My Yr 1 Sem 1 results are out! GPA 3.21 out of a possible 5. 

Below is a breakdown of the results. The target I prayed for was actually 3.5. But i guessed I wasn't faithful enough at times. But still thank God for whatever I have.

Just a short recap on my resolutions for this year. No 3. is done. No. 4 is very possible. 1 and 2 is out due to some serious setbacks.

1. Grab the basketball rim, not touch it. [Before Aug]
Why i have no succeeded? I didn't really put my heart to train on this one, especially when I started training with Ronnie. Because getting vertical height is just one small aspect of doing well in hjump.

2. Start trading options live and make real money as I enter Uni.
The truth is, I didn't have sufficient funds to trade options. I realised that the recommended risk-taking of 2% per trade would translate to requiring a USD2000 account to start with. I still have what it takes to do well in this and the strategies still look viable. So my plan now is to trade forex until I have a large capital to start on options.

But this year has been great. My first year with God. Doors were opened for me in the area of my hjump. Got the chance to train with a national jumper. Made so many friends from church. I really wonder what would have become of my social circle this year if I didn't go church at all this year. Although I've suffered physically more this year, I felt less worrisome about my future, as i know it is well handled by God's hands.

Today is my birthday! For the 21st time! And first time I did on my big day was to get out to Riverwalk to donate blood. The blood gang had Sam Lu, Jiawei, Sherrie and me. Sherrie was low on ammo(iron count) so only the males went for the blood bath. Me, being the chiongster, probably took the shortest time amongst us three to finish the sacrifice.

Be safe everyone. I'm turning in now. ZzZzZzZ

Ahh, exams are coming to an end soon. By next Thursday I would have completed my last paper for this semester. But my heart is heavy. Why? Because I have a irritatingly painful corn(or I think is plantar wart) under the ball of my left foot. I don't even feel like training my run for IPPT on 9 Dec. It just seems impossible to pass it. I foresee that I'll either go to the military Medical Officer for an excuse letter if possible or suck thumb and just do my best for the IPPT. 

Here's what I plan to do though. Try a bit of running these couple of days to see if the pain affects my running gait. If it's really bad, I'll seek the MO's advice armed with my National Skin Centre referral letter. It shouldn't be a problem talking to him about it because I didn't purposely caused an injury to myself so that I can be excused for IPPT. I guessed I was training too frequently and pawing my feet during jumps training. However above all, I'll just follow what God has in His plan for me during these few crucial weeks. I am still keeping my faith on my dream of clinching a medal from SEA Games in high jump. Wild and far I know, but it keeps me going, and believing. 

Today's service by Pst. Kong was smashing. He started with the time horizon before a professional becomes one. It takes 10,000 hours. Yeah It's just about the lifespan of a light bulb. SUCCESS= Talent+ HARD WORK. 10,000 hours of it. 

Then the second part of the word was built on Caleb believing in God all the time. One important message for me to bring home was, "Prayer is what will make your dream come to pass."

Earlier on before the service I attended the water baptism on the rooftop of the church building. It was sweltering hot before the actual ritual because everyone squeezed shoulder to shoulder under the big white tent. And so, Xiao Hui went and came back as Ruth. Peng Bo (or we call PB) left as PB and returned as Nick. Guo Lei departed and emerged as Gary.

And seriously, Ruth really draws a resemblance of Joanne Peh. But Ruth is like a mini version. Haha.

Took part in Citibank FX challenge yesterday. I only had 4 hours of sleep before i had to woke up at 6am. 

Some details:

Prelim Round (NTU)

2 sessions in a round. 50 teams. Top 8 teams advance to finals at 2.45pm. Bank 33 clinched top rank. uh, that's my team. 

Finals

3 sessions. Only top 10 will be awarded prizes. The 2 people in the best team gets intership at citibank trading section!

So my team was really doing great in the session 1 of the finals, where we needed to deal with 2 currencies. We were up 1.4mil in profit/loss. The session 2 saw the addition of another currency. We lost all that profit because we tried to split our focus evenly on all 3 currencies. That situation didn't change till the end, when we saw a slight increase in our P/L in the 2 original currencies. So all in all, we were up 300k. But not good enough for the top 10 since the last on that list was 1.7mil. Winner locked in 5.7 mil. In conclusion, our fiercely discussed strategy worked in an environment of 2 currencies, but not 3 when the flurry of news breakout made things worse.

Good exposure. Great workout for my heart, which raced crazily during the sessions.

Well well, what a world of difference the management doctor made. This Dr. Wong gave me the assurance that not going for jaw surgery is a totally fine decision. He said things like, "Generally the take-up rate for this jaw surgery for guys are low. They can live with the discrepancies unlike women." He also mentioned about the surgery, "SGH would cost about $5,000 while private surgery would be $6,000 to $9,000. You'll stay in hospital for 3 days and MC for 4 weeks. Most patients will experience numbness in their lips and most will only get back half of their lip sensation. But they will become used to it."

So many phrases and thoughts were flashing through my mind this morning.
"God can see all the things that are happening in your life right now."

From yesterday's cgm, "What is your promised land? What is the point of getting to  the promised land if God is not going there with you?" This line struck me hard. Yes, I might eventually get millions from my trading, but what is the point if God is not there with you anymore by then?

"To hear what God is saying to you, you need to know the word of God. That is, the Bible."

Tonight, I'm going to draw up a battle plan for next week's test monsters.

Today has been my worst day in months. My nose was dripping profusely the whole day, and I even had to get through a 3-hour lab session. Right now my nose feels so sore. But there was a silver lining from God though. I did better than I prayed for in my second maths quiz. It was a killer quiz, as you can guess from the stats I retrieved from my professor.

As you can see the rest of the 2 classes scored mostly around 30s and 45s.

I prayed for at least 60 and got 75! My result literally came out and shocked me. There were 2 questions worth 50 marks each and 20 marks for a bonus question 3. I did not even do the bonus question at all. I was quite sure I nailed the 1st question at the head but I did a very different method and calculations for 2nd question which lead to nowhere when the time was up. I thought I was a goner for question 2. But hey in the end got 45 and 30 marks for that 2 questions ;)

John 15:7 "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given you."

So friends, what are you believing in God for today?

Just got back from bbq with cell group at joseph's house in serangoon. Taking the public transport there and back is really tedious. But i feel genuinely glad to fellowship with them. And I made friends with two Koreans ! One of them is even studying in NTU as exchange student. Thank God for these developing friendships. Even though I'm such an introvert, so many new people just cross my path ;)

Here's a good one from me. "If yawning was a sin, I may have visited hell a thousand times." I just yawn uncontrollably sometimes. And the worst thing is, I actually know yawning is a habit and not a rightful way to show that I am tired. I saw a scientific report which found out that babies under age 2 (i think) do not yawn at all. But after that age, they learn it from the people around them, especially their mums and start yawning. So, it is only(not) human to yawn. But to feel tired, of course it's human.

I've just finished a long day. Studied so much after school today at the biz library. I learned something new today. You can't get a study room at the biz library unless you are a final year student or post graduate!

Yeah this week has been great. Kept my hands off live forex mostly this week. Going big Jo house for bbq. Jo=big=house. Haha. It is equivalent. See y'all !

"Giving up" really dawned on me just now while I was trying to start my physics tutorial. I initially thought I still have next week's tutorial to finish and yay I'll be on good pace with my tutorial already. But I got a shock when I saw that particular tutorial sheet was scribbled. That means my tutor had gone through that, albeit not all the questions. Damned, hate the "currents of the world", I hope I can get a job with an exorbitant pay in future so that I don't need to give a heck about chasing paper qualifications or sucking up to the boss for a promotion.

On the brighter side, I have completed and submitted my lab report last week. That is a major burden gone. And completed my maths tutorial for this upcoming week ;) Time to go make up for lost time.

Aha today I got mood to blog. Actually no. I'm starting to feel an onset of sore eye. I hope it did not come from Melissa, whom had an eye infection and I grabbed her hand during service just now. No please no.

Okay I just want to talk about my forex trading first. You already knew from before that I lost more than half of my capital due to my greed and "God knows what came onto me". And it happened again this week. I traded upon an important news announcement (called the US unemployment rate). I lost USD49 on that. You may think it's small money. Right. But when I have only USD220 left in my account. That is a suicidal trade. I told myself I would not risk more than 2-3% of my capital on any single trade. But as you can see, I was gunning for a desperate attempt to pull my balance up back to where I would feel comfortable enough to sleep well for the night. But ummm long story short, I told a very short term trade on friday with a super-sized lot(that could be suicidal again if it lost). Luckily, it was a winning trade and it hit my target profit and I netted USD 33.60. Another trade gave up USD 13.75.

