不是真的爱我

不是真的爱我 became the 1st song that i 改编. with piano accompaniment, violin as 2nd melody, cello and drums as bass. cool indeed. that's my 1st try, and jieying will be using it for her SUPERSTAR auditions. so proud of it.

aniwae, today mich b-dae, and haha, we havent buy her present. die le. so maybe jieying maybe breaking the news to her that we giving her the present on monday.

now here, to jieying, the song. it's terrible.

那一天 你对我说再见
舍不得我们距离拉远
看不见 我们未来能继续多远
一切都不很明显

这一夜 风吹过我的肩
寂寞地回想从前画面
又失眠 忽然好想你在我身边
一起渡过漫长的夜

多想念你给的拥抱 多怀念你纯真微笑
每当失落时 需要人依靠
那边的你是否知道

多渴望你给的拥抱 多希望看见你微笑
走过多少路 历经多少苦
有时就只想在你怀抱

钢琴音乐盒

奇怪，我并没有很失望，但却深记在台上的那一霎那，仿佛征服了全世界，有人为你欢呼，你就站在世界的顶端、高峰。红灯亮起时，发现人其实也不需要追求什么，到头来始终还是会失去，只是时间的问题。这一次，可说是个很好的经历，也点缀了我这一年来灰白的人生。

今天下午，雨细细地下着，我们来到一间餐馆，还算高级吧。懒洋洋的午后，餐馆里却只有我和她，突然有种好有钱的感觉，好像包下了整间餐馆一样。一个多钟头的时间，我们静静地，吃了一顿温暖的午餐。收到了生日礼物，一个钢琴音乐盒，突然也有种莫名的感动。

最近比较有空，结果又会把大脑打开，又会开始想一些事。一年有快过了，想先做个小总结。今年我拥有自由，拥有主宰自己生活的权利，比较为自己而活了。想的一些事不再是那么肤浅，更进一步了解了自己，人类，人生的真谛。我也知道不停思考的我还是将会一直地想，寻找自己要的那条路。

《停》

眼泪不由自主地流下
是因为太累了
突然不想做任何事情
暂时停住呼吸
温暖的阳光　打在我脸上
我即将到另一个地方　到那里继续忙

红绿灯有时红有时绿
却从来没停止
什么事都有起也有落
风暴从不静止
眼前的旅途　直直无尽头
我快到达另一个人生　到那里继续忙

我被遮了眼　模糊的视线
曾经一切都很明显　不需改变
现在画面却离我好远

我努力向前　想控制一切
但始终却无法到达那个顶点
决定放开手　等待明天

自欺欺人

ya, realise that i have not blog for quite a long time.

so, actualli nothing much has happened for the previous 11 days or so. my OP was okie, not too bad la. holiday lectures, mm, tried to go but end up sleeping inside. and therefore, decided not to go anymore. working the past few days and getting my half-month pay soon. most prob about $280. tat's good. den, i tried to dye my hair and somehow turn out the colour like quite funny lo.

aniwae, i was sick yest and took leave. like no voice and a bit flu. ya, and currently got auditions for campus superstar. haha. tink this coming sat and sun. maybe if got friends going, den i don mind going there to try too.

最近心情不算好
有时自己知道
自己是固执的、任性的
但他们几时才会醒来
几时才会知道我需要什么
我们需要的是什么
现在情况根本就不好
别在自欺欺人了...

i'm like being so spastic.

