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tuesdays with morrie

it's weird, isn't it? how i can be so emotionless at something like an o-level, when i cry when i read tuesdays with morrie?

i found it in a library. the school library, to be exact. it was just a book. one that i picked up. it might have seemed just like another book. but this book is the only one that made me appreciate life, the way it is now. i used to see life with a critical eye, from a narrow-minded, self-conscious point of view. now i see these as minor, trivial matters, with a detached feeling. this book tends to do that to you. well, it's ironic actually. crying when it is about a man trying to live his life the best way he can. i guess i can never do that. i take things for granted. i take life for granted. death is just a faraway part of life, something that i dont think i will see soon. in a way, it has changed my life, because i know, that it has made a great impact on me. it's not just plain weeping or sobbing. it's an overwhelming feeling which seizes you, which makes you feel sad that the person who had played such a big part in the book, in the reader's life, had passed away.this was a person who knew how he wanted to die, who embraced it, and didn't run away. i guess i would never have such courage. i would have run away, hiding from what i knew, deep inside, was reality. i guess reading this book tests you that way. it encourages you to think about your current life, and reflect about living.are you living the way you want your life to be? are you trading the wrong values in life? of course, when i say it here, it does not produce the intended effect. but reading the actual text will. the heartwarming, yet heartwrenching in another sense, never gives you the feeling that you are left out, but instead grabs you as you turn the pages, making sure you understand every one of morrie's lessons. life is overflowing in the book, and when you're done...




plain emptiness fills you up.




what now? do i start? where? how? when?



the thing is, do i even dare?

for the lack of a life

you know what?

like what other people say, I HAVE NO LIFE.
even now, i have nothing to say. except about books.
so no one need worry me about being extremely depressed.

well, except for the little jibes and the squabbles and the insults cannonballed at me, i guess life has been okay. but my colourgenics test says otherwise. there still is hope though. it says i must be confident. yeah right. how on earth am i supposed to be confident if i'm failing or borderline passing all the time!!!

at least i've thought of a plan for emaths. i plan to wrestle that 2 points away from miss rockey.

and another plan. study HARDER! and quickly finish reading eclipse and new moon so i wont be so obsessed! stupid LI! just when i thought i was calming down from the agitation of twilight, she had to give me such juicy spoilers!

AND, i really need to go to kino. it's like needing to go to the toilet when your bladder's full. ITS A NEED OR FEEL DEPRIVED.

well, i guess goong vol 16 in chinese would be coming out soon, maybe this month or next, and dont forget, the winning element is out in april and native tongue in july!
of course, by then i'd be busy revising for the Os, so i wont be buying it till later- or not. depends. i do want to get into a good jc, you know. and the twilight
saga. need to get my hands on new moon and eclipse. BUT they're so darn expensive. have to make do with ebooks for now. and for the time being, i shall content myself with the fall and mad dogs. Yup, i do know how to keep myself occupied. it's no wonder my parents are angry with my excessive reading.

okay. this should be enough to last you for a while, so i'll GET OFF here. hope no one pons japanese tmr. i hate to be the only one smelling high class tea bags. OKAY. i really must go, bye for now!