lalala..

concert is tomorrow but i aint excited about it, cus i tink we are not prepared. you will see it tomorrow. i gotta admit i cant play a few songs but i left early todae anyw cus i am too tired!

i am goin shanghai tml!!! wooo hoo!! will i be sad? will i miss every1? i guess i will=) so you mus miss mi oso ok? hahah!!!

i coming back on 1april SQ805.. haha.. heheheeeh!! yea, jus tellin you all, jus in case you all miss mi!! haha.. landin at aroun 2150. haha..

haha. i got no auto-roam!!! haha.. i wonder if my mum activated it. hahah!!

bla bla bla!! so tired!!

i got something to say!!

i am w danny le..=)

actually i duno if i will be happie w him, but...

i told hung ming and jason tht i am attached, they are disappointed, but i am sorrie and i hope they understand. jason zu fu wo, but hung ming din. they are both nice ppl i know, esp jason. =) he booked a cab fer mi to go airport on sun, help mi sell conert tix bla bla bla.. i appreciate it=) i realli do.

i duno if i will every regret, but i have chosen my path. so bless mi ok?

he's not coming fer my concert, neither is he coming to send mi off. nice guy right? yea, he got his reasons la.. anyw, i goin shanghai!! =)

lalalala..

i am so so so boreD!!!

i am at HEADQUATERS now!! whahaha!! its a lan shop, w lata(panda). he playing dota.. so sian!! cus i duno how to play, den serve net lo. ya.. den blog!! hahhha.. sians sians..

we went to watch nanny mcphee!! whahaha! the show was ok, its sth like mary popin, onli tht mary is some sort of musical while nanny isnt. lol!!!

still tinkin if i wanna go bishan later a not.. lol..

its onli 1930 now................................................................

so so so tired...

lol..

i finally completed my project on fridae at around 0450. yea, tis is the first time i complete my project so early. the deadline was 1200 tht dae. my gp mate went to hand it up, yup.. anyw i slept till 1200++ tat dae.

i dun rmb where i go tht dae!! hmm.. fridae... OhhH, i rmb!! lol.. i went out w ivan daddy. lol!! bought yun's present. we first went to parkway, but couldn't find it,den we went to tampines. yea, we met yun after buying the present! lol.. it has been a long time since i last saw her! haha!!

sat, went to band.. super sianx! i reached at 1000 lei!! power rt? lol, its the 1st time i reach band so early. i left at 2130 cus i super tired and the braces keep rubbing again my cheek, very xin ku nei..

sometimes i wonder if there werent any alunmi band, maybe mi, ismail, meng and soe will still be F4 + 1.. but now, it's like we seldom tok to each other. sometimes, i dun even feel like talking to dem becus nowadaes we onli tok abt band and band and concert. hopefully, everyting will be back to normal after the concert. cus i had not been regular in band, den they are not happie cus i cant play yet i still always wan to leave early all tht. i noe tht whitely ppl are also pressurising dem, ya.. i got scolding from meng ytd sae i childish all tht.. ya, i admit i am wrong but i jus cant bring myself to sae sorrie to him. i duno y..

work todae was BORING!!! it wasnt busy at all.. lol!! william and i keep talking.. lol!! but i was very tired probably cus it has been a long time since i last went to work. yup..

ciaos!! lol!! so tired!!

i am so so so tired!!

got diarrhea in the morning!!

den went to remake my hair...

den went to band...

Quite pissed w meng lo.. he toopid shit.. ask if i playin fer concert? $%#^# if i dun play i go band on tue and thurs fer wad. super sickening lo tht idiotic guy!! $%$&^%&%^&%^.. sucker lei.. den sae i on probation....T#%#$%^#^%

now doing project!! super sian!!

i wnna zzz.

so tired..

haben bathe you noe..

but my gp mate still pestering mi!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

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tml finally deadline..

lol..

finally freee..

ciaoz!!!!!

i am so so so sianz now~

have been in front of the computer the last few daes doin my journal and project. super sianz!!

i am hungry now.. super sianz!!! duno tht hm checkin my report anot.. sianz!!

