Yeah! Today is soyukkwan's book out day!! =) can't wait to see his botak...haha...

so lucky that he only need to go tekong for 1 week.. *phew* and the camp he posted to is near to my school !! haha.. so happy...lalala ...

Yesterday went for a KTV session with my childhood friends..i enjoyed it alot..too bad today gota work... -_- but nvm, i'm looking forward to today's after work program. heh heh...

Work has been great so far....enjoying myself here.. i think working as admin asst. not bad..but, i think i've got greater interest in doing purchasing job..haha..quotations here n there.. source for the cheapest.. maybe thats what a women is born to be...lol...shopping expert! haha...

TIred...

have been working at tuas as Admin Asst. since monday..although today is the 2nd day, but I already feel tired... everyday wake up at 6... OMG...so so damn tiring... fortunately there's company transport at the MRT station near my house... New collegues are friendly... no politic... my superior is a very nice lady... good to me, won't force me too much as she knows its a boring job..hahaha.. everyday file documents for 8hrs.. of cuz tiring + boring...

Think i'm getting fatter... how can i not be when i work in an office? Eat, Seat, Eat, Seat, Stand , walk around IN the OFFICE... omg... fattening routine!

right, i got to go sleep now.. its 9.45 pm and i need SLEEP!!

黑白配

这是范瑋琪的歌。。述说的是她与黑人的爱情。。非常浪漫。它也给了我一些灵感。。。。。

太陽曬的我 眼睛睜不開
你的好脾氣 讓我心情壞不起來
下雨下的我 眼神發呆
你的道歉 聽著聽著我都快要笑出來
誰說不能黑白配 世界上沒有什麼事
能夠如此的絕對
曾經有人這樣唱過
白天它不懂夜的黑 你卻懂得我的美

有時候我會 感覺非常累
有時候也會 不知覺把你拖累
你有時會說 我們不配
只要能依偎 真的真的我什麼都無所謂

誰說不能黑白配 世界上沒有什麼事
能夠如此的絕對
曾經有人這樣唱過
白天它不懂夜的黑 你卻懂得我的美

鋼琴也是黑白鍵
一樣能看出我對你 只有滿滿的感謝
也許黑永遠不明白
在這個彩色的世界 有你我才會存在
在這個彩色的世界 有你我才會存在

happy day!

Exams are around the corner but what I did today doesn't seems to be helping much in my studies.. haha..these are what vani, mei yu, sheenie, iani and I did..

1st: we went to Chinatown after school to eat the porridge at 2+
2nd:we walked around Chinatown
3rd:we took a bus to bugis to continue to shop..
4th: Then iani went separate way from us and the rest of us walked to Suntec..our destination was Marina Sq.
5th:We shopped around Marina Sq and ate our dinner there and headed home at 8+

Its been A LONG LONG TIME ever since I've went out shopping with girlfriends. It just felt so different from the feeling of going shopping with bf. Although tiring, but, its worth it! Cuz i don't know when will be the next similar trip! hahaha.. I'm glad that Song Xi and Ronald did not go with us.. cuz its just simply a girls outing. Hehe. =)

Vani bought a half cardigan from Ebase. Ebase is having sales!! But, nothing caught my eyes. I have 1 top n 1 bottom from there that i have not wear yet. Just don't know what to go with. So i rather save then spend there. I bought a dress from bugis that I like so much! It's going to be my birthday dress i guess. hehe.

I bought this at $23 !! I think its worth it..but my mum scolded me for buying clothe.. hai.. She asked me for what purpose i bought it.. if i told her its for my birthday, i think she would say i'm crazy. Whatever.

When I returned home, I saw a mail for me!! Its in a pink envelope... with excitement, I opened it! Its my 1st 20th birthday gift !!

Its a card from Party world with birthday treats!

a $20 VOUCHER!


and some vouchers!

My birthday may not be so boring afterall! =) geez.

