i just realised wad an ass i am.
pple are suffering cus of the earthquake,
and yet i din do anything to help.
jus wanna slap myself.
F***.
even those poor ppl donate wad little they have to help the ppl of the earthquake.
but mi?
i'm too ashamed to talk abt it.
damn it.

its probably the business that pull mi away from the world.
but its just excuses.
wadever.

i am confused.
i duno wad to do?
wad should i do?
had a busy busy week.
done w 1st test.
2nd test in a weeks time.
completed most of my work.
more to come tml.

spent 300 over the weekend.
there goes my pay.
so sad.
and i din really buy anything.
i jus made my hair, bought a pair of shoes, a bag and a concealer.
now i have to control my spendings if not...
my school fees would be gone.
thts bad.

its a bad dae..............

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
LOVE MUMMY LOADS.
mum love is sth very ironic,
sth irreplaceble.
sth i cant live without.
sth i think how would life be w\o mummy but i will give up the tot cus i dun have the courage to think abt it.



o0o0o.
i miss simba so much.
not onli him,
but every1 at mpae.
i used to hate it there,
cus its so tiring there.
but when i am not there anymore,
i always miss them (the pple, the fun)
and the lovely animals.
its always worked out this way isnt it?
one always wont know how to treasure the things until one loses it.
but sometimes,
its jus the way pple react.
its always too late to regret.
but it always happen doesnt it?
i have been wanting to visit dem,
but i have not succeed so far.
cus i have been lazy.
very lazyyyy.
o0o0o..
i miss alot of ppl.
but due to my laziness that i do not want to do out.
jus wanna slack at home.
o0o0o.
i hope they dun hate mi.
and i hope they dun forget mi.
clare is coming back.
soon i hope so she will acc mi to mpae!
yEA!

i haven been studying.
and its all dorothys fault.
she made mi addicted to online shopping.
BLEAHH..
keep asking if i bought.
keep telling mi tht she saw sth nice!
haha!
i hate her.
lol.
cus i cant conc on studying.
she will kill mi if she sees this but..
luckily she doesnt noe abt it.
o0o0o0o. hahaha.

yup, lastly i love mummy!

its a bad dae.
jus bad.
had a hectic week.
BUT
next week is worse.
it couldn't have gotten any worse.
w 24 cages of weaning.
how many pups will i have?
how much weaning do i have to do?
but Freaking currypop din want to give mi any help.
ASSHOLE.
he is realli a pain in the ass at times.
and i have a test next week.
but luckily he will be away next week.

oh ya,
time flies.
tml is mother's dae again.
happy mothers dae mummy!
love her load.
i know i am not a good daughter but still.
i noe she love mi.
and yea,
if granny was still arnd,
how would life be?
sure it would be different.
life wasnt the same as before.
i wont forget her,
and at times i miss her.
actually it was the funeral i saw this afternoon that reminded my of granny.
yea,
i should be ashamed.
but just like people say,
no matter how sad you are,
no matter wad happen,
no matter how unhappy you are,
no matter how mad you are,
you will still get over it...
cus life goes on...
everydae is a brand new dae.
so it just takes time for wounds to heal...

ohhh.
hope it will be a better week next week!

i am so bored at work now!
bleah.
hahah!
boss went to seminar.
i tot my postdocs will follow suit.
but apparently none went.
or did some go?
haha!
wadever.

i wanted to go actually but thinking how bored it could be puts me off!
hahaha.
since boss went,
den i tot i could slack a bit.
hahha.

am so tired.
i slept at 12.
it should give mi enough zzz.
but i duno y i cant get up todae!
hahhaha

craps.
jus wanna blog to blog.
hahhahahahhahhahahhaahha.

i mus be crazy.
some1 jus save mi?
wad should i do?
=(

y am i tinking of things that will nv be mine?
y am i feeling so maD?
i realli am crazy!
hhahahhahhahahaahahhaha.

yeA!
finally finish watchin miss hello.
feel so wierd now.
cus everytime i finish a series,
i would feel tht i am in dreamland.
but at least for now,
i should start studying.
haha!

anyway,
i am so ashame of my bad temper.
i actually scolded some1 1 shouldnt,
or should i say i have been scolding?
i am so so so sorry.
i wish i could change.
so guilty yesterdae cus ...
anyway...

so tired after my nephew's 1st month celebration.
cus the small bullies were bullying mi!
sometimes i hate and love dem
they were like beating and pinching mi like no 1's business la.
and no one wanted to save mi.
and even when i shouted at dem,
thy tot i wanted to play w dem which i do not.
bleah.
wadever!
haha.
but some are sweeter though.
hahaha.
haven really seen dem in ages
and keith is like so tall now.
and alr in sec 2.
anyw.

wad to do fer b;dae?
sighs.

i am so shagged.
slept at 4 just to watch hello miss.
hahah!
its niceEE!!
hahhaha!
cus the actors are super cute la!
i am so mesmerised by them.
danny's gonna kill mi.
hahah!
but wadever.
hahah!
its onli in those korean shows that when i see a handsome/cute guy,
i will wanna finish watching it.
but even when i slept at 4, i was onli at chpt 7.
mummy will watch w/o mi todae!
so sad cus she applied fer leave todae.
and i got school todae.
i wonder wad episode mummy will be at when i reach home.

i am so bored.
not that i am unhappy with nothing to do.
as i am tired.
i so wanna leave now to go home and rest.
sighs.

but actually i wanna go home and finish the show!
hahahha!!
so crazy..
but its so wierd that i only get mesmerised by korean actors.
i dun get gaga over singaporean/ hk/ or wad actors.
even like i like that 10pm show at u channel.
i jus like the show. haha.
wad crap am i toking abt?
lol.
wad ever.

anyway .
surfer ger is wierd these few daes.
he is not smiling anymore.
which makes mi feel abit wierd.
like the whole lab is like so tensed up.
even xinde was asking mi abt wad happened.
i hope he will be normal soon.
if like its so wierd.

bahh..
sat tml.
sch from 4-6.
super boring!