These days, I am feeling more lost and out of guard.

It's as if I have never done anything that is pleasing to myself.

Somehow things don't work out.

Maybe I should grab the chance to see the world. The world is still so big and there are so much out there to learn and experience.

Was overwhelmed by the feeling of ignorant yesterday. Perhaps I read too much into what he said. But I just can't help but ask myself.. what is it that makes him think of me in such a way. It must be my manner of speech and the way I carry myself.

There are so much things I wish I was.

But I am just myself.



Dear Blog

You have heard/read me rant about it. But honestly, it's a life time experience and I am glad I took it up. It makes me grown up as a whole, though I guess it kind of changes me as a person as well.

I shall let pictures do the talking for my exchange in Hong Kong. :)



Only didi managed to squeeze into the crowd and take the food for us! haha



The popular dimsum place in hk



Star Avenue with a lot a lot of people


A table full of dimsums. our frequent tea breaks :)



The night life of Mongkok. Our favourite place for dinner and chill session.



The thrilling roller coaster ride. I think I took like 5 times in Disneyland. haha. the rest of the rides were kind of boring..



:)



She is a handful

She don't listen to what I say most of the times.

She don't like to be with the crowd.

But when she says "bye, cher" or show off to other teachers that I am her teacher, my heart just melts.

Such simple things in life can make you happy. And money can never buy any of it.



When my friend asked me the reason why I don't feel like going for Hong Kong, I really want to tell him all that was in my mind. But I swallow it all back.

How to tell him that I cannot let go of all the people I love and I am really afraid that the simple life that I have now will change.

Especially my mum. She has been taking care of me so well that I don't know how I am going to survive without her. And I know she will be really worried when I am in overseas for such a long period of time. Was chatting with my another friend another day. She said that her mum cried even when she left for Taiwan for one week with her friends. Her mother is the same typical type as my mum, ever so caring, ever so worried about my safety, sometimes over-reacting.

My dear friends. I will miss them so much. When they told me not to go, it's really difficult for me to reject them. I really enjoy hanging out with them, laughing with them over the silly things, or just having them by my side.

Especially when this really good friend of mine said it is a pity we can't celebrate our 21st birthdays together when our birthdays are so close to each other. Not that I really care about turning 21. But to miss her 21 birthday is another thing. :(

Maybe I need this extra courage to be alone. To be away from all my loved ones.





Something my friend said knocked in my head.

"you are so different you are yesterday as you are today"

Just a casual remark sends me deep in thought.

Seriously, why did I behave differently among people?

Did I hide myself in the facade by laughing and pretending to be happy and high.

I despise people who are fake.

Yet, I am one of them, frantically covering/protecting myself in the facade of laughter and madness.

原来, 做最初的自己需要勇气.



Studying is really siannn

but seriously, there isn't any more days left to study. I have a whole week filled with exams.

and with my progress as slow as a tortoise (1/2 chapters a day), I doubt I can finish studying! and I will start to panic as the day draws near.

sighs.

Accounting is so not my cup of tea! I can't record things neatly.I think I have lost all the quantitative skills learn in science and maths in 2 year time.
I learn how to crap. cause crapping sensibly is the way out for economics courses. The more confused you are, the better. That's what my prof said. Cause Economists are in themselves, very contradicting people, with conflicting thoughts.

That's why I am in love with Economics. In love with its ironical character and the fact that it might not be right because they are just theories thought by people to begin with. Hence, economic thoughts can change with time and when the setting changes.

I would rather economics be a philosophy, rather than social science.



i am going to hong kong next semester.

Actually, I don't feel like going at all.
I think I will get home-sick.
I will miss laughing with my dear friends.
I will miss my mum's cooking, my dad's random chit chats, my brother's smug smile.
everything.

But precisely, that's why I need to go.
To learn to be independent. And to have time to sort things out.
Hopefully, I will be more mature then.

Wish me luck.



Dear Blog

I have abandoned you for long.

University is even more busier than JC, with endless assignments, projects and presentations due every week.

Nonetheless, I am glad I am enjoying my life in uni. My CCAs have really given me much more than the time and effort I spent in them. I learn to understand other people more, to think in their own shoes and also, to coordinate with people.

Today is Chinese New Year Eve. I finally got a breather, and that is why I am here writing to you.

