In Malaysia

(this superb photo taken in Barcelona, didn’t realize I’ve accidentally capture such awesome photo until lately.. after editing, it brings out lots of emotion… I still remember stories of this area, this history of this place, almost get me in tears) – Spain

I am in Malaysia. 14 months in UK, flying around europe once again step foot on my homeland… feeling the moist, really wet…

well, it is complicated, not completely a joyous happiness, afterall, I ends a life I live for 14 months, return to malaysia and facing all the unknown, starting everything from scratch again. I feel uneasy, worry and anxious..

vice versa, I have this joyous feeling of coming back home, this one I don’t have to explain, everyone knows how beautiful it is to go home.

at home, move on… leave everything behind, spare both hands and empty heart to capture the one coming in the future. spare both hands, so you can embrace chances and love and comes to you.

Another another farewell.. :/

Yes, there is another farewell..  saying goodbye to my thai fren gang, 3 of them.

Thai gang is my origin, they are my foundation and support when I am so new and freshly landed on Brunel University, in the class of Engineering Management, they are my first friends and my group and team mates for various assignment and project, days and night spending in the lab figuring some programming homework and sitting in the cafeteria counting customers flow from 9am to 10pm, taking shifts in the winter season, seeing snow flakes fall.. and eventually get a grade A for the project and cheer and play together.

days passes by and I my wing got stronger and I have more friends and they are always, still my foundation and my support. always always always.

They are leaving, and they have more plays altogether and I am not always invited, either they do not welcome me (which will not be the reason) or they think I may not enjoy it (because of the language barrier, which makes us can’t get closer)… sometimes they publish their outing in the facebook and for this time, I invited myself and get myself in to their play.

I really want to spent more time with them.. I like them all

One of the thing I’ve learn in this academy year in uk is dealing with parting.. :/ let go

I’ve used to sending people off and it is not easy and it should not be,  because we tends to attach to each other and rely, no matter how hard I try to keep myself away from clinging and attachment, I can’t totally isolate myself from people and emotion.

天若有情天亦老,

then day we learn how to have no emotion, is the day we are gonna to be immortal (no no, being heartless and cruel is not having no emotion either, heartless and cruel is emotion)

We had a British Tea in one of a beautiful afternoon, and we sit by the piano… we silently sing along, audible just enough for the pianist to understand his music is being appreciate and he kept turn to us and grin… he played Adele, Celine dion, Bruno mars and even Yiruma song.. awesome. The tea wasn’t that nice, but the atmosphere and music totally is.

Another farewell..

Another main character in my life has disappeared… MR.Mic is gone.

We has a photo session days before his flight, and I meet him one last time this afternoon in the campus.. anyway, he stay so near from London, I’ve convince him to come back to visit me next month or go to Malaysia to find me after next month, and I believe he would.

Accordingly to my friend observe from the side this afternoon, the moment when we say goodbye, the atmosphere is kinda heavily sad..

Show some of the result of the photography session, and I edited them and they are awesome….

One of our engineering main building, Michael Sterling.. and my precious friends

After the photo session, Mr. mic gone and replaced by TP…  a group of very sincere Thai gang..

what else do you guys want to read? more of my sorrow and sadness of farewell, even myself feel fed up writing about parting.. this is torturing me. Anyway, sending off mr. Mic is like sending off most of the important character in my life in UK.. hopefully no more parting event that bothers me..

is time, to play..

Swing swing swing my butt

搖啊搖搖擺擺... 過去的過去過去一再的過去然後再過去, 在過去在過去在過去...

把朋友從機場送走已經不是第一次了, 然而要說, 說不定以後不會再見到你了 這種話說出來還是哪麼得讓人難受得窒息..

(sending friends away in the terminal wasn’t my first experience, but saying, I may not see you anymore as a farewell line, still as suffocating as new)

是該謝謝這個鬼地方嗎? 我來幾場的每一次都得在這里耗上好多個小時... 我超級討厭這個地方的, 退稅! 排隊要哪麼久, 把握僅剩下時間都給他了!

