back with a post! *cough* long post by the way (as always since like recently...), reader be prepared. or you can just stop reading halfway la, up to you.
firstly, i got some (not so pleasant) news that this place's existence has been made aware to a quite a few people in my class >.< must have been because i had put up the url on my msn nick...omg. now you see the true power of media.
just a note, do leave a tag or something to show you've been here, haha would appreciate. but if you dont want to its ok too...democracy blah blah.
i'm not sure what kind of effect this may have on me or the kind of things i write, but i think, as long as i write fairly, dont flame insult or defame anyone, and keep the morality there and all, i dont see why i should change anything just because more people are reading this. this place should and will stay the same.
wait firstly, some people might realise that my blog music is a little screwed. 30 seconds only argh. blame it on the new imeem policy thing. if anyone knows of any good sites to host and stream music pls tell me! i want my song up full and proper. but for now, no fret to all you out there, if you want to hear the song badly, you should find one link on the player there saying "listen to full song here" =)
shall start with abit about my mundane life first haha...today was nothing much, but was happy due to one thing...but got unhappy due to the next. ok enough gibberish. went with renhao to school library after school today to mug, in total spent 2 hours completing physics practical (which was really only 2-3 short answer questions), plus starting on maths sampling assignment (did about 8 questions, mostly had to ask renhao for help). gosh i'm really dying for maths, dont know sampling dont know hypothesis testing dont know correlation and regression. i need remedial badly.
haha just feel like dedicating a few lines to thank renhao. primary school classmate, had the good fortune to land in the same jc class as you! thanks for all the times that you've helped me yea...even if it wasnt alot nor super significant, i appreciate it, those times you've helped me with PI, math, etc...and i hope you've learnt a little something from me too =)
been going home late in the evening/night often recently. not sure why, but i feel that theres something terribly wrong or sinful with going home at like 3/4plus. feels like you didnt do anything, and gives me the sudden sense of loss of direction and all that. thats why on tuesdays and fridays (my free afternoons so far, fridays will soon be gone from the list waa) i like to stayback in school to mug, or just hang around with friends/classmates. one thing is the friends of course. other thing is...duno, maybe i just feel abit attached to the school environment? >.<
and i wanna just point out that i quite like the view from the school library on the first floor; you know the one where you can see the circle line station? yea that. i just like the entire view there; dont bother getting me to justify why because i wont be able to do so convincingly.
oh and i need a study buddy(s)! okay that just rhymed; didnt mean it but nvm its cool. need someone who can accompany me (without grunting and whining and hesitating hopefully) to school or just some conducive place to mug for the whole day and we could help each other with questions or concepts. that would be totally perfect. i cant mug by myself at home, there're too many distractions. but the type of buddy that you get is (and i stress this) very, very important. you need someone who is serious about work too, and would not move off to gossip or things every 5 seconds (hopefully i'm not guilty of that myself huh). "you" would be great...but i'm being abit ambitious/overly hopeful here; there are other friends whom i wouldnt mind as mugging partners. anyone reading till here and is interested already? o.o contact me!
was reflecting on how we're all given many chances (by god, fate, destiny or chance if you must name one) in life. but one very important point is that chances do not neccessitate success. rather, they just give you the stepping stone to do so. how you walk your path is another thing altogether. the chance is given, we do what we want with it. chuck it aside, or take it up all the way, we call the shots.
personally, there're many examples i can cite.
i was given the chance to become a CI. and trust me this was a very lucky chance indeed; i'm not sure how many people recognise the risk or potential loss i have come so close to in losing it. but nevertheless, how successful i am as a CI really depends on my own efforts and will.
given the chance to come to RI/RJ. looking at how i'm doing right now, i cant really envision myself getting straight As, or even four As for that matter. it doesnt mean that you're in RJ, it means that you're pretty much assured perfect score. there's never such a thing.
its one of the most difficult things to ensure you keep going up and stay there till the end, but the most easy thing to slip and take a fall all the way down. i seem to be doing abysmally now and i cant be sure about how i will turn out in the future at all.
and lastly, that. i'm not going to elaborate on this if you tell me to most likely (unless i have a super good reason to), but lets just say that when fate shows you the signals, it doesnt mean anything definite. just that theres the likelihood and a larger affinity present, and its up to you to cherish it and make it work out eventually. if you dont and it slips you by, well, tough luck.
and npcc isnt going all that well either. many of my plans have met with restrictions from the teacher in charge, but can i blame him really? we all have our interests for the unit so how can i be so sure that i am definitely right? and indeed, if i cant even come up with properly structured and clear proposals, how can i expect the teacher to trust that it will work out? if me myself cant even spell it out properly, can i expect others to see it the way i do? and how sure will this plan be of success? the various comments, feedback, even reprimands, they're all right and for good reason; i do have much much more to learn as a CI, or even just as a person.
but i do hope that at least, at the end of it all, i'll be able to look back and say "man, i really treasure those things that i had done for the unit" or something along those lines. and even pay visits back to RINPCC when i'm in uni (NUS hopefully?), doesnt really matter if i become a HO or not. i'd have left an impression on rinpcc and a vault full of memories to treasure down the road. as long as the unit benefits, leaders are groomed well and cadets come out feeling never more enthusiastic about the cca than they had before when they were in the cca. of course, i wont deny that it will be extremely fulfilling and nice and emo for me if people were to appreciate me for my efforts and perhaps even do something special for me, but well, thats secondary really.
lets move on to something cool now!
heres how the story goes...basically one day i was bored (as usual), so i decided to surf online about my horoscope and stuffs, and heres what i uncovered. should be a promisingly interesting read for all...basically, almost everything that you find there is accurate about me. at least 90%, like seriously. i have no idea why its so damn accurate, or just that the horoscope thing really works. either way, good way for you out there to get an insight into who/what/how i am. i wont really bother to comment since well, its troublesome (not to mention messy) to insert in chunks of my comments here and there. ask me if you want to know anything haha. but whether i tell you is another thing.
and guess i shall just end off with this =)
Qualities and Characteristics
Pisceans have a tendency to get pulled in two opposite directions. This inhibits their decision taking capability. They are quite open-minded towards their work and personal life, and demonstrate an immaculate insight and vision in material, technical and spiritual aspects.
