MUHAHAHAH....

SO apologise...with a CAKE!! From velentino!! hahaa..so my hatred and anger melts away ... hehe...

can't wait to eat the cake.. but i at office.. =(

lalala... my 'don't be angry' cake ..yummy.. haha...

I was in a dilemma of 'to buy' or 'not to buy' a new HP... Dad gave me $300 to buy a new hp as he know that my hp isn't working well.. I am also keen to get one.. but after going through the tedious process of selecting the handphone (with precious advise from Shennie), i decided not to buy. I am tired of making decision. So i returned the $300 to my dad and told him i will wait.

The fact is, i feel so broke. I am in fact, very broke in my financial terms, yet, I change hp? it doesn't make any sense. So i decided to clear off my debts first before owning one hp.

Started my tutorial class today.. FMGT wasn't gd. I was lost actually.. i mean, i am SLOW. But tutor is fast and kept on giving me eye contact so i need to pretend n nod my head....
Feel so lonely.. i am missing the 'big group' enthusiastic.. the 'chit chatty-ness' of my friends.
Project group with my new friends.... they look cool.. but I hope to get over and done with it asap...as its FMGT project...

I feel that i've got no one to talk to..not even my bf. He only got ' games, sleep, eat, QQ ' in his world. I am really tired of arguing and getting angry with him. "hopeless' opps in my head when he always don't listen to me.. ask me to repeat what i've JUST SAID. I repeat: JUST SAID. ALL because he wasn't paying attention listening to me on the phone...Whats the purpose of talking on the phone then? I really don't understand. ..

I had enough. U WEREN'T LISTENING TO ME ALWAYS!
YOU FORGET THE THINGS I TELL YOU A MINUTE AGO!
YOU ARE ALWAYS IN YOUR OWN LALA LAND. I HATE YOU!!!!!

YOU ALWAYS SAY 'SORRY' BUT DO YOU KNOW THAT IT DOESN'T HELP?
I AM REEEEEEEEEEALLLLLLLY TIREEEEEEEEDDDDDDD OF TALKING TO YOU ON THE PHONE N REPEATING TO YOU WHAT I'VE SAID. THE MOST FRUSTRATING MATTER IS THAT YOU'VE AWALYS LIKE TO APOLOGISE BUT, WITHOUT MY FORGIVENESS, YOU KEPT QUIET AND CONTINUE TO BE IN YOUR LALA LAND UNTIL I SAY I WANNA HANG UP THE PHONE AND YOU SAID OK! I THOUGHT YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO APOLOGISE?!!

Michael Buble - Everything

song that I'm in love with!

ytd So bought Secret Soundtrack for me! so happy.. all the songs all very nice.. if only i can play piano.. haiz..
the melody "路小雨" makes me remember how fortunate it is for me to have someone who I love and love me by my side... whereas she wasn't as fortunate as me... and "腳踏車"gives me a feeling of sweet love.. when love is still at the 甜蜜階段.. i missed those days with SO... I love listening to the whole album from right beginning to the end.. so many images in my head.. and I just love the flow of those thoughts... During the 1st time when i listen the CD at his place, alot of thoughts of me n him appeared and images of us were there, seems like just yesterday.... i missed those days.. do you? do you feel the same? I don't think so.. cuz u seems not to have any expression when i play the CD... i was enjoying through the music but i am not sure if you did... I only know u enjoyed when it was the last song.. 不能說的秘密.. ya.. u sang along with Jay.. i was kinda -_- cuz it seems like u responded to only that song. Well, nvm.... just hope that one day, we will listen to the same kind of songs and have same fantasy or images flowing through our mind together..

its so difficult to plan a party with the following factors:
- communication break down with my mum.
- more relatives and mum's friends then my friends wil be turning up.
- difficult to invite my friends there, seems like all of them have their own life and things to do... kinda dissapointed actually.

All my party decorations n fun items are purchased. just went to ntuc to buy beer, red wine, hotdogs and some stuff for the bbq.

ALot of my ideas of the bbq were rejected by my mum. watever i says is a NO. and watever my relatives say is a YES. watever i planned for her is always not the way she wanted. totally a communication breakdown!!

The urge to wed seems to be growing stronger everyday. My eyes couldn't leave the display windows of those beautiful jewellery shops... did you notice that? You didn't. After one look at the windows, i quickly turn to you, you were just holding my hand, ushering me to move forward. Do you feel what i felt? ......No........... It wasn't time yet, or, will our time come? I was uncertain, so do you. I know and understand ur explanation, but i just couldn't help to take another look of the wonderful creation of the bands and imagine....

The exciting atmosphere of the party is dying off... nothing seems to help bring back that sense of excitment to make it happen. Problems seems to be surfacing more frequent than i thought with arguments along the way. .. I am tired, I need help, I need you... but, you weren't there now.... all i had (and having) was friends and sis..... but, thats enough, for i shall always be grateful that someone ( no matter who ) is there to help me through...