(credit to this terrible tax refund counter, everytime I come to the terminal, the people will have to queue for hours and I have to wait outside the queue and wasted all the remaining I have to be the one I am going to say bye)

過去啊過去啊, 流逝的年華啊歲月啊, 桃花啊人呢, 人呢.. 沒有人, 沒有人..

goodbye my love, 我的愛人再見... 以前楊宗偉唱的時候, 一直哭哭啼啼, 我還一直找星光一結尾的片段, 看他和林宥嘉一直哭一直哭, 好有趣,然後自己一個人再哪裡傻笑.... 呵呵呵呵呵呵

Moved out to new place

The day, 10.September, every campus tenant have to clear out from their room and get lost and go and fXXX yourself….

this is ridiculous because our term time, black and white written 30 of September, if they kick you out on 10September, what it is trying to imply?stay in hotel?

I get a place to stay, rent…

This is the dining room, this is where I work… I bring the table lamp there, also where we eat

This is the living and the kitchen… got 42’’ TV and a super nice sofa, hours we have killed on the sofa talking about gossips…

While we are there, we arrange our stuff into the refrigerator, and realize, we have different types of coke and pepsi!

 

The new term starts, once again, the campus is crowded, full with student and mostly freshers… I was here last year.. 15.september.. IS already one year, I live, I have a life here.. well done!

In conclusion, my report progress is already finish.. I already printed it out and ready to submit, and since I already printed it out, I dare not review it again because I fear seeing something that may cause panic, and I have no more time to panic…penis

I realize we type too much and the muscle seems to have its memory, is like when I want to type a certain words, then the brain simply process a signal say: uncertainty….then the muscle will reflects the typing and type each alphabet correctly from each position of the keyboard.. the brain do not need to say u n c e r t a I n t y … each alphabet each signal, instead, in a package, one signal…

and sometimes words that we type too often, will then replaced those you actually want to type..

anyway, lastly, the view from my window..

can see wilkinson…

 

Goodbye Mr.Mint

Many things has changed and it has settled…. 塵埃落定, I’ve settled down in the new place, have my mental ready to have no one left, start configure plans for the next month where I will be totally free, start to think of what I am going to do first when I go back to Malaysia and simulate feelings…

Realize most of the emotion experience is only terrible in thoughts and in reality, nothing is that bad..

Anyway, I am going to post one of the story from the last 2 weeks. The Mr. Mint farewell.. honestly when I sent him off that evening, I got extremely sad..

I can still remember the expiry date written on its packet when I bought it from Asda a year ago during fall, like now.. before winter.. it doesn’t died, it grow and I change a pot and it flourish.. and I only use a few leaf to make tea, I never like it anyway..

so, this is it.. the mr. Mint. I removed it from the pot.. oh, remind me of the time I bought it from supermarket and raise it like a precious plant… It is the only living breathing things in my room besides me..

such a strong plant, in the new bigger pot, the roots has already struggle to break through..

In time of my loneliness and sorrow, happiness and joy, I talk to everything in my room and mr. Mint is always my favorite.

I have rested mint on the hole by the river bank, this is the Pinn River in Brunel University, this is where I dug the soil for the pot changing project.. is time to return those soil..

Is a very beautiful place to stay ain’t it.. along with the other plants.. is a little bit cold out there, especially now during fall, but you are on your own after this, this is where you actually belongs to, the nature.. breathe the fresh air, the water and the soil, with the breeze, with the insects… please live and flourish.

Is time to say goodbye.. goodbye to many things, and.. this is just one of it..

Listen…. he say he will be fine…

posting such crazy stuff in the blog totally construct my image of a crazy insane geek… but what can I do, I am just a random and unpredictable.

The cycle goes on and on, and we loss direction and wish for a obvious answer, hope that we didn’t do anything wrong or conduct any act that we would regret in the future… no, we will not, whatever we are doing or did, is the most appropriate things to do, and it shall be happen in that way no matter what… what you do, is the answer. You may think you could have do something else, or say something else and things would be better, or you think you are behaving in a total random way, but no, we are only doing what should be done..

