My heart area is hurting real bad right now....I haven't had this feeling for a long time. I am lying down now on my bed, taking very slow and shallow breaths...

At the moment I'm in my 1st semester of year 2 in my university course. Every area of my life is not doing so well.

Let's talk about studies first. I realised i have been going through a similar cycle this academic year. I was really doing well in the first 4 weeks of school. After that i got tired of studying. Then tutorials and lectures started to get ahead more and more. By the way, i scored an A for my thermodynamics quiz and a B for Mechanics of Materials. Quite a feat. Since i've never scored A in uni quizzes before. There only 1 month left to my first exam on Dec 10. I have got alot of ground to cover. If I stop studying, I'll surely drop. Here's my plan. I'll just keep on keeping on, chipping away at the concepts bit by bit.

In my athletic career, I was incepted into the university's track team. The trackers are generally very well mannered and easy to mingle with, but between me and most of them, it's largely unfamiliar. I am still training with Ronnie and will continue to do so until he has a better suggestion of someone better than himself. Another competition (IVP 2010) has gone, and no medals won. Going into the competition, i knew i was no medal hopeful. The last jump session before it, I was struggling to clear anything higher than 1.50m. But in the few days leading to my event day, I watched some videos and managed to alter my technique for better. During the event's warm up time, I managed to clear 1.60m with at least 5cm to spare. But in the actual jumps, I was out by failing to clear the first height of 1.60m. But I sincerely thank those jumper buddies who encouraged me when i went up for my last attempt. Lynn's support was most edifying. I am just going through a journey to greater success and breakthrough. 

Today is Monday the 20th, September 2010. It was a weird monday. I dozed off in my lectures more times in a day than I can remember. 8.30-12.30pm lectures. Then I started off my 4 hour break by napping at the gallery area of the badminton hall in SRC. It was still too hot to do my training at the track.

1.30pm came. I went for my routine warm up and noticed a kiteflyer on the field had her kite stuck over a wall net behind the soccer goal line. I knew I had to help. I tried flying the kite from one side, hoping that it'll take flight high enough to clear the net. But apparently it was assembled wrongly, causing it to swerve left and right while it caught the wind. Then I saw a solution. the kite was connected to the reel by a fishing line connector. It was simple then. I just had to unhook the kite, let the lady reel back the end of the line over the net. Praise the Lord !

But it wasn't my time for training I supposed since it poured while I was midway into my drills. It's alright...Tmr going back there at the SRC stadium to do jumps. I'm just not pleased that the high jump mattress is wrongly placed. 

vertical jump 65cm. Impressive! I never thought I could lift up so much. 

SBJ 243cm. 

The grace of God came the first thing in the morning. I slept through all my alarms, and found myself facing my phone which displayed 8.17am. And I am supposed to get to the church by 8.45am. I didn't even bathed. Just took some precious moments to comb my hair and wheeeee I'm out of the house. I was contemplating taking a cab down, but in view of my plan to save money, I chose to take a bus since it wouldn't hurt to be late. And it seemed God had made the world go according to my time. The bus came right on time, and I blazed through the church gates at 8.45am, with a dozen students rushing in as well. Hallelujah ! I couldn't sleep last night after the WC match between Germany and Spain. Not because of the results, but because the revelations of God and loads of Bible verses were burning into my memory. Maybe the "foundations of our truth" book by Ulf Ekman was too good a read.

I visited the library to get some materials to balance off my spiritual reading. I found some magazines I really liked! I left with one Nat Geo mag on "The Tallest Trees", Sports Fishing, Winning Jumps and Pole Vault, Lewis Hamilton biography.

Other things

-Collect my racket after restring service. A sword bonded with its master again. Muahaha...

-Dental. 

-Free 10mbps 6month contract+modem from Singnet package came earlier. Very very zippy internet. Abit of heaven in the house =D

Today was a beautiful and wonderful day. Although I slept late on the previous night and had a mild blocked nose, but I was absolutely fine in the morning.

Then I left home for SOT with Rev. Mike Connell with us for the third day. He was just like he is known(or feared by some). Rev Mike moved powerfully in the Spirit, and taught us to minister to people on the first day. We learned how to recognise the Spirit of God moving within us, to be familiar with Him. There was massive deliverance for the past 2 days when he started to pray and minister to the SOT students. I would not go into details here for the sake of privacy, but I can tell you the City Harvest Church basement auditorium turned into pandemonium. While I was standing at the front, my tears well up just seeing the fellow students get released from their bondage and feeling the heart of Father God.