我從來都冇有式過用cantonese來寫blog,唔知點解現在的我，想用cantonese嚟寫d嘢俾你睇。。

一個禮拜有7日，
7日裏面我哋有6日是見面ge
唔知係唔係見面見多咗，我覺得你對我ge feel 唔係以前d感覺..
又或者係我Lum多咗。。

我好希望廰日見到你，果d feel 會係唔同ge.

伊加我就已經好辛苦ge type咗gum 多嘢。我lum 你有可能已經邊睇邊笑緊，
希望可以博取你一笑。 =）

I am tired.

Tired of what? I don't know.

Exams over!! =)

Finally can relax! and Sept is comin..lalala.. ^_^

TOday was doing some invitation thingy and flipping through my whole stack of photos. and i found a pic of SO and me.. it was the 1st pic we taken at his place.. and, my SO is SO SO SO handsome!!

Of cuz he is still handsome now! But, he look more stylish with his hairstyle back then. =)

I am so glad that I am his GF! hahaha.. i know i am abit crazy right now.. but, it doesn't matter.. Geez. I wonder if he continue to dance, what or how he will look like now? Felt so guilty that he stop dancing cuz of me...

Yesterday done badly for the paper. Very risky.. think will fail.. Now working hard on my Paper tmr... hopefully history won't repeat itself.

Went to watch fireworks with SO yesterday at MS... super super crowded. Hmm, it wasn't as perfect as i thought it would be...If only we were down by the esplanade, the view would be better. Never mind, I've enjoyed it! =)

Feeling dreadful now remembering all the employment acts, Industrial relations acts blah blah... imagine lawyers need to know the law by hard to take examinations? It's a torture!

Going back on track to my studies now... May luck be with me tomorrow...

Started to revise my AAA just now.. very very boring... i hate it when it comes to final sem test... have to revise right from the top.. -_-! Exams are starting this weekend... it is one paper after another straight... very tiring.

Currently i have a few ambitions/hope: I hope to acquire driving liscense next year ... I wanna set up my own HR company in the future hopefully with SO's expertise as well... I hope SO will not go back to HK after NS , leaving me alone here in SG... I wanna lose weight but still able to eat donuts! Haha... I am crazy over Donut Factory no matter what.. with their soft and fluffy donut.. yummy! No way i'm gonna resist them!! Hehe... Alright, continuation of my hopes and ambition... hmm.. I hope to get some surprise someday by SO... good surprises..not bad surprises.!! Is that alot that i've hoped for? haha.. i don't think so right? Its always good to have hopes ahead in life isn't it? =p

Went to watch {Secret} with SO just now...It was directed by Jay Chou.. it was more than what i expected actually. It is really a very very nice show... its been quite sometime ever since i've watched a touching romantic mandarin movie and I'm glad SO is beside me =)

Don't know why after the movie, i ended up in a 'daze' state... can't forget the scenes of the movie.. i know its just a movie, but, i also don't know why it ended up affecting me sooo much. Maybe that's the power of the {Secret} .. haha..

I was reading the cozy forum just now --> sweet things ur bf/gf done and i saw a post that states that the bf will hide food/biscuits in the gf's room and whenever the gf complains to the bf she's hungry, he will tell her where to find the food. Isn't it so sweet? There are other posts there as well and the things that their BFs did are really wonderful...

Mentally and physically squezzed up!! Common tests just ended and I fell sick. -_-
Couldn't do much shopping.. Stressed up with Projects right now.

So many things are on my list , waiting for me to attempt. When will I finish them?! IF only the list i need to do are all shopping items! Hahaha..

SO did a very very sweet thing tonight..he sms his wishes to 933 with the intention of cheering me through my projects. Why I mention 'intention' --> His sms did get read out, however , the DJ missed out the most impt part of the sms --> thats me. That DJ just read out that SO would like everyone that knows him to be happy. -_-!! We both are like WTH!! How can he missed the most important part?

Nevertheless, I felt the hapiness. =)

I am afraid that the crack opens up bigger and bigger. Don't you feel the same?

今天是我们在一起的三年零两个月的纪念日。 我却说了一些你不喜欢的话。我们彼此好象有了一段距离。手牵手好象不代表些什么，只是个动作罢了。心中感觉有些伤感。。。我常怀念我们刚认识的日子-甜蜜。 那时我们对彼此的认真，执著，爱慕，现在还在吗？ 有时我真的不知道我们未来的方向。我好想要和你永远的在一起。。但是， 我们能吗？ 我们能回到三年零两个月前的我们吗？ 又或许有更多的三年零两个月？

what's so good about having a bike? Singpore rain almost everyday. Once there's rain, it can't be used.

Today originally wanted to go for MOvie at vivo after I finish my work. But due to the rain, can't go out. Somemore is after i finish preparing, it start to rain. Thats when my mum's engine start :" why must u always choose a day when it will rain to go out! " As if i wanted it to be this way!!

I so sian loh...

