Finally, my full-body massage is coming later. We are going to Batam for the weekend :)
So if you got anything that you wanna pass to us this sunday, do wait till next year ok? Lol! I won't be around for watchnite service on 31st dec too, as I'd be having a short trip to JB, till 2nd jan next year. Haha!
Miss me more ya! Muacks!
Merry christmas to you all, and may our good Lord bless you abundantly! Cheers!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Wretched Rich Kids
I'm looking forward to this weekend Batam trip. Whole body aching and needing another full body massage. (which reminds me to blog about my birthday!)
I can't stand those stupid rich kids cancelling tuition on me at their whines n whims. Idiotic! Why must they be so spoilt and retarded, not to understand the importance of studying? Everyday complain and refusing to study hard, waste money and efforts, thinking the whole world revolves around that kid only. PIGS!
For money, I just have to swallow all these and suffer all this Shit lor. Life's difficult.
I can't stand those stupid rich kids cancelling tuition on me at their whines n whims. Idiotic! Why must they be so spoilt and retarded, not to understand the importance of studying? Everyday complain and refusing to study hard, waste money and efforts, thinking the whole world revolves around that kid only. PIGS!
For money, I just have to swallow all these and suffer all this Shit lor. Life's difficult.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
My "Not So Lucky" 13
13 updates b4 I sleep!
- Got another new tuition student this month. Hallelujah!
- Celebrated my 23rd birthday with lotsa feasting! Still having 3 more to go this week =)
- My Facebook account got hacked in by some stupid phishing scammers on Monday. Cursed them all!
- Just finished my food list for 28th BBQ R5/6 party, and lighting cues for this Sunday's Christmas Service. Zzzzz!
- Edge Conference is finally over, so are the video duties. Ha!
- Still waiting for my birthday wishlist to be FULLY fulfilled. Haha!
- I love Cher Hao's birthday surprise for me, last Thursday!
- Graham left for home (Ireland) yesterday night, after 3 months in SG. Only started talking to him the day b4 he flew off. Smart me eh. Actually I din make the 1st move to say hi either. HAHAHAHAHA!
- Met Zhi Lin and Yi Si for 3 days straight, and it was good talking to people of my "auntie" frequency once again. Difficult to find anyone in VFC sadly.
- My tuition schedule for 2010 is almost packed. I'm so grateful for God's providence despite the recession. Money money money, come to Mummy!
- Christmas is in 9 days, I have almost 50 cards to write. I'm so sian, just thinking of writing them all, with my pretty cursive handwriting. LOL!
- Excited about UMA's wedding next year! Not excited about we doing video directing for him. Oh, have mercy on us, Mr ANG!! (*p/s: nic, my ma was nice to say that dodo looks ok... hurhur!)
- Lucky 13! I finally started using my new hp - Nokia E71. I'm so sad that I bought this hp now, bcos 1 month after I got it, E72 came out =( It was cooler than this boring 71. Eeeeeee! Not so lucky 13 after all eh...
That's all for my December now. Pics are way too much to collage and upload and blah blah blah. I see my mood and schedule again next year lah.
Au revoir amigos! (Goodbye* in French, Friends* in Spanish)
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Happy 23rd Birthday to ME!
Dunno why my stupid Nokia E71 cannot upload the rotated images onto Blogger properly. Sighs. Nonsense as usual.

The cartoon birthday cake, topped with plastic figurines of Spiderman, Ultraman, evil villian etc. Haha!

This week, sis and I stayed over at cousins' house at Jurong West, for the past 4 days. We literally eat, sleep, play the whole time. LOL! So yesterday, we went over to grandma's for KFC and a last-minute early-birthday celebration for me.
I even have to pay 1/4 the cost of my own birthday cake, spilt equally amongst sis and cousins. Poor old me. We forgot to take pics of the KFC meal that my other aunt treated us, as we were famished by 7.30pm. Haha!

The cartoon birthday cake, topped with plastic figurines of Spiderman, Ultraman, evil villian etc. Haha!

I love staying over with them, although they can sucked the life and energy outta me quickly, in a span of few days. Haha! Jurong West is really like my 2nd home.
Oh, and again, Happy 23rd Birthday to me, the queen of the day! Cheers and God bless me (:
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
My Birthday Wishlist for 2009!
Yes lah! My birthday is finally around the corner again! Lalalalala~
Thinking what to get for me?
- MONEY $_$
- Blazer (basic black and/or denim)
- Handbag and/or Sling bag
- Snow Leopard OS upgrade ^^
- Clothes?
