Me the stupid me

I hate perineum!!!!

hate it hate it hate it..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

:'(

after 3 hours doing this stupid perineum that seemed to last forever, i feel am reading it for the first time...

its like i never studied it b4,,,it sucks.

and u know wt?? I can't solve ANY of the questions about it either!!!

my final exam is 2moro and its 12:10 am...i still need to do embryology:-(but i can't go farther if i don't know a thing in this stupid peice of garbage:-(

the finals are my only hope to not sink in human structure ocean,,,but now....i think the result is clear:'''(

Me the stupid me

Will they make it??!!

Gulf Championship is about to strat^_^

Thank God it will strat after I finish my finals...am kinda excited for the event eventhough I don't think Oman will make it...They have been good lately but not that good to win the finale match...and now that we have Kuwait and Iraq in our group,,I strongly doubt it...

but i still wish they win!!!

I'll watch you guys..We all love you...

Plz plz win...

Will they make it??!!

Regret

"have you ever found yourselves making the wrong decisions,,the ones you see right, day after day and no-one bother to even comment about them if not correcting'em ??!!and one day,,you finally make a decision that you are totaly convinced that it will make you happy for the rest of your life, but everyone sees it wrong??!!!
what do u do then??you know it deep inside you that YOU ARE DAMN RIGHT,,but can't talk about it or even try to explain it to others:-(what happens next is that you follow what others want...don't say that's called giving up, because soon you will realise that this is the best thing you can do to your self and for others around you.then what?? you move on leaving everything behind and start again...you manage to satrt over and you seem happy with your decisions and everyone around is happy,,,,,,,,,but
now that you have grown up and you are able to act as an adult, you realise that your adolescent decision wasn't bad after all!!! in fact, it is much much better than the one you chose to live with!!!
now, you have to deal with the concequences of a bad decision for the rest of your life,,,and the problem is, there is no-one around you that can comfort you or maybe help...and now,,when you made other life changes based on that bad decision,you simply can't change a bit of things at all..
you are left all alone,,with regret"

Regret

I wonder

last Tuesday, i went to the vice dean's office for some issue and we ended up talking about many other things...and one of them is the difference between the studies here in our college in Oman and West Virginia Uni in the US...and among the reasons he mentioned explaining why the students there are better is that many Omani students in our college have entered medicine because of family influences and not by their own choice...and at apoint he said: for the moment, what i really try my best to do is to find those those people and convince them to leave college ASAP coz i can't imagine spending the best years of my life and youth doing something i don't like!!
then,,there was a very brief moment of silence,,i don' t know what i have shown or how my expressions were like but he suddenly said in big shock: OMG!!! you are one of them!!!

i took my bag in hurry and said:sorry but i hv to go for my lab..am late..
i left quickly and heard him saying from behind: come and c me again soon!!

I wonder

Where is the problem??

since i moved to so7ar, and my grades are going down and down!!! Damn i can't get more than 80% in human structure!!!
its not a mistake..its 80 not 90!!!
i hate it...

this quiz was the easiest, the easiest, and the easiest... but i messed up a lot and a lot!!!
i know that i didnt prepare well for it...
i just didnt want to study!

i lost interest in studying despite the fact that i havent been studying a lot in the past couple of years!
i dnt think am no longer interested in medicine,,cz i am....but i just want to go away from everything around me.

and its not about the environment in so7ar that made me fell like that cz i've been wishing to study and move here since i was a kid..

its just sad..i pitty myself...and i dnt seem to be able to fix it.

Where is the problem??

Cool..

we are painting our room^_^
thats exciting!!

Cool..

Pissed!!

I don't know what is wrong with that instructor!!!
She insists on ME DOING the announcement after the unexpected reaction from the students the other day..

That day was a nightmare..no, it is more than that...
the faces of the students shouting in my face are still in my memory and , till now, i couldn't manage to get them outside my mind..that's why i don't wanna go through this experience anymore!!
If she is pissed of students coming late to her class, then she has to lock the door..its her class and no1 is going to talk about it because SHE IS THE DAMN INSTRUCTOR and she is free to do whatever she wants in her class,, even the dean can't say anything about it!
i dnt understand how it is the class rep responsibility...class reps are there to make the connections between students and instructors BUT NOT TO MAKE RULES AND CARRY OUT THE BURDEN OF MAKING THEM!!

i think she should be aware of that..and regarding me going to the dean and discussing this issue ,,,this is soooo not going to happen,,even in her dreams.

Pissed!!

Doesn't feel good..

once, i critisized sm1 (lets say S) bcz S was using my own words but in a different contest...like today we will talk and tomorrow we talk again and S will use some unique words of me from yesterdays conversation!!!

It kept going on and on..and i got pissed of!!! for nothing but i want S to actually talk to me from all their hearts and minds and imagination instead of using others' words!! and much worse, mine!!

Anyway, as they say: days go around,, and now i find myself imitating one of my dearest friend's words just like that!!! and i didnt notice till sm1 actually brought it to my attention that i added few words to my dictionary...

now, my qs is: is it an act of love that you keep saying one's words unconsciously?? probably when u get sooo much attached to sm1, it just happens that u find yrslf talking in that one's way using that one's words! probably bcz u spnd much time talking to that person and u just dnt realise it?!!

and now that i had these thoughts in my mind, i find that i may have been wrong in my judgment about S..mayb after all, it was an act of love and attachment to start acting and talking like the person u like much unconsciously!!



i guess i owe S an apology.

Doesn't feel good..

hi all,,,

i just finished registering my new blog...

hope to get the time to write something too soon..