总结

last day of school le! me and my classmates went to eat breakfast today, reaching school at 11.10 am. listen to the principal's talk, like liga o levels that time when they announce the results. quite 舍不得 the principal actualli.

k, den the class went to the classroom and waited for the results to be given out. surprisingly, somehow, i was being praised by tat guy, though i didn;t do veri well la. okie, B, C, E, C5. tot the maths jus sux, B. miss by 1 mark. haiz. tot scoring A for both my promo and mid-yr. C% for my GP, that's surprising, haha. If compare with my aims, in previous posts. okie la, reaching soon. quite happie of cos, and i seriously tink i can do better if i can realli sit down and focus, mugging for 24 hours.

i met someone on my way to the library. she was sad. going to find out why...

一张纸
总结了你一年来的努力
而人总觉得
好成绩代表勤劳
烂成绩代表懒惰
有时候
纸上的黑墨却不依偎着你的付出
而我庆幸我是幸运的...

沮丧

k, i jus reach sch. so tired, and jus finish the op rehearsal. sometimes realli don noe pw is for wat la, waste time.

aniwae, yest nite work nite shift. till 1 plus. my dad keep saying 为了那几块钱，这样辛苦干嘛？ sometimes jus don understand him. wat he sees is onli the large amount of money, the 1st prize of 4d, toto. 总觉得脚踏实地一点比较好. dat day, he wanted to lend $100 from me, noeing that i am rich cos i sold my piano. but of cos, i didn't. or else all the money will jus drop into the 那个无底洞里. 对,有时候我真的在逃避. sometimes actualli is not that i wan to work at nite, but reaching home early simply jus sux.

我发现最近我的步伐慢了下来
走在街道上, 也感到莫名的沮丧
这一年的我, 真的累了...

16:14

now, at zc house, and jus finish pw.

okie, i survive through the buzy weekend, with 14 hrs of work, 2 sessions of tuition and PW work. with onli 8 hrs sleep though exams are over. obviously, i am tired!

didn't go school today, though i slept rather early yest nite. i rmb answering calls in the middle of the nite, very dreamy feel. it was raining so heavily, i noe, a perfect weather to get a good sleep. den, i check my phone, 16:14, meaning 2.30 p.m. and no one's at home. and no one bothers to wake me up la. Goodness! tat's my family, noeing tht i got sch and still refused to wake me up la. so end up, i have a 15-hr sleep. well done!

i suppose to reach home by 10.30 pm cos my mum bought stingray, but haiz, i onli manage to finish the things by 10.15 pm, and by the time, i end blog, it's 10.30, and by the time i reach home 11.15 pm. well done! haiz. k, i will end here. zc com cant write chinese, sadded.

无奈

最近有点好像得罪了全世界，一直有人在旁边告诉我我一直都在做错。

i tink all my tchrs are damn fed up wid me. ya, i gave them the "hack-care" attitude, and i noe though i score A for both mid-yr and promos for maths, she is onli going to give me a B. jus cos of atttutide grade. another one kept asking me to cut my hair and everyting. haiz. not in a good mood today.

she called 3 times my names, and it was her 1st time shouting so loudly and fiercely at ppl in class. i didn't realise however, still in my dreams of the Wonderland. yest, got home at 1 am, and like jus close and open my eyes, it's time for me to leave home again. Extreme confusion, and don noe wat will be going to happen in the next few weeks. Tings needed to be done are too much, PW, my students' assignments and the new holiday assignments, that was given out today.

Haiz, it didn't stop despite of the end of the exams, everyone seems so busy as usual. 无奈.

到达想象的空间；离开这个境界
一切的虚构，永远是美妙
天与海连成一片图案：无边际
一种无法用言语形容的景象
挣开眼；我醒了，想逃跑...

我

ya, rested 1 day yest, and like slacking at home doing nothing, jus lying on the bed. haiz, actualli still tinking how i manage to pass gp. perhaps it's realli 100% luck, and when i tell my mum, my mum was like "连你都及格, 全校可以拿A了". that's my mum, one who tinks that his son can onli do well in maths.

i tink tot i met lot of obstacles tis yr, lots of prob that needed to be settled so quickly everytime, i tink i am blessed. at least my results realli isn't that disappointing. like wat my sec school tchr says, "种 baluku, get durian." thanx for the luck during the exams.

these few days, realli don feel like coming to sch lei, like no point liao, wat they wan for this year alr ended wat. haiz, so no mood to study or even look at a book or paper. initially got tuition at 3 pm, den suddenly got wat gp lectures, haiz, maybe going to tuition at a later time lo. tonite 1st time working later hours, from 8.30 to 12.30 am, haha. see if i can wake up tml.