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

I want to get away, to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah

- Gwen Stefani "the sweet escape"

Cupcakes!!

I did cupcakes last week again. Its my 3rd attempt. The frosting is better this round. Not as liquid... but due to my tiredness... I didn't create very nice designs..just anyhow draw.

This is my 1st attempt...

2nd attempt... this is done with shennie...

and the 3rd attempt..done with shennie as well..

this time round the cupcakes are not as colourful.. nevertheless, it taste better than the previous 2 attempts.

this is what my school holidays is about.. CUPCAKES!!

SO's bike got something wrong. only purchasd 2 days and something is wrong. His mum shouldn't have insisted him to buy the 2nd hand bike instead. Hai. Now need to go repair liao. Not worth at all!!

Sat on his bike just now. Kinda scary. LOL. But overall he is stable. I am just afraid his bike would suddenly have problem on expressway....

Tomorrow I am going to AMK hub with shennie.. she got discount coupons!! hehe..maybe can see what is worth buying.. I didn't buy jolin concert tix.. i realise SO and me is too broke... haix... How i wish i go can sia.... never go concert with him b4...

Why must you do it. I feel insecure. I don't want you to buy it. But i gave you my consent. I'll never forget how u look that day. Drastic change of mood once he mention that to you. I know thats what u wanted and you'll be happy. But i won't. I know i can't forgo that insecurity. I know I can't let that matter rest. I know I won't love you as much as before if you do that. I can't leave you, I can't stop you from doing it, what can I do? Nothing.

Went to MDIS open house yesterday with SO. After that we went to Suntec, hoping to eat Marche... but, its closed. Renovation going on. =( Then we head to Vivo city for it.. the que was super long !! So we went to eat the EArle - by swansens... Not bad. Good atmoshpere. We had a Crayfish and seafood pasta for 2... yummy! and ice cream fondue as dessert! Total damage was ard $50+. I love that place. I told SO that I wanna go there for anniversary dinner every year. Hope that he remembers.

Don't know what to do today. The thought of tomorrow' s a MONDAY make me so so demoralised. Office, work again. -_- I just wanna enjoy myself to the fullest today.

Early in the mornging 7.30am today, my phone rings and its office stuff again. What the FUCK!! its a saturday and early in the morning where i am still enjoying my zzzZzz.. I did something wrong again. I shouldn't send the cheque out. She said that i should have confirm the account balance before doing so. I called her on that day before i send the cheque and i ask her if i can send or not. She said oki. Yes, indeed i forgot to remind her the account bal. and ask her about it. And thats the cause of the whole trouble. EARLY 730am and i got to know i did something wrong due to my forgetfulness. what a WONDERFUL start of the day ya.

Yay!! I don't need to go overseas le!! =)

Boss says she will come SG to give me training...wonderful!! Hmm.. but after having a conversation with her, I feel that I can't quit the job in any near future even if i am not coping with my studies. Haiz...so I just gotta cope.

SO is going to apply for degree programms!! So happy. Geez. =) At least he feel that he should upgrade himself.. lala...

Boss ask me to go taiwan for training next week. Whats the point of me going when I am considering to quit the job? The company then wastes its resources in paying my tickets.

Why did things got more and more complicated. I am losing grip.

失败的一天

Nothing seems right yesterday.:

Results were pathetic. No As except for CATS. =
GPA only 2.81 , how to go Uni.. haix. I am left with only 3 semesters. I need to work damn hard this coming one in order to get back a at least 3.2 GPA... how? SCore all As? hah.

Work was terrible. Scolded by boss. I feel lost, hopeless, lousy. Even though she know she didn't train me to handle customers, i still feel lousy. I even got the most basic concept of the company wrong. If i m not wrong, later will kena another bad scolding.

Solutions to both problem? I thought of quitting my job so that I can do better in my studies. FOr the last sem, i was coping rather hard. Need to do delivery on exam days. My job has no holiday for me if I am at the exam period. Which I don't think i can survive --> I tried and results proven. But If i quit, means lesser money income, and how ? Haix. Work weekend? Then my dearest SO how?
I guess there's no solution for my lousy feeling over the job right now. ONly training can cure me.

No matter how unhappy I was yesterday, I brought Ah ren to Disney On Ice - Finding Nemo. I didn't watch this movie. So I don't really know whats going on. The show to me was just a so-so. I think it would be better if i were there to listen to Jolin's concert. haha. The atmosphere would be different then. =) thats what I imagined when I was at the indoor stadium.

心情tata不定

Tomorrow getting my exams grades , hopefully able to clear all subjects esp. that I know I have not been studying well for them. -__-

I don't feel okay with my job right now. I feel that I am not trained, skilled to handle the customers and I feel really demoralised about it. Its so important to have a proper orientation or induction to be carried out by mangement to make employees feel gd --> sound like HR duh. But i totally agree with it as I am the employee without the traning... make myself feel so out of place and look like a fool to the customers.

I feel like giving up.