ROAR!!!!!!!!! live it!

I’m just stop drinking tea and coffee as it has replaced my water consumption for several days and it makes me …weak.. hahahaha

We will meet again if there are fate between us..

soak in the pointless sorrow that I am not going to see some people for forever for quite some time, and I’ve almost forgot who I really am..

I’ve got a phone call from myself at age 19, he say(I say), do you remember what you write on the year book on your secondary school graduation?… … then he(I) hung up on me.. damn it…

I do… I write: we will meet again if there are fate between us, else, there is not need to meet..

有緣自會再相見, 無緣自然不必勉強..

和所有畢業生所寫的, 什麼有友誼萬歲, 莫忘我 的俗氣相映成趣, 當時覺得, 起飛拉同學們,留戀什麼屁!

這麼多年來, 看來學會不少, 卻也忘了不少.. 還要自己給自己打電話... 時空對話..

anyway, the post wasn’t entirely about the conversation between me and myself, is that I found this comic hilarious, between a father and daughter, and… look, at the camera the dad’s is holding..

I am always amaze by this artist, he/she? draw the comic in a very very detail way… and…look: is baby ricoh (Ricoh GX200)!

        

I can’t believe it.. I can recognize baby ricoh! ofcuz I can, even it is being drawn in a comic..

see, this is fate! I met baby ricoh in the comic.. is like his way of saying HI!.. hehehe.. in the sea of millions comics, and from the thousand pages of comic, and thousands of boxes in the pages, I spotted you, once again! I miss you!

and regarding the Thai movie, crazy little thing call love, 初戀那小事, is one of the best movie I watch lately…

     

yaya, I know when I write review on books or movie, people tends to yawn and feel bored.. the point I bring out the movie is that the character is holding GXR, Ricoh GX200 brother.. (GXR is replacing gx200, no more gx300.. GXR is like ultimate version of GX)

why baby ricoh is calling for me lately.. are you alright!!! 小R, 你是不是想念我! 你好不好! 我想念你.. 以後我有錢, 我要買gxr放在桌子上, 當朋友, 和他聊天.

This blog have been chaotic with the mixture of both English and Mandarin.. weird..

Luncheon

good food, beautiful day without sunshine.. so grey and sleepy. feeling like morning at hour 0200.. ZZZZZ, why are you both sitting so far away?

心裡有芥蒂了... 應該要鬧翻了..

and so, the following is the participant of the luncheon, Thai, Malaysian and Taiwanese.. basically, most of my friend are from Thai and Taiwan

I am expecting more people for the luncheon, but obviously the PR for the Thai gang is not performing very well, I am expecting some people who is really leaving soon, like tomorrow or day after tomorrow. Thus, worth it for me to spent the blue Monday morning, travel to the new house to retrieve some food packets and shopping and cook… …. If I know, every participant here is gonna stay for at least another 2 weeks, we could make it another time..

hehehe, nah, I am glad that it happen.. seeing people is one of my new hobby nowadays.. Pakcik say I had walk out from my anti-social, actually the time flies and the life in Brunel is ending that causes me treasure every chance to know and meet everyone around.

and look, that’s a pretty today.. see her several times but is the first time lunch with her… 小美也很上相, 照片比真人更美

小草啊, 過幾天, 所有人都得搬離這棟樓, 你的命運會不會和我的小薄荷一樣... 小薄荷何去何從我還不知道, 德國同學讓我不要把它丟了......

lastly, show you one of the ridiculous photograph we took.. lol

冰山一角而已.. just a corner of the ice berg, lots of funky weird photo..

Another less to see all these people.. gosh, I am like repeating this phrase since months ago.. I think this serve as a buffer, I will be fine when this really ends.

