FOC 11/12 has finally ended, though i didn't managed to drop by, it seems like it's quite successful. =) Glad everyone had fun.. Just like what i had during the start of my yr 1 year.. and time passes, now its the starting of yr 3.. how time flies.. thinking back, i really had lots of fun during my yr 1 time.. where i can talk to anyone about anything.. i guess yr 1 is still the best yr i had..
Hmmm, so in a blogging mood now, but there's no time for me to blog.. Rushing for my 101 screen design, sitting in class, lecturer not teaching, but letting us doing our work. Might as well at home do lol..
Hmm, just found out no need to use dvd to burn for the 101 screen design. Using cd also can, cause the file size is quite small.. zzz. But what to do, because of a cd, unhappiness arises. Lame right. In the end no need to use it. If earlier known, then won't have any unhappy issues already ma.
I hate to do comparisons, i may have done that once in a while, but i know the answer eventually. I dislike it alot when you will use her as a comparison with me when we had issues.
Things start to get weird after some time.. Sadly, when i tried to make it not to feel that awkward atmosphere with you around, you just tend to pretend and treat me like transparent. I know our friendship has became very awkward, and it made me wish not to see you around in school. It has really became a waste, from being good friends, to like now, nothing.
But as time passes, i got to know even more friends, closer ones.. at least we get to spend time together, talking crap, doing assignments, being crazy.. Well, fate is not something that i can control much, so yeah..
Woohoo Yawns!
Another day in school.. hahahhaa.. tiring sia..
Shall update later again~
Woohoo.. Long time didn't blog already i think!
Well, it seems like time passes so fast and christmas is coming! Though i can't really think of what i want for christmas, but i think i have a rough idea for it..
So, top 5 list? Since i can't of much.. Haha.
Digital camera(maybe Canon Ixus 130 Orange color)?
Ipod Nano(new one with the touch screen, tt is the size of an ipod shuffle)?
Ipod Touch?
Bag(the one i have been trying to look ard for LOL)?
A new Acoustic guitar(tt looks cool)?
Or even any surprise will do! LOL.
Just love receiving surprises and gifts from everyone HAHAHA.
Buying presents for ppl are easier than thinking of what i want for myself! Meh.
Hmmm.. After trying to hold on for so long, I finally gave up. No point. Forcing me into one corner, it's always me against the world. Or rather, that's not I wanted. Yet, time after time, people just don't understand. I'm being too tired to carry on, fighting, quarrelling, struggling with life. Each day waking up, it's like a torture to me. It's just too much for me to take. I only know, that I've did my best in doing everything I can. Especially an event that mean alot to me. No one will ever understand how I feel and what I'm going through, just to make those decisions. I hold back all commitments, just to save up all for this event. Yet, I just lost it. Everything seems so pointless now. Whatever anyone say, is not going to make up for anything. What is done, cannot be undone. Time won't reverse. Definitely no. Am I given a chance again? No, I wasn't. I was turn down flatly, or rather, no alternative plan or choice. No chance was given again, to prove that I will be able to do it. Frankly speaking, that really brought down my confidence level. It may seem nothing to others, but what happens if it happened to you? Would you react the same?
Whatever is done, I will always remember it. Cause what you guys did, was unethical. I needn't explain much further either. Though partly was my fault, I don't deny that, but you guys won't escape the blame either. Don't push all the blame on me, and say what you all going to do is just to save my ass. Everyone who heard about it just think its bullshit. No matter how not capable I may be, I will never let myself fail ever again. At least I know for whatever I'm doing, I won't give up so easily. Hopefully, one day, you guys will experience the same thing I went through. Prolly by then, you all will understand what is it like. And I didn't give up anything, including friendship. But is you who shows you want to give up this friendship.
So all I can say to you is, you just ended everything yourself, when I didn't. And if you think our friendship is just like trash, I'm so disappointed. All this while you don't even treasure this friendship of ours.
It's not that I don't want to hang around with them,
it's they who don't want to.
I realised that the problem doesn't lies with me,
but it lies with them.
Cause all i know is,
I've tried.
I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Coz that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality
When you're caught in a lie
And you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run
And you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew
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Currently addicted to all these new songs.. Hahaha. All among top 20 songs.. Perfect is the best word to describe how i feel.
Confused.
[[Photo of the day: Baby and me :D ]]
Longan with almond, taken by dear baby..
Raphael and me (Baby's nephew), handsome eh.. hahaha.
Baby and me=))
another one of us both :D
Me! taken by baby dear.. (:
HAHAHA, cute ley! lol,baby's nephew, Russell.
taken by me(:
Photo of baby and me tgt with his grandma. =)
Birthday girl, cutting cake.
YAY, clap hands!
another nephew clapping hands :D
Happy birthday ah ma!
Lovely Oreo Birthday cake ;D
Russell with baby!! :D
HAHAHA, baby waiting for food while i took a snapshot of him LOL. xD
Yummy fish!
Prawn platter taken by baby dear again :D
Vegeterian noodles, but it's super nice and yummy! (:
Taken by me i think. hahahha xD or is it baby? LOL.
Taken by me :D
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That's all for photos for now.. hahaha, so that was the birthday celebration of baby's grandma.. Had a nice dinner at one restaurant which i duno what's the name called.. lol. So had a great weekend spent with baby again !! :D and every week is like looking forward to see baby dear!! (((: ♥
It's Jingting aka Jeranne