This year's New Year Eve is unlike the previous. Both of my grandparents have passed away and therefore, there is no reunion dinner so as to speak. I finally realise the meaning of cherishing something only when it is gone. I have always treated reunion dinners as a norm, something that will happen every year. We will sit in this big round table, eating all the delicious cuisines my grandmother spent time cooking. Every year's dishes are the same but I never got tired of them. Then, we would start to lao yu shen together, saying all the auspicious words.

I miss the smiles on our face, two years ago in that big round table in my grandparents' house.

I miss how we will always take food to put on each other's plates.

Such simple things. Yet, it seems impossible now.

I will have to treasure every moment with my loved ones. I don't want to regret again.



Just realised what a selfish and self-centered person I am.
To the extent that I don't even know his current situation when we chatted for so long.

Feel happy for him that he had finally found someone he likes to go out with him.

Though I have to admit I will miss him. Till now, I am still unsure about my feelings.
But I guess it doesn't matter now.

It makes me wonder about the feelings of people out of love. They must be feeling so much
more worse.

But there is a saying- only when you experience true sadness will u appreciate happiness.



Just bought some things to be bought to China with Michelle.

It was a short trip, because there was really nothing much to buy. Then, my mum keep saying that I should buy things in China, rather than Singapore, as things there are much cheaper.

I think it will be a really fun trip with my friends around! Can't wait to learn gong fu and climb the tai shan! haha. But, then again, I shouldn't harbor too much hope for it. Learn it through lessons that too much hope will only result in disappointment.

Haha, there really isn't much things to talk about. Just that my "auntie" came knocking at my door and I cannot swim for the whole week.. arghh. Shouldn't have feel so sian that day when yuting asks me to swim with her. It's really quite difficult to find days to swim together with friends when irritating things happen or the weather decided to play a fool of us. Then, when school starts, it is even harder to find time to swim together. :(

Did I tell you I finally know how to swim! haha. Think I am quite zai to learn it in two lessons! hoho. It's all because of the patient guidance of Didi and Sieyen! love them to bits and pieces. But hmmm... I swim slower than people who walk..>< maybe this means I haven't really mastered the skill of swimming. haha.



I love today's weather.

It dizzles non-stop for the whole day. I know it is going to make people who are planning to spend the day outdoors mad. But for me, who finally has a nice day all by myself to slack at home, it is simply bliss.

Been looking at cameras. I think photography would be such a cool hobby to pick up.
Photographers could take pictures of life and inject meaning and his own interpretation to them. Photos are able to capture the exact moment of life and make the moment remains in history. And that is what makes photography so fascinating.

My good friend has bought an old-fashioned camera, the one where you could adjust how much light u want to enter, the clearness of the photos. Who says new things are always better than old ones? To control the amount of light and cleariness and flash. To be able to be in control of what you take. It is another kind of enjoyment.

I wish to be able to take photos of the side of life that few has witnessed. I wish to be able to take happy photos or photos that represent hope.

I wish.



Aimless, goalless, purposeless.
perhaps that is what best describes my life now.

i tried to pack everyday filled with activities with friends.
swimming, cycling, eating, shopping..it's amazing how I turned from a sian girl to a sporty girl. Being with friends make me happy and full of laughters.

But on days like this, when I am all alone,
I can't help but wonder what I am doing with my life, what exactly do I want with my life.

Really, I guess studying is a distraction. When you are studying, you don't have to think about anything else because all that matters is the content. Just like going out is another distraction from thinking of things like tat.

Perhaps that is why my friend used to say I will be able to study well because I concentrate solely on studying. Now that I have lost my object of focus, I really feel lost.

You would think that I am a mugger from what I have said. But noo.. I study only what is required. Amidst the tuitions,ccas and outings, at least there is some goal for me to follow.

I live on purpose and feed on them hungrily. Outings seem to be like leisure, more than purposeful things. Honestly, I don't understand why I can't relax. Maybe it's the workholic nature in me. I don't know.

Sometimes I wonder whether I am just being discontented with things. People envy me for being able to slack and do what I want. Yet, I am complaining. Maybe I should learn to love my life, current and future..

Anyway, I am really looking forward to the gip prelude programme. I am going to Shandong for 2 weeks. So exciting, especially when this is the first time I am going with friends. haha. Just thinking of the trip brightens me up.