Farewell photography I

Some of us is leaving as soon as next week, for good and, I might not see them anywhere soon in the future or, maybe forever..  we walk around in the campus and do some photo shooting…

Also, shooting some of our life routine activities: These are my badminton kaki

That day happen to have Herc with us, and… ya, is me..  always me

The following is a continuous shot:

1. Tp is screaming at me for some error I did..

2. I shrug and say: so!? what can I do!

            

3. She continue mumbling nag nag nag.. I feeling totally stupid and hilarious

This is another group of people, Thai, Taiwanese and Malaysian.. I am really grateful for every people that I’ve met during this year..

I have this very funky hair cut… I am attention seeker. Tp cut it, don’t think any barber would dare to give me this hair cut.. I’ve always want to try this, just no barber dare to cut.

Our class have this final round bbq, farewell..  This group photo, so call group photo.. only 50% is from our class (I think less than that), anyway, is not intention…just few of us want to take a photo and we were shouting for few intended participant and then everyone came, and it become the group photo of the night.. and thus, I have the best spot, I happen to stand in the middle surrounded by ladies..

And, lastly, we’ve got our key access to our new place to stay! may be moving in really next week..

The schedule is really pack and full and really tired.. A little neglecting the core academic work…

Thank you

Nottinghill Carnival, Sponge cake+ chocolate tart

Nottinghill Carnival.. This day I go to see this carnival is actually an accident. This morning I am went to deal with some matter with TP, and Pakcik ask me whether to go to this carnival, and well, since I am already outside, so I join him to the carnival.

I ask, what is the carnival about? A celebration or something? no answer, and even after we came back from the carnival, I still don’t know what the carnival is about. For me, it is a night club big parade, didn’t really enjoy it, crowded and.. boring

Anyway, didn’t regret going, it is an experience, and I always welcome new experience and I absorb them all.

This following is a very nice composition: 

女角的高度剛好給攝入鏡, 高跟鞋和照片平行, 後面跟隨了一個遊客, 走在那個距離, 使縮小剛好在女角的中間...遊客後面的廣告板里又一個女人, 也使用一樣的方式走路, 好像女角的正面攝影, 很妙啊....給我一個很妙的感覺.

The group of dancer behind Pakcik is turning in circle and their rainbow skirt puff up really beautiful..

可惜, 我不能打格子

This is kinda weird expression isn’t it? orgasm? lol, it was a beautiful dress, and she was dancing and the moment I capture her, she… orgasm.

 

遊行阿, 人坐在陽台, 拎著一個龍頭, 搖搖晃晃, 玲阿玲阿玲

After the parade, we went to Chinatown for lunch.. this M&M place we never visit yet, so, lets go!

a museum, a shop and a tourist attraction.. like it.SEE: colorful chocolate!

Taking photograph with the mascot, This green one is : Flirty ;)

She molested me obviously.. 一場來到, 怎麼可以不耍寶

耍寶的不只是我.... 當然, 我還是劇王

                               

The day is too young still to call for an end, so we call up Herc and, lets do some baking. lol! wohoo!

This is chocolate tart, by Pakcik with all the chocolate from our brownies chocolate reservoir: looks nice, taste even better, especially with cream and berries, as shown in the following photograph.

Chocolate tart is rather easy, no need to bake, just refrigerate.. see TP is flattening the chocolate layer on to the biscuit

搽butter, 搽butter... .....不是butter, 是chocolate

Ops, the cake.. well, i intended to take photo when it is still fresh before we cut it.. what to do, how can i resist the fresh bake cake, 雞蛋糕, 蛋糕飄香, 我... 如何自制.. that’s why：it is already the best i can do.. lol

My hair is a mess the whole day, it is just a accident, surprise outing and i didn't get to do any makeup at all, anyway, by the time i am typing this post, I had a new haircut, and.. :) it is awesome.. lol

Lastly.. oh, my beloved chef of the cake..

時光不居, 時節如流, 邁入9月, 我的心震驚了一下, 我的計畫.... 我的策劃, 不是說9月我的功課得成形了嗎?我..... 算了.. 反正最近也過得很充實. ...

搖搖晃晃, 玲阿玲阿玲