behind every smile, there's always something deeper.

real cool. mr koh's helped me realise that i am some really micro person. not as in small, but as in that i tend to look at things in extreme detail and figure out every little bit. it's super interesting to analyse yourself and all these minute and otherwise normally overlooked facts about yourself. and they actually do help you in understanding how your self works. nice.

turns out he's a very grammar person just like me o.o as in, badly phrased grammar is super glaring to us and we can't help but get frustrated at it. it's like just...irritating la, bad english. sounds a little perfectionistic to me though haha.

man, and mr koh is seriously a damn damn damn good teacher. i hardly ever give compliments so this should tell you how good he really is. if i do get an A for pw i'll get him like a big fat present or something. all teachers should learn from him seriously. solid knowledge, really amiable and great at putting his point across. though sometimes its a little too abstract and you tend to get lost in his (haphazard for lack of a better word, and insanely fast) chain of thought...>.<

and i was so messed up over chapter four yesterday huh. totally spent like 2hours plus simply STARING at the paper with the notes from the mini consultation with him on wednesday morning. i guess i suck at languages and abstract things like that. well mr koh says to just give it a go and then see how it turns out, so that's just what i'm going to do =)

oh and we got through x stigma! now we're moving on to the 2nd round =D excellent. that 3k prize money is getting nearer now...XD

school life's only going to get busier, but there'll be the fun bits in it too, definitely. now, i gotta go grab a nap already. and then, its math tutorial (i don't want to get owned tomorrow by the relief teacher!). alright let's go.

it was a really good day today.
simply because i dropped by at npcc today.
ah, it's been so long without it, and now the feeling's all coming back.
wonderful. i know now for sure that i won't regret ever having made the decision to come back, no matter what people might say or think.
abit like what kangwei said today really (even though he only meant it as a joke), that the unit (and its people) are almost like my children (he meant it as pups rather >.>, its an inside joke), and i want no more than to watch them grow up and nurture them to become the best that they can be.
yea npcc.

oh and, kenneth came back to school today. welcome back! haha. heh class is a little boring without someone to take my nonsense and then throw me back some, all in the meaning of good fun =D
kaushik's really fun too. haha, apparently we have some mad inclination to start singing songs. today it was national day songs, in the library XD omg, this is what should define school life. like totally.

i feel quite good now actually. ah but, it's back to pw. gotta rush out a chapter four + edit chapter one (hopefully i can get time to PLUS do it right) + settle consultation slot with mr koh. oh and i met him for a one-on-one (hehe) consultation for my chapter four today. though i'm still a little mixed up as to some of the things that he said, i think i definitely got a clearer picture of what i should and should not do now. hmm and he mentioned that i tend to microanalyse some things too much. upon some thinking i agree. sometimes we should just look at the big picture huh. mr koh is seriously one of the best teachers around that i've seen, alongside ms sharon lim and mr tan chor kiang i would think (i'm only naming rjc teachers here for convenience, fyi), love them man.

ok, i've digressed one paragraph already. time for dinner, and then PW. and hopefully after that, some math. =/

whatever it is,
today was a good day. really.

music therapy is really good.
it just gives you a good feeling. can't put it to words though.
found a new song, insomnia. thanks kenneth haha (in a way, since you had it on your blog).

actually, i have no idea what i'm doing with my life right now. it pretty much seems like on whole mess. you know like if you just randomly start doodling on a page, at the end of maybe 30seconds that would be a pretty good representation of how i feel about my own life now. its like totally in bits everywhere, and there isn't any clear direction as to where all this is headed. or perhaps there wasn't a direction to begin with.

i always tell myself that i'm gonna do something, and in the end i hardly ever do. what the hell is wrong with me. you know, i really hate myself sometimes for blatantly piling up problems and torturing myself over possibly unnecessary things. and sometimes what is the point of even worrying or obsessing about these things. its not as if they help, and even if they do, the trade off is hardly worth it.
makes me recall what nigel said today. that relationships are like shopping. hmm. maybe.