在這美丽的星空下， 一对对情侶正目不暇给地望着那七彩缤纷，耀眼夺目的烟花秀。
他和我也在那人群中。

对我而言，能和自己心爱的人一起观看烟花是一件非常幸福的事。或许是因为我不常看到烟花吧！每当我看见烟花在我眼前绽放，我就产生一股感动。那是一个无法形容的感觉。在观赏的当时，他紧抱着我，好像怕我离开他似的。但我并不抗拒他的拥抱，反而觉得这一刻好罗曼啼克！希望这一场烟花永远都不要停止。。

这不是任何小说。 这是我心中最完美的一场烟花。

WHY!!!!!

HE IS ENLISTING ON THE 18th SEP!!! WHY CAN'T IT BE THE WEEK AFTER THAT!! damn it. 2 days before my 20th birthday and he's going in. Wtf! Although he's reporting to tekong for only one week, I still feel -_-!!! What a date he kena!

Ya i know that i can celebrate on the weekend before, but i just feel that its not the same! Hai. Birthday is something that can't be Belated or Early. I just feel so.

So wht should i Do on my birthday? Its a wednesday night ! haha ! MOS? But i'm afraid that I got to work on the next day since its school vacation. . . go for a hearful meal? At where? If go romantic places, it reminds me of him... haix. I'm going to give it some serious thought.. who knows? i may end up eating family dinner at home and cut a cake after that. ?

A couple of my girlfriends are facing BGR problems recently... i hope they will feel better soon... =)

its a saturday and i'm in school -_-. dreadful. Gotta come for make up lesson for some IS module.. and actually doing project at 8.30 but, grp mates will b late. I should never trust them to be early. Its not the first time that i'm waiting. Sometimes i really wonder they got sense of ugency or not? Friday we need to present, nothing have been done , yet, they can be late for meetings or i should say that, they never wanna meet? Its always me who's planning meetings. Sick n tired of it. Waiting spoils my saturday morning and ruin my wonderful weekend mood!

I feel like giving up studies.. just feel like working and start earning $$. I feel so old to be in poly. . whenever i feel so fed up with school n studies, i feel like quitting. I just need someone to comfort me, or listen to me, encourage me. But, he never did that. I think to him, these words i said are just nothing to him.

Sister moving out soon.. her new house is renovated, today furnitures are moving in... very soon, i'll be left alone in the room... so sian. hai. I've been sleeping in the same room as her ever since i'm a child. I definitely wil miss those days.

went to do my spects today.. cost me $80. i think i will not have much change..cuz the colour is black ... frame is abt the same as the one i m wearing.

I want money.... i think i gotta find work liao. Still owe HP bill for 2 months loh.. then, i just feel so sian that whenever i go out, i wanna buy something but gotta reconsider. Money really not enough.

Don't feel like going to tmr's POA tutorial.. cuz i duno how to do the questions... just no mood to go.. hai.. i know that i should go as i alredy duno how to do.. if i dun go, NEVER will i ever know how to do the qns...

hai hai hai...

Today is such a gd day for sleeping! It has been raining loh... didn't go to the POA lecture.. regretted... even if i went to last week's, i can't do my tutorial qns for this week. =(

Friday is the macro test.. next fri is the deadline for IAC..hai.. hopefully my grp mates will turn up for project meet up this saturday... can't afford to drag anymore!

I need time !! ALOT OF TIME!! to do revision...to do my studies.. but yet, i wanna relax too. Haha! so contradicting..

oh ya, tmr i going to make new spects!! =) its super cheap loh.. $50 for both lens n frame. if want multi-coated add another $10.. so cheap right? haha..its at my sch's optical shop. Its a promotion... haha..hopefully can get a frame that suits me.. or looks gd on me..hehe.. no more PLASTIC FRAME!! Say gd bye to the OLD DUDU....haha....

new outlook!

was so busy with sch stuff that i never update my blog..
2nd tests coming up..stress.... tot of giving up... wanna work instead... but, i've come this far.. i think i should continue..

life isn't as good... hmm..i think its stress ... over-stressing myself i think.. i duno.. just feel like stoning the whole day...

a whole new BegiNNing

was very busy with school work.. been catching up with the work that i've missed...

class ended at 11 today.. ate lunch with kun's family and went to watch MI3 after that.. 've been so long ever since i've watched a movie... after that went to sim lim... wanted to get a laptop cover..but, didn't get anything in the end.. too ex.. 30+ for a laptop case.. =(

went bugis villiage to have a walk... and saw alot of clothe!! i need a jeans, a 3/4 and a new denim skirt badly... actually wanted to try n buy...but after the thought that i've only $60 to keep myself going for this month, decided not to get...