I guessed, after all these stupid trades, I will gain some precious and not to mention expensive lessons as a live beginner trader.

Okay, now is time for some deep thoughts I have about trading the markets. I read from somewhere in the past (yeah I really did borrow more than 50 financial books from the library) that the markets are called a zero-sum game. Because whenever a investor or trader loses, someone else in the other side of the world or whom takes an opposite sided trade wins. For forex markets, the biggest players are banks. I supposed they are tasked by the government to monitor the local currency and keep it within a range that is good for the economy. I can't say banks always lose, but it is obvious to say that they hold the largest trades and could potentially lose big. Sure, banks definitely got the state-of-the-art technology to sniff out the word out there, but there's no guarantee in trading. Especially when you are forced to handle huge trading sizes. It is difficult to get in and out of the market. 

So I kept asking myself, so all in all trading the market is like a tug of war game between the sellers and buyers. One need to have a proven strategy and periodically change the trading idea to win most of the time. Then it raises another question. If more and more people gradually win more than they lose(assume that increasingly number of people attend trading courses), then who are the ones who genuinely lose? My answer is those newbie traders who think they know what they are doing, but ego eats them and their profits...

I have an advice to those who intend to buy those unit trusts, or mutual funds as they call it in the US. Nobody cares more about your money than yourself. Do you think that person who sold you the unit trust package cares about how much you can earn for yourself? He/she is actually thinking how much commission that can come from you. And those fund managers? Come on, why do you pay the monthly or yearly fees to them to invest your funds when they can't guarantee profits?

I heard a real life story from one guy in Wealth Mentors. He said he invested S$10k in some kind of investment scheme by ****(the company has the biggest chain of supermarkets in singapore. Go figure out). 8 years after he investing in the late 1990s, he got back a profit of less than 100 dollars. He himself was a very successful trader when he retrieve the money out. And he told anyone from then on who came across him trying to sell him investment policies, "Take a look at my profits. Can you guarantee these profits?

Guys, I'm not trying to stop you from investing your hard-earned money. Yes some investment plans work really well. But unless it is deposit guaranteed, anything can go wrong isn't it? Please do a thorough research on the risks and rewards of whatever you put your funds into.

Bless you all. The phrase that reached out to me this week was, "Don't follow the currents of the world, but the kingdom of God. Not my will, but Yours be done. "

Hello guys, just want to use this outlet now to vent my anger and frustrations. The past 2 days have been the worse of my life.

Let me walk you through what hit me recently.

It was Wednesday night. I was paying alot of attention to the forex market, since I got my live account weeks ago. Before that stupid thing happened, I was down 50USD for the account. But it was good trading, I followed my own rules and traded carefully. But it was at 2.15am+, a big US news(Fed Fund Rate) was coming out. I told myself before I would not trade news, because I know how and also heard how volatile the prices can move after the news broke out. But for that one night, I turned into a devilish gambler on the market. I traded huge position, 5 mini lots. Lost it. Then I was bent on getting my money back. I traded in 4 mini lots and lost it again. In that 1 hour, I lost about 200USD. I immediately turned feverish and tried damn hard to get myself to sleep. Kept blaming myself. This is just so stupid. How could I have done such a thing when I know clearly that it was going to be akin to gambling? I guessed I was probably too focused on trying to pull my balance up to the amount I put into the account. Greed. Sin. Bad.

Then next day I was to take my Material Science MCQ test in the computer lab. I studied the notes quite extensively, but heck I got 12/25. All the friends I know who took the test at the same time scored at least 16/25. From that point on my mind was running through all the stupid thoughts and comparing myself to people whom i know. Liuyun, Finian, guys I know in NTU. Damn, I'm always behind behind behind! What is wrong with me? I just can't keep on the pace. Everyone has got something to show. I don't !
Let's go down the list. My studies, below average and hitting the fail mark. My high jump, sucks so much that I gave up the chance to try for IVP this year. My financials? Always scrapping the barrel's bottom and asking parents for top-up. Trading, the options trading course i attended was badly timed and too expensive in retrospective. Needless to say, my current forex trading is hitting a crisis, but thank God that I still have half of my original balance in there.

As if all these weren't going to make me end my life yet, my new dentist told me a more alarming news. Because my original dentist ended his time with the clinic at Boon Lay MRT, I had to seek treatment with another doctor from that branch while my first doctor finds his new spot to run his business. So I thought the new dentist was going to just resume the work left behind on my teeth. But I went there, and he checked my teeth for at least 10 full minutes, and from time to time he was always sticking his index finger into my gum to examine clearly. At the end of it, he told me he was trying to see what my first doctor was planning to do with my teeth. He said my lower jaw protrudes out much more than my upper jaw, so there is a limit to how much the lower teeth can bend back to meet the upper teeth. From his professional viewpoint, he said a jaw surgery is recommended. I felt like my life is so wasted. Can you imagine how to operate on a jaw displacement surgery? That's is unimaginable. And I'm afraid I'll lose my speech if my nerves got affected. I am also shocked at why my first doctor didn't discuss with me that I might be going for surgery when I first put on the braces.

I kept asking God what was His plan for me? Go through all these hardships? I can only find relief in what was preached in last service, "God put us in situations so as to build us up"
If my life was like a balance, these 3 ghoulish things are on one end trying wreck my life and on the other side there is, fortunately, God to balance it up.

Hope tomorrow is better.

I helped out in gift wrapping at the children's church during evening! There were big boxes full of toys of all sorts. It felt like Christmas has arrived early and we are the hardworking elves hahaha! Jiawei was there to help too. He had an onset of rashes coming so he left earlier than I thought. We met Guo Lei at level 4 and he told us he started wrapping since 3pm and his right thumb hurts. We are doing the gifts for est 10,000 children! Praise the Lord !!

Then I spent 1.5hours from 9pm to continue my progress in Maths tutorial 4 on Derivatives. Good progress I would say. So much less distractions and so much confidence in studying which came from no one else but God and His house.

I'm in Lee Wee Nam Library now! NTU's engineering library. Well obviously I'm not using my netbook for work, but for analyzing the forex market! My trading life seems to got just abit more worrisome after my live account is up this monday. I have been looking at every currency pair chart from every angle and trying to improve the accuracy of my trade. I did alot of homework notes on the charts itself, sometimes I even find the chart too cluttered for anything good. Actually I'm setting to risk only 2-3% of my account for each trade. So there is nothing for me to fear.
I must continue to remind myself to play it cool. I will post weekly trade results here.

I am not a gambler.
I am not chasing profits.
I am chasing high probability of winning.
I don't trade for revenge just because I lost.

My forex live account is finally ready to trade. By God's grace I hope to double the account size in 4 weeks time or so.

I have been reluctant to blog because this blogging page is still the barebone html format! I think something's wrong with my browser or the blogger.com !
So yeah, I've been studying for 5 weeks in MAE in NTU already! Everything still fine, except the fact that I'm always a little behind the pace of work the school is going through.
Ok don't bother me now, I've got a Life Sciences CA on monday.

Collected my Lenovo S10-2 from Judy. She gave me a friend-only price! This will be my trading kaki in school from now on...

The Lord is blessing me with good forex strategies recently..YEAH!

I watched Blood Diamond last night on tv.
Loved the movie. And the soundtrack as well.
London, the first track on this youtube clip is the one I loved most. Yeah I think I cried at the end of the movie the last time I watched. We should really do more to eradicate the vice in the 3rd world countries.

Just got back from another session of jumps at NYP. This time I really took videos of my jumps. This is the first time my jumps were filmed. The actual jumps that were captured were pretty bad in technique. In other words, I myself was rather irked by those. But really have to thank Ronnie for continuing to train me and believe in me. My back feels so sore now because I landed on top of the bar at least 3 times. Now something red is popping out of my spine area. But it's nothing alarming...

Gotta turn in now...

What a shock! I missed the target profit I set on GBP/JPY by 5 pips. I could've kept 290pips, or $145 for the last trading day of the week... But oh well, it's all paper profits after all... But I believed God has shown me a glimpse of what He can do for me. I pray that my dad pass me a good sum of money to start off my trading...

Aiyoh! Either my computer is going boinkers, or the internet is really screwed. My Blogger site is only loading the html stuff. But I can still type this in my post box.

Today had school in NTU! I am rightfully a university student now! Sat through 3 hours of lectures held in the same place..

It was great for my soul coming back to church again at the JW building. I am back on the path of His light after straying off the route so much for the past week. And during the prayer meeting at 6, Pst. Chuang asked us all to dream our wildest dream and told us that God can do that and beyond. And after that, I thought of mine- SEA games Men's High Jump Champion. But I felt something more than God's capability. I kept getting ideas, hearing some innate voice asking me to jump from the other side. That means to take-off with my right foot (which is my stronger foot) instead of my left foot which I have been practicing now.

