sometimes i wish i am beeter of dead.
i am so tired.
i dun wanna go back to work tml.
there's so much work waiting fer mi to complete.
and school so tiringgg. =(
if only some pple would understand.
why do some ppl onli cared abt money.
is it really so important?
y cant he be like mummy.?
sometimes i jus wish he werent arnd.
i duno when we quarrelled,
did he break my heart, or did he anger mi?
i so wanna move out now!
but i got no money. damn it.
i mus mus mus earn enuff when i am 24!
or even 23.
to move out.
i cant stand staying here anymore.
even when i am hardly at home.
F***

i am old alr.
bending up and down a while made my leg ache.
playing psp made my arms ache.
wad is happening to me?

its a new week.
bless mi.

i am depressed.
paper was tough.
tis is the first time i felt so bad after exams.
i nv had tis feeling b4.
so depressing.
ohhh.
and fer the 1st time.
i went to check my note fer the answer.
i nv did that.
cus in the past, results din bother mi.
now it does.
and its like it is important that i want to do well.
the reason? i duno.
i guess cus of the HD.
that i wanna got HD and nothing else.
but the greater the expectation,
the harder i will fall.
o0o0o0...

and you noe wad?
i have already secured 40/100 for that module.
i got full marks fer both assignments (17 mark each)
and for tutorials too.
so its not easy to fail.
but i am not afraid of not passing.
its the scoring!!
i wanted so much to score well.
o0o0ooooo.
after all the effort i put in.
o0o0o0o...............................................................
i noe you all want to kill mi.
but ......


nevertheless.. thanks fer all the good luck.
i hope it stay w mi till exam results out.
o0o0oo.
love all.

Todae is a F***ing dae.
i finally completed my assignment.
but i slept at 3am to complete it.
save my eye bag!

i hate my boss.
he is still as currypok as b4.
F***
y does he wants to noe how many cages we have when you he can see when he gets the bill?
after so long, den he wants to noe how much evolved from start.
and F i have to see how many mice in each cage every month.
and F they F***ing dun appreciate it.
F. y do i need to do it?

and Surferger is another idiot.
F***
the freaking database is like easy to use.
and he fucking ask mi without trying.
have all these phd ppl have permanently damaged their fucking brains?
F***
And bcus i slept at 3!
when he asked mi so many Freaking QNS,
i got like freaking irritated.
F***
how come he is asking mi abt his matings when HE IS THE FREAKING PERSON WHO ASKED MI TO DO THE MATINGS?
CANT HE F***ING CHECK THE EMAIL HE SENT MI?
really idiotic.
y are the ppl in my lab so F?
he dun even remember wad matings and timed matings he have.
and he onli got 1 f strain la!
come on la.
others got more.
and i tink they are more organised than him.
he is such an ass.!!!
he dun do permant matings so waD?
he tinks i;m so free to update his database now and den?
F*
i dun even do fer the others la!

and most F***ing event of the dae.
todae i got freaking pissed with shuyi.
she is some1 that the others dislike.
and we are in the same class for the next module
and F***
if not fer my assignment,
i wont check my email to see if that timetable is out.
and she fucking din bother to tell dor and i la.
Fucking bitch.
and she freaking noe that we are in the same module
and when we met ytd,
she din even mention abt it.
and i, being a nice person,
printed the timetable fer dor and her..
den she freaking tell mi she dun want and her sis will print fer her!
fucking attitute!!!!!!!
den she fucking tell mi she din noe we 3 are in the same class fer next module.
dor and i were like F***
we were like just toking abt it daes ago!
F***
wad a bitch.
so wad if you got in gp a?
F***
CUS gp a is like full alr todaE!
F***
gp b timing sux but still F***
i swear i want to score better than that selfish bitch!!!!!
and the last freaking thing of the dae!
we were on the same shuttle bus as her!
F***
cus the others abhor her!
she like talked to mi
when i freaking dun wan to tok to her!!
F***
and we took the same train,
i so wanna die at tht moment.
now i understand y the others cant stand her
and i duno wad to do when we are in the same class in future!
SHITTTT
i hope she doesnt freaking cling on to mi.
cus i like freaking hate that person


enough of rantings.
pardon mi!
cus todae is a bad dae.
dor lost her phone.
and all the freaking things that happen.
i may be tired.
but still it does makes some sense that sometimes that they are irritating!!!!!!!!!
i so wanna leave!! save mi.

wad if i dae i do sth foolish like dem.
i might as well kill myself.
though surferger is a nice guy wWHEN he doesnt ask those idiotic qns.
but still sometimes he is a bit oveR!!!!!

exams next thurs.
good luck to mi!

new timetable out.
exams till 13 june!.
3 daes b4 my bdae.
bleah

go june.

i got a new nephew!
hhaha..
how many have i now?
i totally lost count. haha.
hope he will be cuter than his sis cus shes a nuisance!
hahaha!!!