When i'm home.. i saw a letter from ITE... i've been awarded COM!!! this means i'm in top 5% among the Business Admin course! Both Bishan n Clementi campus!!!! So gald abt it.. =D can't stop grinning while reading the letter..hehehe... so happy loh.. my 2 yrs effort not wasted .. hehe.. although the award got no money or wat.. but still, i'm glad that i've got it. =)

Maybe i should give myself a little reward by buying the skirt? or jean? or 3/4 ? hahaha... dunoe ehx.. i now finally realise the 'wonderfulness' of school UNIFORMS...hahaha...

I'm accepted by NP!! =) i've got my first choice.. biz studies! =D

so glad abt it..hehe.. finally can do dip. liao... but, i guess i will have a hard time..i just got a feeling the dip. ain't easy to get..lotsa hard work n time n effort.. i so scared my mum's money will be wasted.. really..hai.. its her hard earned money.. hai..

what work i can do after i start sch? weekends gotta meet hubby..how to work? hai.. better start planning..

i'm wondering if my mum is happy or sad... cuz i gotta spend her money... sorry mum... thats what i really wanna say to her.. hai..

I just hate the feeling for being kept in suspense!

NP replied to my email.. they said that the successful candidates will be receiving phone calls while the unsuccessful will be receiving letters..

where will my fate land me? phone or letters?

I can't sleep well..even if sleep.. i would be dreaming of getting into poly.. it turned out to be my sweetest dream of all.. hai.. i just want them to call me asap..so that i can let down this matter... if by the coming friday, i still didn't receive their call, i think i know which category i belong to..the letters.

My classmate is already happily enjoying her new term at NYP.. i should have choosen that school instead .. hai... at least i can rest assure i confirm get in .. hai.. regretting liao..

hai..............millions of haiz also no use..hai.

OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!

My last sem results are out! I'm officially graduated!! =)

Now waiting for NP to call me... I'm so paranoid.. whether they will call me up or not.. if they rejected me.. i really duno what to say... impossible for them to reject a 3.8 gpa student right.. hai.. i so scared that my first choice no place..then i rather go to NYP liao loh.. sian..there's alot of "what ifs" in my head now..

1. what if NP dun accept me? What can i do? apply other poly is it too late? Or i should work? I'm totally unprepared for the workforce!!

2. What if NP call me but i'm not given my 1st choice! how ah? should study it?

3. What if NP call me up later in the day ( which i doubt so ) and tell me to report school on monday? then hubby how?

blahx. I'm just so so damn gan jiong abt the outcome loh. why have to wait so long..hai..

i went to work yesterday .. the tele-surveyor job... keep calling up people... for 7 hrs! I'm glad that i need not work everyday.. if not i definitely will loose my voice..

I'm looking forward to 24... kun's coming back on that day.. still thinking if i should go fetch him or not...

NP super slow loh.. til now no reply abt my application.. NYP already call up my classmate loh... haix.. sian...when then i will know if i can get into NP or not..haix... if never get in..what should i do ah...

Dinner with hubby at steak's place in hk.... its call 扒王之王. They serve delicous steak and sizzling main course....


We ordered meals that comes with soup, main course and drinks.. it costs about S$40+ for both of us..

we had cream of mushroom and "lo-song" soup which is aka vegetable soup..


this is me with my permed hair eating bread...



Kun ordered escargot!!!! its his favourite and its cheap!! ard S$8!!

Our main course.. i had some tender chicken and kun ate steak... the servings are huge..super delicous!!!