我想看清
却越看越不清
我以为我已经到达天堂
却怎么还是失望

我想看清
却越看越伤心
眼泪是种成长后的惩罚
还是珍贵的代价
谁懂我的心

总是有那么多的光头在等候
因为有那么多的理由在牵托
总是有那么多的希望在寄托
要我不要忘了自己最初的梦

This song reminds me of the hardest years I have been through.
Teenage years just seem so faraway and foreign now.
But they are always part of me and forever, it will be.



I had flu the day before yesterday and it escalated to fever yesterday.

Honestly, it was not a good feeling. My whole body feels so weak, i feel cold from fever but hot because of the weather.

And being paranoid as always, I thought that it might be the latest h1n1 virus, though I haven't gone overseas for the past few weeks. When I told my mother that I have fever and she should stay away from me, she just said in a calm tone "oh, so if you are quarantined, I will quarantine with you."

When I heard that, though I am feeling very gong and sick, I can't help but feel very very touched by it. Who will risk their life to take care of the person, except your own family and maybe someone you really love.

So, yea, I must earn lots and lots of money in future so that my parents will be able to enjoy their retirement and hopefully, tour the world? But somehow I don't see the capability in me to earn that much money.

and omans, how i regret not taking up the teacher award! argh. I am just too indecisive.



Now that I am out of job, I can blog again.

I had a few pairs of cute couples as my friends and they always treat me as the middleman, so I get to hear what they are going to do for each other.

I think it is really nice to ask the girl's friend, which is me, what his girl likes when she goes on shopping with me. Of course, I will tell them so that they can prepare the surprises for them. Then, well, actually the girl is also preparing some surprises for her boyfriend and asked me for ideas. I hope they will be together forever and always! :) Ok that is like rather unrealistic of me since people don't live forever, but who cares! I just want to wish my cute friends well.

Then, there's another one who literally dragged me along to choose the present for the girl. Hais, you think I am very free. HAHA. but ya, I am actually quite free now.
Anyways, that's not the point. The point is he is very, very fussy so we ended up shopping till the shopping center is going to close. =/ Hmm though it is really tiring on my part, that is really sweet of him to choose a present for so long!
Anyways, they ain't together but I hope they will. HAHA den next time if they get married, I will only need to give one big ang bows/present! :D No la, cause I think they look really compatible together!

Oh and I went swimming for the first time in my life. Ok, maybe not exactly the first, but it's the first time I tried to learn swimming. I think yuting is a great teacher! Cause amazingly, I am able to float slightly by using her frog style method of swimming. And I think it is really fun to swim, though I keep gulping water in. haha, I feel so healthy after that. maybe it is some kind of psychological effect. But nvm, it feels good! :)

And I tried Chinese dance. But I wonder how long can I persevere there with my weak mentality. I was and is still very stressed cause everyone can dance very well, while I dance.. like a frog?? haha. I hope sie yen and shi yan can join! :)

I think I talk enough crap for the day! where is my story and lyrics going to come out.. haa



surprisingly i woke up super early in a day when I have no school!

haha. maybe school is the one that makes me sleepy

anyways, I am so bored that I decided maybe I should write out a wishlist/ things to do to better plan my holidays! =)

1.) Go China/ Thailand with my family. haha, preferably China because my parents seem to like China and chinese stuff a lot! heh. Ok, maybe it's just an excuse for me to go on a holiday.

2.) Go and take some courses such as cooking or some martial arts or dance!

I really think I am going to starve during the holidays!! when all i have is food downstairs which I don't really feel like eating.

Haha and I would really like to try dance cause my reflexes are CMI. Same goes for my direction. There have been times when I need to stretch out my hands to differientiate between right and left. HAIS

3.) Write stories or lyrics! Just a little dream of mine

4.) Buy new clothes! haha. My close friends can recognise my clothes =X I want clothes that are long sleeved so that they could cover as much of my skin as possible! hahas. Been turning darker and darker cause I walk to school everyday..

While writing this entry, I am catching the show "the seventh day"
It is about 2 love stories. And though the storyline is predictable, I am still addicted to it. =) the two girls are really suitable for their roles. haha. And i like the girl with spectacles too, cause I think she really looks nice with spects! hahas. ok.. i am at the episode that is making me cry as they were crying..

tata. maybe I will write about content with more depth next time.



exams is coming

it's like next week!

what am I doing here?

When my speed is as slow as a tortoise

well.. maybe I am bringing injustice/ discrimination to the tortoise cause it never study and I am estimating my pace of studying with it.

haha. I don't really know what I am talking about too so nvm if U don't understand it.