I thought about it quite a bit since I got home. I was thinking, I've trained so much but I still can't clear 1.60m with ease? Probably it's that I'm jumping with my weaker leg and the weaker side of my body..I'll explore options with my other side the next time I jump... Thank God for giving me something to keep myself busy about.

The gym was so empty this noon. I took my spirit and body to the gym for a lighter load workout since I'm doing jumps tomorrow. Then I had a quick lunch at the coffeeshop near Pioneer MRT and headed to Lavender to collect my new passport. The waiting time was quick than I expected. I was craving for Mr Bean soya bean drink and its healthy buns.
Takeaway: Lychee soya bean drink with pearls and 1 red bean and 1 blueberry bun !
Thank God for the $50 Robinsons voucher so that I could get a comfy Akemi Sleep Memory Pillow.

So how is my trading doing? It is a balanced result slip. I got back to square one again. Back to t3b's trading system. Took 2 wins ($110) and then 2 losses (-$120). I'll stick on to the rules and continue for the week. As long as I have a better win/lose trade ratio i should go live very soon.

Yesterday's jump session was a perfect ending. I'm not saying that I'm quitting hj ! Read on and you will understand why.

We did standing backflips, scissors and full-runup jumps.

Backflips was quite well-done. 1.55m from a jump platform.
Scissors was 1.55m too. But i only cleared that once. In theory, you can potentially flop 30cm more than what you can do with scissors jump. So I should be able to jump 1.85m. However I believe that is only true if you are a very skilled jumper since these theories are quite possibly based on professional jumpers and not the ordinary high school jumper.
Then 5 actual jumps. The first 4 jumps was no good. But finally I cleared in the last attempt at 1.60m. No fouls.

And believe you me, I did all those while my shins feel like a wrecked train. On hindsight, I probably shouldn't have ran the day before to NTU with a worn-out shoes.

My confidence is back. The double arm swing technique changeover might really be the way for me.

I'll try to do a run tmr morning to keep myself fit. And probably exercises at home later. Rouxin told me a phrase very motivating, "Persistence is going to get you to places you have never been before. Look at all the high jumpers who have won competitions. They have gone so far because they persisted in what they do." Thanks Rou for fanning my passion for hj, and for God.

Michael Jackson is gone. Left us too soon. He is truly one of his kind, only kind I would say. While it is still quite terrifying for me to watch the white-skinned MJ peering back at me in his videos, I cannot forget how inspiring his music was. His music often speaks of a worldly view, like in the songs Earth Song and Have you Seen My Childhood. And then there are the eccentric dance moves invented by the King of Pop himself.

If you need a song to remember him, you should listen to "You Are Not Alone".



I don't know why I have such a strong affiliation with MJ. I don't even own any of his albums. But yes I was always eager to catch him on TV. I remembered there was a series of interview shows with him on Channel 5. As much as I know, MJ bleached his skin to look like a white guy because during his time US are very anti-blacks*. And his nose job? I heard from somewhere that he underwent plastic surgery to shape his nose so that he could reach much higher notes.

*Correction: Nah MJ didn't bleached his skin. My bad. He's got a bad skin disease called Vitiligo.

Today it is a all-hell-break-loose day for me. At the very least, I thought the sleep felt revitalising.
I had 2 big drawdowns in my current forex virtual account. -44 and -50pips! The rest of the day I was just going blank. Aimless day at home. I decided I want to go stadium and train a little bit, but after I woke up from my hour long nap, the devil told me not to go! It might actually be my back pain that's bothering me...

-The God is my provider

Today was a wet day at NYP! And my jumps? Well, good and bad. I changed my arm swing action from a single arm to a double arm swing. The first 2 jumps were great according the Ronnie's observation, although I didn't clear at all tonight. He said my body was flying at the 1.80m area and it was my calves that hooked the bar in. But that is not the bad I'm was talking about. After that 2 decent attempts, my double arm swing just died-ed. Every time I ran up to the bar, my arms just wasn't in the right position to prepare for the takeoff. As a result, I always didn't attempt to jump and try to clear. I also got quite bored and frustrated at that as much as the group of jumpers at the pitside. No worries, I'll just fine-tune on that and do better. On hindsight, my shin didn't hurt! Yay, thank God for keeping me safe!

NYP's closed for the whole of next week due to the onset of the H1N1 pandemic so no training there for me...1 long trip less for next week! Wooh!

1. Jumping on wed! Uh, can't sleep tonight... too excited about wed's training. Ronnie told me he did another 2m jump again at his recent competition...Impressive, as he's just half a head taller than me only...

2.I got back from the gym, where I saw Stanley Goon and Joshua(W452) ! It's amazing how many familiar faces I can meet there...

3. Lately, I'm smitten by the piano piece "Kiss the Rain" by Yiruma.

4. Today at Forex($500 demo account)- lost $35 in the morning. Profited $80 in the afternoon. I was crazy to exit that 2 trades in the afternoon. It was still gaining momentum in profits lor... But well, at least I'm on the right track, I think.

I have so much things I wanted to say and upload but I am just too lazy. But here's something I like to share.

It's touted the largest fireworks ever seen and it's MIJ.
From Katagai Japan,





If you can, please go click to youtube and watch this same video in HD. I swear that you will not regret it.

I will be away from 11-17 Jun. Back to malaysia! Part of the itinerary is to go Cameron Highlands!

Can't wait to try out the hometown delights like the super tasty ice chendol, tau sar bing, hum ji beng, kaya kok (box). See you in a week.

Attended prayer meeting at 7am! Wooo. I feel so fresh right now...Haven't got up so early for quite some time.

Today is 8 Jun. And my membership with WMentors is officially over. So i can no longer access their forums nor receive any trading information from them. But I believe in God's grace that I had learned much more from them and I can become an independent options trader now. Just let the right market conditions appear and I'll strike it hard one time, two times, every time. Stupid bears and bulls, kill yourselves yeah and i'll win on your deaths.

I'm planning to head down to NTU track for my training later in the afternoon.

I was incredibly attentive during yesterday's church-wide bible study at expo. I felt I've learned so much things! And praise the Lord for empowering Pastor to hit home the message to me. Some great phrases I've remembered are,

"God works in you for His pleasure. Not the other way round"
"Don't be too proud when you have something going on for you. Hey watch it!"

The best one for me was, "Jesus went through all the extremes of humanity (an illegitimate child, King of Kings, servant, healer..) just so that he could identify with every single one of us on Earth."

Signing off.

I was hardworking today. Went to Xiaogugu's(3rd Aunt) house to deliver sausages from Sugugu(2nd Aunt). Then I helped to clean and speed up the 2nd computer in the house. I must say, thanks to God's grace, I did a good job. That computer was so much faster, and I was able to link the computers up to the internet. I faced alot of problems getting the connection up on one of the computer and I wanted to just give up altogether. Then I cycled on my cousin's mountain bike to BBDC by Brickland Road. It was tedious going up the gentle slope on the jammed high gear.

The driving was quite smooth but I got very confused just before the lesson ended. I guessed I used up my brain's RAM when I drove on the road too much. I had lunch at Xiaogugu house before heading down to NYP for training! Yay today was jumps day! But i'm starting to grow scared of the bar. I forgot how to "attack" the bar. The first thing we do is usually backflips over the bar while taking off from a raised platform or box. I performed that satisfactorily today! Crouch was having problem with that though. Even though he's 1.80m+...Next we did our full run-up. Geez it was problematic for me. Nothing works. My takeoff and attack of the bar is bad. I usually can clear the bar with my entire upper body. It's always the hips and below that's dragging the bar down. And I tend to scratch the mattress on my way up to clear the bar. That means a big fat foul! I landed awkwardly several times. Even Ronnie was worried haha... And then the vampire bite came...My left leg landed on top of my right ankle and the thinner part of the spikes sank into my dear ankle. It got numb after that! I thought I was gonna stop jumping for the day. But after a while the pain was less troubling and I did a few more jumps which I emphasised on flicking out my right forearm into the air. It had a small success I would say, because I had a better motion rotating above the bar and more hang time. I believe I can clear my pb of 1.65m on my next jumps training.

2 shots right into my right ankle.

Tomorrow my workout will be mainly boundings and hops. 10 sets of 10. My gosh!

Great things happened today! A van which beat the red lights barely missed me and had my instructor sounding his horn. I didn't even realise I was in danger because I was focusing on the pedestrians on the far end and wondered why they didn't want to step out and cross the road.