Pictures taken at disneyland...

this is actually a chocolate rice cookie.. very delicious!!!


this was taken at the mickey train that goes around disneyland...

the lady beside me is kun's cousin...

disney pics!!

here are a few pics which i took at disneyland.. the incredibles t-shirt is my fav!! but its too ex to buy.. =(

super sway!!!

this is hubby with the mic..haha..

yesterday went to k session with his cousin.... i think its cheaper then singapore.... sing 2-8 pm.. with 2 free drinks/person.... abt s$14... then their mic right... got a disposable cover for u to place over the mic for hygiene pupose loh.. so good.. his cousin say after SARS then got de..haha.. i got take a pic of it.. will upload when i'm back to sg..

The session was suppose to be a happy singing session when some tragedy happened... he accidentally knock onto my cup of ice tea and the next min. i'm wet. My precious shoes are wet too!!! i was so damn sian loh... that pair of shoes was drawn by my sister and painted by me... =( And this senario happened again when we went to eat jap cuisine..this time round it was green tea.. ain't i sway????????? hai...

After i reach home, i washed my clothe, my jacket n shoes..but, its too late to save the shoes... it look as if it is tinted yellow..(it was originally white)..so damn sian loh.. then he spray the duno what vanish spray n put bleach overnight.. i try to wash this morning but no use....hai.. so gotta throw away.. I'm now shoeless.. duno how to go out also..hai..
there it goes.. my precious pair of shoes.....................................

hehe.. i perm my hair today!!!!! hubby paid for it..thanks hubby... =)

I went to disneyland on tues!! Its such a wonderful experience... took lotsa pics there... will upload it up after i upload the pics from the cam.. hehe.. so happy... felt so fortunate to be able to go to disneyland in my lifetime.... I really felt that my parents should go too.. i mean, they have lived all their life and i think its a must for them to least experience the disneyland... i believe that everyone has a inner child filled with fantasy within ..

okie.. i've figured the font out.. using his uncle's com.... all are chinese input.

Okie..let me just update on what i've bought... a brownz bag which cost 70HKD... a sling/hand-carrier bag...40HKD... thats all. no clothe..no shoes yet. Saw this pair of shoes near ah ma's house.. only 49HKD loh.. so damn cheap.. its those kind that orchard will sell at 25 and above.. its simply a good deal!! I think i will go back and have a look..hehe...

Oh ya.. I swear i want something from Strawberries Forever bakery..everything they sell there are strawberries stuff..Their strawberries shortcake look delicious to me!! But the price is kinda ex.. almost like a piece of cake from Coffee bean. I think sis will love the cake. hehe.. maybe i can buy back for her..see how..hehe..

Kun received a msg from junhao today.. he said he will be comin to HK in april.. I'll still be here in hk then..hehe..so i guess we will meet up with him..so cool..hehe.. another meet up with a singaporean here in hk.. =)

I misses my friends so much... i misses those class SM days... i just misses everyone!!

in hk now..

I'm updating my blog now while i'm in hk.... i went to meet up with chi chin this afternoon and we walk around Wang Jiao. He will be going to Shen Zhen to do his OIP for 5 months.!! So long! Its so cool to meet up secondary mates here in hk.. We've been talking about going tour since secondary school and we didn't have a chance to do it... we are all busy with our own stuff after graduation. Its really a nice meet up with him here.　Ｒｉｇｈｔ，　ｉ　ｄｕｎｏ　ｗｈａｔ’ｓ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｆｏｎｔ．．ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｐｕｂｌｉｓｈ　ｎ　ｒｅｌｏａｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｐａｇｅ．．．

So sad..so guilty..so disappointed with myself.. its time to do some reflection..

I was being debar from ETP... with poor attendance of 75%... its the 1st time i kena debarment.. Someone just told me off...saying its a waste for me to get debar now.. its like climbing so high and yet fall down so badly..haix..

I regretted skipping lessons... what can i do now..nothing..Hand in the appeal letter le. Hai.. thinking back.. i was really indeed stupid.. didn't plan in hand.. why come so far and yet this happen??

