脑袋

mm, everybody muz be busy mug-ing or cheong-ing, while i am at dele hse blogging. k la, we did do some things. i managed to complete MI, diff, log, a little trigo and starting on ap gp tonite. 3 days left, things seem 'so near yet so far'.

these few days actualli need to settle a lot of family tings. moving hse by 30 sept and i manage to like arrange my cds. piano maybe selling and the $ will be given to me. most prob buying a keyboard for myself. b-day present? haha. wan those which can record, den i can further compose some nice nice music. of cos 舍不得 my piano, but wat to do? haiz.

wish luck jus come and help me on 29 and 30 sept, 4 and 10 oct. considered not prepared yet. but at least still got couple of hours to catch up. it's realli time for me to speed up. can say dat since o levels, havent realli cheong.

aniwae, now realli veri comfortable. somebody playing piano, den veri good la. haiz. make sure myself learn to chopin waltz by tis year.

现在是脑袋最可怜的时候了
要被逼装很多东西
不希望100%什么都懂
但希望能一切顺利...

几米

after ticking 3 items off my agenda, 4 new tasks waiting to be completed and 7 still undone. i can don sleep le. simply tired now.

aniwae, jus read one 几米 book.

几米；
像是一个奇异的望远镜，
他用了不同的眼光看这世界，
让我们看到残酷的世界、遗失的幸福…

早晨的雨

yest had a good rest at home. planning how i shld tackle the promo exams. yest nite, i talked to someone like till 4 am plus. managed to do some work in the nite however.

today so toopid, shldn't have attend the lecture, cos wat the teacher was teaching is not coming out in the promo. in the end, i spend my time completing the differentiation part I. and i am proud to see that i manage to do every example with the correct answer! (without attending any lectures) not bad rite. perhaps thks melissa ong for 把我的基础打好.

these few days, like lagi scolded by quite a number of ppl. teachers, classmates, friends; saying that i shld realli focus and chiong for my promos. ya ya, i am starting soon, perhaps this sunday. 10 days for me to chiong b4 promo starts. aniwae, i tot i have improved le however. last time, wat i do is realli last minute work, this time still okie la, though i noe many ppl started much earlier. i don want to compare, wat i wan is jus to reach my own goals. 1 realistic goal, and 1 "miracle" goal. (C6, C, D, E). (B4, A, A, A).

aniwae, still believe luck is an important aspect in exams. may luck be wid me till the end of promos.

雨蒙蒙的城市
绿意盎然的草地
轻轻的微风
今天一切显得非常美丽
呼吸；心情好久没有这么轻松了…

断了线

haiz. today suay 到... toopid, don noe wat teacher la. today actualli i am suppposed to wear a school u and a tie, not that i nv wear anyting come school. jus that yest nite my clothes all didnt wash. forgot to wash la, den have to wear pe shirt lo. den the toopid teacher kicked me out of lt4. nvm, i tot, den i happily went to com lab, and realise there is a teacher there too, who ask me go back lt4. fed up. so i jus hide in a classroom and slp. zzz. pray hard i don see the teacher again in the later part of the day.

aniwae, after that, i heard that those ppl who got caught muz surrender ezlink. den i nv, cos i was the 1st to get out, den miss me out. haha. that's a good ting. ya, den later got maths test. got 2 plus hours to study. seem a lot of time, but i have to 从零开始. i didnt attend lectures. 靠自己 le.

yest nite, jus got feeling. wrote a song in 1/2 hr. not veri good la, of cos. lyrics still 有待进步. melody tot it is still okie la. but still untitled. i can onli rmb part of it...

人生总会有转折点
不可能永远都是晴朗的天
当我迷失方向　我需要一些依靠
你的安慰让我重来一遍

风筝始终会断了线
飘向云端到达不同的境界
当我展翅高飞　我还是需要依靠
你引导我继续努力向前

平静

i skip math lecture again. mm. tink i realli shld list out the tings i need to do. chinese essay, english compre, 6 newspaper articles, my student assignment, my phy tutorials, my maths tutorials... and i realise it is a lot. aniwae, yest went mac alr like minus the number of hours working. like 4 hours go there work and have a meal for weekends la. aniwae, heard that 26, 27 and 28 don need go school. which it is good, cos like that at least got time to catch up. aniwae, if no break, i oso not coming school la.

this week will be tiring, haiz. last week didnt foresee myself will be so tired, den in charge of a large order in mac, 1000 box of 6 pieces nuggets on sat. todat going tuition at pasir ris, the new student. den maybe meeting dele to have dinner.

today manage to get to some links, and manage to burn a cd. wid kelly's 被爱的女人 and 沙滩, derrick's 了解 and may i love you. heard he sing this b4 going to ns. govt oso veri toopid, cant jus excuse him from ns 1st. realli don like this world, working under the same system over and over again with little changes... haiz.

feel like trying some 提神剂, to let myself stay awake for longer hours. aniwae, feel extremely bad, nearly forget cai's b-dae! sorrie! family stuffs, mm, trying not to care so much le. real pissed. but i will try not to rmb.