Then I headed to the ClubFitt Gym near the church. Cool it was quite empty. I thought the crowd will pick up as it is the school holidays now. And there I saw my Tanglin Sec senior Azli.

So far today I've been analyzing and carrying out backtests on the forex trades I did. I'm down as much as I'm up. Am looking up to God for guidance and wisdom in trading!

God has been kind to me this week. I was empowered with accuracy in my forex trading! I devised my own spectrum of indicators and methods and they turned out to be quite reliable for my trading.

Forex
14 trades
4 losing (stopped out)
1 losing (manually exited)
8 winning (target triggered)
1 winning (manually exited)

Profit: $101.96
64% winning trades

Options
Entered RIG Strangle 75 CALL 70 PUT for 4.85 and exited for 6.70. 38% gain!

Profit: $1.85 ($185 per contract)

I hope to improve the odds next week!

今天的训练好遭。
没有一次跳得过 1.60m. 教练说我还有十公分的空度。我最大的问题就是喜欢马上弯腰入杆。
心情遭透了。回家的路上，我低着头，走起步也拖着鞋。>.<"

1. Woke up at 11.30am. Damned! I wanted to keep tab on the forex market early in the morning. Nevertheless I closed out a trade for over $90 profits. So my $200 virtual account stands at $250+ currently.

2. Driving was not bad as I got a rather good instructor who had taught me before. My parallel parking was so much better today but I still got my lips scared dry.

3. I did something wrong today. I asked God on the bus to give me a sign. I opened my eyes, I saw a Caucasian lady holding up a few posters and looking at the first one which said, "Leave your worries to God, and he will iron out your problems." How beautifully timed was God's sign for me. Praise the Lord!

4. My right ankle feels less painful through my walking motion. That said, I should be able to train on Wed with Ronnie.

1. Didn't had a good time playing soccer this morning. Some malay guy blasted the ball into my left eye and twisted my spectacles. Not his fault at all. I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Then I tried to block a shot with my ankle. And now it's getting a bit dislocated and shaky. But I still managed to complete my training today without much difficulty. Praise the Lord for the strength when I needed it most just now.

2. Service was terrifying I would say...Evil spirits were getting purged and there were lots of yelling and crying. I told Jiawei who was sitting beside me that all those definitely could not have been fake at all. But I have yet to have an encounter with God... But my prayers were getting answered often...so that's a good sign at least ;)

3. Tomorrow I'll be busy helping my mum with the making of dumplings. Had to forgo the cg bowling outing...

Cheers! And I saw Kaijing after that :)

My Heavenly Father will provide for me in abundance.

Yes, and now I have to fold the "abundance" and put them into my wardrobe. That's a job for next morning.

Fact1: Singapore is the second most densely populated country in the world, after Monaco. Our 693 sq km of land is occupied by 4,657,542 people.
Fact2: With 693 sq km of land, Singapore is the 20th smallest country.

No wonder the public buses and trains are packed like sardines in a can!

Let me tell you why I want a sailplane license. Check out this awesome video!

Some of you know I love Sweden. I had a connection with the country many years back, when I chatted via email with a Swedish national high jumper. After knowing him, I realised I have to look further and higher in my jumping. I'm not after inter-varsity meets, or nationals. I want to go outside of the country. Anyway, here's a video to make you start to love Sweden. And make myself love Sweden deeper. It is the national anthem of Sweden, sang by the beautiful voice of Carola Häggkvist.



Du Gamla Du Fria

1

Du gamla, Du fria, Du fjällhöga nord
Du tysta, Du glädjerika sköna!
Jag hälsar Dig, vänaste land uppå jord,
/: Din sol, Din himmel, Dina ängder gröna.:/

2

Du tronar på minnen från fornstora dar,
då ärat Ditt namn flög över jorden.
Jag vet att Du är och Du blir vad Du var.
/: Ja, jag vill leva jag vill dö i Norden.:/

in English

1

You ancient, you free, you mountainous North

You quiet, you joyful beauty!

I greet you, most beautiful land upon earth,

/:Your sun, Your sky, Your meadows green.:/

2

You throne upon memories of great olden days,

When honored your name flew over the world,

I know that you are and will be as you were,

/: Yes, I want to live I want to die in the North :/

I'm born a winner. So I should stand tall and walk this Earth. Take pride in doing what I love!

I started today on a fantastic note. I turned on my laptop, blasted music from my iTunes and started packing my room. It was in a mess. Unfolded laundry, bags, tissue papers on my table. Even I myself was disgusted by the sight. After all that was done up, took my plain breakfast of Milo, 5 cracker biscuits and 2 slices of white bread. Ya, that's why I said plain! I was eager to see how my trade on SPY went because I missed the chance to close it manually it yesterday. I was tracking its progress on my LG Secret's Google application last night while I was out with LY, Finian and Mr Lee. I assumed that I wasn't stopped out for my target because I saw red on my phone. But when I opened up my TOS, my trade was off the hook already. I seriously thought it was for the worse. But no! I captured a profit on $2.25 on the contract which equates to $225. Haven't got a paper return like this in a really long while!

Star Trek was a fine good O' space war movie. But Sylar from Heroes was acting in it so it was really anti-climax because his role in Heroes kept popping up in my mind. And what the heck, Harold from the movie Harold and Kumar was in it too!
And now for movie forecast for the remaining of 2009!

Angels & Demons- May 15
Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian- May 21
Transformers 2- June 24
Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs- July 4
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince- July 15

I found another hobby to fill my day time. Scalping forex ! It doesn't hurt my wallet to play the demo account and I can perfect my skills in trading the candlesticks...

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.

Walt Disney, entrepreneur

1. Had my most emotional moment in Church today. Tried so hard to hold back my tears. It was just so powerful that I witnessed so many guys wiping their faces with their hands.
2. Decided to cut my head botak within next week. I dun like my thick hair. I want to be like Staffan. Botak and clear headed.
3. For countless times today and yesterday, I'm visualising the body movement when I am jumping up and cross the bar. I felt that 1.60m is a really good height to practise my takeoff and arch movement. It is high enough to make sure that I really need to JUMP up to cross and there is enough air time for me to do the full arch movement.
4. I'm getting more myopic. I'm seeing a very faint white blur when I look into this laptop screen. I am going to get new glasses before uni or else I can't see the lecture powerpoint!
5. I seriously doubt the local Adidas stores carry that yellow Sverige long sleeve shirt. It is damping my mood badly. If I could order online or get someone to buy from Sweden that'll be GR8!
6. I saw a picture of a girl wearing a baby blue Adidas top on the homepage. Baby blue turns me on! Okay the girl gets some credit too. ;)

My erjie told me off again. This time more power. Her first sentence to me just now was about me going out so late, spending dad's money again... I really cannot live with someone who tells me off within the first 3 sentences with me! I don't even want to defend myself. I just left her with her laptop in her room. Nobody understands me but God.

Okay let's talk about some happier occurrence for me today. I was at the Men United conference at church this morning and I saw this guy had a yellow long sleeved Addidas shirt. I will definitely buy one for myself because it was a Swedish national shirt! It had "Sverige" on the back! That means Sweden in Swedish! I am bent on buying it. Gonna check out the Addidas concept store in Jurong Point to see if they have it :)

I just couldn't forget that moment on Wed's training. I actually cleared 1.60m with 5-step takeoff! Although I fouled on that clearance because my takeoff foot grazed the mattress on the way up, it was a huge motivation booster for me. And Ronnie added the icing on the cake for me when he said my arch was the best among the three of us. The other two guys were Darryl and Chen Huan. Both of them can clear so much higher than me... I felt so freaking short around them.. CH is about 1.80 and Darryl stands at 1.88m. I absolutely have no feeling over my body when I jump up to the bar. I simply let the centrifugal force lead me over the bar. But I love the hang time. It's scary flying on my back, but it's more cool when I know the bar has stayed up! Staffan, you might have retired from jumping, but I am going to be the advocate of your technique.

I'm sooo blown away by his performance. If he had better control over his sustain pedal, it would be as good as the original. But surprisingly his video's view count is peanuts.

Today is Saturday and it has been wonderful for me. Well, that's for the driving part and the time in church as I said "hi" to so many people from Rouxin's cg, both the old and new. We had a bazaar at the top floors and I chanced upon The Passion of the Christ. I immediately asked the stall assistant how much it would cost. I was half-shocked and half-excited when he quoted, "Two dollars". I've never watched it before though I knew it was a massive act that brought Mel Gibson all the shebang when it was in the cinemas.

Before I went for driving, I was really in a low mood. I just wanted to stay at home and slack. So I said to myself 7 times of, "I love driving". Geez, I got that sleeping instructor again...He's good, but he just like to doze off...really easily. But with him my driving is very steady wooh!