- Black Heels
- Shoe vouchers for GOOD shoe shops....
- LASIK (thinking of Mei....)
- Ipod Classic (Black) =D
- more $$$$$$$$$
Straight forward enough hor :D Sms me if need more help. Will gladly help.
I'm still busy doing so many nonsense now, I really wanna complete the remaining Sydney trip entry by 2009. Haha! It's way overdue lah, like 6.5 months liao. LOL!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Earning Money Really Isn't Easy!
Sian! Stupid blogger din save and publish my entry now I gotta retype it on the hp. Waste time only. Arghhh! Rather blog on my mac in future instead. Haiz.
Speaking of my mac, it have been fixed and I paid a grand total of about $386 on it. Wretched love. My heart so pain, pocket one big hole, worked so hard for what. I'll therefore be more kiasu to ensure that there will be no such history repeated again.
Oh ya, working hard the month, that darn temp data entry job... Sucked the life outta me for 4 boring weeks lah! Wanted to rant on some stuff here but I think best is ask me personally lah. Haha!
Back to tutoring lifestyle for now. PSLE results was out last week and my student got a A* for Maths (despite the difficult questions and moderation, duh!) and A for Science, with a total of 239 points. I'd not claim credit for myself bcos I think she is very hardworking and studious.
On the other hand, my cousin scored a crazy total of 266 points! LOL! A* for Chinese, Maths, Science and Higher Chinese, and A for English. OMG! Crazy right! Apparently she beat my other cousin aka her older brother (251 points in '06) hands down. Haha!
Next year will be a fresh crazy academic year for all the students, and for me too. Students in private tutoring come and go, so does that happen in tuition centres too. I pray for God's continous providence for a better job and prospects if I really wanna get married in my 5-year-plan. LOL!
Siu Mei was telling me yesterday that she was going for her LASIK operation today. This procedure would actually cost between 2 to 3k odd, and it is still expensive in my opinion. It has been my dream to get perfect eyesight and see things straight away when I open my eyes when I wake up each morning. I hope I can fulfill that dream by next year. Yes, I do have money, but I must save it for rainy days first. Vanity can wait, right? Haha!
赚钱真的不容易啊!
Speaking of my mac, it have been fixed and I paid a grand total of about $386 on it. Wretched love. My heart so pain, pocket one big hole, worked so hard for what. I'll therefore be more kiasu to ensure that there will be no such history repeated again.
Oh ya, working hard the month, that darn temp data entry job... Sucked the life outta me for 4 boring weeks lah! Wanted to rant on some stuff here but I think best is ask me personally lah. Haha!
Back to tutoring lifestyle for now. PSLE results was out last week and my student got a A* for Maths (despite the difficult questions and moderation, duh!) and A for Science, with a total of 239 points. I'd not claim credit for myself bcos I think she is very hardworking and studious.
On the other hand, my cousin scored a crazy total of 266 points! LOL! A* for Chinese, Maths, Science and Higher Chinese, and A for English. OMG! Crazy right! Apparently she beat my other cousin aka her older brother (251 points in '06) hands down. Haha!
Next year will be a fresh crazy academic year for all the students, and for me too. Students in private tutoring come and go, so does that happen in tuition centres too. I pray for God's continous providence for a better job and prospects if I really wanna get married in my 5-year-plan. LOL!
Siu Mei was telling me yesterday that she was going for her LASIK operation today. This procedure would actually cost between 2 to 3k odd, and it is still expensive in my opinion. It has been my dream to get perfect eyesight and see things straight away when I open my eyes when I wake up each morning. I hope I can fulfill that dream by next year. Yes, I do have money, but I must save it for rainy days first. Vanity can wait, right? Haha!
赚钱真的不容易啊!
Monday, November 16, 2009
Suay + Shitty = Spoilt
November surely gotta be one of my worst months ever.
List of things that spoilt/gonna spoil very soon: black heels, bronze heels, handbag, sling bag, water bottle and the worst of all..... My beloved macbook! NOOOOOOO!
It just wouldn't charge up with the adaptor and/or battery attached. Hence battery finally went so flat that I can't even switch it on. Can you feel my sadness already? Sighs.
Decided to go to wheelocks today and service my beloved, and boy, was it expensive w/o warranty. Another regret of my life. Diagnostic charges cost me $75 already, excluding repair charges yet. Still must wait for some stupid quotation by their silly technicians. Super suay lah!