So, i got one more ting to say. after typing like 30 min, and having a hard time recalling wat i have done for the past few days, i delete everyting dat i have typed jus now! fed up. so i have summarise everyting in 60 words.

monday: ao chinese, praying to get A2 or B3, celebrate aud's b-dae at pizza hut

tuesday: PH, double pay, working at mac

wednesday: went PW meeting, den eat steamboat wid my classmates

thursday: PH again, double pay, working at mac

k, idiot. haiz, but nvm. aniwae, now at dele hse, after working for 6 hours. yest, went to 金曲奖. finally, my prom nite shirt is on me, for the 2nd time. haha. mm, the atmosphere there was nice, sound system was okie, our seats was oso not bad, in the middle. went wid my bro and aunt, $36.20 each.

and here's the list

最佳唱片制作 (Best Album Production)
五月天 五月天 神的孩子都在跳舞

最佳本地作词 (Best Local Lyrics)
陪我看日出 梁文福 蔡淳佳 日出

最佳本地作曲 (Best Local Music Composition)
一千年以后 林俊杰 林俊杰 编号89757

最佳本地编曲 (Best Local Music Arrangement)
千年之恋 Terence Teo FIR 无限

最佳组合 (Best Group)
Energy 最后的乐园

最佳乐团(Best Band)
五月天 神的孩子都在跳舞

最佳新人 (Best New Act)
张栋梁 首选

最佳创作歌手 (Best Composing Artiste)
五月天 神的孩子都在跳舞
陶吉吉 太平盛世
林俊杰 编号 89757
蔡健雅 双栖动物

最佳本地男歌手 (Best Local Male Artiste)
林俊杰 编号 89757

最佳本地女歌手 (Best Local Female Artiste)
孙燕姿 Stefanie

最佳演绎男歌手 (Best Male Vocalist)
林俊杰 编号 89757

最佳演绎女歌手 (Best Female Vocalist)
孙燕姿 Stefanie

亚太最受推崇男歌手 (Best Performing Regional Male Artiste)
周杰伦 七里香

亚太最受推崇女歌手 (Best Performing Regional Female Artiste)
孙燕姿 Stefanie

传媒推荐 – 本地新人 (Media Recognition Award – New Local Act)
沈祥龙 起飞

亚太区域最受欢迎歌手奖 (Most Popular Regional Artiste) - 中国内地 （Mainland China）
张敬轩

亚太区域最受欢迎歌手奖 (Most Popular Regional Artiste) - 台湾 （Taiwan）
王力宏

亚太区域最受欢迎歌手奖 (Most Popular Regional Artiste) - 香港 （Hong Kong）
TWINS

亚太区域最受欢迎歌手奖 (Most Popular Regional Artiste) - 马来西亚 （Malaysia）
梁静茹

COURTS < 魅力新偶像大奖> - COURTS New Idol Award
Energy Come On

《Y.E.S. 93.3FM 醉心龙虎榜》 顶尖金曲 (Y.E.S. 93.3FM Most Popular Song)
孙燕姿 同类

《Y.E.S. 93.3FM 醉心龙虎榜》 榜上风光奖
蔡依林

最受欢迎组合 （听众票选) Most Popular Group (Listener’s Choice)
F.I.R

最受欢迎男歌手 (听众票选) Most Popular Male Artiste (Listener’s Choice)
周杰伦

最受欢迎女歌手 (听众票选) Most Popular Female Artiste (Listener’s Choice)
梁静茹

流行乐坛杰出歌手奖 (Outstanding Artiste Award)
周华健

aniwae, i tink tat fish and jj can sing veri well la. their live realli is like wow, 具有感染力, and the most disappointing ting is that mayday 对嘴, haiz. yanzi managed to sing well too, haha, at least she got improved la. espcially when she sings 完美的一天, everyone was like so 轰动, though i tink the song realli quite lame, but at least the song 被观众认同. but FIR, not that good lei, faye 1st part so no breath like that. i am sure i can sing better, haha. goodness! aniwae, the show overall is cool. Yanzi and JJ was the overall winner! that's good. this year like jay didn't perform veri well, many awards lagi snatch by other singers.

k, i will end here, muz rush home watch channel u 金曲奖 again. haha. so lame. aniwae, tink this week is a fruitful and interesting week after all. jus that i am jus tired. zzz.

一段旋律
能勾起许多回忆
画面中看到的
总是少了点鲜艳，多了点感伤
我依然是这样...