sufficiency is today. HMMMMMMMMM. so im up so early because we need to go to kinkos in a bit and photocopy some last minute stuff. im not really ready. but thats been said to death already. well, i know that things are gonna work out cuz God's got his hand all over this. if he doesnt, we've got nothing. absolutely nothing. so our biggest prayer request? that He'd show up tonight. thats all that really matters. anyways. im gonna be at church in about 3 hours. and then its prep all the way up until 7 o clock. im really excited. but yeah. other stuff. like uni. its gonna totally sink in tonight after sufficiency is over. cuz a lot of the people there i wont see again for quite some time. its weird. yesterday at fellowship we had a grad farewell night. a lot of ppl cried; i guess it was cuz they've grown up in the church. me, i didnt really, but it was still quite touching. but tonight im really gonna realize how much i miss people. but we'll save that for another blog maybe. so hmmm. what else is new with me? not much really. just gotta get spiritually ready for tonight. so i should probably go now. peace everyone.

its starting to hit me now... im gonna miss a lot of people. like leo. man we've had so many jokes. now we'll see each other once every...? and liu. im used to seeing that boy every day. for like multiple times :) but now.. its gonna be weird not having you around. and that goes for a lot of people too. and family. yeesh. dont get me started on family. theyre like the coolest people ever. sigh.
so this is a song that me and my friend used to listen to like everyday :) it was totally our song. it still gets me a lil emotional every time i hear it. i think its quite fitting.

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

well i havent blogged in a while. might as well. softball this past weekend was quite fun. and tiring. and at times a little intense. but in the end, all in all, it was a great time of fellowship throughout the season. thanks to everyone. absolutely everyone. other than that, nothing much has been going on. how sad :) but thats okay. today i played some basketball with school friends who called me up. which was nice. it was weird. these were ppl who i spent 5 years with. and i hadnt seen them since summer first started. my other friend regarded, 'you guys act like you don't know each other.' and it really seemed that way. it was really odd. theyre really great people, and i count them all as friends, but friends under Christ just have a bond that's unexchangeable.
yes. so university is coming up. sooner that i expected. in one week. im scared outta my mind. im trying not to show it, but i really am. im not really good at meeting new ppl and making friends. but i guess i should do my best to try. hopefully people wont be too mean to me and like give me wedgies and stuff. i dunno. do they do that kinda stuff in university? i expect people to be smarter, but jon says that it really isnt the case. i always thought that university would weed out all the stupid people. cuz i have a really low tolerance for them. but meh. i guess i hafta learn to deal with ppl of all different sorts.
saturday is fast approaching. john 4.24. interesting. not really ready. kinda scared bout that too. i dunno. its odd. we really dont have anyhting under control, but maybe thats good cuz then we can depend on God more. which is always good.
so my friend sent me an email today. totally out of the blue. we were really tight back in like.. grade 11. and we've had some of the funnest times imaginable. shes one of the nicest people ive ever met. honestly. she was a really cool kid and popular girl at school. really with the in crowd. and i was this geeky little giftie. and she totally gave me a chance to be her friend and become close. after grade 11 we kinda drifted apart, just cuz of different groups of friends and stuff, but getting that email today was great. it totally made my day. shes still just as cool as ever.
so theres this song that i heard today. its actually a hymn by isaac watts (when i survey) and i heard it redone by derek webb. its actually on the new cd. but yah. it's called i boast no more. and it just talks about how everything is done and finished in Jesus Christ. we have nothing left to do or accomplish, cuz Jesus has done it all. check it out.

No More My God, I boast no more
Of all the duties I have done
I quit the hopes I held before,
To trust the merits of Thy Son

No more my God
No more my God
No more my God
I boast no more.

Now, for the loss I bear his name,
What was my gain I count my loss
My former pride I call my shame
And nail my glory to His cross

Yes, and I must, I will esteem
All things but loss for Jesus' sake
O may my soul be found in Him
And of His righteousness partake
Amen, amen

The best obedience of my hands
Dares not appear before Thy throne
But faith can answer Thy demands
By pleading what my Lord has done

random things:

- justis' benefit concert for matthew house. very dirty good. i didn't even know you could rap with a cello. i went on saturday and my oh my. what a magical evening. i rather enjoyed that brian mcknight song that mr wayne ho sang for us. that boy is quite blessed.
- softball. some ppl arent helping promote the spirit of the league at all. am i? we played on saturday. not too shabby. we watched on sunday. very interesting. theres way too much gossip and talk in this league. somewhere through it all Jesus is very dissapointed in a lot of us 'christians'.
- i keep breaking strings on my guitar. last week i broke one during the doxology. as i tried to be a hero and keep playing, i broke another one. anyone wanna free guitar?
- i purchased a new computer. should go pick it up today. maybe.
- 2 weeks of summer left. then its off to laurier. excited? a bit. scared? an awful lot.
- pray for China
- so there's this girl...

question: did Satan know that Jesus would rise again after 3 days?