昨天家中是平静的
我就喜欢这种平静
因为最近耳朵都没得清静…

不要再说以前

finally back to school! haha. the perfect computer to blog. this week, honestly quite tiring. working so many hours, my eyes are like closing soon.

"tiny, the world is moving without you." one told me today. ya, i'm seriously behind others. realli. tink what i need is to see the importance of promo. don noe lei. though i noe i have to score for my promo, what i actualli wan is jus get to j2. 1 a, 2 ao. it's enough. got back my common tests all quite bad. maths 30%, phy 40%, gp 45%. terrible. but, haiz. not that i don have aims in life or don wan to score well, but i feel, what points getting fantastic results? haiz. still don noe myself well. maybe i am still in the dreamy world of my own.

family tings are bothering me, i hate to get involved in anyting. hate it. the more tings i noe, the more i will hate the ppl around me. sometimes realli feel, my whole family from grandmas to grandsons, all don noe how to communicate well and be understanding. cant stand these ppl. wonder why they are sent to Earth. if here is where they belong, i rather leave this place. be lost in nowhere.

k k, got lessons to attend le. stop here. today still have a long day, working from 6 to 10 pm. haiz. sianz.

他总是说：
“我以前在佛教界我帮了很多人，每个人都尊敬我…”
要让我知道我的父亲是如此伟大
她总是说：
“我以前半工半读，回到家还要煮菜、做家务…”
要让我知道我的母亲是如此能干
他们就只会提起从前
现在呢？
他们的现在却让我失去走下去的勇气、毅力…

Miss the school.

these few days, got another tuition. 170. haiz, don noe whether making the correct choice cos i will be more busy le. today 1st lesson, the mum like gave me the money for this month le. mm, ya richer now, but... i havent start on my promos. Help!

aniwae, wish to go back school to blog, cos can type chinese. haha. now, like cannot say nice nice tings. veri limited. =(

k k. gtg to work le.

Stop

yest, my chinese test was like totally cmi. tat nite i wanted to study, and in the end, i am like read one sentence sleep 5 min, and this ting continues from 12am to 5.30am. den yest oso serene b-dae, somehow, some ppl jus like play a trick or someting. but okie, not veri bad still.

aniwae, yest went j8 wid my classmates and managed to get to noe that the superstar top 4 are coming. saw jie ying there, den i am like go find the papers of the superstar to get into the place la, cos i tot they are like going to sing at least 1 dividual song. den, it's not true la. in the end they all onli sang 1 song, or 1/2 song la. feel so toopid. but okie la, i managed to be selected to be the 40 lucky draw winners to get their posters. haha, not bad sia. got to shake kelly and jun yang's hands.

obviously, i am going to attend none of the holiday lectures. today went to attend 1 course on food hygiene. mac sent me there, den quite useless la, the course. but i get paid still so nvm. tml going to open door at mac. sianz. mus veri early wake up. aniwae, attempted to dye hair wan, but turn out, erm... don noe la.

these few days, hate to go home. realli quite tired cos of the chinese test. lot of tings still not decided. sometimes see the ppl in my house, haiz. hate to be in this type of situation. i wonder how i will do in my promo cos all these tings realli quite mf. urgh... jus hope everyting stops.

Hatred

due to the limitations of this computer, i have to use everyting in english or pin yin. sadded.

this weekend jus sux. bad news. totally in a horrible mood, lots of reasons. cos of some decisions made by some ppl, lots of ppl have to suffer wid him for alr at least 4 to 5 years. b4 this month end, i have to leave that idiotic and disgusting place, to find any place to stay in. i hate that bitch. i seldom use tis word, but it's jus, everytime i reach home, it's jus hatred, anger. she made everyting seem so nice in front of ppl and backstabbing everyone. an adult's way of doing things indeed. i gave that "leave me alone" look. no one scolded me. my bro and mum felt the same way, jus that they kept it to themselves.

the taiwan trip. i gave up. i want to go, but no choice. can see that my mum realli hope to send me go there play for a week or so. and even say like give me $300 for the 1st payment. as to do someting rite i tink, i replied her in sms, "i gave up hope. on the trip and someone else..."

i shld be happie actualli. got my pay 195.55. but too many probs had to be settled. i didnt go for the walk. not that i don wan to go, but if i go, i noe i will end up venting anger on everyone there. later in few mins time' i will need to go teach tuition. my eyes are half-opened, after working 8 hours jus now. sometimes, jus feel so lost. so disappointed in the one who brings me to this world. i realli hope i didnt come here. not seeing anyting good nor bad. i hate the situation that i am in now. tml's chinese test, still lots not covered. i don noe how to continue. feel like quitting school.

i normally don hate tings for long, but this time is an exception.

