post CTs mood. i can foresee a convoluted post coming, and so should you.
strangely, i don't feel particularly relieved. it's weird that i don't feel particularly elated when i should. maybe it was due to the rather mood spoiling "class outing", maybe it was due to the fact that i screwed up 3/4 exams (not counting GP), maybe cause there are a million other things that i have to attend to even after CTs have come and gone.
whatever the case, it feels as if things have not ended, but merely just begun.
CTs have been quite a bummer. econs was terrible as i didn't get to write what i wanted to, and i got a bit of a memory lapse when i panicked due to time shortage. math was just omg and it was freaky. i totally hate elucidation now, everyone could get compound A except me.
...why am i so stupid? sigh.
but that's that. everything can be a learning experience.
if there are some things that many people never quite get right, it's probably how to communicate, how to love others, how to learn and apply the basic tents of living life. it's such a pity that, even when we may have such brilliant minds and stunningly advanced technology, but the human essence is so sorely lacking in so many, many areas. are these things really that difficult to grasp? i wonder.
we are all broken-hearted people, that's why we can't survive on our own.
and my father was just telling me that this world we live in is far from simple. perhaps the most unfathomable thing is the human mind/emotion. he said not to trust people too much and not to tell your bestest bestest friend every secret you have. because for every thing you divulge, it can be a weapon the person can use against you if the day comes where the two of you no longer see eye to eye, or that he or she becomes tempted by some worldly desire. like what i just heard on the show, anyone can be heartless.
personally, i think no matter what, we all have to learn to protect ourselves. i don't think this necessarily means that we do not respect or trust our friends, just that we would want to keep ourselves safe and sound.
it's july already. how much more time do we have left in the hallowed halls of this institution that we so share a love-hate relationship with? indeed time and tide does wait for no man and i suppose in many many ways, time does > money. and i do need a whole lot of time now. even this 4 day weekend break seems so insignificant. time always seems most scarce when it is most needed, what a paradox.
speaking of paradoxes, life is a huge paradox in itself. like there's the saying, you learn to live when you learn to die. and when you give more, you recieve more. these are so counter intuitive but, they work somehow. what an amazing world.
(and frankly, i don't know what a paradox is defined as. sheesh.)
in an attempt to prevent this post from sounding too dead i will talk about something more interesting. haha ok so class outing (if there was even a properly defined one) was big time fail, but we made up for it with kovan peeps outing at superbowl@kovan =D and i only just found out that the building has bowling + arcade + pool + cafe. i am so happy i live at kovan now~
it really does help to pen things down. consolidates your thoughts, and stores them eternally (as long as dear blogger here does not crash, anyway).
(phew) i'm done with blabbering for today!
