Mad / Monday, August 10, 2009
it remains me of the song mad. when we are fighting over nothing.
friday phone died.
didn't went home because of family problems.
saturday my ah gong 100 days. i felt devasted of the feeling again.
then sunday i am so beat i really dun feel like explaining.
i sms u.
my fault for making it sounds like i call u when i need u that kind of stuff.
i seriously think its disrespectful.
but u flared up.
the old you where i can run to whenever i got a problem is gone.
i even remind u of the promise i made.
you give that reply.
and the whole thing is just a simple thing and we blew it up. who's fault?
i never accuse you nor what. Nor did i push away the blame. there is no fault to begin with.
now we are mad at each other for things we don't even know
/this is the only thing that i fear.
4:10 PM
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birthday! / Thursday, May 28, 2009
Thanks to clar =DDDDDDDD love u lots.
i'm currently out of words to say anything to u but i'm touched by the efforts u done for my birthday love ya!
/this is the only thing that i fear.
9:48 AM
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death / Friday, May 1, 2009
11am
woke up
feeling blur.
Ring sounded the phone,
"ya?"
a man with calm and steady voice spoke,
"is ur dad at home?"
I replied no and asked why.
The man carry on to explain that they discover my grandpa dead body in his house.
Wierd
comes first.
what comes next,
fear.
Fear of losing another family member
just been true.
wow, life is such a joke.
Cause one day you wake up and find that
everything is turning around.
And i was still joking abt seeing him and try to comfort him.
Joke, i couldn't even see his last moment couldn't be there when his gone.
Regret is man biggest fear.
I lost.
To you, Ah gong - Life is a journey where we all will come to end. But whats is before de end is where tears and sweat left mark. And when you truely come to de end, its a beautiful side knowning your existance is not merely a fiction. Your everything deeply engraved in each and everyone of our hearts.
Rest in peace.
/this is the only thing that i fear.
7:26 AM
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