jus sian sian sian.....................................................................

haisss..

june gogogo.. fridae date line, hand up project, 1 week more concert, go Shanghai.. den no need so sians..

i went to school todae! lol.. haha!! i go school lei.. on a holidae.. hahaha.. super funnie.. esp joy! she damn funni and she look like jie da huan xi that uncle the wife.. super funni. i kept tink who she look like and luckily she wasnt angry that i said that she look like the jiu sth. sososo farni. than there are mei qi and joyce who could link everything to maple!! you will be amazed to wad they tok abt! super farni. but anyw, very nice to know them. lol!!

den after discussing project w my gp mates, i went to j8 to eat w danny, den i went home and zzzzz..

lol!! super sian.. super tired!! olso duno wad i wan.. super sian!!

i got sth to announce!

i FAILED my traffic police!!

lol.. i almost got into an accident todae cus i din not check my blind spot. ya, and i got an immediate failure for that.

i cried almost immediatly after getting my results as i walk to my instructor. He ask mi not to be silly, its jus a test, test of skill. yes, i admit my skills are not good enough cus my parallel parking still sucks and i dun have tha habit of checking my blind spots cus everytime my instructor is there so i din have to worry about it. i guessed i am too dependent on him. Actually i realli enjoy goin to drivin lesson cus my instructor, tommy chua is like a daddy to mi, sometimes i feel that i am closer to him than to my dad. i will miss him if i pass todae, cus we always joke arnd when driving! lol..

he knew i was nervous todae, so b4 he left mi to go into a room to choose the test road, he ask mi to treat it lightly, drive normally with a different instructor all these, realli like daddy right? he says if fail olso nvm cus he also pass on the 2nd time, its not like exams. den after tat, i dun feel tht nervous alr. but i still failed la.

i was disappointed at 1st, but after talking to tommy and tinkin, i tink i deserve to fail. cus i nv did as told.. not checking my blind spots and everything..

retest on 13 june! hope i pass.. tht'll be my best b'dae present if i pass.. muacks and goodie luck to mi!

i went to band, quite sucky, i almost wanted to leave after nick ask i tot you not playing, den i wen to tok to soe, i told him i play till interval cus i leaving fer shanghai, den he ask mi to go home. zai rt? den i tok to cm and ismail, den they ask mi to stay den i ask mushi to teach mi. haha.. cus i am quite afraid of her! haha..

i am so sick and tired of all those shit that happened. can i jus quickly go shanghai so i wont have to bother about all these?

time really flies, 13 mar is here once again. the dae i would never forget, tht dreadful dae. the dae when my granny passed away...

i asked daddy if we were goin to pray tml but he asked mi why which made mi felt so disappointed because he didnt remember cause he onli remembered the lunar date which is already over. yea, we prayed tat dae. i wondered how would life be if granny was still around? would i still be able to go shanghai? i dunoo.. maybe i dun even wan to go.. i miss granny though she always nag, i came to realise during my GC discussion that granny actually cares, but she dun show it. i used to tink he onli cared fer my brother cus he's a guy and i still tink she love him more, jus that he dun appreciate it. i guessed he regretted wad he did, but we jus din sae it out. i still remember my sister burst out cryin tht dae when we heard the news about granny. she regretted cus she always "quarelled" with her. i jus froze.. i din noe wad to do or sae, i wanted to go to the hospital, but my dad asked mi to stay at home. i din wanna disobey him, so he went with mum. i still remember clearly wad happened cus its so unforgettable. i told myself to stay at home more often if granny came back.. but she nv did..

my tutor gave mi an example about parents showing their love by asking their children to sleep early so that they would get enough sleep. you understand? hopefully you do, because every parent do care abt their children. it's jus the way they show their love that is different. often when we watch western movie, we often see the family so loving, hugging and kissing but in true life, it's not like that. maybe there are families that are like tht, but it's because they learn from the shows. pple have elvoed, change. we are different lot of ppl from the ppl in the past in terms of clothes we wear, the life we live etc... actually i dun tink any1 will read tis as it's jus.. someting i wanna type.