everything happens for a reason.

maybe i'm just tired. you know when you sleep, you don't have to think about anything and just sleep. maybe that's my little escapade from all these things which are just weighing me down and leaving my breathless. its a wonder why i haven't cracked yet huh.

i don't think i can take much more of all this. i hate this.

god am i tired.
no idea what's wrong with me, i'm just tired every single day. and when i say "every" i mean every. like i'm tired now. and wanna sleep. and all that i did today was check email and then random around online. i didn't know that using eye power on the computer takes so much out of you huh.
nah think its me. maybe i have chronic sleep depravation or something. or this illness in chinese called zong he pi lao zheng. something like that. none of it's good news, to summarise. and i need to figure out how to stop this.

i feel quite empty inside. haven't had npcc for the past 4 weeks. counting this it'll be the 5th. omg. its like a chunk of me is missing, and i'm sure you'd agree that it feels really horrible when part of you just isn't there, for one reason or another. why can't they just lift the dumb ban on jc and secondary students crossing over. flus and stuff are already spreading like wildfire in both individual sides so what difference does it make if they make the 2 campuses more accessible to each other?
hmm i guess this just goes to show that sometimes we only realise the value of something when we've lost it (or in this case, had a long absence of it) huh.

and today my dad showed me some article about PSC scholarships and their interview selection process. really insightful, and i like how they're going towards choosing people based on their personality, character and values instead of really stupid things like number of CIP hours, number of leadership positions and number of enrichment programs and academic accolades that one has accumulated over the years. frankly, i don't believe that any of these things count very much in the real world. it's what you have inside you that should really make the difference, i feel.

which also brought me to really think about what i want to do in the future. i haven't actually thought very carefully or seriously about this before. and now i look at it, i don't exactly see anything distinct for me out there. of course some may say 17's too young to make a decision on these great life-changing matters, but there are those who would insist otherwise anyway.
in any case, i cast my head around and i sort of settled or at least seemed to have a slightly greater inclination towards. and thats psychology. as in seriously i like to read on how we think and all. and after reading the article today about how some of these psc interviwes have psychologists among the assessing panel, i think it's even more cool. like wow, being able to fanthom one's mind and thought process is just...wicked. and cool. so yup, MAYBE i am kinda suited for psychology, i dunno. i just hope my parents don't stick firmly to their opinion of "only doctor lawyer and all the high paying jobs out there will do". and they are saying now that they aren't forcing me to get a scholarship or anything too, because it'd really depend on what i have an interest in in future. but well, that's only what they're saying now. who knows 2 years down the road they have a huge change of mind eh. but right now, i would say it looks pretty good? so not too bad.

ok actually, i had in mind some pretty emo stuff to say >.< but you know after saying all that stuff above, i felt alot better. and alot more invigorated as well. like i've found some new life direction or something. it feels good when you've sort of figured out the next step in your life, and you really feel as if you are living your life again or something. ok silly blabbering so i shall stop.

been feeling quite bothered by quite a few things over the past weeks. academics is one, cca is one, scholarships/jobs/my future is one, and of course the thing that's been bugging me ever since the start of the year is still lurking around. like you will think about if you'r good enough, how other people totally own you upside down, how everything seems to be going against you when you want to achieve something so bad, and the 101 other reasons that make whatever you're thinking of doing seem utterly mission impossible. i dunno, is 17 supposed to be a time for a poor boy like me to start worrying and fussing about every possible thing in the world that we've never stopped once to consider before this? ugh i feel really lost.

ah well. people say things will eventually right themselves, so we might see how it turns out as time goes then. but for now, i seem to have developed an obsession with shopping. books and clothes seem to be on the top of my list. oh but my parents absolutely hate splurging so. there's a conflict of interests there huh. sounds like pw, the need to balance "economic pragmatism and conservation"...ok that was random.