我听得到旁人的哭泣、伤心、失望
也感受到旁人的快乐、满足、自豪
昨天放了自己一天假
一直在那里思考着
想一些没答案的问题
那张纸必定有着一定的地位
才能有这个权力：注定“生死”的权力
我了解社会的现实
跟着人类的运作方式十七年
但似乎只有我在埋怨、深思
其他人呢？
我是否属于这世界、这地球？

results.

okie, i bet everyone will be talking about how well or badly they have done for their promos. k, ya. i am veri surprised with my results, umexpectedly better than wat i expected.

1st paper, i got back phy. tink mic and aud all did quite well. C and D i tink. i was quite worried cos i was like playing b4 the phy papers, and realli didn't study much. but surprisingly still manage to get a O grade. i am satisfied le, p1 18/40, p2 32/70, and p3 20.5/60. overall for phy promos is 41.5%. i feel okie la, but today saw my phy tchr. actualli feel veri guilty cos i tink she put in much effort in teaching me, while i didn't do my part. "i believe this is ur minimum effort and u shld try harder nx year", she told me, and talked quite a long time. initially tot she will like scold me la, but somehow 开导我 instead.

den comes to the 致命 paper, GP. they gave out paper 2 1st, den i was like 紧张到... and got back my p2, 18/40. and my language got 8/15, my best score till now, and content 10/25. i expected 15, so of cos i am happie la, though not a veri good score. den comes the paper 1, the lame short essay that i wrote about eating. and surprisingly, i scored well enough for me to pass gp la. tink around the highest of the class. 29/50! wow, i was like so damn shocked. the highest score that i ever get lo. all my friends was like so damn shocked too, cos obviously my english sux la. got 17/30 for content, 12/20 for language. so, i get a C5 lo, 51.5%. realli great thanx to luck this time, cos it's realli luck that help me la, i muz say. the 1st time that i onli got 4 grammar mistakes and whole paper clean! considered a great achievement for me le.

okie, den the maths paper. the onli paper that i expected high marks, and okie la, i am not disappointed. 75.5%, a A grade, at least i maintain my mid-yr standard after getting 2 F grade for my common tests.

lastly my chinese. okie la, my p2, the language paper, got okie onli 107/170, with my compo 42/70, quite sad for my compo la. tot it was well-written. ya, den the lit paper, quite happy cos got 48.5/100, the best score ever. so still waiting for the oral and listening marks to be added to the p2, to make it 200. but if jus count like that, i get a C grade, 55.7%, improve by 2 grades from mid-year.

so overall, i tink i did quite okie la. everyting like better than wat i expected la. C5, A, C, O. maybe i shld jus regret that i did not put in much effort for my phy. shld i blame my b-dae? haha. tink can promote la, and i tink this time is jus luck la, realli muz put in effort in the future la.

门

好久都没打开那思索的大门
也许事情最近太多了
暂时把那道门关上
昨天湿淋淋的天气
不由得让我再次打开那道门
对世界仍然充满着疑惑、奇怪的想法
公平与不公平的一线之差
生与死、空间与时间、错乱、复杂
混乱的现实世界
人的欲望、不停地奔波追求...
一切始终没变

眼泪成诗

okie. i have to start from 10 oct. cos i tink quite a number of tings happened. or rather, i didnt work or have lessons, and oso don have normal cirriculum, so got lots of time to do a lot of tings.

firstly, monday, went out wid jy, aud, zc and yl after the last paper. so cool! they brought a b-dae cake for me and treated me to k-box, from 2 to 7. cos yl and aud didnt sing much, den we like sing till around 8 plus too, so i managed to sing every song that i wanted to sing, haha. aniwae, quite 感动, realli. big thanx again!

den, tuesday, i manage to sleep from 2 am to 2 pm, and went to class chalet. 3D 2N. quite cheap too, each paid $13, and the chalet, i tink aloha resort, quite cheap too. 1 nite $35 i tink. ya, den factilities there quite nice too. jus that it is veri deep in. den we have bbq, mahjong, poker cards. quite a lot of fun la, jus that they don gamble. mahjong they still beginners, so not much fun.

wednesday, came school for guzheng practice, den went back chalet lo, den realise yu xiang tried to make a cherry cheesecake for my b-dae, though maybe quite sweet, but still quite 感动 too. den xy oso bought a softtoy for me, garfield. ya.

thursday, went to play morning session mahjong b4 going school for guzheng. didnt win but okie la, a little like too long nv play 的感觉. lost the momentum. good or bad?

k, today, sch open hse, went sch so early la. started practicing quite early. tink everyting turn out still okie. cos tink this is the 1st performance after the j2 left. i initially tot it will turn out quite badly, but still okie la. after that, as usual, went yl hse and mahjong lo. i won, but not much la, better den nothing, so 2 days of mahjong, haha, didnt lose much.

aniwae, i was veri fed up wid the idiotic guy, who realli pissed me off. realli 虚伪lo. 通风报信，打小报告，realli shitty lo. and a lot of tings la. haiz, everyting seemed so nice tis week except him la.

tis coming sunday, going to see keyboard, den i tink my piano can sell around $1200, so tink shld be enough for a keyboard la.

k k, stopping here, aniwae, yanzi's new cd is cool!