It's just that I am becoming less and less productive. I took a day to complete a chapter!! RAR =( No wonder there is a theory in my book that says lower ability people will incue a higher real cost of education, cause U have to add in the effort cost!

Yea. But the arrival of exams also signal the coming of the holidays! and it's a super super long one! hahaha. I am so looking forward to it!!!

Ok. So cya! I will update soon.. after my exams! Wish me luck and give me strength. haha =)



seeing my jc friends in the dinner seems to teleport me back to the jc days.
When you know who to hang out with cause they have the same tutorial classes with me
when you can hear the same laughters and types of joke
when you finally remember what is ur index number

People says I change
i think I am becoming a little more outspoken
but did i lose myself in the process?

... ...



This year is coming to an end. And so much things have happened in just one year.
I started working and went job-hopping. Then I got my A levels results and had to decide what course to take with my lousy results.

Next came university. And it's the UOC Camp which I was rather reluctant to take part but was pulled in by my friend. But it turned out that I made good friends in the camp and had been going out with them on regular basis, though I knew them hardly long. =X

Then, school started and I was v. fortunate to meet friends who were really nice and funny! =D Though the boys got a bit carried away teasing me for being a ghost and blah blah. But I still think that everyone's ben xin (natural self) is kind. And I guess it's my fault too 'cause I get siao more frequently as i grow older. =X

Then, I decided to join CCAs to liven up my university life a bit, though I have many tuition assignments in my hands. And I ended up in RSPID, an volunteer group for the intellectually-disabled. The people there are really nice and friendly.
And as I interact with the ids, I realise that there are too many misconceptions abt them. They can work and live life the same way as us. It's just that perhaps, they need some guidance to complete the tasks assigned to them. And on the sidenote, I find many of them very adorable, eg my trainee, Jiming. he is forever happy to see me though i din't really help him much. I guess happiness influences and it makes me looking forward to every sessions. =)

In university, it's getting more happening and a lot of people are getting together. It warms my heart to see my good friends getting attached, but I guess for me, I will be single for a v.v. long time. But it's ok actually, as I have my lovely friends with me and I believe that it takes time to find the right one. =)



Holidays are even more tiring than school days!

But at least, it's a break from the mundane life of studying, doing tutorials and mugging for exams.

had sleepover again at Justin's house to celebrate his 21st birthday. Was not really willing to stay over but haha, it turns out to be rather fun, just chatting around with friends and learning how to play bridge. I finally learn how to play bridge!

O yea, then there was the standard chart maranthon which I am assigned as a helper to distribute drinks. It is one of the most horrible nights in my life. Had to reach Padang at 2 am and stone there until 530 to give drinks to the runners.

As our water point is near the starting line, we ended early at 9pm, but was not allowed to go back BECAUSE we had to wait for the bus to fetch us. And it dragged till 12..

I am quite fed up in the morning due to lack of sleep but I guess, really, sometimes I should control my temper and that evil tongue of mine.

Going for V camp on Monday and I must say, I am rather excited about it because we had spent so many days and time planning. I really hope it will be a big success. =D



Life after exams is even more tiring.

But I am glad I went for the horror movies maranthon cum sleepover.

=D it is so fun hanging out with the girls

tying plaits, drawing eye liner and mascara in the afternoon.

Watching movie in the night, screaming together when the ghost suddenly pop out in the movie, squeezing each other's hands cause u don't know what will happen next in the show.

All these things can only be done in a all girls' sleepover! =D

Finally went back to WSC weekly services this week. Haven't been going there for the last few weeks because of exams. N gosh! it is really tiring, though we are just doing simple exercises like climbing the stairs and dancing with minimal actions.

But I am glad my tutee remembered my name after so long! =) I can see that he is improving. He even said thank you when I helped him carry some things.

I guess. Life these days make me feel that you don't need much to feel happy. Or maybe I am just easily satisfied like what my friend always say.



Don't know why. Nobody is angry with me, nothing seems to go wrong now, but somehow I feel empty. My student used to complain with me that she feels lonely and I would always encourage her to be independent and there is no need to care for other people's feelings. But now, am I feeling lonely too? Feels like sharing my thoughts with someone, but it's difficult to speak out.

Sighs. Why is it that there is no motivation left in me to study? Sometimes, I wonder whether it is due to my failure in A levels. No longer trust my ability in exams. Really, I should have bounced back and snapped out of it by now.



I am feeling v. moody today.