oh and i actually really want a study buddy(s). someone who's quite free to stay around after lesson hours? and we can mug and stuff. some rough criteria though, he/she ought to be quite friendly with me, yet wants to mug and won't get easily carried away by talking, but yet isn't that boring that we really just mug throughout and don't interact! so demanding of me haha. yea well, we always need expectations to ensure at least some degree quality don't we. ok anyway so if you actually want to try this at all, just tell me k i'm easy =) (omg that sounded abit wrong...)

hmm, not bad leh this post overall was pretty cheery huh. at least comparatively. now, i should probably stop wasting brain power and go to sleep. even though its 10.20pm now, whatever la.

quite a long absence here huh. oh well. life is always busy.

today's pw meeting was pretty productive. we really got together to sort out the ideas for our WR parts. and actually i've always felt that this is the way to do things - coming together and looking at it, instead of "you do this you do this then by 2359 on saturday night send to me". misconceptions and stuff are not identified till its a little late, and of course it feels so distant from each other, working behind the silly block of technology known as the computer.

you know, i suddenly got this feeling that pw is ending all too fast. it's only been about 18 weeks since we first got into our pw group, and yet we're already in the midst of completing our WR, which is due in 11 days.
if you ask me it all seems much too soon. like we only just got off well (in my opinion at least) and suddenly it dawns on you that it'll end about just as abruptly as it started. which frankly, is something i will come to miss and possibly regret. my group is really great actually. these couple days have allowed me to believe that, even though i honestly had doubts about them in the past. and even if we're always suanning each other and randoming totally (mostly the girls though), it's been quite the fun experience. maybe i should seize the chance and make every OP rehearsal a rehearse + playeat session. its after promos and i heard they're specially cancelling lessons for rehearsal (about 1-2weeks), so yup sounds good. =)

i think i'm rather glad that i got the chance to be the group leader of this group. its not everyday that you get to lead a group for so many months, and definitely not everyday that you come across a group as awesome as this. since you know just one person who you can't get along with is enough to spoil things.
though there are some bad sides to being the leader. among them, getting bullied (as in the always get suanned and stuff for being the work delegator kind), having to face direct confrontations with teachers if anything goes amiss, and the extra responsibility to ensure the group is moving in the right direction have all not been easy to cope with. nah, i don't actually think that a proper leader has an easy time at all. sure he can possibly enjoy the process because he loves the people and the task, but even so the extra things that he or she has to weigh on his shoulders shouldn't be underestimated. but well, pressure does help one to succeed and surpass one's expectation of oneself, as time has proved so for my case. ok i think my thoughts are getting really convoluted so to put it simply, it's been hard being leader but, i appreciate the job!

apparently i haven't really been keeping my promises where academics are concerned. i'm pretty much still lagging behind in tutorials, not understanding the notes and concepts enough, bla bla. and it only gets more scary when you think that, less than 10 weeks from now, promos will come and go. if you think about it carefully, it's a REALLY short time. especially when you factor in the time spent on cca, pw and whatever other stuff you have in your life. and you don't have a june holidays to save you either. what's gonna happen? to be honest i shuddered slightly at the thought. h3 and scholarships and stuff really depend on this promos, so i can't afford to screwup at all.
speaking of which, chinese o levels are coming up too. i seriously have no confidence for this. its so difficult to keep the determination to do chinese, and even though i love to speak in chinese (though few others do so i lack sparring partners), it doesn't seem enough. if i screw this up again i will really hate myself, but at the same time i have the uncanny feeling that history will repeat itself and i will just be tossing 50bucks into the sea, along with all the time that i spent sitting in chinese class and doing chinese homework. damn, can the world just stop being so concerned with whether you're getting an A or B or C. start looking at real world capabilities and interpersonal skills already.
hmph, and people aren't really gonna becoming very much closer as the promos draw nearer. because then people will get so caught up in mugging and no one will really want to just sit around in the canteen to talk and random in the afternoons. which is quite a sad thought really. and this is gonna continue for like next year too, where almost all the time j2s are facing big tests. my god, why is jc life so sad.