GOt the form to apply for TES and LYK scholorship award... but i know my chances ain't high. Its just a trying.. haix... so much money loh.. IF i really can go Poly...that amount will help me alot... hai... But, chances are very very low to get the award... I'm pining my hopes low...hai

I just feel so so guilty now... i was nearly into tears when i was being told off.. i just realise how stupid i'm...hai..............................................

Hai..totally so sianed.. de bar for ETP... kena mum n dad's scoldings..haiz.. think tmr onwards mum's attitude towards me sure change.. just know she nag me for taking AL to go KL last week.. she just doesn't know its two matters away. I guess she's going to nag me for going to hk next thurs liao... definitely will say i never learn my lesson blah blah.. hai.. but, its two totally different matters.. =(

I felt guilty also... for being de barred..hai.. super low mood now... tmr i planned to meet kun after school and eat dinner with his family..but, tmr i vegetarian.. i very scared mama will scold.. moreover i kena debarred..she definitely will say i still go out blah blah..haix.. What to do ah... hai...

My eyes are like panda now..didn't sleep well last night....eyes feel so dry now..but i don't care, must wait till kun home so that can talk to him after his long day of work..

shopping spree on sat!!

I went to my cousin's chinese wedding ceremony on saturday noon... it was the usual tea ceremony at her place at bkt.panjang. Over crowded!!! My sisters and me went to the kitchen to stand throughout.. it was the most spacious place of all.. haha.. She will be having her wedding dinner at marriot this thurs. Decided to wear my one and only black dress..haha.. it was my prom dress 2 years back. And i can still fit it in!! in fact, much more loose for me now! can't imagine i was so damn fat 2 years ago!! haha...

AFter the ceremony i went to orchard with my eldest sis.. then kun met up with us.. Sis went to charme at far east to do mani & pedi.. it was such a coincidence that kun's sec mate is nick's cousin !! she gave sis a 10% discount. sis bought file and a duno what base coat there. She spent $100+ there.. -_-! so much!! While she did she nails, kun and me shop around far east.
I bought 2 bikinis!!! the 2nd one was at 50%! it was very worthwhile!! I also bought a 'pong pong' skirt..haha..

I mean those fluffy kind.. hehe.. that one is kun buy for me de. =)

KL trip - last mon-wed

pic 1 (at the room @KL. I was trying to fake khim with a water bottle. hahaha!!)

decided to update my blog after xian's promt..hehe.. too lazy to update ler lah...

i went to KL last mon-wed.. stayed at the ritz carlton apartment there.. suppose to be staying at marriot..but, the room last min full..so ended up they arranged ritz carlton for us. HahA!! what a perfect arrangement! I love the apartment.. so damn nice..roomy.. What i missed most is the breakfeast. =D hehe..super delicious. Tried to make a similar one this morning but, mine was tasteless. haha.!

Bought a 2 tops, one skirt, and a some-sort like stockings kind of thingy at there.. i tried on the top n the stocking ( pic 1 ) in the hotel room and kun took the picture for me. He wanted me to pose with a water bottle. So, thats "KHIM". haha..

Why can't ITE students take up Diploma in Tourism & Resort Management in NP? Its unfair~! why is it only open to GCE 'O' levels students? Aren't we human?

Was so disappointed n sad when i got to know it... damn it. Only TP 's hospitality accepts ITE students. Haiz. I'm like totally lost now. SO sianed!!

Right. was not updating my blog. =p

OKie.. i went to NP's open house last thurs. Met up with MH n Jas over there..mh was being my 'tourguide' for that trip around her school! haha.. thanks girl! =D Well.. i've decided to study Tourism and resort management at NP. BUt i still have reservations for that course. Should i take up Business Studies instead? I really don't know eh.

Yesterday went to my cousin's house.. she's already married but the chinese customery will take place this comin march. Went to her new house to take a look.. lovely. Simple, good view (she lives on the 28 floor with a view over the whole telok banglah... can see the town area..meaning can see fireworks!! ) and her living room has a large projection screen and very good sound systems...definitely good for movies... she place is just so relaxing. Oh ya, i love her kitchen..she has the centre island design like most american homes.

oh ya, i quit my job. out of job now. will look out for sales jobs..

DAmn iT~!!! I hate today!!