But this is not why today's a day like I mentioned.

I got confirmed for a new tuition assignment that would pay $30 /hr for 2hrs each week. This will be my third assignment, but only the second one I'm juggling now.

So in the evening I made my way to NYP for track training after taking a good nap. When I was walking across the Yio Chu Kang stadium I caught a beautiful sight of the sky. It was the most glorious picture of clouds and sunlight I have ever seen. The clouds formed a heavenly corridor from my line of sight. It was an amazing contrast of clouds from the foreground to the background. The sun was beaming onto the clouds at the back. Golden, Glorious ! I had wanted to snap a picture of it but I thought it is better that I keep it inside my memory.

I think I haven't shared this before to anyone. One of my hobbies is to watch cloud formations in the sky. Whenever I look at the fluffy clouds and hues of the sky, it reminds me of God's amazing power and creation. This luxury is free and available anytime in the day. I don't get to travel overseas as much as I would like to, so I don't have the chance to see other magnificent natural work of God. This would be the next best thing.

The training today was fruitful.

I was so much more confident in my back flips because I peeked over my left shoulder before I flipped. The purpose was to mimic the moment when I cross the bar in an actual jump. Good arch motion :)

Ronnie made me do a wide run-up to focus on maintaining a consistent speed at the curve. It paid off really well as I managed to do some seriously big and proper jumps over the bar. I still have the potential inside me! But i need more practice to get the feel during the take-off and bar clearance because I just can't seem to visualise my body going up and rotating over the bar. It's easy looking at videos of how jumpers clear over the bar, but first-person perspective is so different and intimidating.

That's my good Wednesday. =D

Extract from Pastor Kong Blog : Daily Devotion

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You must be very careful when you want something very badly from the Lord. Because when you want it badly enough, God may give it to you. However, you must be ready to face the consequences of your request. That is why prayer requests must always be according to the will of the Lord. And sometimes when your prayers don’t come to pass immediately, it may be because it is not God’s best for your life. But if you stubbornly insist on it, God may grant you your wish, even when He knows it is bad for you. Psalm 106:15 says, “And He gave them their request, but sent leanness into their soul.”

You must make sure that the desires of your heart are in alignment with the will of God, that your heart is in tune with God. And what you are seeking is also what He desires for your life. Otherwise, you may live with regrets later on. Despite the repeated warnings Samuel gave about the danger of having a king, Israel refused to listen. Eventually, God granted them their wish. Saul became their king … and what a terrible leader he was for the nation.

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This simply defines what kind of psychology we should all have in our prayer requests. Thank God for giving such a revelation to Pastor that has been imparted to us.

March 17th, Wednesday 2010 is a special day for me. This is the day I first fell under the power of the Holy Spirit. I recalled, I was seated second from the left of the 7th center row at the floor area. On my left was Liu Bo, a fellow SOT student from China Liaoning. On my right was Chee Keong, my team 29 member. Pastor Derek was laying hands on people in the front randomly. I remembered one lady laid on the floor for a very long time. I kept praying in tongues, hoping and believing that i'd experience the power as well...

Then it came. It came as if a wave of air crashed on me. I just felt weak and fell back onto my seat, although I still had my senses.

We are taught not to look for the manifestation, but for the person, the Holy Spirit ! But this experience just brings about so much revelations for me. Firstly, the Holy Spirit is real! Jesus really left the Holy Spirit on earth for believers! With this, I can accurately be assured that everything else in the Bible is true already. Because the experience of the Holy Spirit is very tangible and is in the supernatural realm, and it was true. What more of the physical blessings promised by our Lord !? I wished I had a loudhailer to tell everyone of this experience I had. But I can't. I don't want to attract comments like, "Good for you lor." Some people will just think I'm boasting to people about my relationship with God. That's not what I want to do. I want to be a conversionist.

Hi. Been busy with alot of things. Stressed out, tired but happy...

'Don't Give Up!' , says Margaret Court. Don't give up on my dream.

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Semester 2 is starting tomorrow! I am reading only 6 modules, including laboratory. I registered for some electives but did not get it. Now I am hoping to grab them while others drop during the Add/Drop period in the next 2 weeks.

My problems are so minuscule in God's eyes. He can do all these and beyond !

Psalms 37:4
Delight yourself in the LORD 
and he will give you the desires of your heart.