同样的不同

Pissed. Angri.

of cos i am going to talk about yest's superstar show! and goodness, the results jus sux. i yest nearly like wanted to go someone's house to blog to vent my anger. i tink kelly was realli great yest. though her 爆炸头quite夸. yest her 1st song a little yanzi and indian feel, den tink it was okie and quite cool. she manage to use the whole stage la. but i tink wei lian 1st song oso quite good. for one to sing his own story, of cos will touch ppl's heart la. 2nd song, is like, halo, where got ppl sing acapella in sopranos and altos wan. cant have basses in high vocal ranges wat, of cos ppl will tink wei lian is better cos the sector was set for him to 发挥. his background vocals all good singers lo, unlike kelly, having a group of girls not as fantasic as the guys. but the effect of kelly's version still tink it's quite okie after all. 听得下去. 3rd song wid jj, of cos kelly was better than wei lian la, the wei lian like nv sing like that lo. al along like the jj singing. he jus cant get into the music. he was like stunned, lost and don noe wat to do, and this is the superstar that singapore choose. toopid. 4th song, the song by kelly, though it was for her to die. no melody line, no note, nothing impressive, but she manage to put in through again. unlike wei lian, damn pissed by his 4th song especially. singing his own story written by the judges, that song is for him and cos of some A or A flat, kaoz. jus cant hit in the rite way. everyting whole song passages all pitch problems lo. that's wat i hate. i mean, if he win, he can onli bang on his singing skills, he is at a disadvantage. if he sing well and win, i wont say a ting, but his singing yest jus sux la, but singaporeans realli hor, especially the aunties, cant stand it, still vote for him. urgh... 5th song, choosing someting u noe, shld be easy, but wei lian again pitch prob all came out. i got worried that kelly chose that song cos i noe it is a difficult one, but she reali manage to hit the notes of like high D or D sharp. jus cos of wei lian's disability, he got 感动度, but kelly still sing so emotionally and i tink her style realli is cool lo. the last song she sang, though still some pitch probs, but turn out so great, so power. so full of energy. she still 感动 ppl in her own way lo. strong vocal, powerful voice, music arrangements. i hear nothing when wei lian sings, he jus lost the click wid the music.

bottomline: hate it la. i am 100% sure plus chopped, that if the show like ppl make into mp3, and let those ppl who nv watch the show to jus listen to these mp3, i am sure they will choose kelly la. hope today's paper got ppl say the wei lian. how did he win? realli though sympathy lo. not that he cant be superstar, but at least he muz have the power and ability to sing to certain standards la. tings jus don turn for him yest, and his performance realli... even my mum says it is obvious that kelly sang better in all ways. if the last song is sang by kelly, wat a beautiful ending! realli hope kelly's cd will be out soon and waiting for her different style of music.(aniwae, still quite pissed wid Singaporeans! though i am one myself.) aniwae, lots of reports on the fans on kelly and wei lian. kelly fans enjoy themselves even other superstar was singing, even wei lian. but wei lian fans onli cheered when wei lian is on stage. "well done" huh? heard the votes was 64% to 36%. quite chiam.

aniwae, the show is still nice, cos other than kelly's beautiful performances, jun yang sang veri nice with xin hui the 屋顶, and his solo song, derrick looks quite funny, but okie la, he seemed much more confident den b4. so as jj. he realli a great singer, the live so strong, dancing and singing together is not easy. suddenly hope yanzi to improve. haha. cos tink her live still 有待加强.

k la, enough about the superstar. aniwae, yest realli damn fed up by the show la, realli. my whole family like lagi wanna 爆掉. haiz, maybe it is okie after all that he win, shows that Singaporeans are not that 无情.(this is to 安慰自己) haiz. ppl will always have different comments as to make this unexplainable world.

aniwae manage to click to kelly blog. http://www.xanga.com/noopyllek

同样的嘴；不同样的说法
同样的耳；不同样的听法
同样的心；不同样的想法
同样的人；因为有了不同样，世界才会变成这样…

人生地图

woke up quite early today. so tired lo. yest working saw jiayang and alvin, and everytime pple will ask: "why u work here? pay so little? den why u come here, don need study meh?" haiz. if don work, stay at home and rot, i wont get any money. when ppl ask this qn, i oso don realli noe how to answer, too many factors le.

now at dele hse, later going to study. ya, real studying. got chinese test nx week. today actualli got tuition wan, still tinking of whether to teach not. quite sianz. teachers' day lei. maybe i shld rest. haha.

yest month end le. so my mac pay is coming in few days' time. shld get around 170 for tis half-month la. den my tuition pay coming soon too in 1 week time! not bad, i will be rich for a period of time! though say going to stop working le, but 2 days back, still went to write the schedule for 12/9 to 18/9. 4 days as usual. aniwae, had a long chat till around 10 tat day and went home quite late after writing the schudule.

有个小孩问：
“妈妈，为什么你常常都叫我不要问为什么？”
妈妈不会回答。
人往往想法都是简单的，
但只是人生地图太复杂了...