EVen though assignment was due two days later

there is a test on stats which I have not a clue what it is about on wednesday

I am blogging here.

:)

AGRH

Feeling super uncomfortable now and nothing seems to be able to go in.

How I wish someone could pop up and entertain me.

Exams are sian, tutorials are sian, food is sian

but there is one component that is not sian in uni.

And that is, friends.

haha. if only we don't need to take exams, do tutorials, eat lousy food.



Finally. A day to rest and do nothing.

Uni life is even more busy than JC.
Have to go out every night for tuition because it is the exam season.
I don't even have time to join a CCA! =(
Tkd. Wait for me. I will join next sems.

I am glad I am in ntu economics.
The ppl there are really nice.
and it is a small small corhort.
SO everyone knows everyone in a short time.
which is quite nice too.

Lol. I have a lack of vocabulary.
But yep. I like hanging out with them, without thinking much.

there is jus this problem
which I haven't figured out what to do.
Gosh. It's frustrating.
But eventually, I got to come up with a solution. =(



AHH memories of the camp days just got stuck in my head!

It's been almost one week since union camp but it seems like yesterday when I left K (Kira) group.

I guess it's because I have nothing to do now so all i can do is to think of the good old days.

Can't say I like the games very much. =X I am a rather reserved person and don't like those games that are more physical. Like passing the peanut butter face by face. My poor friend have to taste my hair course I don't have rubber band to tie up. =X

HOWEVER, one thing I do LOVE is chatting with the people in my group. =P We really can click well. =D I think hanging around with the people has made me more and more lame. We sorta influenced each other with the lameness hidden beneath us. =)

And HAHAHA we really love singing and lots of people are in choir before. I can already anticipate what our next og outing would be like. Eveyone would be hogging onto the mike in one of the K box outlets.

Too bad none of them are in the same course as me.

Really hope to keep in touch with them!





NTU has a big lizard



hehe. This is jus for showing off purpose. You can see my house from the admin building. =P

I m now in NTU.
but my student card still says I am in NUS.
Then, NUS still send me lots of letter even though I wrote to OAM already.
sighs. =(
And NTU seems to dao me. Don't want to give me the orientation package.

And I have union camp starting next week.
heard a lot of stories about the camp.
sian sian sian.




Map of Mount Faber.

On this day, xin yi, didi and I decided to CONQUER mount faber park.
When we reached the top, we decided to do some cam-whoring.



personally, I love this photo best because it depicts a girl who desires for freedom! =D yay.



I am thinking too. But it's a failure compared to didi.



Shh. Can you keep a secret?(omg. my friends are so adorable!)



Our legs. Can you spot which leg is whose? =D



Conclusion: Singapore is full of buildings. haha.



"Where is henderson Waves?!"



it's here! =D I think the inner side is pretty but I forgot to take photos of it because I was too tired after all the walking and climbing.



monkey



Took the 174 bus again.

Something I haven't done for a long time since I graduated.
I thought I will loathe the long and draining journey
but as the bus ride on, memories just flooded me.

Memories of taking the long, draining bus with my friends.

Passing by a community center bus stop makes me think of my dear old friend, Pauline.
I remembered Her infectious laughter and how I always can't bear to see her leave when we take bus together =P

Then, I thought of Di Di. Really fortunate to have her to be my travel companion from school back home. She always enlighten me with the things we discuss. Of course, she is my good gossip friend. Bus trips are never boring without her. That's why I become very dependent on her and dread going back home alone. =X And of course there is also Chin Kiat who will sometimes reflect on things I would never think of.
It seems so convenient to talk with them then, but now I only saw Di Di recently and I haven't seen Chin Kiat since results day! =X

My good old travel companion to school would be Qian Lei. She is actually my Primary school friend and we ALWAYS take the same bus though we never decide on the time to meet. When we reach the bus, we will be like robots, sleeping immediately when we found the seats. But oh well, life is never perfect. So, we are always standing and will try to keep the sleepy bugs away by chatting.

Ah and there is also Xing Zhou, my pri school friend too. We will dao each other at times and chat at other times?! =/ Haha. If not for the long bus ride, I bet I will never talk to him la.