Ok here's some more photos of my life.

The above ones are carefully watered by me in my room!
Notice the two small ones on the white pot? I thought they were dying because they just didn't grow well even though I showered them with care well. But after a few days of increased watering, they simply grew bigger!

These two are outside my house. I didn't touch them at all. No wonder they look so frail.

I am so book-hungry. Money-hungry.
All so that I have greater capacity to give more offerings :)

Mangoes are in season! Taken during my bus ride to work at Benoi Road.

On thursday night I headed down to NYP for training and met Ronnie with his friend/senior, Fan Long. He's a charismatic guy and totally university student type. Three of us were talking and laughing away while we do our individual sets of workout. Fan Long has been in NTU and track team for 3 years. He was quick to ask me if I wanted to help them in the relay for IVP on september! But I said I can give the team a pair of legs if no year 1 sprinters show up in NTU.
I actually arrived at the track just shy of 7.30pm and finished everything before 9.30pm. The boundings really killed me off. I haven't tasted the word "TIRED" in a long while. I was really panting my inner breath out after hopping more than halfway across the length of the soccer field.

The people are long gone. I was almost the last to leave.

Then it's a long long train ride home...alone...zzz...Treated myself to double cheeseburger and mcflurry!

Friday was a great day! It's my post-work day! But i still woke up almost the same time as if I had to work. It was just past 8am. I had a fantastic time on the piano, tended to my room plants and watched Heroes and Lost. There was this part in Lost where Hugo and Miles were debating about whether their lives are real. The reason for the debate was because they actually went back in time on the infamous island. So they were questioning whether if they can change anything, or if they are doing what is supposed to be done. After watching that part, it dawned on me about what God really has in store for me in life. Yes I know i wasn't from an "oops" kind of existence. He knows me before I was born! But why didn't He integrate the life's workplan into our mind when we are born into this world? Won't that make things easier for all of us? And, has our life already been written, or is it still a rolling page on a book?

I just have to enter my dream encounter this afternoon. I ate my zi char lunch and took a short nap at 1.30pm. When I was awaken by my classic "di-di-di~~" alarm clock, I felt so calmed, so peaceful. It was probably like Heaven. My heartbeat was slow, everything in this world was not bothering me. I didn't have the strength to rise up from the bed. I just lied down, only thing I know was that the clock was still beeping...10mins later I finally had the heart to shut it off. The vision or dream if you wish to call it, was strange. I was at the last row of the school hall. A class-strength of students were sitting in random clusters. I was amongst a neat row of them, back against the vertical ladder wall. A couple of people had their hands on me and praying for me. I was sitting legs crossed and similarly for the rest of the 5 or so people in my row. I was eyes closed. It's so strange isn't it? And the last thing I want to mention was that I was not being in the position of sitting down in that row. I was actually standing and overseeing the entire situation about 2 arms length on the left side of "myself". In other words, I saw myself. Creepy huh...

My driving was at 4. After that I took the shuttle bus to Gombak MRT station and visited the stadium. I casually strolled to the semicircle where the high jump mattress was. I was reliving the moments years ago when I competed on that exact area. It's like my "walkabout". I'm trying to find the motivation to carry on doing what I started dreaming about.

I got 6th place in high jump for that competition. But that's only because there was only 6 people(including me) who came for the high jump event. Hah. I'm always the loser. The biggest one. That's why sometimes I felt so helpless. So lonely. But that was a crucial moment of my life too. Ronnie(who's my coach now), was in that competition too. So i spoke to him about training and my situation. If not for that chance, I wouldn't have known him well enough to be training with him now. Thank God for that! The door to my athletic dream has been opened!

Weeee~~~ Today is a beautiful day and I had it all! Although I screwed up my picking orders umpteen times, I managed to find the missing piece every time, or so I think. I pampered myself with char siew shao rou rice for lunch. There is no canteen at the two-storey warehouse.Usually 1 hour before the 12.30 lunchtime, a china guy will shout for lunch orders. He'll write names and the order on an A4 paper and collect money. He's quite a nice guy. My day gets more enjoyable with him around as I interact with him and other co-workers more. Knocked off work on time! Headed to the gym and had a great session there. Only hiccup was that when I was skipping with the lift bar and weights on it, the caucasian gym attendant stopped me after my first set. She said it's not allowed for safety reason...Also offered to let me use a weight suit if I want to carry on the exercise. A pity. I didn't see what's unsafe about it... I was doing it off a bar rack and it had a area of its own. It's not like anyone will walk near me and get himself hit. But still it was a fruitful session. I did 25-30-35-40-35-30-25 kg on calf raises on the order of 10-7-5-3-5-7-10 reps pyramid. When I was leaving after my cooldown I met Weilong's good friend. He often tags along with Weilong for our soccer games.

Today is interesting. I saw 3 phrases on tee-shirts. In the gym, I saw "Singapore is a fine city" on an Indian guy's shirt. Another Malay boy came in with "SHUT UP AND TRAIN". I really wanted to ask him where he got that shirt. But I didn't dare haha...I will like to have one with "SHUT UP AND JUMP". The last tee-shirt that caught my attention was when I was heading home after getting my dinner at the nearby coffeeshop. An Indian man had a "You have to be the change you want to see in this world." That was the best phrase of the three. And it seemed like it was directed at me! Could that be God's subtle calling? Woah, I feel like I'm the policeman in Heroes. He keeps getting signs from the future. Then the Africa man with the stick always come along and ka jiao him. hahahaha...like saying " This is your destiny. You cannot avoid it. Draw out the future. The others need your help."

Moments ago I smsedh Mr Kiat from Chungco to ask him if there's work for me. He said the rate was $7/h and they do around 12 assignments per year. Their job is to update firmware of cameras, lcd screens or other products and the temp workers are supposed to help unpack and pack them after the update. The job period is very short. Usually within a week. I think i'll survive on that job for the coming months. I ain't going to find a new 3month job. My job is to jump!

I have so much to pen down in this post. I thought I'd better start now before 11pm for the FA cup semi between Everton and Man U.

It was a long Sunday. But I wasn't showing a long face because it was awesome! I woke up at 7.19am from 7 hours of sleep and rushed my wash up and breakfast so I can digest my food early before I start my training at the stadium at 8.30am. I had to start around that time because my dental appointment was at 11am. I don't like to be late. Basically I did very standard drills and the stomach and back exercises. I think I know what caused my comeback of the shin splint-alike pain. It was the straight-leg boundings. After I did one of them, I immediately felt a small amount pain streaking down my shin. I always knew something was wrong with the S-L boundings because I had improved my stride length tremendously from 17 to 13/14 strides for 30m. But back in the past weeks I didn't know it came from that because the pain came much later. So I thought it was a collective cause by all of the training. Okay then took a bath there and left before 10.30am. Yeah it was abit early when I got to the interchange. So I bought 2 cakes and soy bean drink from Mr Bean!

The dental appointment was the most painful so far. The dentist replaced the wires and some of the teeth really hurt when he loosen and tightened the metal clips for the wire to be set in place. But that's all. I still don't get the pain other people told me about when they had their braces. I had quite some time on my hand so I walked around the new JP area and found myself in the NTUC Xtra. I called Jiawei so that we could meet at the mrt before we meet the girls at Clementi mrt. Then when I was about to leave the supermarket, I saw my parents. Daddy was super generous to shove some pocket money to me.

Okay so we took the train all the way to Toa Payoh. We are actually going to a church friend's house, Maple's, for potluck and movie. I gotta say, I didn't find the train journey that long at all. Maybe because I was busy talking to Rouxin, Sharon and Jiawei. Then we met up with Daniel and Jian Cong at Toa Payoh interchange. Rouxin's cg is really warm and okay for me. It was easy to slip in to their company. And I am full of praises for Maple's cheesecake. It was almost as good as those I've had from cafes. But I always tell people this, I don't eat cheesecake alot. I can't tell what's a good cheesecake and a bad cheesecake. They all taste delicious to me hahaa.. There were about 10 people from their cg and I can almost name them all! We have Maple, Rouxin, Sharon, Kasuri, Yu Ling, Benny, Daniel, Jian Cong, Joseph and another Indian girl. It was a great time because we were laughing out alot on the action movie. Something is terribly wrong with the new movie and the wrong parts distracted my mood for the ending. But the movie should be great in the cinemas when it's out.

Umm that's pretty much the gist of events for me today.