hmm. something to note for myself i guess; yitian and kejia say that my intonation when speaking sometimes is weird and even difficult to comprehend. and that sometimes i sort of mumble (omg nooo). ugh. but well, i'd rather they let me know, since then i can actually do something about it. positive criticism if you will huh. oh and by the way, if any of you out there DO share similar thoughts you could just let me know via msn or something too. would appreciate (as long as they are SINCERE comments that is. not something that you tell me just because you were too bo liao on msn)

went to heartland mall yesterday since i was feeling bored XD and saw this really cool book so i bought it. its called "blink". well i shan't bother to elaborate (if you are really THAT interested to know you could always ask me about it personally), but it's been a interesting and fulfilling read (even though i've only gone through around 20 pages). wow, i'm surprised i can even say that "i read". i mean like i dont like fiction and generally have a phobia of books to some extent since most of them are so boring. i remember i only read books on animals and scientific life and stuff. and i have really weird (not to mention random) genre tastes. bleh whatever.

i think i've got hooked on a little to ending off my posts with songs, so here is one =) ah, how well it describes what i've felt.


如果把你的眼神默背好

就可以无视寂寞的悬崖
我想，我不会像现在这么糟
如果把走过的路都记牢

就可以面对断线的依靠
至少，孤单不用如此的骄傲
不止热雨的微笑

增加跟脑海的湿掉
抓不紧，也放不掉
未来的某个街角是否转身就找得到

爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到
只要你觉得快乐就好
梦会温热眼角，让回忆像水草般缠绕
却总能让人勇敢不笑

爱是一种需要，聚散却没办法预料
只能在心里做个记号
直到哪天遇到，还会是同样的味道
下雨也好驱风也好 心想着就能不会难熬

friends.

i just thought about this topic suddenly and had a urge to say something about it, so here it is.

i think i don't have to elaboarate on what "friends" refer to. they're known for being able to share your laughter, joy, sorrow, tears and whatnot, and it's pretty much true for anyone out there.

but sometimes, i think i set very high expectations for my friends. by this i mean true friends, whom i can talk freely to about anything and everything. i hate people who are dishonest, superficial, fake, saying one thing but meaning another, show-off, materialistic, overly concerned with appearance, irritating, the list goes on. but i'm really no angel myself, so who am i to say that all these things necessarily make someone an undesirable friend? well, maybe personally it would be alright, but i can't really judge similary for another person. different people have different perspectives, and they may be able to see another side of the person that i can't. and i'd just have to accept it!

but we should treasure what few true close friends that we have. i'm really glad to have met some of these awesome people over the past few years, and somehow, you find that in times of difficulty and uncertainty, you fall back on your old friends.
i remember that i read in one issue of RINSPIRE last year that when people go to RJC, initially many will go all out to make friends (usually of the opposite gender). but slowly though surely, we'd start to go back to our original circle of friends anyway. because those are the ones who've truely been there for you, who know you through and through, and will not mind lending a ear after school or over msn to just let you vomit out all your deepest thoughts. and they are the ones who're really concerned, who you would still keep in touch with over msn (since it's really impossible to talk to everyone in your contact list like once every few days, unless you are that free and can stay online for 10hours a day), who you would stop and talk to for quite a while yet over lunch, and maybe even just go out and chill somewhere if you happen to bump into each other after lessons.
now that's what i call real friendship. it's not the needless act of coming together after school to hang out and do something crazy (although close friends can do that too, but this is hardly all to it), or just money and presents, or just the endless teasing and joking and crapping. it's much, much more.
to that end, i really hope that i can be as great a friend as i envision myself to be. it's really hard to be a good friend (contrary to popular belief), and i think i've realised for myself that sometimes i'm just not being sensitive or concerned enough. i've neglected to care for some of those that i really do care for over the months as well. i don't want to realise the loss only when our ties, possibly already strained, finally break off entirely and we no longer even say the simplest "hi" to each other when we meet along the corridor or somewhere in the school grounds. it's a really really sad thing to happen, not only because these friendship ties, once broken, are very hard to rejoin, but also that you were fully able to do something about it but didn't, and left it to its own devices eventually ending up in breakup. all those things about being in different classes, different ccas, different schools, busy schedules, no time, too tired even; leading different lives to sum it up, are excuses. if you are really as good friends as you claim, these things will never stop you from keeping those ties as strong as ever if not stronger than ever.
at this point i recall what eugene had sent me via sms a few weeks back, and i think it's really really meaningful.