Long bus rides are not necessarily without any benefits. =)



今天有些不顺心

突然不知道自己以后的方向

原本以为可以做一个好老师

却发现自己只能做到对学生好的老师

不能让他们了解我要传授的知识

从小到大我都是这样

没有一件事情我能表现得优异

不过什么事情都还ok

我爸说这样就好了

可是我多么希望自己有一个长处

有一个能使自己骄傲的地方

或许这和我处事的方式有关

不想太认真,因为不想太失望.

sidenote: I just discovered there is a lot of gossips hidden in my workplace.
So entertaining and suspenseful. Why is she helping him when he did not pay her her wages? Why are both of them locked in a room? Why is she sitting besides him in the class?

All the puzzles. heh



RARR

Taken from Ministry of Manpower
Time of Salary Payment

* An employee must be paid at least once a month. However, there is nothing to prevent an employer from paying salary to the employee at a shorter interval.
*
All salaries must be paid within seven days after the end of the salary period: The only exception is for payment for overtime work, which must be paid within 14 days after the salary period ends.

*
The total salary due an employee must be paid to him/her on the last day of employment if:

- The employee is dismissed on grounds of misconduct; or
- The contract of service is terminated by the employer.

If this is not possible, it must be paid within three working days from the date of dismissal/termination.

HAHA I have been unpaid for 2 whole months already?! N they actually asked me to SIGN THE PAYSLIP before they transfer the money.

Doesn't make any sense right? And when I told one of the admin about that, she actually said I am being unreasonable.

I never think that I would need to resort to MOM to get my pay.

But maybe, I might need it now. =X



ARGH.

I can't add any more photos here because my computer is spoilt once again! =X The computer is as unhealthy as the owner. I am having my morning flu again.

lalala. When is school starting?

I am rotting at home with nothing to do at all, except exploring the wonderful realm of cooking. My attempt to cook a full meal (with 3 dishes and 1 soup) is very disappointing!

Dish 1: steamed egg with meat.
Sighs. I din't know that you need to marinate the meat too. So I only add salt and soy sauce to the egg. In the end, the meat is tasteless. =X

What's more, I spend like 1hr 30 mins cooking this steamed egg with meat because it is too thick. Normally, people only need 10 to 15 mins. SIGHS

Dish 2: stir-fried bao cai
My father personally coached me to cook this meal and yes yes, it tasted delicious.
But the thing is... my father did most of the frying because I wasn't fast enough to flip over the vegetables. haha.

Dish 3: Just steam the canned fish that my dad bought. HAHA. =)

Soup: SIGHS. another failure. The soup does not have the essence of the veggies even though I was boiling it for two hours. I don't know why! =X so weird. In the end, I have to add lots of seasonings so that my brother would drink it. LOL.

Conclusion: My mum decided not to let me touch the kitchen in the near future. =X




Yehliu

Yehliu is a place filled with strange looking rocks caused by the "hitting" of strong waves.



Yehliu is a fishing place! It is a rustic place and it's lovely to go there for a stroll!



The Mushroom Rocks



Forgot the names of the rocks. Shall call it weird looking rocks



The TOFU rocks. Reminds me of my poor ill-fated tofu >.<



A tired couple and beautiful background.



Scenery (I)



Scenery (II)



The sunset is amazing right? But my cousin looks super irritated. HAHA



This is a brave man who lost his life trying to save a child who was drowning in Yehliu. Sighs, life is so fragile sometimes..



They gave these rocks a nice name which I forgot too =X. If you look carefully, these rocks are perfect birthplace for the mosquitoes larvae. =) feel impulsed to throw some oil into the rocks and kill the mosquitoes babies.



Lots and lots of cockroaches. But they are too small to be seen! The cockroaches are different from Singapore. Singapore ones are much fatter!





Entrance to amusement park "liu fu chun"



My cousin and boyfriend going to the amusement park.
Such a happy scene! =)



The Aladdin Palace. Cool or what.



360 degree ride. Was closing my eyes all the time when I was on the ride. damn scary. My hair was covering my face when I was right on top. Lucky it was a rather short ride!



Another scary ride. It rose high up in a rather slow speed but came down at a super fast speed. I think it only takes a few seconds to go down. My heart instantly stopped. Another lucky thing is that it comes down too fast for me to get really scared. =P Haven't really prepared myself and I was on the ground again.



Pirate ship. A typical ride in the amusement park. Nevertheless, my heart was literally on my throat when the pirate ship went up and down in a fast speed. Call me a timid cat.



Musical Horses. Din't take the ride but hey! musical horses always look nice right?



A real horse :D Shuai.