Friday at work was somewhat easier on my mood. Because I felt more superior to others who were doing the same job on that day. It was a special day. On friday, they normally don't work. Or at least, they don't ask me to work. So on that day, there were like 15 or so new temp employees. Another higher ranked Indian lady briefed us, "We asked you all to come today to finish up the stock." So I reckoned that most of the regular temp people who worked mondays to thursdays didn't want to work on the friday, so only me and another quite new guy said okay to work. We had a few interrupting briefings along the way because some of the new ppl picked the stock in the way such that the containers aka toteboxes can't be closed. It isn't really their fault. They had a very insufficient tutorial before the start of work and "Okay you all can start picking." If it wasn't for Rui Xia who was around for the day, I think the new ppl will make a bigger mess out of picking. I took on a picking order for an entire pallet at about 5pm. The quantity was about 2400! I finally finished the last store's totebox without any discrepancies just before 8pm. And my phone was spammed by my dear church friends. It's sooooo distracting and tempting to reply to them but I just left it in my pocket after browsing through the smses. That Indian lady called all of us in again for a debrief. She said those who are not picking at point in time can sign out and leave. Those still picking halfway just finish up and sign out. Then she called out about 8 names from the attendance list and ask them to see her separately. And she ended it by, "All except the names I called out, tomorrow report here by 9am". I totally turned a deaf ear on that. I'm sure she didn't meant me. I've worked monday to friday already. Still want me to work full day on Saturday? Hey next week is my last already please... And I'm lined up for church on saturday wooohH! I did not bother to inform her that I cannot come on saturday. I admit I was being impolite not to inform of my absence and so forth. Thank God I didn't get a call from them pursuing me to go back to work today.

I was happy that I stepped out of the workplace at 8.30pm sharp! That was the time I quoted to Rouxin and Jiawei who was waiting for me in JP for dinner. I had my meal at Bentobox and I met another new friend Sharon! Then we pampered ourselves with haagen dazs ice cream! It was really wonderful with the 4 of us at a square table, in a corner shop of the big big JP. That should be closer to the life I ought to live. Hang out with friends at night !

Wonderful things happened this evening! I received my iBanking device from DBS. That's a surprise because I thought I screwed up my online application for it. The guide said this particular set of numbers on my debit card, but I entered another set. Additionally, I did see that I need to print and mail the application to them for verification. But hey the device came, I was able to remember the pin I chose, completed the iBanking registration and also the premium for my Medishield cover. It was a good load off my back!

Well, quite alot of things happened at work today. I got a warning again from the Indian lady who said my stock picking is slow. But it's all about relativity in smaller numbers! When 4 products divide by 2 min, it may seem like it's taking too long. But if you take 40 items divide by 2min, you think it's super fast. But if between that 40 items, 20 goes to one place and other 20 goes to another place. It's normal speed. And, when we write 1:59-2:01, it means 2 mins to a simple-minded person. But to me, that could mean a range between approximately 1 minute and 3 minutes ! Imagine you start at 1:59:59 and end at 2:01:00. That's 1min 1 sec. If you start at 1:59:00 and ends at 2:01:59, that's 2 mins 59secs. So the margin of difference at the smaller timings may seem to reflect a slow working rate if you see it that way. Finally she and another co-worker gathered all the stock picking ppl for a discussion. Both of them wanted to know why we're so slow and how we can become faster. But we all picking the stock know that it's not possible to pick their targeted 600 stock per hour. It's only possible when you're the only one picking the stock, and all the boxes are empty. That's the ideal situation. But get back down to reality lah!
And finally I told the floor boss "Lao Da" that I'm doing my final week next week.

I still feel bloated! But whatever, I'm going to gym in the morning tomorrow. Then work from 2.30 to 8.30pm.

About the stock and options market, it's getting more ridiculous. 2 days up, 2 days down ! It is probably better if I didn't enter any trades. But I did! 3 put-side positions yesterday when SPY closed higher !

My stomach continued to bloat for the second day. I was disturbed by the fact that I didn't bring my set of medicines to work. But I still managed to hang on for 9 hours till 6pm. I made a miscount in the stock today. I had 1 missing cleanser for the last shop's box on my list. I tried to retrace my work subtly but it was difficult as the boss was monitoring the area personally at one corner and time was drawing near for dismissal.

For the whole time at work, I wanted to tell one of the perm workers that I wish to end my work there tomorrow. But I keep thinking of rejection from them, since it was quite a short notice for quitting the job. So in the end, the scenarios just keep on playing on my mind. I just didn't have the courage to speak to any of them. But tomorrow, I'll tell them that I'm ending my work at the end of next week. Sigh, I need to prepare what to tell them if they ask me why.

I haven't trained since the start of the week. I don't even want to do the stomach/ back exercises. Who knows if it'll make my bloated stomach worse? I definitely won't go down to nyp this week too. But I'll keep doing my shin strengthening exercises.

My family went to Werkz Photography in Bugis for my er jie's graduation shoot. We ended up spending over $1000 for a handful of portraits. I didn't have a good morning because the black shoes I wore actually self-destructed. The rubber soles were coming out like bits of biscuit. I dropped lot of soles at the photography studio!

Then we zipped off to Red Star Restaurant for dim sum. We had to queue for quite a while but it's tantalising and worth the wait. I'm going to catch Harper's Island later on channel 5. But before that, it's time for Aston Villa against Everton match at 8pm!

"Christianity is not about a religion, it's about your relationship with God."
-Rev. Kong Hee

"When you jump high enough, you don't need to worry about the clearance"
Ronnie, Apr 8th.

Today my mood was as bad as the weather. I was supposed to go for the competition at 2pm, but it rained so heavily before that. I left house at 2.50pm and got there just before Ronnie did his jumps. He started with a tall height and managed a second place with 2.01m! Another guy with a Raffles shirt won the event. I must say his arch was awesome. I also met up and chatted a little with Mr Tham. I knew he was there. For the last moments I was there, a 400m race for males was going on. Some audience behind me commented something about the fastest runner who's a Tanglin guy. Wow I'm proud of that!

But what got my mood foul was that with my current job which ends at 7.30pm every monday to thursday, I can't meet Ronnie at NYP. I will have to train on my own with paper workouts from him. What added to the bad feeling was that my involvement in church is getting deeper and eating into my time. I don't really like that. It's giving me alot of pressure. Plus the Medishield cover need to top-up before 13 april. And practical driving lessons need to shift them to night or weekends. Aiyo!

I walked so much today.

During noon I headed to BBDC for a final theory practice then the real final theory test. I passed ! My heart just beat so much faster when I was about to click the "End Test" button to receive my result. But I knew God was there with me every step of the way. I could have got all the tricky questions for the test. Then I took shuttle bus to Gombak MRT. The 4th All-Comers competition was all live and going on at the stadium. I'm going to visit Ronnie at the competition tomorrow! Hey I better get my camera and phone charged.

Next stop was CHC ! I felt so sick during the seemingly draining sermon. But all ceremonies have to end somehow. Then I took off to the stadium for training. Thank God again that my shins didn't give me trouble. I walked back to the square hoping that I still can withdraw some money from ATM to feed my wallet. But lol I'm down to 1-digit. My financial breakout haven't come yet. It will come. So I walked past CHC to the bus stop for 179. And still walk some more from the bus interchange back home.

Here is a food for thought.
Should this world have a HIV vaccine?

This is a very good question to ask, in my opinion. I say yes, because innocent children around the world are getting AIDS from their parents, for example Africa. Some ordinary people around the world also desperately need it because they have families to support and the list goes on.

But on the other side of the scale, I have an equally strong opposition stance. No because, it may add to the problems of the AIDS problem in poor countries because greedy merchants will hoard all the precious supplies of this HIV vaccine and attempt to control the market themselves.

And all those men and women alike who fall into lust and affair temptation will have fun on the bed more often than not without protection. Why? Because there's no worries of getting HIV, or sexually transmitted dieseases for that matter. If HIV vaccines are available at pharmacies and 7-eleven stores, people will buy them instead of condoms. These people don't deserved to be saved by the vaccine.

AIDS is not like a flu. Flu will not lead to death, but AIDS will. It will be a life-saver. So the price tag for the HIV vaccine must be exorbitant. It's a life-saver. Then again it bring us back to my point on the dealing of the vaccine across the global market. Greedy traders will want to take profit from this lucrative but life-saving drug.

It is a double-edged sword, as much as the invention of guns. We use guns for many purposes, mainly to protect, deter and counter offense. But look again. What good has it done? If there was no guns in this world, there is significantly less violence to think about. Countries won't have to compete in the arms race to protect their lands against possible threats. All these defence budgets from every single country could be used to fulfil a better part of mankind.

So I ask of your opinion, do you want a discovery of HIV vaccine?

