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Friday, October 28, 2005
hey peeps. i m fine already.. and this days are so boring.... nth to do.. oh then today is ken ken's bdae... happy birthday girl!!~~ so boring nothing to do.. cannot go out... i m gonna rot soon.. tv oso nth nice to watch.. sadd lahh!!! eyes sparkled at 2:52 PM Wednesday, October 26, 2005
tired and bored.. i was at the wake the whole day alone.. my mum was sick she din go.. hmm.. life is so fragile... i was thinkin about loadsa stuff today.. cos i was alone.. with my aunts and cousins.. and the only common topic we had is food.. they keep gettin food for me.. and i dunno how to say no.. then i juz keep eating.. then i oso offer them food only.. okie .. back to wad i tot about.. okie you see.. some ppl think tt dying is so damn scary and they are all so scared to die.. but i thought not.. dying is not scary.. leaving your loved ones behind is definatly the most scary and no one will bear to do so... its like seeing so many ppl weeping and all the teary eyes.. makes me wanna cry too.. its like.. unbearable.... i wont know wad i wuld do if someone so dear leaves me for paradise..its like emotional and physical torment.. very very torturous... i dare not look at my uncle the whole time.. i was afraid.. i might break down and not talk.. i din go near the coffin... i just helped out at the wake.. then i was thinking wad happens if someone so dear leaves me.. wad would my reactions be wad would i do..wad will happen and loads of stuff.. then i imagined seeing my closed ones part then i couldnt help it and started tearing.. its way scary... i know immortality does not exist but i just dont wanna see them leave.. sometimes i just hope.. tt they can live as long as i do.. and if we leave ..we'll go together but i know its rubbish.. its jus me and my day dream and wild mind... but going through tt torment its damn scarry... i couldnt take it... i chose not to look ... but i know its dumb ... but i was scared.. im sorry... eyes sparkled at 12:03 AM Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i m so freakin tired.... it was way scary at the wake today... big mess!!~ verry scary... i cried.. cos i was way too scared.. everyone were too busy... its scarry// eyes sparkled at 1:33 AM Sunday, October 23, 2005
okie i feel so much better now!!~ after airing it out.. haha now i m happy!!~ but suddenly this song came to my mind!!~ haha!!~so here u go enjoy the lyrics!!~ "Welcome To My Life" Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life eyes sparkled at 4:41 PM fuck being good!!! fuck trying to help!!! fuck showing concern!!!!!! fuck worrying about everything~~~~~~~~~~ FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! get the hell away!!!!!!! stop blaming me for every fucking thing tt goes wrong!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!! sorry for all the major vulgarities i jus need some where to air it... i feel bad saying it sometimes so i'll jus type it out!! they are always blaming me for something tt does not concern me... i hate it.. so went she says why i never help out when she is so freakin tired and busy.. so okie fine i help lor... i din even say anything.. i help to coach tt spoilt brat to do her hw.. and guess wad tt spoilt brat insist tt she need not do corrections... i say mummy so busy then i teach u lah then no need to bother mummy.. she refuse.. then say wad mumy say go through with her can already... fine i dun wanna argue with her i jus continue to watch tv... then mum came back and i got scolded.. say wAD i cant even do a simple task!!!!! freakkk lahhh tt idiotic spoilt brat refuse to listen to me.. then just now daddy return me my modem and i let her play maple.... guess wad i got scolded again say wad tt spoilt brat tml got exam i still let her play... i dun let her play then she scream i oso get scolded... i let her play i oso get scolded!!~ ahhh fuCK!!!!!!!!! okie fine now my brother oso come in to play maple then i call him to study ... cos he got this paper tt is quite important and i tot its better he study now then regret again later.... fuck guess wad he started screamin then he slam the keyboard roller table one my hand!!! then i was like u rather study now and pass or fail and be road sweeper... then he scold me.. then the spoilt brat came and i ask her to study oso then she say wad...she waiting for mummy then can play!!!~ i was like mummy sleepin i teach u .. then she fight with me... u think wad u got kung fu ahh!!!!!!!!! gahhh then DADDY HEard us and FUCK i GOt scolded again!!!! say wad i cant even help awhile!!!!!!!!!!! fuck i was helping right!!!!~ wad is the world getting too !!!!!!!!!! arghh!!!!!!!!!!! kill me!!~ tts why i say FUCK BEING GOOD~!!!!!!!!!!! fuck trying to help!!! fuck showing concern!!!!!! fuck worrying about everything!!!!! eyes sparkled at 1:36 PM Saturday, October 22, 2005
