite scary but must Kay siao to be strong.

Vincent was shivering but then face problem la " I can don't take pain killer, still able to tahan" so he was not given that super pain killer. Lol

There were too many patient for operation. His will have to wait till 10pm. Quite a long wait sooo they sent him to the ward.
Since there's someone from the army to accompany him, three of us went home. That was about 6pm.

The traffic jam was bad. We got stuck in the jam, half way through he text me saying that he is going to the operation theater. I called his officer and he was there with him.

Later one of the nurse called to inform us on the operation and duration etc.

We return back to the hospital at 9pm. We were bar from going in to wait for him outside the OT. Called his officer, Stanstan was there too and we sat inside starbuck till they closed.

Time really fly freaky slow... The operation time took more than what we were told. Till 12 midnight, Vincent was still not out... we got abit worried and went around looking for people to check the OT for us. Went round and round. Finally headed to the correct place, someone helped us to check. Vincent only went in to the OT at 8pm and after operation we will have to wait for another 1-2 hrs before we can see him.

He was out at 2.30am. Abit sleepy but still managable. Three of us went back after they have settled his ward etc.

Just came back from a late night movie. Seriously speaking, 20 bucks for two is far too expensive for this movie. I paid $20 for a movie that ... I don't usually will watch. I watch it because .. it will bring comfort to the heart and is a cousins and cousins gathering.

Life is far too busy for me now. I hardly have enough time to sleep, let alone enjoying my life. It is very true that I am leading a no life now. I wake up, brush my teeth, bathe, pee.. I leave the house at 6.38 to catch the 6.52 train. I will reach outram by 7.22 and take NEL at 7.30. Reached office at 7.47am, make coffee, wipe my table and read the papers. I bring my own lunch, eat infront of the computer and do my 30 mins mini revision from Monday to Friday. Everyday I have no choice but to leave at least 30 to 3 hours later. I reached home, bathe, eat dinner, watch a little show, call Stanstan and I will sleep at 11.30 sharp.

This is how no life I am leading now.

I have no extra energy for shopping, for a nice walk at the park etc. My saturday is packed with school.

After school today, Stan brought me to Essential Brew for my favourite hide up corner. A very cosy place with nice fruity tea. Going there to study was a complete bullshit excuse. Is a place where I have time to stone over a nice cup of berry forest hot tea. We went home for dinner with my parents exclude my brother. Yusheng was the main reason why we are home for dinner. I love Yusheng - Yummy!-

Since the night was still young, Stanstan drove me out to get some sugar stick and mini dairy products from Daiso before heading to the super hypermart at Jurong point. Since we got 100 bucks NTUC voucher, we spur it on those "wants" that we always wanted to get but ... too stingy to get it. E.g A little more expensive instant noodle LOL!

Movie was the last item on the list that I need to fulfil for the day. Well, at least it temporary bring me back to life...

All these are not something uncommon to many but to me.. I sacrified my percious sleeping time for a big comfort to both hearts.


When Chee Ping Da Ge is happy over the interview I am down here thinking if I should resign. hah! That's so opposite.

Work has not been smooth sailing at all. There is no pull factor except for the monetary. I do feel that I am at the edge.. I am considering to get another job. I don't want to make myself that unhappy everyday. Mentally wise I don't feel good at all. I told myself that it is okay to change job and go somewhere where I will not feel so stress up and life might be a little better. Money should not be the key factor... But in the first place why did I even decide to go for the interview?

As what I've mentioned.. It was a wrong move, I didn't want to turn my head back.. I am only focusing somewhere now.

I am very unhappy, I am stress blah blah blah..

Airshooow

I just came back from Lot one.

the crowd there is scary due to one unknown Korean group coming.

All the XMM queuing there don't know waiting for what.

The roof top garden is at level 5, those early birds were already waiting at level 4.

The management have failed to do crowd control. Those XMM actually stand INFRONT of the escalator People who go up to level 4 got STUCK and nobody stop the escalator from moving and ppl from behind just keep "piling"

My mum was infront of me. We got stuck. Both my mum and I were standing at the edge. The man infront tried to push those XMM and I hold on tightly to the side of the escalator, I am so scare that my mum will fall. Due to the pushing etc.. I got injured. There were bruises on my palm and scratches on my arm. All these are minor. I am just pissed with the management.

Then later, one couple together with a baby stroller got up. AGAIN, XMMs were also infront of the escalator. Upon reaching, the baby parents actually grab the stroller.. knowing that they will be stuck. They tried very hard to push into the crowd. The baby was actually crying very loudly.

What if they did not manage to push in, the whole baby stroller will flip backward. So if things happen, who is going to be responsible? The parents ? for using the escalator ? There is only one escalator towards level which is working.

The security guard one STAND and SEE .. they have FAILED badly in handling the crowds.

My boss is away for TWO WEEKS and the only damn good thing about this is I AM ABLE TO GO HOME ON TIME!

However, my boss has left me to die in the office. She the bitch happily sent me email last friday saying this

" See you in two weeks time! On friday, remember to submit Financial Assets Report, GL Schedules and prepare AGD reports/IP Report/EP Report/Exco Report when I am away"


She happily went off without any trace of how I should StART with those reports.

Financial Assets report is the main killer, I have some idea from the IFRS and little understanding from how I should even start doing. She "taught" me once last month. She click there and click there and entered some figures that she got from her brain and some magic numbers -dengzdengz- came out! This is how she finished the report. She clicked save, print and she submit.

I have no idea how to do..

I have been struggling to do all this report yesterday morning. When I reached home after work, I wasstill trying to solve. Feeling so lost and so sucky about the whole thing, I have no choice but to depend on past data, make some assumptions and trial and error method. The figure finally tied with the external report Happy like fug!!. HENG ARHG!
Whether is it correct anot, it doesn't matter anymore. I just need to submit. If she blames me for wrong figure etc.. I am going to report to my deputy director. She is going to DIE cos she never teach me and there she goooooo oversea.

This morning, I started off with my IP report.. is a super duper long report and I am still trying to find out from the past data. I am going to suffer again.. but but I am going to sleep well tonight.

At least my Financial Asset figure TIES!

Stranger

After school, Stanstan and I went to Lot one Mcdonald to enjoy some nice fries and green tea. Stanstan went to buy another extra packet of fries after we shallow one down and one auntie actually ask if she can share the table with us since there isn't any seats.

She started talking about her new job her life and her family. The conservation lasted for at least 45 mins. She talks about her bad day at work, talk about her failed business, talk about her family etc.. She told me that she don't like to talk to her children and she avoid going home early so that she will not hear any negative things from anyone at home.

All she does everyday is.. go somewhere for shopping therapy after work till drop and go back home, bathe then sleep.

That's her life ever since she started working 5 days ago. ( Her new job)


My conclusion of her story: She is a very lonely mama. She don't talk to her children but due to her work stress.. she will need to blar out her bad day at work so that she can sleep better :)

We have done a good dead today.

Because of our "patient" she is able to sleep well tonight