Friendship.
How does it break?
Both friends will think the other is busy and will not contact each other thinking it might be disturbing to the other party. As time passes, both friends will think "let the other one contact me first..."
After some time, each will think "why should i contact first?"
Finally, the memory becomes weak due to the lack of contact.
And we forget each other.

I don't want our friendship to end this way, which is why I'm sending this to say, friendships are like gold. Without polishing, it becomes dull. Whereas if you take care of it, it'll shine like the brightest star =)
Send this to all your friends you treasure and love, including me if I'm one of them to convey this message: I love you, keep in touch!

it may be a very simple, very plain sms, but i think that just makes it all the more sincere and one can really feel the stirring in his or her heart. the kind of guilt maybe, that surfaces because you realise that that's what you've been doing all this while, to some of the friends that you never really wanted to neglect but yet still did it all the same. maintaining a friendship isn't just about asking "how are you" or just planning group outings and then having a fun time every blue moon or something. it's the little things in your everyday life and activities and the little things that you do to show your care and concern that make friendship what it is in the first place.

i really hope that at the end of my jc life, i'd done all that i can to make the lives of those around me whom i treasure dearly and sincerely better, even if just a bit better. and if you out there have read until here, do make a start and be more concerned about those around you. we definitely don't want the phrase "we only realise what we cherish the most when we lose them" to come true here. let us all do what we can, share what we know, be there whenever we can, because they are our friends.
and because friendship is just about giving unconditionally.
(and i do feel so much better letting this out of my chest now)

真的不够时间。

我虽然有那么多的事情想要去做，但就是时间不足。难怪人说，时间是残酷的。有时，被它夺走了无数的机会和时光，都还不知觉。

现在已是第三学期的第二周末了。我很想给自己立下一些这下半年的目标；这或许是晚了一点，不过迟到总好过没到吧。

第一，要对学习负责，认真。前半年的确是“混”过去的，我连自己都不清楚自己在干什么。而这一点，也被我年中考式的成绩给证明了。虽说目前还算合理的成绩，不过在心里我很清楚，这些都只不过是偶然，是幸运，侥幸，而并不是靠什么真功夫或本事得来的。何况只不过是刚刚取得那成绩范围罢了， 要是因为仅仅一次的幸运而自以为是，结果就是骄傲和最终的失败。这滋味，很不好受，我尝过也不止一次了。如果不从中学习，最后怨天尤人也无济于事。因为，是我咎由自取的。（哇用了好多成语喔。。）没错，所以我一定要好好地认真起来，最起码的就是把每天的功课乖乖完成。无聊的事情，像MSN等等等，也要逐渐减少了。

