The money will be worth it...

So update....Thanksgiving was not super successful.  It was really busy and didn't make a lot of time to work out and I definitely ate more than I should but on the bright side at least I didn't gain anything lol.  So I've started my New Year's Resolution early.  I went to the gym today and signed up for a trainer!  Yes...you heard right!  I finally did it!  lol...it's for 6 months and the sessions are not cheap but in the long run the money will be worth it.  I signed up with the manager over training and I cringed enough with the prices that he ended up taking about 10 dollars off per session.  Lol...too bad I didn't have Bryson around he probably would have got it down even further.

Anyway, Roark was the guy I signed up with.  I will be having an hour long training session for free with him on friday.  He was a little too excited to kick my butt!  Haha.  Then I'll have my permanent trainer for my other half hour sessions 2 times a week.  Roark was super nice and said since I've already been through this before I've already got a jump start on most of the people he signs up.  We made some long term goals.  since the training is for 6 months we set a goal to be down about 60 lbs by the time Brady gets home.  He asked me what reasons I had for setting the goal for June and I told him that Brady would be coming home.  He wondered if there were other reasons...I then told him I was picking up Brady from his mission in the Caribbean and he laughed.  He asked, "oh so you want to look good in a swimming suit?".  Haha, he got it.  He also looked at my license and realized my birthday was the same month.  I will be turning 25 so yes another good reason to reach my goal by then.  :)  He was a really nice guy.  I also set a goal to be able to run a half marathon.  He said if I work hard and get to that point that he will run a half marathon with me.

So I'm excited!  Although I wasn't really wanting a trainer for 6 months or to spend that kind of money, I think that I really need to.  It's what I need to really be held accountable and make it a habit again.  Now I just need to stop spending money anywhere else and try to get this ferveo thing I'm gonna do going.  I should be able to make enough money with that to compensate for the trainer, that is if I can get some other people signed up too.  Plus the drink might help me with the weight loss process too.  Ok, well I think that's it for the update right now.  I'll post again after my first workout with Roark!  lol...should be intense and I'm sure I'll feel it on Saturday.  Well talk to you all later!  Love you!

Things are looking up...

Hey Everybody!

So it's been a week since I wrote my last blog.  I'm happy to report that things are looking up! :)  I have held to everything I wrote in the last post...so far!  And I'm already feeling like a better version of myself.  My roommate even commented on it this morning.  I was making my lunch which consisted of a bagel thin with peanut butter, diced pears,  and some rice/bean chips when she said you're like a brand new person!  I've been working out everyday and trying to eat better.  Last night my roommates when out to dinner and asked if I wanted to join them.  Normally I would but I turned them down and had some cottage cheese and a pear for dinner.  I also worked out double last night.  Went to the gym and used the Elliptical machine for about an hour and then played Just Dance on sweat mode for almost another hour.  Good times!  So now that my body is starting to like working out again I'm hoping that the lbs will start dropping off again too!

I haven't started playing the guitar yet but I have borrowed my friend's guitar and will be finding a book for beginners so I can start learning some chords soon.  I've started writing some lyrics for a song so once I start playing I should be able to find a tune for my song.  I'm excited to get back into music again.  Music really is the love of my life!  It makes me happy and really understands me!  Way better than any boyfriend ;)  haha!

My spiritual side is coming along as well.  Looking forward to the blessings I will be receiving for really putting Heavenly Father first in my life.  I'm so grateful to know what I do about the gospel and eternal families.  I'm grateful to have all of you in my life and that we will always be together.  Thanks for always being there for me!  I love you all!

Back to square one...

I've been working with one of my students on idioms and this is one that he has a hard time understanding the figurative meaning for...back to square one.  It means to start over.  Starting over to me means gaining a new perspective and doing things different.  Well I guess it's that time for me...time to start over.  I feel like up til this point in my life I have done the same thing and expected different results.  I guess that means I'm insane according to Einstein's definition.  I don't want to be insane anymore.  Time to do things different with my mind, body and spirit.  

So what am I going to do differently?  Well for my mind I am starting by learning something new.  I am going to learn how to play the guitar.  I have always wanted to learn how to play this instrument but never really had the motivation to make it happen.  But starting over is giving me a lot of motivation and I plan on not just learning to play the guitar but mastering it.  Some day I hope I am good enough to write some songs.  That has always been a dream of mine and I decided it's time to start following my dreams.  So wish me luck on this new endeavor.  One day I'll play some tunes for you! :)

As for my body, it's time to really hit the gym again.  I think I am going to try to get a trainer for once a month possibly more.  I need someone to keep me motivated, someone who is in the same area as me and will push me to work hard in the gym.  I am also planning on working out with my roommate as much as possible.  These workouts coupled with my well balanced meals will kick start my weight loss again.  I have let this get out of hand.  I have gained back a lot of the weight that I initially lost and I am embarrassed by my body again.  Plus I have noticed more cramps and headaches since I have been lacking in my workouts.  By the time I leave for the West Indies with Mom and Dad in the Summer to pick up Brady I want to weigh less that what I did the last time he saw me.  I believe my weight the last time he saw me was about 190.  So I am aiming to hit 175 and lower if at all possible.  I am going to work hard and I would appreciate you all holding me to this.  It helps to have people on your side that believe in you and give you motivation.  