ahhh!!!!!!!!!! i m angry!!!~ i hate them sometimes!!~ i m freakin 17!!!!! bloody bananaS!!! they took my modem!!!~ i jus wenta school for union ytd and came back with my bloody modem missing!!!!!!!! wads with them lahhhh always confiscate modem they think its so damn fun!!!!!! last time like tt now oso like tt!!!!!! damn it!!!!!!!!!! gahhh!!!! so angryy!!! i was a good girl for the entire day!!! and now u dun give me!!!! nvm dun care all those stupid reasons u say!! wad late lah muz sleep early lah wad not!!` gahhhh go and sleep if u like it so much i'll rot here with my unsecured internet!!!~ humph!!! eyes sparkled at 11:18 PM hmm today as usual i was rotting in front of the tv from the min i woke will like 3.. cos today going out of the house like finally i m leaving the tv for good haha!! okie i wenta school today for some student union gathering.. i tot it would be boring.. and even planned to escape with ken ken if its so freakin boring... okie then wenta the place then ken ken signed up then had ice breakin session.. okiee saw stacey there.. with the ppl are damn friendly.. within mins we like started to talk as if we know each other for few mths already.. haha okie then we had to play games... gahh we played zhong ji mi ma..you know guess the numbers and then the first few got forfeit first is slap or kiss.. then the other one is pole dancing then i tot i wun be so suay to kena and guess wad i kena!!!!!!!!! yikes i was so freakin malu!!~ we had to do either self made up swan lake or coconut tree dance then we chose the coconut dance..one person be coconut and the other two be indian dancer.. wad the hell i was like standing there laughing keep lookin at ken ken and stacey... haha then we dance lor sooo malu keep laughing until my face so red there got alot of ppl samore... haahaa....about 30 to 40 like tt bah.. if it were me last time i will jus whine till they let me of.. i guessed i changed abit.. hahaa then play wacko then i keep kena oso.... i go out dunno how many times cos every time it reaches me i will go blank either i will scream ken ken or go huh??? u know how bad my memory is... i cant remember ppls namee!!~ haaha then stacey and angela went home.. then left me and ken ken... but we oso stayed on a lil while then we left ler.. cos i din felt like staying on... so we oso run away.. haha all in all its quite fun lah... student union ppl are quite hyper.. its goodd thou... till then i shall update again!!~ byeee ppl mauckiiess eyes sparkled at 1:00 AM Thursday, October 20, 2005
nurul says i mus do this so here i m doing itt!!~ see i m soo good girl aku anak bagus!! 7 things that scares me: *losing anyone *heights *knowing that no one will be there for me *ppl suddenly screaming *ghost stories *creepy crawlies *cats & dogs 7 things that i love most *my family *ChocoLAtes * my darlinggss * my huggies * my lappy * my bag * my phone ** basically i love anything sweet and cute and niCee 7 important things in my room * my bed * air con * my huggies * my lappie * my hp * my bags * my clothes??? 7 random facts about me *i am simple minded ( i always get cheated damned) *i love choco to the core... milk Choco!! (it can make me happy any min. heehee) *i can watch tv 24/7 *i love playin at the arcade with nurul and victorr *i love shopping *i cant leave the house without my bag.. *i day dream alot!! 7 things i plan to do before i die *eat all kinds of choco in the world *own my own hse *have my own car *make sure my family is happy *get a degree *treat my family to the best food i tasted.. *love everyone 7 things i can do *watch tv 24/7 *bore u to death *shop till i drop *scream till i make u deaf *whine non stop *sleep any min *eat loads of choco 7 things i cant do YET *stop studying *stop missing the ppl!!!~( i miss you guys loads and i wunt stop missin) *drive *go out as and when i likee *come back as and when i like *kill my own boredom *die ( until i accomplish wad i wanna do before i die then i shall happily lie in the coffin till then NO WAY) 7 words i say the most * huh?!? * whAT ?!?! * DUNNO !!! *DUN WAN!!~ * fine!!~ * GO away!!~ * qu si la ( means go and die in chi) 7 celeb crushes i dun really bother to remember any actors or their names.. i jus watch TV like some tV addict so i dun really have any celeb crushes... i juz love watching tv and given my bad memory i cant remember many of their names.. i can mix up jLo and jessica simpson or who ever she is !!` sorry!!~ 7 person tt i wanna see now nuruuLLL Liyaaaa!!~~~ viCtorrr ElFi~~~ Bk!!!~ albonGgg!!~ actually there is many more but they only limit 7~~~~ i wanna meet all the siglap ppl!!~ all my darlinngsss 7 pppl i love to see doing this Liyanaaa!! albong jared bernadine ken ken junting Katherine okieee see nuruLL i completed it!!! maucckkkiEESS oh yah and i din do much besides rotting the whole day and yahh they say they are having class chalet dunno where oso!!~ eyes sparkled at 10:03 PM Wednesday, October 19, 2005
ahh i m damn bored.. i m goin to rot soon... maybe i am already rotten wahaha!!~ i lost contact with the outside world.... =) ahhh... yah i got 9 sets of dvds and i watch like 7 sets already... each set has about 8 dvds 2 hours each which means i spent like 112 hours watching dvds!!~ ohhh my goshhh!!~~ my eyes are popin out soonn.. and i still watch tv... wahaha... i m like so stuck to the tv... i have practically nothin to do.... i practically do the same stuff everyday... keep watchin... ahhh haha... i m getting fat i guesss... hmm.. bored of my skin... there is like so many things i wannA do but i m just so damn lazy!!~ i m turning into some pig!!~ haha BoRinG!!!!!!!!````` eyes sparkled at 9:09 PM Sunday, October 16, 2005
