幸福

你这样地反应
我忽然间有点“心暖了又灰，世界有时候孤单得很...”
看你拼了命地解释
我似乎还是不明白
但看了那则简讯
再肉麻的文字都显得如此真实
我在电梯里留下眼泪的痕迹...
我不算是懦弱
只是觉得去年的日子过得很现实
你把我带到了另一边
一个充满完美、幸福的一边
有了你
我经过了世界上最美丽的风景

晚安

so tired AGAIN. i jus have a 2.5 hours of sleep. and my chinese compo still undone, and tonnes of stuff waiting for me to complete. well done. realli 已经堆积如山 liao.

last friday, i went off early to meet my mac manager, cos she wan me to see the big boss of mac. somehow she wan to promote me so that i can learn more tings and get better pay. though, cos she is a 2nd assistant manager, so her rights to decide tings oso limited. den the store manager don feel like promoting me cos she tink tt i not capable and not experienced enough. but somehow, i jus managed to get to see the big boss and got interviewed.

i and my friend den took the promotion test, and somehow don noe why, both got 100%. and ya, i tink soon i can get a raise in pay and maybe to a crew leader or someting. den, somehow go back and work, now got a little 距离感. tink surely got ppl 不爽 that why i jus come in half a year and can get promoted so fast, while they have worked like a couple of years. mm, stressed now, cos got to do tings more efficient and not slack around so that ppl wont say your 闲话.

220106, 03:05, 做了一个决定
犹豫了这么久，考虑了这么多
说真的，人有时到底在追求什么？
我不断问自己，自己却没有答案

220106, 03:16, 收到一则简讯
这一夜的这个“晚安”，是不同的
瞬间心里头涌出一种强烈的感觉
夜显得漫长，是因为思念多了
我不会后悔，因为至少拥有了一刻的完美...

彼此

发现最近能在短时间做很多事...

let me continue with my part 2 1st ba.

140106, saturday, part 2:

23:10, 演唱会结束后，我们从容地走到巴士站，等车。也不知道为什么，就决定往tampines的方向行驶。

23:53, 接近凌晨，我们才到达总站。而糟糕的是，已没有什么巴士能送我们回家了。她电话接了又接，拼命地想办法，而我，只在乎我的呱呱叫的肚子。坐在快餐点外，我们吃着杯面；四周的人也不多，寂静无声，时间仿佛停了下来，没有施加压力，突然有种平凡、踏实而梦幻的感觉。

150106, sunday, part 3:

00:35, 在无人的街上，无车的马路旁，哼着熟悉的调子，缓慢地走着，感觉：简单、舒服、完美。

02:02, 搭上德士回到熟悉的地方，她一直迟疑着。一个乖乖女，三更半夜还不回家，很不像她。结果她就陪着我，渡过了两三个钟头的等待，等待着早上的第一辆车。我，是被感动的。

k k. and tat's the end. now talk about the past 3 days ba.

i bon-ed my maths lecture to type all these, cos i tink, haiz. the maths lecturer can realli go and brush up her maths la. everyting go home and read mite as well don come school.

aniwae, yest taught my 2 students and was like arranging the schudule for next week and chinese new year, and realli tink that there's a busy week coming up. lot of things to do, and undone tings not done. sometimes pity my 2 students cos i realli don have time to prepare their stuff or rather say prepare well. i bought the grade 8 theory book 2004 and started doing, and it was like.... and i am going to go for the exams in march?! mmm, if i pass, i will treat myself to a fantastic meal la.

ya, and i bon-ed tuesday whole day to rest, sort of buy mc, but still very tired lei. mr ng did a ting that realli, make me has a diff impression of him la. he always say my hair, my work and all sorts of stuff, but he helped me to apply for the pocket money ting. saw the comments that my teachers gave me, haiz. realli wanna to cry. though some always say i bon lectures and all sorts of tings, but they in the end still care much about me. umph. ya. touched again.