You have a particular artistic sophistication, which means that you have creativity with a polished edge. Your special characteristic is your love for beautiful things in life, and also a particular day-dreaming and inconsistent trait. You are too soft hearted and willingly help anyone in distress; this might also lead to problems to you because of your inability to say ‘no’. Even with the introspective and intuitive edge, you are moody and restless at times.
Some depressions and dissatisfactions might lead you to pity yourself and escape from the distresses in life through drug addiction or drinking. You have a great inner strength, you only need to exhume it. You share your resources with others, even money, and think that others should do the same. The boundaries of possession are sometimes invisible or altogether meaningless to Pisceans, thus turning some into forgers and embezzlers.
Qualities that make you lucky are caring, progressive, benevolent, and imaginative. Qualities that hinder your success are undecided, casual, not practical, and easygoing.
Personality
Pisceans are characterised by their emotional depth. They have such a vast reservoir of positive creative energy that they don’t even come close to realizing their true potential. They are too modest to admit their talent, and often underestimate themselves. No one has the ability to express true human emotions such as happiness, love, anger and forgiveness in his art as much as the Piscean. So he/she no doubt has talent, but there is a tremendous need for encouragement. Pisceans give their friends unconditional support when needed. They believe in the notion that a friend in need is a friend indeed. But this works both ways. They also need to be understood and helped when in need.
Pisceans are also susceptible to developing habits and then acting as if they will show themselves out. Eventually, it becomes so late that things go out of control, and the habits take a heavy toll on their personal and professional lives. Again, it is almost impossible for the Piscean to get out of such a quicksand and restore normalcy in life without the support and affection of close and loved ones. Friends and family might find this a little difficult than they might think because Pisceans tend to be a little deceptive, thinking that it is for everyone’s good. So the picture I paint is not a very rosy one - it would seem that it’s hard for the Piscean to even live normally without help. But it’s not like that. Pisceans have so much stuffed up inside them that it is hard for them to stay balanced. That’s the only reason why they need help.
In love, Pisceans fall very easily and quickly, but tend to make mistakes. And sometimes, the result is the worst. Thus, they can be summed up in one word - passionate - in life, in work, in love and everything else. Their kind and gentle side sprouts from this very passion.
Friendship
If you are a piscean, you will be a friend cherished and loved by all your friends. Not only are you ready to put a great deal of energy and time into the friendship, but you are also ready to listen and give a shoulder to cry on to your friends. You are always willing to make sacrifices for the sake of your friends. You make their problems your problems. So the good friends will appreciate all you do, and reciprocate in full measure, but there will always be the other ones looking out and trying to take advantage. And unfortunately, you are one of the gullible kind - you find it really hard to make out the honest kind of friends from the opportunists.
Now there is this creative and artistic side of yours we talked about. This means that you like being encouraged by your friends. This works the other way around too - you find it easier to make friends with those who can take interest and sympathise with your interests, emotions and impulses. All and all, you naturally are inclined to get closer to someone who is one the same ground as you. In the whole broader picture, you are helping yourself gain in confidence and achieve whatever it is you want in life. There is the negative side to this too - you need friends who have interests similar to yours. So they might sometimes tend to feign interest in things that they couldn’t care less about - this might lead to awkward or heartbreaking moments.
Pisces, however need to make a conscious effort to get their personal life straight. You tend to be late on appointments, and then appear flustered and embarrased when you arrive. You are of course an excellent friend, one to be treasured, but your mistakes may get a little too irritating for your friends for them to be able to forgive you. A little discipline here would not go amiss. You are a great friend, but you also need to make it easy for your friends to go along with you
Love and Romance
In this matter, Pisces are ruled by instinct and emotion. Pisces are not one to sit in a judge’s chair and think about the partner-to-be objectively - you are too romantic for that. What you do is rush straight into it, and think later. Ill advised, but when it comes to love, there is no bound to your emotions, you just cannot control yourself. This impulsive nature is greatly loved by all those you couple with, at least as long as the two of you are together. And this is how it works - when you are young, you have all the impulse and verve in the whole world and ‘leap before you look’ would seem to be the motto of your love life; but as life goes on, with all the cuts and bruises you have suffered in the name of love, you will learn to be cautious.
This issue eclipses all others in relationship matters for you. And the answer to this problem is simple - try to think practically. I know it’s hard for you, so whenever you feel a strong impulse, just count to ten - relax! When the situation tends to get a little too hot to handle and it feels like all that talk about self restrain is just not working for you, try to let go of it - take a time out. This is not the same as running away from your demons. Time has a way of clearing the mist and removing the cobwebs. When you are not in the proximity of your ‘lover’, you will be free from blinding emotions, and be able to think clearly about your coherence with him/her, and if it has a future.
Now, if you end up with the wrong person, it will be difficult for you to realize that in time and make amends. But why should you end up with the wrong guy/gal? An important factor here is your too-good nature. You are willing to go to any level, and make any sacrifice in order to make the relationship work. This attitude might attract many a people who are not really worthy of .. you! So there are quite a lot many things you need to learn, I’m afraid, the hard way. Good luck! want more? haha.
http://astrological-sun-signs.suite101.com/article.cfm/pisces_personality_profile
you mean more than what the whole world does to me. just one word and i'll go all the way. just for you.