Hee. Din't went for this water ride. Instead we went for another water ride but I din't have chance to take the photo of it. I guess the purpose of water ride was just to get you really soaked up with water. I was trying my best to protect my clothes and bag from getting wet. But oh well, when an artifical WATERFALL fall on us,nothing can escape from getting wet.



Went to the monkey park. This monkey is so cute. it actally posed for me to take photos. Unlike the monkeys in another area. THEY THROW STONES ON US WHEN WE WERE LOOKING AT THEM. But I can understand the monkeys' feelings. Who would want some weird creatures to look at them every single minute? Irritating humans who have nothing better to do.



Can you see a monkey swinging! ;D



Hmm. Are they called flamingos? They have really long and thin legs! *envious*



Performance by the workers. Unfortunately, I din't manage to take photos of the dancers flapping their big skirts!



GOing to Taipei 101

KPMG is in Taipei 101 o.O



Don't look as tall when I take e photo upclose. heh



Taipei 101 in the rain.


After so many pictures on taipei 101, I regret to tell you that we did not went up to the highest storey because the entrance fee is too high. The fee is approx. S$20! siao la. =X



Went for the Sec 4 class last week and indeed, it was a memorable lesson. Almost everyone in the class talked back to me. =/ but it's ok la, since Ms Chua, the person in charge of the tuition centre, asked them to call me SISTER?!?! Their vigor makes me feel that it's wonderful to be young. But yea, my friend, I am just bigger than them by 3 years old. =D

University is starting soon. And though I am not in a really fanastic course, I can't help but feel excited about it. But o well, I am still not going to attend any orientation camp except maybe the econ camp because all of them clash with my timetable. And one thing is I m not an enthu person. That's why I don't want to be forced to act enthu in the camps.



Though there is absolutely no time to go online these days, I feel really happy and satisfied being with the children all day long.

They can really scream at the top of their lungs when they got excited! It's really scary. I had to scream to teach them (fighting with them for the volume), and yea, I lost. =X There are still people who couldn't hear me. I think I would either be v. loud or crack my voice after the months of teaching. =(

Though they are a playful lot, I still love teaching them and dote on them a lot by buying them all kinds of gifts. My friend says I am crazy, liking a class who can't stop talking and making me angry all the time.



Again and again, throughout my life,

I would be asking myself

"Why is it that some people don't like me?"

den I will get v frustrated with myself and tried all kinds of ways to improve/change myself

hoping it will improve their impressions of me.

Now, really, I finally understand.

There is no need to change for others.

If people don't like you, so be it.

If people like you, that will be great.

I am still trying to ignore other people's opinions.

In this world, sometimes it's better to close one ear whenever it's necessary.



it's been a busy week.

I am really tired now.

Having a tuition marathon just now.

And played 1 hr of badminton continuously earlier in the day.

But yep! I really enjoy playing badminton with my friends!

It's like a chatting cum exercising session.

And of course my little student never fails to make me laugh.

Today he tells me the same things he has been telling me for the PAST FEW WEEKS

"Teacher, my birthday is in 1 month time!! you don't need to buy any presents for me ok?"

Then, he starts describing all the toys he want for his bday...

Super uber cute the way he says it!

Haha. I think I cannot teach cute kids. I don't bear to scold them whenever they looks at me with those innocent big eyes.

Have a student in my chinese class who is really evil and likes to bully one kid. But whenever he says "teacher, it's not my fault" to me in the chubby adorable face he has, I would not bear to scold me and would turn to scold the other kid instead. Omg. I am damn biased!



Sighs

life is tough

I am sian!

Just have an interview

Think they will probably reject me

I am being interviewed by my secondary school principal!

N he doesn't look happy to see me.

LOL

I think I screwed up the interview

BUT NVM LA

I made a new friend at the interview centre

DAMN FUNNY

We were very traumatised by the interview

So we decided to go eat lunch together

of course with my beloved MOE friends =D

den later to waste time,

we decided to go shopping!

when we just knew each other a few hours ago

N we went ga-ga over special discounts.

At the end of the trip, she asked me

"So how is it like shopping with someone you don't know?"

I said " feels good =)"



I am coughing so badly that I am on MC now

T.T

The first week of work doesn't go as smoothly as I thought it would.
Work is stressful and I just broke down.
N I have been cancelling all the tuition sessions with my students because I don't have any voice left.

Even for today, my ex-pri school called me for relief but I can't go
because I am sick!!!
AHH have been waiting for this opportunity for so long.