又是一个晚上
让我们看清事物
让我们更了解对方
但人类的运作方式
我们都不懂得
彼此都不确定接下来的路该这么走...

孙燕姿

sadded. last friday wanted to change my blogskin, but the javscript is realli terrible. and end up wasting so much time.

140106, saturday, part 1:

3:43，她迟了四十三分钟。原本的计划是要把功课做完，一切却没照计划，就在快餐店懒散了一个钟头多。

7:17，我们到达演唱会现场，场景还布置得不错，一个四面台，五千人的座位，有着同样的期待。

8:29，“我不要...”那把熟悉的嗓音安抚人心。小小的身影慢慢出现，欢呼、尖叫，制造了完美的气氛。灯光一暗，荧光棒编织了一幅美丽的图案。我知道我没有后悔。

又唱又跳，带来多首熟悉的歌曲。但那一幕，站在梯阶上唱着《同类》，感觉突然好真，好温暖。听她唱《我不难过》时，可以看到她真情流露，刚结束的一段感情，伤感句句写在歌词里。与tanya和fir同台时，还是比较喜欢她唱抒情歌曲。《原点》、《陌生人》，听起来比较舒服，反而《第一天》有点吃力不讨好。自弹自唱《我要的幸福》，唱出自己的心声，画面还是美丽无比。最后一首《这一刻》，更是我常说的莫名的感动。

10:47，encore时唱了《绿光》、《梦不落》、《天黑黑》。难怪她有今天的成就。舞台魅力无可质疑。在大家合唱“天黑黑，黑黑”时，演唱会也画下了完美的据点。

so tis is part of that day, cos got lessons now, so gtg. part 2 coming in a few days time.

困惑

one week passed. and i'm 1 week nearer to the a levels. yest work till 1 am, so quite surprised today i can still crawl to school. aniwae, funny ting happened last week. tink on friday, when i was like working at mac, 4 girls from xinmin sec wan, asked for my hp number. that's definitely strange. den, i was like don noe why, jus give the hp number, cos my manager was like staring at me. so, ya.

aniwae, tinking of changing the blogskin. and i noe i should have done it long ago.

自己有点害怕自己会喜欢上人
不是要抗拒或什么
只是很困惑
这一方面
也许自己也不了解自己

习惯

jus suddenly feel that my blogging skills 退步 le. somehow, i don feel like typing so much tings here. maybe it's jus cos of tonnes of things that are waiting for me to complete, which makes me feel extreme restless. 1 physics paper, 3 tutorials, 2 maths paper, CLA test coming jus later, Physics test, 2 tuition sessions coming up in this week, and 20 hours of mac work, 5 hours of doing CIP in schools. wat's left? nothing.

J1, i am as slack as i can be, J2 i am still the same. i bon-ed yest, waking up at 2 pm in the afternoon. my mum said, nvm, jus sleep and ur dad will jus write a letter to school. they do tink that going to school doesn't have much use too. surprisingly, the ng didnt ask much about my absence. jus that he wan me to dye back my hair. which i tink is not veri obvious too. haix.

aniwae, jus got someone's christmas present! don noe why, 有点被安慰的感觉. and ya, i still havent give zc his b-day present, and he went NS liao. hopefully he can survive there... =_''.

最近都好迟到家
到家冲了凉就趴在床上睡大觉
眼睛就好象眨了一下
五六个小时就过去了
也许只是暂时不习惯

坚强

with a total of 80 posts last yr, this is the 1st first post of tis year. school life sux. yest 1st day of school, is realli boring. cant stand the new chinese paper 1 teacher and the new principal. those that tink everyting is possible even flying up to the sky. today timetable is realli slack too. 2.5 hrs of lessons, but 3 hrs of break. well done indeed.

若一天我失去双眼
虽看不到别人鄙视的眼光
但也失去了目睹美丽风光的资格
若一天我失去听觉
虽听不见别人的闲言闲语
但也失去了聆听美妙音乐的权力
我发现其实自己并没有想象中坚强