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Monday, April 28, 2008
 bah i m bored! i think i m superhero girl today! i sorted like 6 boxes worth of dispatch mails alone and like 6 envelops worth of other crap!! woohooo!! imasuperherogirl! lalala!! my colleague said that i m a special person cause i cannot have gaps in my life i must fill them up with my lalalalas ( screen saver mode as you ppl know it as) haha he said sth else which i forgot probably about me filling up other ppl's gaps of their lives =) SEEEE ppl i m SPECIAL!! now say you love me!! comm'on ppl admit it! say u ppl love me!!! =)  eyes sparkled at 9:08 PM Sunday, April 27, 2008
I read this on the following site: sshDontTell She wrote it so if you repost- give her the credit. Very interesting view on love... <3 Women are more emotionally healthy compared to men. From day one women are trained that, good or bad, you express your feelings and let them out. That bottling them up is unhealthy and can drive you crazy, which is probably the least of the side affects. Mean while, men are taught, good or bad, to lock up their emotions. That expressing them would lead society to categorizing you [a heterosexual male] as a “sissy” “weak” or “homo,” all of which carry a negative connotation [not that being gay is a negative thing, but in conservative main stream society it is, unfortunately]
And that really sucks, because that is where our wires get crossed.
Men claim not to understand women. And women claim not to understand men. But hello… we’re basically being raised not to understand one another.
A man and a woman in a relationship love each other, but lack communication. The woman wants to express her feelings and wants her man to express his to her. They argue. The man feels uncomfortable and can’t escape the box society has placed his emotions in and gets frustrated with the woman. He lashes out verbally or maybe worse physically. Depending on the type of woman she is, she either lashes back out at him in defense in what ever similar manner, or she cowers in a sea of her emotions.
[shrugs]
Now what?
Nothing. That’s what.
Until both realize the problem and are consciously willing to break the cycle, it will only continue. And animosity and frustration will only mount further. It will tear them apart. And their love… a memory.
It isn’t a manner of “meant to be” “destiny” whatever… it’s finding that person who can understand you. Who can work with you. Who you can work with. Who sees you as the imperfect person you are and appreciates the good and the bad. Who can see the slob who digs in his nose when no one is looking [or even when they are looking], but at the same time is the only person who can make you belly laugh so hard, you swear you can cross off your 200 ab crunches for the week. Or the neurotic worry wart that has you call her at every new destination you make along the day, but at the same time sees you as her magnificent Adonis; as Adonis’s with beer belly guts go.
That’s the same person, who when something goes wrong in your relationship, sees the worth in the relationship, and sees the worth in you enough to say… “You know what, this cycle sucks. And I want this to work. I’ll listen to you. And you listen to me. No yelling.” All the while keeping in mind that their unity [you + me = us] is what’s most important. Not whose right or who’s wrong. Not getting even, holding grudges, or spite.
Believing that “love conquers all” is all and good. But realistically, love is not a luxury or leisure. Love is hard work. And it takes mending, making mistakes, learning, growing, nurturing, understanding. Maybe believing that “only the strong survive” in regards to love is a better way to look at it.
The Romantics wrote of a perfect love. An easy love that’s only obstacle was an outside dividing force. Reality- there is no one “cookie cutter” perfect love. Your perfect is not my perfect. And the greatest obstacles don’t have to be in any outside dividing force, it can be right here, within us. Two people in a relationship. One pitted against the other. Because they don’t get each other. But they love each other.
They hurt each other. But they love each other. eyes sparkled at 1:31 PM I don`t want them to know what I feel. I don`t want them to know why I act the way I do. I don`t want them to know what a mess I am cause they won`t understand. I`m a lost cause, an accident waiting to happen. I want someone to relate to, but I don`t think that person exists. They just don`t understand. They`ll never understand.*
you would never guess a girl so happy on the outside is breaking down on the inside a girl who laughs her head off everyday you'd never guess she's covering up the million tears behind her smile*
if you cant understand my silence chances are, you wont understand my words*
those who cry are stronger than those who keep it inside*
What we fear most has already happened to us.
her laughter = a cry for help her smile = a symbol of her insecurities her tears = the reality*
smile.
just shut up and feel how i feel. Labels: emotions eyes sparkled at 12:57 PM Saturday, April 26, 2008
 life at work is getting a little better PERHAPS. sorting. time stamping. giving out. sorting. marking. stamping. sorting. filing. giving out. sort. stamp. sort count sort seal sort.sort.sort. above is my job scope at work. typical back-aching administrative job. i took pictures of my work place but i m darn lazy to upload them. haha. ohhh and my table its like "under construction to build the next great wall but this time not for china but for our very own great wall of Singapore =) enough of ranting about work. ok about my life. its just as boring as it seems. it revolves around going to work and coming home. nothing interesting happened lately. oh definitely maybe is a sweet show. street king is a little too gruesome for me. but the twist was good. up next i wanna watch MADE of HONOR. looks pretty interesting. hmm and there is this shirt i wanna buy from split i have seen the shirt for the past few days and its calling me to buy it some how.. "buy me buy me!" its calling out to me. oh and i need a boost of hagen daze.  and now i feel kinda BORED like i've always been.