What a joke!? This afternoon someone from achievecareers called and offered me a $6/hr filing job in Outram which lasts for 3 months. I rejected with, "Abit too far. Yeah." Then just minutes ago my "special" agent from recruitexpress called me with another job offer. This one's in Joo Koon for $5.50 per hour for 1 week. Stocktaking, picking and packing. I am flabbergasted by what I've just did. I exchanged a job with higher pay and longer period with ease of travelling. OMG. But still I thank God for giving me something to do. I was really really bored today. I trained under the scorching hot sun this morning. Then rest of the day up till now, I'm still playing forex lol. It's so fun following the market and waiting to pounce on trade opportunities.

Uh. I'm feeling abit faint-headed after my first big virtual profit from forex came in. A whooping $485.09 from the USD/JPY. Thank you thank you :P :)

I had driving in the first slot of the timetable at 8am. I did better and had much more confidence than last lesson. But I made a more grave mistake. I had my left signal on, was planning to turn at the junction. But I thought I was heading forward. Luckily my instructor hit his brakes. But I don't think he realised I never thought of doing that left turn. I just switched off. Of course I switched off. I covered so much distance in my lesson today ok!? We went out of bbdc, then the instructor swop seats with me. Then we drove afew rounds in Bukit Batok, then roamed through CCK once which passed my Aunt's house. Then Jurong East, then back to the old market place near my old house in Jurong West Street 42. Then back to Jurong East and BBDC.

I was actually planning to do some speedwork and run-ins with my spikes at the stadium. But as I rode toward the stadium, I thought maybe it was closed for S.L match or something. And it really was closed! In the end I went back to the fitness corner near my house for stomach/back exercises. Tmr morning will be a gd time to train again.

I'm back to learning Forex trading, because the options market is really illiquid right now. Nothing much I can trade there. Training was fine just now.

I found some really awesome radio stations on iTunes. They are Playdio, Soundic Radio, Classic FM. Playdio and Soundic Radio play tracks from Sweden !

Now is the indoor season for high jumpers around the world. At the top of the is Ivan Ukhov with the world leading 2.40m. Linus Thornblad lines up second with 2.36m.
I am in love with the music of this video featuring him doing a backflip over a bar set at 1.80m.

All i can say is that Russians are world-beating high jumpers. When they shine, they take the competitions by storm.
Ivan Ukhov also got drunk previously and attempted a jump. See video below.

Fact: Singapore has 4 billionaires amongst its 4 million-strong local population.
I could be the 5th. I'll then give out a huge amount of my fortune for charity, education and trusts, building of sports facilities in Singapore and nurturing local sports talent and the list goes on as I like. :) Nites.

Life felt stagnant at home. I started thinking more and more about money. How am I going to get the funds needed for my trading account when thinkorswim starts to accept Singaporean registration? Geez.

There are only 2 things that weigh on my balance. Training for HJ vs working for money to fund my account.
For one, I don't wish to procrastinate my training for HJ. I want to do well for it. The more I wait to train, the more the time horizon seems to dwindle for me as an athlete. This is something I cannot live without. I would die with regrets if I don't attempt to try to see how high I can go. It is my top priority, so to speak.
Then on the other hand of the scale, I need money to trade options! There is really no way I can work again after I enter NTU. Actually, thinking about this in specific, I can do without trading for now. The market is still choppy and I might get my fingers burnt easily. But if a rather good job deal comes along, then I don't mind training and working on the job. :)

Okay. Thank you Lord. After typing the pros and cons, I am witnessing the scale tipping on one obvious side. I promise I will train to my very best.

And something interesting happened tonight. Dad, mum and er jie was in the living room as I walked to them. Daddy was on the floor flipping newspapers. Then mum was saying Daddy wants to buy a condo for investment. My eyes just lit up. ! Actually it isn't a condo. It's some kind of 5 room (DBSS) executive apartment in Bishan that is almost like a condo. Comes with furniture. Except without the wall-up and personal facilities. The advertisement said the prices start from S$550k. And we're going to to showroom tomorrow. Hmmm I don't know how rich my dad is. But he probably thinks it's time to spend some of the money that's collecting up in the bank lol. It is probably great to live in Bishan for a while and come back to Jurong. Just like a vacation ! hahaha.

I had my braces set in this afternoon ! Actually it's technically yesterday afternoon since its past 12am already. Everything fine. It's just that I had a difficult time eating my rice-based dinner just now. I totally could not bite the food with my front teeth.

I got a missed call from Mr Melvin Tan during evening. I contacted him back and we talked on how I can proceed with my training and who to look for. And yeah it's Ronnie whom I'm gonna to train with. NYP is where my journey begins...

My dad got a HP 2133 from an online seller for $420. It's a silver mini notebook. There are some annoying problems in it so right now I'm setting it all up back to normal, sweet and fast. But it doesn't come with a cd drive. I'm quite shocked. If I bought a new music CD I can't play it on the mini notebook lol..Nor can I watch a dvd on lol...zzzz...

I almost lost all hopes on my new LG Secret phone when the pc syncing software it came with seemed to be full of problems. You can't use that single PC Suite II program to transfer your songs, files and photos all in the same window. That damned PC Suite II can only transfer songs. For files, I need to activate "Mass Storage" within the phone connectivity setting. Then for photos that I took with the camera itself I need to activate "Pictbridge" first before connecting the USB cable. Luckily I got it around the stupid PC Suite II software. If not I will feel absolutely disappointed. They don't even provide a professional solution to all our problems for LG phone ! The corporate LG website is not useful to its phone users. It's like when you bought a new Ferrari, and the accessory controls are so difficult to use that you don't even know how to get the right cabin temperature going. And then the Ferrari company don't provide you with a solution. That's how it's like. Thank God that I know how to deal with this nice-on-the-outside-but-bad-on-the-software phone.

I just came back from my second practical driving lesson. So far so good.
And here's some pictures of the plant I grew around the time I had my 8 teeth removed. I took the buds home from outside my workplace in Tuas. That was in January 09. I wanted them to accompany me through the days when I have braces :) It's fun watering them every morning and seeing them grow up so fast ! I love those 2 flower pots I bought from Daiso store in Vivocity. The white pot with wings stays lifted in my living room and the bamboo flower pot is right beside me in my room. Their growth is so sensitive to sun exposure that you can see the difference caused by one pot receiving more sunlight that the other.

Chinese Name: 落地生根
Known English Name: Mexican Hat Plant
Latin Species Name: Bryophyllum crenatodaigremontianum


And I went to Harry's bar in Chinatown to watch Liverpool vs Manchester United. There were 6 of us. Steven, Tay, Effendi, Terence and ??.. forgot his name.. Steven asked me which goal I liked best after the 4-1 thrashing of man u. It has to be the last goal which was the lob shot from Dossena. That magical goal simply left the once-so-unbeatable Van Der Sar stunned and froze at his feet.

The more I tried to find jobs online, the more I wanted to give up the whole idea and train myself for hjump. That's what I love. That's what I don't mind to do every single day.

I went further into checking out the LG Secret KF750 phone on the web. I was totally swept away by its exclusive phone webpage at http://secret.lgmobile.com/uk/en/.
Speechless. Stunning. Sensational.

2 good news!

i) I got a call from my special agent from Recruit Express this afternoon when i was taking a nap. It was a job for a production line. It will start tomorrow and lasts till this Friday. The pay... hmmm... God will tell me not think too much about the pay. It's more like a job test for me.

ii) I have done my phone reviews and decided on LG Secret as my next phone, since my contract is ending.

Good game. I had a fantastic time with my soccer mates at a quiet clementi street soccer court this morning. Was supposed to go to the beach after 3pm (well, my family car can only move out after 3) but the whole of Singapore was shivering under the waving rain.

I'm still mugging my html/css book. I just got to page 475 out of 658. And that's 475 pages in 4 days. Zomg. But i really clicked with this book.

So what the next plan for this blog? I'm going to contain my HJ site in this blog. Most likely using the tab system.

I have quite a packed week ahead. G0d please bless me and keep me safe.

I have to much to write about, but i'm going to type in down fast and sweet.

4th Mar marks the first day that i have driven a car. Actually I didn't expect to be learning how to drive on the 1st practical lesson. But I still learned it anyway. I had some difficulty maintaining the accelerator pedal because it is too damn soft. Even my right piano pedal is harder. I also tend to steer the car too early when doing a turn, as pointed out by the instructor. I really like him alot. He is the kind of people who makes you feel comfortable and good. He praised my control of the clutch. :) That is great motivation because he stressed that good control of the clutch will allow me to learn how to drive properly even faster. Thank God my prayers were heard.