第二，我要为我的课外活动尽全力。曾读/听说过，如果一个人对某件事拥有热诚和兴趣，他不会介意为了它作出牺牲，做一些不在你责任范围内的东西，就只是为了要让这课外活动变得更好。我能肯定，是这个课外活动的每一个人，让它在我心里留下一个深深的印象。我有多想让他们进步，成长，看着他们学会怎么待人处世，更重要的，怎么做人。他们最后是否会记得我的教诲，记得我的痛骂，记得我的苦心，甚至记得我的一时存在，这些都是再次的东西。他们若都能吸取教训，懂得做个通情达理的人，追求着自己的真正喜好，这也就够了。我想这也是为什么，我那么喜欢给他们劝告，帮助他们发现自己。
而我也真得不想有任何后悔。区区的两年，说长不长，说短不短。转眼间或许这一切便会告个段落了。到那时，当我回味高中这两年的时间，我又会记得些什么呢？我不想发现我浪费了那么多机会，而却无法挽回那失去的时间。就算别人看不起或不明白我为什么要为像NPCC一样的课外活动那么拼命，那么执著，我仍然会继续，因为我十分珍惜它所教会我的人生道理。我感觉自己似乎得到了什么使命似的，要把这么棒的课外活动发扬光大（有点太夸张了点），让所有经过这个课外活动的大门的人，都意识到它所隐藏住的伟大。

第三，我要做个更好的朋友。这几个星期让我发现到，其实我并没有自己想象中那么的体贴，贴心，也不太会顾虑到朋友的感受。实在感到蛮伤心的。不过我是真的要让朋友们知道，我永远都会在你们身旁默默支持你们，而你随时需要一个人倾诉心事的话，不妨来找我！最少，我能当个听众，陪你度过这些困难的岁月。对，这几年对一个青少年来说，可说是最困难的。无论是学业，课外活动，友情，感情，人生，都会遇到种种意想不到的波折。所以，请知道我随时奉陪！而我也会时时记住说话要谨慎，待人要以他们的感受为先。

哈哈，以上的东西似乎太过感情化了。没办法，有时就是心里有结，说出来了不知为什么就是会觉得舒服一些。而我还是用华文的耶。。。不错吧。=）
好好，我该停了。功课又在呼唤着我了，该是回应它的时候。

one more post about "updates on my life" before i go back to chinese mode =)

let's see, last time we ended off with entre chalet i think. so after that, youth day holiday, had a movie outing with some classmates! watched ice age 3 =) well, not much to take away from this movie learning points-wise, but it was great for the funny factor nevertheless. oh well, i don't want to go into a probably boring analysis or description of the movie here, but you out there should go watch it if you haven't! my recommendation haha.

we had suki sushi buffet afterwards =D 23 bucks wor, super ex. and we sat there for 2 hours, chowing down on sushi and all the other stuff the restaurant could come up with. apparently i'm quite suck at making the best out of a buffet meal; i get full too easily >.> but hey whatever, as long as i'm satisfied isn't it?

we got out of suki sushi at 4pm. most of them decided to go walk around orchard and see what they could do there, while renhao and me went on to the mrt. he was going home and i was going for pool! =D yay what a busy man i am hehe.

pool was at bugis, with shude and shaun. now this was my first time trying my hands at pool so naturally i was super noob and did super stupid stunts. i think the 2 of them would know, i could probably be crowned jumpshot king. and those videos had better not be seen on youtube ah...if not you guys are gonna get it bad from me man. just keep it to yourselves, and laugh it off when you're stressed/bored if you want k.

then it's back to school! bleh the boring lessons all over again. plus h1n1 has made it so that there're no ccas, which really sucks! no entre no npcc omg. i feel empty inside, coming to school with the only positive thought of meeting my friends. and that's all! ccas really do make up a large part of my life...and we always realise these things only when we start to lose them huh.

oh oh, today pe elective allocations were out. I GOT YOGA OMG. i regret ever putting that 6th/7th choice now...but ohwell. who knows, it COULD be fun...just could.

ah ok, i'm itching to start that chinese post now, so that's all for this one =)

going to update in english this time, pardon me =/ shall change to chinese when i feel like it! maybe like one of those super emo moments, or something...

yup this is quite overdue, but anyway, CTs are over!! *celebrates* haha. 4-day post CT weekend was really quite an enjoyment.

