time to get out of the house. time to have a life. time to enjoy.
the routine has been broken. distance really do make the heart grows fonder? really? do you agree? idk. i really dont.
but im tired of waiting. tired of anticipating when u're coming. when u're not on during ur regular hours, im disheartened. disappointed. and realised... i've wasted another afternoon. not accomplishing anything. but at the same time, if i dont, i know im missing the chance to see you. what was i thinking. i dont really know anymore. mixed up feelings. confused thoughts.
everytime it happens, i feel like crying. i need a shoulder. but i dont wanna break down in front of anyone. i wish.. ling was with me. i miss her so much. :(
i need to get out of the hse. watch moovee, chill out. enjoying sea breeze, gazing at the empty sky, swinging the swing at the park, taking a stroll down east coast. idc. i jus need to have a timeout.
hmm. moovees i wanna watch...
1. Time traveller's wife 2. G force 3. Aliens in the attic 4. Dance flick
3 months a long way to go... when i reflect back on what Mommy (in game) says.. she has chose to let go. was she right to do it? will it work? question marks... are filling my head.. sometimes.. i jus wish he knew... if only he was more sensitive... or maybe i need to be less sensitive. idk anymore...
Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away I missed you and things weren't the same 'Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue I'm sorry about all things I said to you And I know, I cant take it back. Every single day, I think about how we came all this way The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
what lies ahead in our future..? all i can say.. im missing u. but i need to learn.. to take a step back from now on. as the endless tears i've cried.. has made me become stronger. i can rely on no one.. except myself...
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9:46 PM
♥ Thursday, September 3, 2009
yours truly, ♥ZhuZhu
Weeee!! happy bday kuku dog! i know the pictures are up late. sorry. have been layzee >_>
but yeahh. LMAO. that night was absolutely chaotic. Who'd figured we were going to have a cake fight and make a mess out of ourselves? >_> not to mention.. we were scolded by the auntie. -.-
but it was fun. we had laughters and lol. more laughters!! people thought we were crayzee ._. but i guess thats what fun ish all about! who cares lol. xD
being the master planner of this evil idea, lol. think im bound to get twice the revenge when its my turn. >_> YOU GIRLS STAY AWAY FROM ME. Dx lolol.
hope you had a great fun. i know i did. and i stink too.. hair was all chocolate color when i showered. i smelled all the way home. -_- it was Zzzz.
we hope you like the pressie! it's seriously 'classic'. xD
we were really clean... before the fight.. lol.
starter of all disaster >_>
before that. we had to trick her.. it was a surprised celebration actually. LMAO. and she fell for it. xD hahahahhaahahah!! we had her tricked!
after the mess >_> it was cleaning up time. -.- we had to wash our hair in the toilet but the chocolate wouldnt come off. T_T
haha. yeahh. those were the messy pics. LMAO. so what have i been to during the hols? idk. ._. days seriously fly pass when u're jus a slacker. been home doing hse chores. slacking. sewing. and doing up the poster. since fyp hasnt started as the results werent out. im thinking by the end of this week. i shld be beezee as the choices would already be released. i hope.
other than that. im jus looking forward and counting down to 97 days.