5th Mar was the day my dentist put on 6 rubber bands into my 4 2nd pre-molar teeths to force out a gap to prepare for putting the braces. Dajiejie says the pain will come tomorrow. One thing went wrong. The Q&M dental clinic at Boon Lay MRT does not do Damon 3 braces ! And they can't do followups on Damon 3 braces as well. So I'm getting my dajiejie to seek her Queenstown clinic for a discount so I can get my Damon 3 braces there instead. What a pity that I had to find other places for that self-ligating braces. Because I really like the receptionist at the Boon Lay MRT clinic. Not because she's chio or what, don't get me wrong. I just feel like she's like the adult version of Yuko in JJ. Smiles always and with a cheerful personality. It's rare to find people who makes you feel comfortable interacting with them.

All in all, I feel energised today. Especially when I applied for a handful of promising job positions on jobstreet.com. Some of them were located in west area, some even at Joo Koon. If I can get a job by this month I would thank God one more time. These days, my routine starts at 9am plus. After breakfast I'll practise the piano. I did good today. I can play Eyes on Me, Melodies Of Life, To Zanarkand, River Flows In You and Blue Mind till the end of each score. Before I advance through Canon in C, I would like to memorise all the previous scores first. So that leaves Close to You only, if you don't count Sundial Dreams because I didn't finish it till the end the first time.

Me, myself: Amazing stuff you got there Jian Chao ! The colour hues are very matching !

JC: Yeah thanks. A couple of things inspired me. My idol Staffan, there up there yeah. The height markings by the side was an idea copied from another SWE jumper's website. www.scholm.com. And the brown colour idea came from the running tracks of the stadium.

Me, myself: So what do you like best and hate most about your new changes?

JC: I love the snapshot of Staffan clearing the bar at 2.30m. In actual fact he did clear that one. I hate the white line gap on the right side of that main photo. But well, I tried my best ! So yay !

I swapped two books from the library. I gave back the two on online marketing and brought home 2 on html/css. The one I'm reading is called Head First HTML with CSS & HTML. It's really a fantastic book for my level and the content is interesting and easy to absorb. The first thing I'll edit with my new knowledge on html/css will be this blog. So this is my testbed !

I met 3 new friends from church. They were all Lynn's friends from another cell group and I feel comfortable with them and the combined cell group meeting last night. Main reason is that the participants were much more matured. In contrast, I just don't feel comfortable with the Saturday's services because I feel I'm out of place and I just can't help but to notice how most of them on Saturday overdress me all the time ! If I can't change them, I should change my situation.

And I have a new haircut at the old EC HOUSE outlet in Jurong Point. They said they were going close it and resume business at the new up and running outlet on the 3rd floor in the new extension.
I quite like the way the barber cut my hair. Very innovative. At one point he used his scissors blade and comb to "scalp" and thin my hair on the top. I lied when he asked me if it hurt at all. It did for a minor bit.

I beamed over at my 2009 resolutions, and realised I failed the first one. Grab the basketball rim, not touch it. [Mar] So I'm postponing it to before Aug.
The rest of the resolutions are in healthy condition of fulfilling. God, lend me a hand in completing them.

Spoke in Tongues today ! It's a wonderful gift. Amazing how it works. I heard a chorus of melodies when the rest of them was speaking it and giving it to me.

I crawled out of bed early in the morning so that I could make it in time for my 9.45am dental appointment at Camden Medical Centre. My stomach was giving me hell as I had to make 2 trips to the loo along my journey. The checkup on my teeth was brief and so I'm going back to Dr. Ng at Q&M.

The library was my next stop. I handled the fines and borrowed 4 books. I wished I could bring home more than 4 just now as I had my eyes on a handful of books. So these were the 4 I took home.
1. How to get Rich on the Internet
2. How to make Money Online with eBay, YAHOO! & GOOGLE
3. The Complete Idiot's Guide to Managing Your Time
4. The Unofficial Guide to Excel 2003.

I am gaining interest on affiliate marketing on the internet. Since I'm stuck with the internet for so much of my time, and I know a good bit about websites and html, I might as well try to earn money online. I don't know why, but I experience a good feeling when I know there's so much money making opportunities as illustrated in the books. If you could learn how to earn money literally the shortcut way, why wouldn't you?

Knowledge is Power!

An hour's nap was all I could afford after 1pm before I left home for church service. And yeah, it's less tiring when I don't sing along.

I felt frustrated yesterday at not being able to remember how to play Melodies Of Life on the piano. I'm listening to it now, and oh gosh i could play such a magnificent piece back then. I feel that my memory of the pieces are not stored in my brain, but in my muscle memory. It's like my hands remembered how to engage the piano.

With a 7-day MC slapped onto me by the doctor, there nothing much I want to do with a toothache feeling on my lower jaw. I'm going to sleep now.

What's the plan for tomorrow? I just know my piano's gonna get tortured by me. And gonna watch some movies on my computer.

BTT: Passed Y.Y !

I ran, ran and didn't stop. 20 minutes of running from home takes me beyond the gates of NTU. So I ran 40 minutes. Running is the way to build up aerobic threshold !

The US stockmarket is still quite volatile, mainly due to recent announcements from the stimulus plan. But so far this week I was right on my strategy execution. It's all up to the market.

whisperings of Lee: TQ God for the job offer. But I just cannot accept it because ...you know. Finian got the job offer as well and he accepted. Congrats ! Employed in just a short while...

2moro I'm having my BTT. Aiming for full marks !

Friday's a gym day at Safra Mt Faber with Finian ! We hit the gym, swam the laps in the pool and tanned our skins with the midday sun. And we saw Adam Chen at the gym. He still has that bad-guy look he wears while being an actor.

Right now re-working my options trading notes.

When my financials allow, I would like to go to New Zealand to complete a paraglider course.
More details in the following sites.
http://www.airplay.co.nz/
http://www.nzhgpa.org.nz/

Paraglider - Stays in the air as long as thermals exist and wind conditions are good.



Sailplane - no engine or propeller.


In Singapore, you can't even parachute with a club.

最近比较烦， 也比较忙。Borrowed 3 books from library this afternoon. 1. Mechanical Engineering Principles. 2. Favourite Excel Tips and Tricks. 3. The beginning runners' handbook.

I have started on the uni course book. It was simple enough for me to understand the formulas and apply it on the questions after each section of the chapter. By reading up on this book I hope to be ready and well-prepared for uni's 1st sem in Aug. I definitely don't want to sit there in lecture and break my head trying to grasp what the lecturer is babbling about.

I have cleared some doubts about options trading with myself today.

I've also finished the score on River Flows in You. Just need more practice on the entire score over and over again.

Will go back Raub this afternoon or tmr morning.

A part from the poetic Barack Obama's Inauguration speech, "And so, to all the other people and governments watching today, from the grandest capital to the small village where my father was born, know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity and we are ready to live once more !

If you watched Lost and Heroes, you should find this very very funny.

I am reconditioning my IBM R51 laptop's battery right now. It still has 39mins to complete the procedure. This laptop went abit crazy a couple of years back as I could not load Windows while running on its battery. It just loads all the way up till the "Welcome" blue page of Windows and hangs there with the mouse cursor in the middle. Also, when I unplug the AC adapter from the laptop, it is supposed to automatically continue running and switching power supply to its battery. However it just hangs there too. So earlier on I updated the IBM's bios and hopefully I can run on battery again.

I just came back from Rong Xing and Rong Shan's 21st birthday party. It's like a mini sec 1C/2C class reunion. We had the twin sisters, me, Finian, Shawn, Kok Chin, Deborah, Vanessa and Mah Chin Yee from our old class. It's almost a quarter of the class size ! Rong Xing and Rong Shan, in my opinion were and still are very enthusiastic and friendly twins. That's why they had so many great friends during the memorable party. 3 teachers were supposed to come. Mr Tan Eng Wee, Ms Stacy Choo and Ms Porscia Tan. But only the NCC teacher-IC came with his son and wife.

We had a game with chairs. We place the chairs in a straight row. 2 teams will send a member to start on each end of the row of chairs. They have to bounce on each chair to bump to the opponent coming from the other end to to play Scissors Paper Stone. The loser will stand up and leave and his/her teammate will enter on the first chair and bounce the chairs to stop the opponent(winner) from advancing. A team wins when the player reaches the other side of the row of chairs. Girls, being girls, play tricks on the guys HAHAha! But against such big odds, I won the one and only round miraculously sia... And they had a small upright piano at home! So I popped the question to Rong Shan when the twins walked us to the MRT, "So you know how to play to piano yeah?" She revealed to me that she's got dip. in piano. WOWWW! I will definitely appear at her house to learn from her if she's free to teach me. yay ! Good things come your way when you seek them earnestly ;)