my strength n my smile come from Him

last friday night, i just finished my project.. n that night also, i feel sick... cause almost for 3 weeks, im very busy .. not only project from my company, but also my freelance, my friends, etc... im really tired... n it made me sick...

so on saturday, i cant go anywhere... i n my friend plan to go somewhere.. but i canceled it cause i really cant stand long or sit... so almost my saturday day, i spend on my bed :D .. haha.. but at night, i feel better.. so i force my self to go out with my friend... just walking around orchad.. eat ice cream n talk n sharing something.. :D its nice to spend time with somebody that u can share anything.. :D

n i went home quite late.. around 12 midnight.. haha.. n i wake up late for this sunday ... >< ... no late to join the service, but late for ministry... cause i have ministry in my church for this week, i need to come earlier... T_T.. oh no.... feeled headache, my bone was pain, n soar throat... >.<

but amazingly.. im heal after service.. :D just believe God can heal u n pray for 5 minute.. God will give u strength n rejoice.. that u cant get it from somewhere except from HIm.. that what i need.. His touch make me free... my strength n my smile come from Him :D

happy sunday :D...

tired day :D

today i went to casino in sentosa.. hehe.. also for celebrate my friend bday .. :D .. ya.. tired.. -_- cause sleep late n wake up early... haha. n tomorrow have to wake up earlier.. :D gambate :D

i realize alot of people have the some problem with us.. mhh... people still difficult to decide something for their life... everybody have the different problems.. just some people show it more.. so, just decide n face it.. cause its also happen to everybody

quote from my friend bday :
" i dont think of it as being a year older, i think of it as another year of having enjoyed a friend like you"

haha.. nitez everybody :)

quote of the week

iThink: God is Good! and while we have our own definition about "Good", we think we can define "God", thus limiting us from knowing Him more. As the opposite, when we know whom "God" is, we'll understand the concept of "Good"

between heart n mind

this few days, actually this few weeks, my mind is so tired.. also my soul... so everything i did, also not turn out good... now, i try to rest my mind.. but i couldnt.. just alot of things.. more n more responsible i have... family, friends, working, n also my self... this few days, i need to make some decisions.. my heart n my mind dont give me a same answer.

i think i need somebody to talk.. but i know, everybody also have their problems.. n this few weeks, some people that i never imagine, talked to me about their problem.. i try to help, if i can.. i try to advise, if it had happen to me also... i try to encourages if i can.. i try to hear their problems.. sometimes i also tired to help people with the same problems.. why so difficult to encourages myself..

ok.. its not the problems that make me so tired.. but cause i dont have a strong heart n a strong will... wondering how to have a strong heart n a strong will.. i dont have a same answer in my heart n in my mind.. Lord, can u tell me Your way? n show to me.. i need Your strength n Your wisdom in my life.. n i need You so much to guide me

quote for this week

Never regret a day in your life;
Good days give u happiness;
Bad days give u experiences;
Both are essential to life

"keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow"

"a ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for" by John a

Kasih mula-mula

waktu baru awal-awal kerja, gua begitu semangat.. pertama kali masuk company, gua begitu ingin belajar.. ada satu mesin yang ingin banget gua belajar meskipun itu bukan bagian ku... tapi, setelah kerja sekitar setahun, udah gak begitu semangat.. setelah tau kelemahan mesin yang awalnya ingin gua belajar, gua jadi malas... merasa gak berguna untuk belajar.. semakin hari, semakin hilang semangat untuk belajar...

suatu hari, gua mencari salah senior gua dan gua bilang," gua mau belajar mesin itu. bisa ajarin?".. senior itu begitu terkejut.. karna senior itu dan gua sndr tau begitu lemahnya mesin itu.. dan hanya company gua doang yg memakai mesin itu... dan banyak orang malas belajar mesin itu... jangankan senior gua heran, gua sendiri aja heran gapa gua mau belajar.. tapi gua tau, gak da salah nya gua belajar mesin itu.. dan meskipun mesin itu banyak lemahnya, tapi da benefit yang bisa gua dapatin dari belajar mesin itu.. meskipun hanya company gua yang punya mesin itu di spore, tapi basic dasar2 mesin itu dengan mesin2 sejenis yang banyak dipakai company laen, hampir sama... jadi gua merasa gak ada salahnya...

suatu hari, gua membaca hari2 awal gua masuk kerja (ada diary.. hehe).. disana, gua menulis, gimana gua kagum ama mesin itu.. dimana gua mau banget belajar mesin itu.. dimana gua merasa gua gak bakal di kasih cobain mesin itu.. tapi dalam perjalanan setahun, membuat gua hilang semangat.. setelah timbul masalah2, tau kelemahan2, hilang rasa suka itu.. meskipun mau diajarin, gua sndr menolak utk belajar..

saat itu yang gua ingat "kasih mula2"... terlalu sering kasih qt semakin dingin setelah melalui hidup2 ini.. gua renungkan kasihku ke Tuhan n kasihku ke manusia. kasih semakin dingin...

saat gua lahir baru (secara jasmani n rohani), pst begitu bahagia.. begitu ingin kasih itu.. rasa semangat untuk menyenangkan kasih itu, begitu kuat... tapi setelah melewati hidup ini, saat di kecewakan manusia, masalah2 datang,tau kelemahan manusia, kesibukan, kegagalan, keberhasilan, dll, kasih di hatiku semakin dingin.. kasih itu masih ada, tapi semakin menjauh dari kasih mula2 itu...

itu membuat gua sadar.. saat qt dikecewakan org laen, saat qt mengetahuin kelemahan org itu, saat rasa percaya ke org itu terasa sulit, saat org gak pedulikan qt saat di perlukan, tapi qt masih mengasihi org itu seperti awal2 qt mengasihi nya, itulah tanda kasih itu bertumbuh dewasa... krn qt mengasihi org itu tanpa perlu alasan n gak mengasihi dgn babi buta, tapi dgn pengertian n keputusan.. lagian qt jg pst pernah mengecewakan org laen..

"gonna sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching, love like never been hurt." (one of my friend quote) ... i love that quote alot.. i thought its impossible, but now i know, its possible.

in this christmas event, i want to say Merry Christmas :) .. and forgive me if i had did something that make u disappointed.
the biggest love i have found is Gos's love... cause nothing i can do to make Him loving me more or make Him loving me less..

alot of thanks from me cause you have been a wonderful friends in my life.. thanks alot
God bless you ^^

quote of this week

"whatever you do, make sure you finish Well and finish Strong"

"apa yang kamu ikat didunia, akan terikat disurga. apa yang kamu lepaskan didunia, akan terlepas disurga"... lepaskan berkat, janji, keselamatan, kesembuhan keorang2 sekelilingmu ^^

have a bless week everybody ^^