ahh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i m gettin mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the whole world only u are kind hearted// the whole world only you are poorthing... please wake up lahhh the world dont only revolve around you!!~ freak..!!~ i m bursting soon!!!!!!! ahhhh fcuk!!!!!!!!! eyes sparkled at 8:06 PM Saturday, October 15, 2005
weeE!!~ helloo ppl i m back to blogg again!!~ its been borrinnnggg these days... nothing to do everyday... sleep like 4+5 then wake up at 11+12 .. everday watch tv....=X cant blame me... i have got nothing to do.. my eyes are really poppin out soon.. haahaa... hmm... some one suggest somethin interestin for me to do please.... when i come online.. i will either be blog hopping around.. or friendster hoppin!!~ by lookin at the way i type i m back to the same old boring me..!!~ weeheehee~~~!! lala the mad feLi is backk to create havoc ..!!!~ wahahahah`~ i m typing nonsense~~~~~~ yikeSSs!!~ my eyes hurts like hell i guess i'll jus go to sleepp byee ppL!!~ mauckkieeSS!!!~~ eyes sparkled at 2:35 AM Wednesday, October 12, 2005
hmm... i m back frm my holiday.. but din have the mood to blog... either i m too tired or juz pure lazy.. got my results..it was so-so.. not tt fantastic .. but happy that i din fail.. =) okie ytd was yk bdae.. companied him half a day.. hahaa..made him cut is horrible long hair.. haahaa.. okie then wenta walk around... frm cine to far east then to plaza sing.. haaha then as usual went arcade... din play anything.. juz watched them play... then see other ppl playy haaha.. then the guys want to play DDR damn funny cos they couldnt catch the beats... haaha.. then saw junting there and yang fong and their friends.... play drums so li hai!!~ haaha.. then saw summer wahaahaha the girl tt like zhi yuan... waahahaa damn funny all of them when to chase her juz to look at her face haaahaa... very funny... okie then today... woke at one cos i slept at 6.. haaha... then watch DVD... i am sorry , i love you.. veryyyy nicee!!~ then wenta bake cake.. very long nv bake lerr... cos its their weddin anniversary.. so i tot i make a cake for them... it isnt fantastic but its the thought tt counts rite.. haahaa... then had mood swings... then i scolded my sis.. ahhh i m evil!!!!!! then i wenta sleep.. but i woke again.. so here i m typing this entry!!~ till then... feLi ^_^ eyes sparkled at 11:26 PM Wednesday, October 05, 2005
hmm.. i m leaving tml .. on a vacation to hk.. hmm.. nth much happened.. jus tt i m still sick.. now with lil soar throat.. gahh... i m sucha sickaholic .. hmm i'll be back on sun.. till then....imisseveryone and happy bdae to jooting on the 6th oct bk and fabian on the 8th.. =) mauckiess eyes sparkled at 11:33 PM Monday, October 03, 2005
ahhh i m bored and hungry.. din nth besides watching tv today.. supposed to go out with the darlings but.. i din feel well and i woke at 11 when we supposed to meet like 1115? haahaa.. tv is sucha bore.. theres realli nth nice on tv u know.. nth to watch.. i kept switching channels.. i wanna go out so bad sometimes.. bt when ppl call me out.. i'll be either sick or not in the mood.. damn... was blog hopping and friendster hoppin juz now.. but theres like nth interesting... sigh!! i realise i have been eating so much during school time.. now when i m at home..i think my stomach expanded or sth... i keep feeling hungry.. but i m too lazy to eat.. i'll juz have brunch and continue watching tv the whole day and then dinner..even if i m hungry before or after meals i juz dun seem to eat.. yikess.. eyes sparkled at 11:17 PM ahhh... i m bored.. i m still having a cold.. went to watch dukes of the hazzard today..kinda ok..quite funny.. then went shoppin awhile.. came back i had nth to do so wenta watch tv.. watched charlie's angels and erm qian ji bian... then went on a blogskin hunt.. din find anything tt i like.. for days i have been searchin... then i decided to edit on on my own and tadah... here i m with my work... wanna see the original ?? click here: http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=63444&action=Preview okie its nt tt fantastic.. but at least i killed my boredom for a while... eyes sparkled at 1:27 AM Saturday, October 01, 2005
i m still a sneezing machine.. with bad tummyache.. yikes... i m sick.. damn ..its childrens' day todayy!!~ and sharks i m sickk!! okie today i have decided on wad to do during this longg holiday!!~ i m gonaa mess the kitchen!!~ wahahaha!!~ -evil laughs- i bought stuff to bake cake... heehee i think maybe i'll make cookies or errmm juz mess up the kitchen since staying at home is so damn boringg!!~ ohh happy birthday jared.. happy childrens day ppl!!~ eyes sparkled at 11:57 PM |
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