eyes sparkled at 12:45 PM Sunday, April 20, 2008
Lesson 1: A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbour. Before she says a word, Bob says, 'I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.' After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves. The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, 'Who was that?' 'It was Bob the next door neighbour,' she replies. 'Great,' the husband says, 'did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?' Moral of the story: If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure. Lesson 2: A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.' Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.' Moral of the story: If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity. Lesson 3: A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out. The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.' 'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk. 'I want to be in the Bahamas , driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.' Puff! She's gone. 'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.' Puff! He's gone. 'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager. The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.' Moral of the story: Always let your boss have the first say. Lesson 4 An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?' The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.' So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it. Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up. Lesson 5 A turkey was chatting with a bull. 'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.' The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree. Moral of the story: Bull Sh * t might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.. Lesson 6 A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him. Morals of the story: (1) Not everyone who sh*ts o n you is your enemy. (2) Not everyone who gets you out of sh* t is your friend. (3) And when you're in deep sh* t, it's best to keep your mouth shut! THUS ENDS THE FIVE MINUTE MANAGEMENT COURSE Labels: random crap eyes sparkled at 1:59 PM Thursday, April 17, 2008
 sometimes i wonder if my guardian angels had forgotten me. only i will know how its like. because its my LIFE. Labels: emotions eyes sparkled at 10:39 PM Thursday, April 10, 2008
 QUOTE: " life isn't always sunshines and butterflies, there's rainfalls and dark skies"
unQuote: "but where is my sunshine and butterflies? why is it always raining in my colourful sky?" tummy ache! i clipped my finger today !! by the big metal document cupboard!! damn it hurts so bad its still numb now!!!!! i m so darn clumsy! =( eyes sparkled at 11:51 PM Monday, April 07, 2008
 my trip to the library. the last time i went to a library was 4 years back? before i left my secondary school. library used to be my second favourite place to be after school. i use to spend hours there just looking for books. hiding at some corner reading. probably studying but most of the time just there to be there. i went to the library today. it felt good after so long. i borrowed a book titled "cotton queen" i hope its nice. ohh and there was this old man trying to make a scene in the all so peaceful and quiet library. since it was years since i last borrowed a book my library card had some problems. so i went to the counter as told by the computer screen where u scan and borrow the books. so there came an angry man around his 50s to 60s yelling at the poor librarian. old man: whats the point of having a membership to the library when i cant find a seat here?! poor librarian: sorry sir but the library has so many other commuters and i'll try my best to find u a seat. old man: what do u mean by trying your best? are u trying to say that if u can't find a seat i will be here without a seat? u have to use the correct words. get me someone that i can talk to. *storms off angrily to somewhere near the counter but away from where he was* then i left the counter and walk to the "book borrowing machine" but this time there was a problem with borrowing this daily French book as i didn't know it has an audio book that comes with it and only premium members get to borrow them. so i went back to the counter and i see the old man strolling about gleefully with his newspapers in his hand. * a gentle announcement being played in the background telling all commuters not to reserve seats * librarian with higher rank: hi sir, i'm sorry you couldn't find a seat (obviously he deserves it. for being so arrogant and demanding) would you want me to find a seat for u? old man continues ranting about paying for membership and not being able to find a seat. that old man was such a smirk i tell u. horrible man. i pity that librarian. after that i seat down on the floor at some corner of the library. the feeling was just so good. i think i should go back to the library more often =D  Labels: emotions, life, random eyes sparkled at 12:17 AM Thursday, April 03, 2008
my dumb bf is in army. my life is revolving around the walls of my hse. i have 1 decay tooth and it hurts when i bite! and i m freakin worried. theres so many things going through my head. but my dumb bf is in the ARMY. i know the importance of national security. but i just want to be just selfish for today. because i m whiney! he only has 1 hr a day for me. of which 90% of the time my sister is irritating me. and during which 70% of the time u hear crazy army boys laughter and roaring. which makes 10% of free time left for me which is like 6 mins out of the 60min i have. 4 mins for telling him the time. 2 mins to tell him to sleep. there goes! rah! Labels: emotions, mysuperman, random eyes sparkled at 1:31 AM Wednesday, April 02, 2008
 i feel so alone.insomia. i told my sis i cant sleep for the past few days. she said to me : jiejie cant sleep then cry. you know i use to cry when i cant sleep and awhile later i m asleep. maybe i should try her way. but somehow it doesnt seem to work. its been a year since i last touched down in beijing. i remembered we we all so excited and i couldnt sleep because i miss my sister and my bf. i remember waking up this very moment to ransack my luggauge for that little something he wrote to me. i was so glad i couldnt sleep that night. its the 15th today but somehow it seem just like any other Labels: emotions eyes sparkled at 12:20 AM Tuesday, April 01, 2008
 i hate it when he is in army. because then i will have no one to talk to when i cant sleep =( its lonely not having anyone to talk to. i hate it when the mood swings come and no one is there to cheer me up. i m feeling down. so down. Labels: emotions eyes sparkled at 12:46 AM |
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