=(

As if things wouldn't get worse, I got offer to do relief teaching at Corporation until july or august.
That is like my dream job
BUT I can't leave my current job because I am on contract now

T.T

I think I complain too much



Coughing like mad these days.

It's a good thing I don't have work.

But it's a bad thing that I am starting work next week.

T.T I don't want to spread my germs everywhere like what my brother did

N made poor people like me and my mum cough so bad that we can't get to sleep!

Ok, maybe it's because I have a poor immune system.

Nothing much to say for this week.

Except that I went dinner to celebrate May Ting's birthday and it was really nice to crap with them after so long.

N I have to cancel other outings because I am too sick to go for them.

So I ended up staring at the fish tank. I got a really murderous fish in my house. Don't understand why my parents keep it with the rest of the fishes. It killed a total of 6 fishes who lived with it! Two actually committed suicide because it kept bullying them.

Sighs. Life is so cruel.

O ya. I also went to library to borrow books! Especially love "the curious incident of the dog in the nightime". It was about an autistic child who was very logical and brilliant in maths and physics.

The book is really spell-binding with the little boy sidetracking at times to solve different kinds of maths or logical problems.

Hmm. N yea I can really understand his feelings when he say he don't want to talk to strangers. I always feel uncomfortable talking to strangers, but but but the people loitering in my void deck/ the shopkeepers/ the stallholders, being friendly I guess, always want to strike conversation with me. Makes me feel so weird. =/

sighs. I think I am becoming more and more introverted.

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The results seem rather good to me, except that I am really v. poor in english. Will I kill myself by studying psychology?!

Sighs

life is full of choices.

going to st's company next week. Horray! Finally some company wants me! ok hmm I din't really send any resumes to any company for the period course I was busy emo-ing to myself. =(





Haha I am really proud of huizhen for drawing such adorable drawings of people.
Koped this pic from Alicia to show off?!?! LOL. I am not making much sense now.

Anyways, why din't I join MOE earlier?



hey you!!

stop wallowing in your own self-pity

stop complaining to people around you

stop clinging on to your stupid pride

be cool

forget about it

move on to life

It's so hard to do so sometimes

=(

It's only during shopping and tuitioning that I was able to forget about it temporarily.

Argh. such an un-cool person I am.





Loveholic "nice dream"

Loveholic is a south korea rock band. Though I don't understand anything about what they are saying, I have fallen deeply in love with the album. They have successfully mixed the free-spiritedness into the pop songs. Really really love their tunes. It is so different from the usual pop album.

It is a pleasant surprise that I found the song luo zhi xiang "hao peng you" in their album. I always like this song. The female version has a total different feel to the song. =D



But I guess my favourite song would have to be one love. =D
Super nice and sweet. It is the opening or ending song of spring waltz.



Going to Nus open house also makes my day. I saw a lot of ppl whom I lost contact for a long time and they still say hi to me. How nice is it! Also, I got a balloon! hahaha. I got an orange and big one while Shilin got a small balloon. She said it is because of our size.

I gave the balloon away to one of my students who really really like the balloon. OMG
la. He's P5 already! oO but I suddenly recalled we are already ex-JC students and we are still excited when we got the balloon. oops.



i realise
when you stand really high
you will fall hard.

I also realise
when you are at the brink of sadness
you will have no emotions after that.
which is what I am feeling now.

though it is entirely my fault.

I will heal



Being a dedicated tutor and a person who has nothing much to do during e weekends
I decide to try and solve my dear inquisitive student's question

"how are tornadoes and hurricanes form?"

Tornadoes


Tornadoes form where warm, moist air and cold, dry air meet and begin to create updrafts that develop into massive rotating cumulonimbus clouds or supercells.

Sometimes a spinning column of air called a vortex forms within these clouds. When this vortex becomes visible as a funnel cloud and reaches the ground, a tornado is created.

Hurricane
The generic, scientific term for these storms, wherever they occur, is tropical cyclone.

Hurricanes only form over really warm ocean water of 80°F or warmer. The atmosphere (the air) must cool off very quickly the higher you go. Also, the wind must be blowing in the same direction and at the same speed to force air upward from the ocean surface. Winds flow outward above the storm allowing the air below to rise. Hurricanes typically form between 5 to 15 degrees latitude north and south of the equator



Quite cool. =) but don't think I can explain all these to him. LOL