WORK is F*** ______.
everyone is talking abt bonus and pay rise!
but i got none!
F***
cus i was later by 30daes?
jus so shit!
nic got pay rise by 250!
by daniel only got less than 50!
BAHHHH!!
my boss is such a miser!!!!!
i guess even if i got a pay rise,
i wont get as much as nic!
i so wanna know how much he will give mi.
but i wont dare to expect much.
Y am i in tis freaking lab?
duhhhhh.
but stefan who hasnt work 6 mths.
got a pay rise!
thats wad i am unhappy about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F**
but hes a post doc.
so its different.
but he got 700 increase in paY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so jealous,
yet so F*** up abt not having pay increment and bonus!
bonus!!!
1 1/2 mth.............
i can go shopping w it.
i can go aussie to visit qr!
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
blame on MPEA!
why din thay let mi leave earlier?
so i can look for a job earlier and get my bonus and pay rise!
SHIT SHIT
but i miss baba!
tht pig...
ahahaha..

i finally got sweet dreams.
hahahahahah.
its so hilarious.
but shant say more.
off to do assignment.
havent even hit 10%.
jus kill mi.
bah.

todae is a bad dae!
everything pissed mi off.
wadevA!

qns of the dae.
where do you live?
2 ppl asked mi where i stay todae!
and they are like ppl who i am not close to.
and like someone i seldom tok to.
it just feels weird.
both ppl are from the lab beside mi.
one is their pHd student.
another is their jap postdoc.
hahaaa!
but they are so cute esp the postdoc!
cus plyn qr nic dor always dun understand wad he is saying.
thinking back,
i wonder if he meant to ask mi tht.
lol.
in addition, he still told mi he needs to move out.
so i said he can move to stay w his gf who is also working in the lab.
lol!

i dissect 11 mice todae.
lol.
and i am like still so glad abt it.
WTF?????
am i sick or wad?
but i jus realised that its actually so easy to cut up the mice and get the organs.
how come it always seem so hard when i see dem do?
lol.
thanks xinde fer trusting mi and to let mi do it!
he did 11 too!
hahaha..
karmaaaaa..

off to do assignment.
counting down 2 weeks.

i hope the proteins i chose fer assignment are not chosen by others!
there are 20 to choose from BUT
i heard a girl from my class sayin she has already chosen it!
WTF?
i haven seen it the list la.
they are so scary!
i dun wanna work on uncharacterisd protein.
DUHS.
haha!
i choose the ones that i tink my post doc might noe.
those that my lab is working on!
hope i wont get any disappointment!
*fingers twisted*

ohhh..
for the 1st time i miss my colleagues.
hahahah~
cus i need their help for assignment!
i so need the help of their brain!
lol!!!
o0o0o0o..
there are 2 types of assignments to choose from.
which one should i do??
both kills anyway,
either 1, i will still die,
i jus wanna minimise the effect!
if onli i got work.
they will help mi!
lol!
sufer gAL!
tell mi which one!!
wad a loser i am.
lol!
but!
at least i dun plag or wad.
and its not as if they will help mi do anyways.
BLEAH.

qing ming once again.
bro n sis went to visit granny.
felt so bad.
missing grannyyyyyyyyyyyy.
things have changed so much.
yup,
3 yrs passed.
time flies huh.
how life would be now if she's arnd?
anyway life goes on.
hope she's doing well and everything.
although i din went to bukit batok,
i went mount vernon w mummy,
grandpa and grandma are there,
auntie and uncle too.
how time flies,
seriously,
one auntie tht i was quite close w has passed away in 1994.
now its already like 2008.
how much i have changed?
i dun remember i was onli in pri 1.
i tok i was older.
but..
nah...
all those memoriess.
now their children all have pups,
i meant children.
they are all cute.
regina;s 7?
so i guess so.?

assignment assignment and exams!
3 week is all i have got!

i am so shag.
i turn on my lappie wanting to blog,
but after it turned on,
i dont even feel like wanting to touch it.

For my assignment(bioinformatics),
i face the com for long hours everydae,
it makes me sick of using it.
i wonder how i can stand using the com for long hrs in the past,
i mus be crazy.
but i guess its ok if it was fer leisure but to work w it,
it is a chore.
assignment 1 done.
1 more to go!
go june.
assignment is crazy.
i have been lacking of sleep.
i slept at abt 2 and wake up at 7 fer work.
i wanted so much to take mc.
haha!
cus seriously, when one din zz well, the head hurts.

and my postdoc is starting to hate mi. hhaha
in a week,
i killed 2 of his precious mice.
the 1st time was ok,
but the 2nd time which was todae,
i can feel the anger in him.
he actually was planning to use the mice fer timed matings on mon.
but 1 less now.

work is crazy.
i did abt 30 matings tis week.
22 todae!
when they start to get pups.
you shall see how i die.
imagine 30x2 females,
each about 8 pups.
480 pups a week.
just kill mi.
the boss is crazy.
so are the others.
who will save mi??
=((

exams on the way too.
24 april.
time do pass so quickly.

shant cont.
needa mug,
haven mug since i was busy w assignment.
go june.