分手伤了谁 谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗已无所谓
让你再回味 自古罪人无自罪
因为回忆总是美

分手伤了谁 谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗 一首无所谓
让你再回味 自古罪人无自罪
你的品位总是美

完美的一天

心中的大石落下了... finally ended the promos. the last paper was like hell la. cant even do anyting. so jus hope my phy mcq can anyhow score and get a "ao".

yest, my BIG dae, and maybe dat's why i don even bother to study phy, though i did badly for the p3. went out k-box, eat, den shop a lot of things, relaxing the whole day and managed to get a good sleep.

aniwae, yanzi's new album is out! 完美的一天. giving a intro of the album.

Track 1: 完美的一天
initially, tot the lyrics quite lame lei. "我要一所大房子..." but after reading through, actualli tink it reflects 都市人的渴望. i mean 谁不想要一所大房子. the song is okie i tink, jus dat like not much climax.

Track 2: 眼泪成诗
realli love this song much, those "yanzi-style" slow song. the music arrangement was like fantasic i tink, added in elements of chinese and western music. esp when yanzi sings "字不醉人人自醉", 超有feel.

Track 5: 第一天
摇滚式快歌 composed by yanzi, 五月天 and f.i.r. like the tempo, but somehow like a lot of ppl singing together. cos background vocal got faye, yanzi herself and 五月天. weird but nice combi.

Track 8: 另一张脸
quite jazz feel, a little 随便乱唱的感觉 but 就是这种感觉 make tis song like feel new and nice. got one long phase that consists of 24 words. "偏偏这张脸在我意志脆弱无奈又胡思乱想害怕时就出现" , that part realli is 乱唱的感觉.

the rest of the songs, okie la, jus that i tink 10 songs 10 styles la, so depends on one's taste too. k k, ending off by wishing myself again happie b-dae!

奇怪的他

i'm back to sch today, to finish my eom. haiz, so damn tired lo, this week realli tiring, have mac and tuition together everyday. 可怜的孩子.

aniwae, i tink my phy 完蛋了. out of the 4 questions suppose to choose 3 and end up, i don even noe how to do any questions. 有 yi liang 的遗传. haha. haiz, wanted to cheong last 2 days, but haiz, u noe. actualli initially tot p3 is 60% cos 60 marks, but jus realise it is 35.3%, that's wat my tchr told me.

receive my 1st b-dae present on tues, my friends brought me a cute cute frog, tink can hold hp and small stuff. okie, and the person is besides me and asking write how nice she was... bah bah bah... okie, den my bro buying yanzi new cd for me! haha. tink coming out in few days' times.

我今天又看到了他
看到他总觉得
同样的年龄，却拥有不同的天空
不上学、抽烟、打工、他所谓的“办事情”…
对他是充满的好奇
但却有一见如故的感觉
神秘、阴暗、奇怪？

promos.

okie, ended 3 papers. cla, maths and gp. and confirmed, my gp die le. i did a question on like "only purpose of eating is to stay alive" and think quite lame la. i tink i wrote quite terribly and worse still, i tink my aq die le. so either i fail my gp or got a 45%, sadded.

maths lei, tot it was a easy paper, jus that maybe i didnt do well. i was like last minute 1 hour b4 gp den learn my vectors la. haiz, but expecting a A aniwae. i hope la. cla, mm, actualli oso veri last minute so tot will fail. but jus nice, i managed to guess correctly about 50% of the paper. haha, so maybe i will get a D or E lo.

jus ended work, and moved house to hougang, and haiz lots of tings happened, the room is still in a mess. jus realise today was my "chinese" birthday. bought lots of tings for myself to eat. now, left my phy paper le, & i havent started yet obviously. eom too. but after p3 on tues, den got 1 week break. haha. can rest well le.

planning to work mac mid-nite shifts. cos don noe la. more time in the afternoon and evening lo. and got allowances too. after promos, still got open hse and my students' examz, so haiz, will be busy again. jus hope, pray hard my gp pass!