Claustrophobia

With Andy in the bishopric, I am always flying solo during sacrament meeting at church. It's been 3.5 years so pretty much by now I've got things handled. But there are some days when I feel a little claustrophobic because the two youngest girls want or need to be on my lap and the other two press their little bodies up against me, sitting next to me. We have a half row we sit on and we take up 3 feet of it. Arms and legs are everywhere and personal space is unheard of.  People tell me that this stage will be missed one day. Today, as I sat with four bodies squishing me and making me feel hot and light headed- I wondered when that time might come because it certainly wasn't upon me. I love my kids and am glad for their love for me.  But today I am extremely thankful for the slightly bewildered 17 yr old boy sitting in front of me who I tapped on the shoulder and unceremoniously passed the baby to. Though I still had one on my lap and two at my sides - I could breathe for a moment.