eh wait! before that must talk about CTs first...=)
econs, as said previously, went boom. so shan't repeat what i already said. maybe a C would suffice?
chem, although most people said it was bad, i felt it was ok! i admit that 11 marks flew away cause i didn't know how to do them (WHOLE OF QUESTION 3C OMG) but in any case, a B should be alright...hopefully A though. but that's pretty uncertain.
math, went well! much better than expected. A please!
physics, was challenging but do-able. was glad that dynamics 2 hardly came out! heng man, that was the topic which i was like "OMG..." yup, would be happy with a B! though i wouldn't complain if i got A XD

ok then. after physics on thursday (some of) our class went to celebrate! 14 of us to exact i think. lunch at pizza hut =) had alot of fun talking and bullcrapping haha...after that was supposed to be a movie, but there was some dissent among the people! then it got called off =( bleh. then there was x-stigma meeting, apparently we spent quite alot of it talking about random stuff. hmph and my handphone randomly locked me out! security code screwed up somehow. was damn scared the whole afternoon/night la. then when i wanted to call home on a public phone and did one last check on my phone it worked >.> 有惊无险 huh.

then yesterday was entre chalet! ok actually today too but i had to leave yesterday night since my mother wanted me home! say i slack too much bleh. but nevermind about that. talk about chalet!
ok met victor at white sands shopping mall first. ate at superdog XD (inside joke) but seriously the fries were good! some cheese + beef sauce. awesome (but so damn sinful huh)
then we got lost on the way there >.> ok, finally reached the chalet! (lol fast forward la ok) it was a little sian, people were just randoming/playing cards and not doing very much. so ended up me evan and bojian played daidi for awhile...haha think i'm getting better at it yay.

after that, we went white sands' new york for lunch! ate a couple hours before that already so just ordered dessert. full of cream, super sinful zzz. but it was nice =)
then after that sharon got this crazy (though looking back not so crazy) idea: guys and girls sit one row each, then we have 2minutes to interact with the person of the opposite gender sitting opposite us, then after that guys move, so that eventually each guy talks to each girl. haha, i had the feeling that it was like matchmaking for some reason. but but but, i had lots of fun! i think i can safely say that i'm getting better at interacting with girls =D (people DONT think the wrong way...i am not flirting left right center thank you) hai, i so wanted to do that a 2nd round you know...i think i just like talking to people!

oh. and someone please tell me why i am always getting accused of flirting with girls! first YES then now entre chalet omg. just interact abit more then kena accused liao huh. the world is an unfair and ridiculous place. =( (by the way if you didn't get all that, i'm trying to say that I AM NOT A FLIRT. yes i am not)

hmm, after that went to escape theme park since evan/abhi had free tickets thanks to them winning YES! so the guys went ETP while girls went cycling. haha, had quite a few scares (i'm scared of heights fine i admit you happy now) on rides like the viking (you can feel your damn ass leaving the seat zomg). but daytona go kart was fun! driving worx. but i'm some noob beginner...and one thing, the waiting time is crazy. 1 hour for a 5min ride?

after that was barbeque! whee. ok apparently i really suck at cooking. had alot of screw ups huhu...i need to take a module on home economics man. learn from evan, the successful satay man to be in 10 years time! XD oh but sadly i had to leave at like 10+. hehe took cab home. 9.80 =/ (i had expected around 15)

yup! so that was it. well, i had fun and made some new friends, so it was great! and tomorrow's gonna be even better. mini class outing (fine actually it's just 5-7 people) consisting of movie buffet lunch card games and randoming whatnot, plus npcc outing of pool and drinks and stuff (i'm skipping the movie since well, there's already the class one! =p). yup so gonna be lots more fun tomorrow, hope photos will be taken and put up on facebook! cherish the memories haha.

will probably throw up another post soon (in chinese this time hahaha), to talk about more serious stuff? =/ till then...