Now for my spirit!  It's sad to admit this but I have not been reading the scripture like I should.  I start one week and then stop the next.  Honestly, I'm not sure I've read the book of mormon through all the way without stopping.  So I have a goal to read the book of mormon from start to finish before Elder Shepherd gets back.  I want him to be proud of his sister...not just how I look on the outside but who I am on the inside.  I want you all to be proud of me!  

With all of these new changes in my life I know that I will be happy because I am doing all that I can to be the best person I can be.  I know that through this I will find a man that sees who I really am and loves me for me.  A man that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated just like my Dad treats my Mom.  The last man I let into my life was not this man.  I never want to feel the way he made me feel again.  I am excited for the future.  To see what kind of blessings these changes will bring into my life.  So here's to starting over!

Love you all!

90 day challenge...

So my last blog was about making time count and reaching new goals.  I am sad to post that I have not reached any of the goals.  I was so close to the first one but I'm not sure what happened.  I guess I had just worked so hard that I crashed.  Well tomorrow is a new day and a new challenge for myself.  I decided to fork out 100 dollars to get a new push in the right direction.  I found this product that I will be starting tomorrow and using for 90 days in hopes of helping me achieve my goals before June.

The product is called Body By Vi.  I was introduced to it by Hailey Young (Johnson).  She and her sister and a few other people I know are also using the product and doing the challenge.  So I will be having two shakes a day in place of meals and eating one healthy meal and a couple healthy snacks between shakes.  I am going to put all effort and faith into making this product work.  I am also planning on following the exercise plan they give for 90 days which is at least 30 minutes of cardio and switching in some weights every other day.  That is just the minimum I will be doing though.  I found a new class at Golds that is crazy hard and causes all kinds of soreness lol. It's called Ripped so I plan to attend that class and a cycling class at least once a week each if not twice a week. Hopefully, with the combination of these exercises and the product I will be able to make some huge changes.

This time I'm going to post every 10 days and give updates on how the product is working and helping me.  It is supposed to give you a lot of energy too so I'm excited to see the overall effect.  So by the end of this challenge there should be 9 more posts!  Hope you are all excited to read.  :)  I hope I don't disappoint you or myself.  I also want post the visible changes for you so I will be adding pictures every 30 days.  Hopefully we will all see some great changes.

 I'm thinking this isn't a horrible angle...

 But here is the reality...wide hips! :( 

Why do I have to have such huge arms?  It's ridiculous! 

Well....here are my official before pictures.  Day 1 of the challenge begins tomorrow.  Wish me Luck!!!!!! :)

Making Time Count...

Ok, so I saw this movie last night called In Time.  It was kind of a different movie but was pretty interesting.  In the movie the only currency they have is time.  At 25 they stop aging and have a year left.  They can spend that year and die faster or try to find more time.  But I was just thinking about that because I haven't made this last year count.  If I had been in the movie I probably would have died a while ago.  It's the start of a brand new year and I want to make this year count.  I have a year and a half til Brady gets home from his mission and I want him to be amazed by me when he gets back.  I have a decent job now, I have a gym membership and am getting a routine set in place.  I need to use my time wisely to make my life worth something.  Nathan and Laurel gave me a really cute Peacoat for Christmas and it is currently a little snug.  I was going to try to return it but I like it a lot.  So I am making new goals again.  It's been a while since I've really had goals and that has been a problem.  Without goals I let myself really slack.  I gained back weight and haven't been happy like I was.  So my next three goals are this:

1) Lose 10 lbs in two weeks and I will finally get to wear the earrings mom bought me during the summer.
2) Lose 30 lbs by the beginning of April
3) Lose 40-45 lbs by the time I come home for Juli's Wedding in June.

I am hoping that by April I will be able to wear the cute jacket I got for Christmas.  And then by June be able to wear a cute new dress at Juli's wedding.

So these are some goals, now help me meet them!  Please give workout tips, recipes to try and words of encouragement.  It's almost like I'm starting all over.  When you go so long without working out it's really hard to get back into it.  But I am and I will meet these goals.  I will hopefully be able to post more too.  I need to so that I keep myself in check.  Well here goes everything! :)   I'm not going to waste any more time.