Everything went wrong since yesterday... why all the things can't be carried out according to plan? Hate it. Who get all the blame? ME!

I know its not ya fault. But i just got so angry with his parents now. Last min things. I hate it. Can't eat reunion dinner with me. Can't go house visiting with me on 1st day of new year. Whats next? Can't go malaysia with me on 2nd day? the whole thing just totally sucks!!!

I'm starting to feel that everything is all against me!! Mum nags at me. She've cooked a large pot of soup cuz he's suppose to come.. i think i will skip rice later to drink on his behalf. Why things just happened this way?

I don't know whats happening between me n him now. Talked to him on msn yesterday. Told him that we are not meant for each other. Is it a breakup? COnsidered one? i don't know. Didn't even fininsh off my words n he's gone.

No msg from him till now.

Oh ya, i just love Lee Hom's Kiss Goodbye. Its the song playin in my blog now.

幸福搭配悲傷 . 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 . 還欠妳的我不能給.

Bottled Up

I just need someone to hear my troubles, comfort me of all my worries and share my happiness. Friends? out of question. Boyfriend? losing one soon. I don't know.. i'm just so stress up with my life.... work, financial, project, everything!!!

I was so damn fed up when i went work today..the manager's attitude towards me was so damn bad. Ordering me away as if i'm her pet. Come'on, I'm a human too!!!! I need the kind of respect a human needs. From customer service perspective, i'm her internal customer okie, so i do need courtesy and respect too!! Don't just put ur anger on me !!! Everyday when i go work, i'm always walking in with a =) but ended up with a =( when i finish work. And just when i needed u most after work, u can't talk to me. Then who the hell am i suppose to talk to ? write everything down in paper n pen so that i will feel better??????

From time to time, i've been questioning myself for thousands millions times, are u really the one for me? My feelings for you are still there, but there are so many causes to make me feel that maybe u r not the one. I don't wanna lose u, but i dunwan to be quarelling with u almost everytime we meet. Or, maybe all along it was only my fault for getting angry too easily. Maybe ya life would be much better without me. I don't know what to do.. or what to think.. i just wanna escape from reality.

Project... hai. Don't wanna talk abt it. All i hope is that we will finish on time.

Everything in my life now is a mess. MESS!!!!!! I'm GOinG to BE CRAZY SOON!!!

kiss goodbye

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Baby不要再哭泣　這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口　但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心 好好欣賞妳的美
幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨
每一次和妳分開　深深地被妳打敗　每一次放棄妳的溫柔　痛苦難以釋懷　
每一次和妳分開　每一次Kiss You Goodbye　
愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白
幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給 我才明白愛最真實的滋味

So hurt!!

I just don't understand what i did wrong... why hubby must shout at me on the phone and sound as if its all my fault?

I know that he got exams..but, I didn't call him to fan him mah..i only ask him where he wanna go tonight. I kena scolding from mama just bcuz i wanna go out n meet him loh.. i even wanted to go pick him up...yet he shout at me as if he will fail the exam bcuz i call him and interrupt him when he's studying.. He Was suppose to study yesterday and beforehand loh.. now he blame me. Whats the attitude?

I was just about to cry le loh. HAIZ!!!

Went for project yesterday.... wednesday gotta hand in the first report le. After project went to takashimaya for the NP's fair... nothing much there.. because it was raining, i went awhile then left le.... thanks chi chin for all the info abt the tourism course... he's been a great help! think i will be going to the poly open house this feb..

Mentioning feb.. i'll be so broke.. presents , presents , and PRESENTS..haha.. 1st of feb is the 2 yr anni. with my hubby... then comes 14th feb..v.day.. in between falls my 2 dearest sisters birthdays.. then comes my fren's 21st birthday..tons of events..haha....

I had a very sweet dream today.. i dreamt that hubby proposed to me leh!! hahaha.. siao hor? I thinking of getting married till crazy le...haha.. don't know why..just kept thinking of our future these few days.. he did mentioned that he wans to go bac to hk after NS..but..what about me? .. i'll follow where he goes.. but, i'm still unsure about it..