That lady said that she suspected the connection part of my charger and the laptop went wrong and will take 2-3 working days to further diagnose it lah. Haiz. Dunno why I worked so hard for what sia, all my earnings just go pay for all these silly damages. Darn.
Worse still, the ultimate thing that made me so dulan.... The lady told me my beloved had a big CRACK at the edge of the front part of the laptop - where your right wrist rest on. Sobs. I shouted at her," It wasn't there when I brought it to you! How did that appear?!". Stupid lady just gave me that that's-your-problem blur look. DULAN!
I was tired, hungry, pissed and upset at 12 noon. I just can't be bothered to kick a fuss although it is clearly not of my doing. If you have seen my beloved, you would know how kiasu I am with it. I put that red crystal casing, plus that bright pink cushiony laptop sleeve over it. It's like wearing pads lah!
*#@#$%^&*(%&*&*$#^%#&~!!!
Yes, I'm that pissed! How bad can this month get, really! ARGHH! :'(
List of things that spoilt/gonna spoil very soon: black heels, bronze heels, handbag, sling bag, water bottle and the worst of all..... My beloved macbook! NOOOOOOO!
It just wouldn't charge up with the adaptor and/or battery attached. Hence battery finally went so flat that I can't even switch it on. Can you feel my sadness already? Sighs.
Decided to go to wheelocks today and service my beloved, and boy, was it expensive w/o warranty. Another regret of my life. Diagnostic charges cost me $75 already, excluding repair charges yet. Still must wait for some stupid quotation by their silly technicians. Super suay lah!
That lady said that she suspected the connection part of my charger and the laptop went wrong and will take 2-3 working days to further diagnose it lah. Haiz. Dunno why I worked so hard for what sia, all my earnings just go pay for all these silly damages. Darn.
Worse still, the ultimate thing that made me so dulan.... The lady told me my beloved had a big CRACK at the edge of the front part of the laptop - where your right wrist rest on. Sobs. I shouted at her," It wasn't there when I brought it to you! How did that appear?!". Stupid lady just gave me that that's-your-problem blur look. DULAN!
I was tired, hungry, pissed and upset at 12 noon. I just can't be bothered to kick a fuss although it is clearly not of my doing. If you have seen my beloved, you would know how kiasu I am with it. I put that red crystal casing, plus that bright pink cushiony laptop sleeve over it. It's like wearing pads lah!
*#@#$%^&*(%&*&*$#^%#&~!!!
Yes, I'm that pissed! How bad can this month get, really! ARGHH! :'(
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Tiring November
My macbook is down for the moment, so I got no choice but to blog from my new hp. Haha! The adaptor/battery might be the problem. So sad.
Oh, and sorry for the lack of updates lately, haven't had time to even eat or sleep well either, too many stuff to squeeze into a single day. Haven't had a decent sleep for almost 2 months liao. I look like a skinny panda now. Sighs.
Anyway this mth I got no tuition bcos exams are over. Ha. I had been and still am busy with this temp data entry job I took up with TNT Express. It pays me peanuts, makes me half-blind by staring hard at the computer for almost 10 hours straight everyday, and just do monotonous data entry like a robot day in and out - I'm the "live" version, that's the difference. Sucks.
Gonna try blog again another time, when this hp is in a better mood too lah.
Oh, and sorry for the lack of updates lately, haven't had time to even eat or sleep well either, too many stuff to squeeze into a single day. Haven't had a decent sleep for almost 2 months liao. I look like a skinny panda now. Sighs.
Anyway this mth I got no tuition bcos exams are over. Ha. I had been and still am busy with this temp data entry job I took up with TNT Express. It pays me peanuts, makes me half-blind by staring hard at the computer for almost 10 hours straight everyday, and just do monotonous data entry like a robot day in and out - I'm the "live" version, that's the difference. Sucks.
Gonna try blog again another time, when this hp is in a better mood too lah.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Nokia E71 Is MINE!
I just rewarded myself with a new handphone! Which also means that wretched LG Viewty phone shall be on sale in a second-hand shop ASAP!
In come a new Nokia E71 White handphone =) for $178. Pa recontract his line so he let me buy the phone instead, with my own money of course!

Gonna start transferring all my music, pics and contacts over ASAP! I can't wait =)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tutoring Terrorist Kids
This is a crazy October for me!
Tutoring the many kids have been so terrorising to me that I think I need inner healing for bitterness already. My schedule is so packed till I got no time to eat, literally! Those parents also one kind, know their kids so problematic still dun wanna do anything to help improve the kids' studies etc.
