fainted....

The first time that i never fell it before... nearly fainted... now i know why when people are fainted are totally no feeling with his sense... lucky before i totally blur is already sitting and laying on the chair in gym room.... perhaps that after drinking that cold water while just finish running... lucky that was nothing big deal with me... just laying at there rest around 10minute... get better than start doing again... swt... not scare will do until die.... haha...
still that same guy like that... although just think though alot of stuff... but still like dun have the self motivation to move me along... erm... A girl that perhaps can moving me forward by what she doing is so impressive... maybe my classmate are totally difference with them... how they efficiently do their assignment... maybe we doing those in the last minute way? is it good? I dun think so... haiz... everything that i'm doing now really worrying what my result going to have for coming exam... was failed two subject last sem... was totally unexpected... while i still so confidence to say that i won't... swt... better work harder for coming exam... dun like what is doing last few sem like that...

Moodless....

2 year 2 semester, get the first semester result... unexpected result.
can't image that paper that have quite confidence to score finally came out with a fail result...
what is going on with me? gonna cut down my thing already... GAmbaTte... for this sem.... i know i can do it...

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
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也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。
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不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
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他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .


copy from somewhere... haha.. dunno who posted this de... quite meaningful... haha

Exam....

Is looks like really a period didn't post anything at here... Mood has been gone. It is different when last time writing anything here... like a person surely will look at it and comment on it... but now won't hope of that... Just hope that left something down when look back what i have done now... A person change day by day.. just like me... time really changed a lot of things... that day really hoping of something but for now that things wasn't so importance now... everything changing... why i still the same when facing exam? next Thursday will be my first paper of exam.. Principle of Investment... It's quite a nice subject for me... but... haiz.. this semester motivation of study was damn low... haiz... Too enjoying my college life... that the worse place.. I think that never fail never feel the pain... haiz... by the way... sleep first... next time continue.. if not tml sure kena sut...
jia you jia you... exam~~~!!!! sure GREAT....

Happiness?

Blogging life was my hobby at a period of time.... dunno why have been gone. Just saw a friend blog let me feel that some of those memories should write down will make me feel better... last time i was recover like this... why not now? can't let go what should let go? look through her frenster... posted him and her... that let me confirm that the guy let her a happy life... why should i suffering myself... world is wide... move out the first step... one semester passed... dun waste another semester for just waiting there doing nothing... she also won't hope that i become a useless person.. life shouldn't be just like that... it should be colourful... not just sadness bring along my life.. I dun wan this kind of feeling.. Learn a lot for that period... everything that happen is surely relate to what have u done... Depends whether is good or bad only...
Just when back from Genting... Surely is a relaxing place... fresh air.. cold weather... although wasn't that cold that day... with a gang of best friend gone up.. really feel happy this trip... is just like a team to go do something else together... i like this feeling...
College life will be start tomorrow... I really enjoy my college life... my study life... All things should let go let it be... Dun make it as your road block for your future life... The road is still far away... This is what i always like to remind myself... Dun regret what have u done... What u having now is what u have chose to be last time... this is how i motivate myself to move for to see future... Dun look back... is just a memories that left behind... Should see future that haven't happen... things that happen can't be change... just can change those thing that haven't been occur... Gambatte!! I can make it through..

Unbelievable...

Something happen so fast that i can't acceptable... when it occur it should be... i can't do anything with that... what is the real communication that between a couple? telling the truth or what you felt to each others? i think this is my mean problem between us... i never dare to tell what i felt to u... looking to a girl that like u will never welling to see her sad.. so no never quarrel with her before... maybe I'm wrong.. something a couple quarrel will make either their relationship getting better or getting worse... most of the time they will get better... maybe that why many couple after quarrel will get their relationship getting better.. quearral also come for communication.. reli reli lack of communication... but anyway... you yuan zi ran hui zai yi chi... wish always be happy...

No longer couple...

2/4.. finally we break up... i'm hurt... dunno what the feeling now.. after passing so many day.. miss u? love u? or hate u? stilll dunno what the reason that we break.. my first time.. never feel this kind of pain before.. now what should i do? fren call me giv up her.. i dunno what should i do now.. haiz.. brain giv me and answer... !! jin... how are u feeling now? u will miss me de? 2years chansing a giril get 2month staying together.. then i need to use alot of time to chanse another girl so we can stay longer? hah...wu nai... lost my target again.. no longer couple.. gonna miss u jin...