i duno wad to type. not because of the one yr anniversary, but abt band and other stuffff.. i wanna go shanghai!! but i noe that's running away and i noe that when i come back, the pb will still be there.. at least i got 6/7 daes of PEACE!!

i am so touched by yun, xiu, suet and meng!! cus they wan to send mi off!! so sweet!! but suet and meng got performance tat dae.. so .. i duno.. ahha!! but actually its the tot that counts.

counting down to shanghai, about 15 more dae?.. here i comE!!

i had a busy week last week!

had school every mon to fri at 9 and work after tht, was totally shag!

i din go band todae as i went to made my braces ytd and it's still painful and i cant even eat and tok properly, how can i go to band? sorrie!!! i tink maybe i cant play fer the concert too cus i cant play anyw..

so sian.. got gp assignment and individual journal to hand up next week. ciao!

i miss my jie meis !!

i realli do..

it has been a long long time since i saw dem =( (except suet)

it's hard to describe my feelings, but i realli miss you all.. sob sob..

i noe we are all busy with our things, even during holidaes. maybe its mi who is busy during the holidaes, but, i realli hope i have time to meet up with dem, i realli miss dem.

yun, i see you on msn now and then, but i have not seen you since last dec? i miss you.. =( and congrats on your good results and, mus miss mi ok?

xiu, i miss you too, have not seen you since last dec too =(, you are so so so busy with school and goin on attachment soon. when will i see you?? miss mi also ok?

lu, i miss you too, so long nv go back cartel work le.. haha!! i am having holidaes now!!! haha.. put a tag board on your blog ok? den i can tag!! lol..

shan, i miss you too, i also nv see you since dec ba, if i din remember wrongly.

iris, i noe you will nv see tis, but i still miss you. we are in the same school, but i seldom see you.

suet, jia you together ok? 3 more weeks!!

ohh, i miss you all so much!! how i wish i could go to the chalet. i asked william to help but he said he got someting on n guessed wad? i saw him at mah workplace! #$@%$#%#.. so shitty! y he din help mi? sianz!!

granny's one yr (lunar calander) was on fri. many aunties and uncles came. it has been a long time since my house was so crowded w ppl. do you understand? i dun tink so.. but, i miss her too. i still remember meng telling mi she will be fine, but she nv recovered. i noe he jus wanted to comfort mi but..

actually i got so many things to say, but sometimes i am jus lazy to blog. hais..

i still got school tml~ ciaoz!

so sians now, meng on msn keep asking mi to go band. okok, i know, i sux at playing the clarinet and i am not putting enough effort, i'm jus plain lazy.

the story goes like tis...

band starts usually at 8 and i usually cannot wake up. the earliest i went was 11 plus. we went fer lunch after warming up. last sat was worst cus band started at 10 and i reach at 130. mu shi was angry tht i cant play and simon taught mi during dinner. ( it also means tat i cant go fer dinner, suet packed it fer mi. thanks ger!)

we had combine from 7plus-9plus tht dae. yup, ismail kept asking mi to go band on tues and i told him see first as i had to check my schedule first. now that the schedule is out and i know i cant go. i duno wad to do now cus meng jus told mi simon complained abt my playing. now that we onli have 3 weeks left, i told meng i dun wanna play cus i cant play plus i dun tink they need mi, den meng angry. ya..

we made a deal tht we go band on sat at 8 to prac, but he knew i cant go on weekdaes. i promised to go next week onwards la.

now tht you know where i spent my time on sat.. isnt it boring?

school starts tml fer 1 week b4 i go shanghai. yup, 1 journal a dae, 1 journal 1200 words, i duno how i am gonna write it. hais..

all the best to me tml.. lol!!

i am so so so nervous now, bcus i am goin to be plucking 2 more teeth later!! its already 0335 and i cant get to sleep!! hais.

i dun wan to pluck any more teeth!! its so painful and disgusting!! mummy help mi!!! hais..

agnes is goin w mi to the dentist later. yeppie!! but it's still gonna hurt!! hais.. so nice to have her to go w mi!! haha.. thanks da ma!!

hope i will be able to sleep soon!! sianz!!