I see messy studying environments, like the Terrorist Kids' bedrooms. I dun even feel like entering the house ever again; if not for the fact that they provide me with that few hundred bucks monthly. PSLE and Secondary exams are finally over, left with Primary school kids. One more week to a slacker month.
I'm not considering doing full-time tutoring next year unless I can manage to retain my current students. I hate the travelling to and fro, rushing like a mad cow. When I'm just 10 minutes late, I feel like a cheat, trying to scam 10 minutes worth of tuition time from the parents.
I say, if you are so unhappy with me being abit late, find another tutor who can tahan your annoying terrorist kids! They are literally pains in my arse! Please get your lazy kids to study more and not always depend on the tutor for everything. They are sitting for their own exams, which is actually very easy - unless you are talking about this year's retarded PSLE Maths paper.
Simple fractions, multiplication and decimals - cannot even do since beginning of the year?
There is definitely sth wrong with:
(A) Teacher
(B) Student
(C) Tutor
(D) Parents
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(1) A Only
(2) B Only
(3) A & C Only
(4) B & D Only
I choose (4).
Therefore, I still want a proper full-time engineering job, damnit!
I'm so gonna shop online when I get my big fat paychecks this month!
Amidst all these hoo-ha about retarded students and running from house to house, I thank God for bestowing (too much) blessings to me. I might need to give blessings away too! Hahaha!
Anyway just now, I was on my way home listening to radio when I heard Carrie Underwood's "Jesus Take The Wheel". It is a powerful song with lotsa thoughts and emotions running thru the mind as the lyrics were being sung. Great stuff, you should listen to this!
For now (or rather in November), I just wanna eat good food, exercise more and then bum around more and watch Growing Up on Channel 5 every day at 3pm! As I type this out, it is 3pm! YAY!
Tutoring the many kids have been so terrorising to me that I think I need inner healing for bitterness already. My schedule is so packed till I got no time to eat, literally! Those parents also one kind, know their kids so problematic still dun wanna do anything to help improve the kids' studies etc.
I see messy studying environments, like the Terrorist Kids' bedrooms. I dun even feel like entering the house ever again; if not for the fact that they provide me with that few hundred bucks monthly. PSLE and Secondary exams are finally over, left with Primary school kids. One more week to a slacker month.
I'm not considering doing full-time tutoring next year unless I can manage to retain my current students. I hate the travelling to and fro, rushing like a mad cow. When I'm just 10 minutes late, I feel like a cheat, trying to scam 10 minutes worth of tuition time from the parents.
I say, if you are so unhappy with me being abit late, find another tutor who can tahan your annoying terrorist kids! They are literally pains in my arse! Please get your lazy kids to study more and not always depend on the tutor for everything. They are sitting for their own exams, which is actually very easy - unless you are talking about this year's retarded PSLE Maths paper.
Simple fractions, multiplication and decimals - cannot even do since beginning of the year?
There is definitely sth wrong with:
(A) Teacher
(B) Student
(C) Tutor
(D) Parents
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(1) A Only
(2) B Only
(3) A & C Only
(4) B & D Only
I choose (4).
Therefore, I still want a proper full-time engineering job, damnit!
I'm so gonna shop online when I get my big fat paychecks this month!
Amidst all these hoo-ha about retarded students and running from house to house, I thank God for bestowing (too much) blessings to me. I might need to give blessings away too! Hahaha!
Anyway just now, I was on my way home listening to radio when I heard Carrie Underwood's "Jesus Take The Wheel". It is a powerful song with lotsa thoughts and emotions running thru the mind as the lyrics were being sung. Great stuff, you should listen to this!
For now (or rather in November), I just wanna eat good food, exercise more and then bum around more and watch Growing Up on Channel 5 every day at 3pm! As I type this out, it is 3pm! YAY!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Double Portion!
Thank God for His numerous blessings this month. Double portion, literally. Just like how Elisha asked Elijah for double portion blessings! Even my earnings this month from tutoring, has doubled, much thanks to those poor kids suffering from final exams. Hahaha! Their suffering is my blessing!
Thank God for blessing me with 3 more students this month, and a freelance teaching job at Jemima's cousin's tuition centre. Awesome God we serve! He bless us with big things when we honour Him and is faithful with small things.
Hip Hip Hooray!
Off to tuition now, it's late and I have not even bathed yet. Haha!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Wait Up!
Wait abit more while I blog out many more stuff. Too much to write, too lil time to write them out. Haha! Bear with me for now =)
For now, this is what I do in my free time.
Except for the dog, kid and father. It's just me alone on the couch, thank you.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Save The Marriage, PLEASE!
