Friday, February 27, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Friends
Monday, February 23, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Flashback Friday
Monday, February 16, 2009
How I spend my Friday nights
Friday, February 13, 2009
LOVE
I know I haven't written a lot about the personal things going on in my life. Some of you know some of the circumstances. I have been pretty private, but I am ready to share some of my feelings. Of course I will be protective of details that everyone doesn't need to know.
I have been thinking a lot about love these days. Probably because it's almost Valentine's Day, and I got bit in the butt by love this last year. It was hard...let me tell you. Divorce isn't something cool. It's not the easy way out. It's just replacing one set of problems with different problems. I wouldn't wish this upon anyone...not even my worst enemy. Having said that I want you to know that I am okay. Do I have days that really suck? Yes I do. But I'm not crying over him anymore. I do cry sometimes (not very often). I cry for the unknown. I cry because I feel like I have to be supermom. I cry because I feel an overwhelming sense of pressure to make sure that my girls are strong in the gospel. I cry for my sweet girls whose lives are forever changed. I cried just today when I found the clip of Meg and Garrett dancing (it's at the end of the post). I watched it and started crying thinking about the innocence of children and young friends who miss each other so much. See, it stinks. It really does. I have been known to start crying while running on the treadmill at the gym. I have a little too much time to think while running. I start thinking about my friends. I miss Vegas--Fresh and Easy, Sonic runs, park dates, my house. I start thinking about the fact that I have to go back to work and leave my little ones. It's times like these that I have to turn to the Savior and the Atonement. It's then that I have to leave my pain at His feet and ask for His love and help to get through the day. I have to have faith that He will provide a way for me to do all the overwhelming things that I know I have to do. I remember when everything starting crumbling and I said to my parents "I know the Lord wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle, but I don't think I can do it". I remember sitting in a Relief Society lesson on trials and hearing people comment about how after you have a trial you are so thankful for it. Let me tell you, I will NEVER be thankful for this trial...but I can see that I have grown from it. I hope that I can teach my girls to be strong in the trials that they will certainly face in their lives.
So this Valentine's Day don't feel sorry for me. I still have love in my life. After all I still have these three beauties...
And of course my team and family.
And you know I still have hope. I have hope that I will find love with someone again. Hey maybe I'll be older and more gray...but I'll find him. I will. Because after all "IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER".
Meggy and Garrett dancing
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Hello Frida
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Me and my crew
Monday, February 9, 2009
Fun with the Girls
I went out with my friends who were also here this weekend and before we went out these girls thought is was funny that we were all dressed up in black clothes (after all black is slimming) so they ran into my room and grabbed some clothes to get all dressed up to go out too.
For Meggy Boo's buddy Garrett
So Meg's friend Garrett has a video posted on their blog. Meg of course loved it and watched it over and over again for 30 minutes. I had to take a video for Garrett. And, why when you are three, is it cool and funny to throw in the word poopy?
Another funny Meg story is this weekend she was playing with the older girls in a fort. They told her that her bottom stunk so I am upstairs and hear "Meg is spraying her butt with Febreeze". When I came down Meg had a big wet spot on her nightgown. Hey, a girl has got to do what a girl needs to do to feel fresh!
Friday, February 6, 2009
Flashback Friday--Friends!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Cabo!
This is me and Traci all ready to swim with the dolphins. They wouldn't let us take our own pictures while swimming with the dolphins, so the Mexican Paparazzi took some pictures we had to purchase. I, of course, will post those when I get them.
I loved the fresh fruit, but mostly these yummy donuts. They had them in Cancun when I was there so I was so happy they were frying them at this resort too.