Is it so easy to end a marriage, just by simply saying the word "Divorce" and sign the papers?
It saddens me to know how my friends are coping with their parents' 20-year marriage just come to an abrupt end. Usually it is bcos of the husband is suspected/has a extramarital affair, but there are times when the wife is at fault too. I wish I could help the estranged families in any ways, but I dunno how to, as yet.
The sad thing I always hear from them is that, they pray very hard for a miracle to happen in the family. It always ends up in disappointment and further hurt, bcos God did not answer their pleas or plight. It then lead to the disappointed friend losing the faith and trust in God, thinking "God" is just an illusion or sorts.
I really wish we could all stop turning to God only when we need Him to help us with our problems. He deserve due respect when He pours blessings unto us too. How often do we remember thanking God for the things He done in our lives, yet we overlooked them and treat the blessings as "luck"?
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Friend "S" used to love God with all his heart. He always go church, meetings and read the Bible very faithfully. One day, he realised about his dad's unfaithfulness towards his mum. Not only did he not mediate between them, he showed no concern to help salvage the parents' marriage. The parents eventually separated and had since lived in different apartments, S followed his mum obviously.
Now, S not only dun come to church anymore, he dun trust that God can help his parents' marriage anymore. S gave up asking God for help. I'm not saying S is totally at fault, I know he prayed very hard during that time, but I feel that he could have done better to help as a son to his parents. His attitude towards the situation was very immature and nonchalant. It saddened me further when I see lil efforts made by him, to resolve the situation between his parents or with God.
S had so much potential, so much to learn and give, but it looks like he has chosen a path that is gonna be quite stormy and a big roundabout in life. It din seem to matter when I shared with him my personal roundabout life's experiences, bcos he has followed that same path I once ventured to.
Some has given up on him, others (including me) continue to believe and pray that one day he'll eventually turn back to God, towards the One who is all-powerful and all-knowing. I just met S recently, he tried so hard to smile and pretend all is fine, behind that mask. I felt sad, awkward and disappointed, to see how much he tried to change outside of his personality, for the sake of that girl and those useless company of friends of his. It was an awkward supper, by the way.
Hopefully my birthday present to you would be of some help to your spiritual life, bcos I feel that you have drifted way too far away, like a drifting log in the ocean. I have heard nuthin from you ever since that supper, I feel very sad. No words of appreciation or thanks, no words of God's wisdom and encouragement came either, unlike the days when you used to text me so much positive stuff.
S, you may try very hard to avoid God's voice or us, but we believe that you'll return soon enough. You are missed by us all. Dun give yourself anymore excuses to escape reality. Remember the anointing you have when you first learnt the guitar, remember the dreams and prophesies He placed in your heart, remember the love you received from Him.
I'll always remember the song you taught us in class once, "When God Ran". Everytime I hear this song on my mp3, you come across my mind w/o fail. Ironically, you have now become the source of why God is actually running for. My heart hurts and cries for your return. We really want you back!
I sound like some major cult freak now, but really I'm not hor. I feel very burdened, I wanna tell S all these but I know he won't listen to this - bcos he'll obviously come up with more excuses.
OK, enough of this sad sob S. I wish someone can enlighten me on how to help these affected people who are affected by their parents' dysfunctional marriage. Thank you.
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p/s: Marriage is for life. You dun make that lifelong marriage vow of saying "I do" at the ROM or wedding altar, for the sake of the first few years of passionate love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (New International Version)
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.8Love never fails. -Source
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
No Smoking!
Did you know that I never tried smoking b4?
Not even one stick, nor a single puff outta curiosity.
I know I look like gangster at certain angles, I behave like ah-lian* (female gangster/hooligan) at certain times, I got that smoker face too, BUT I NEVER EVER SMOKE B4!
-IN YOUR FACE!-
I'm so proud of myself, that I managed to have that willpower to hold on to my stand about no-smoking to my body. Despite those pig-and-dog-friends of mine trying to be the devils when I was in poly, I admit I was tempted many times in the 3 years there, however thank God I could hold my urge to light one stick just to TRY. Ha!
So kids, please dun try smoking. It's never good for you, neither is it cool to people. You are just a loser if you smoke, really. You wanna be a winner, right? Good boys and girls =)
NO SMOKING!!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
I'm Sorry!
Not sure if this is called emo-ing, but I just felt I need to release all the negative feelings from my soul right now. Detoxifying my soul, I say =) Here goes a very long entry, pardon the words and my prayers.
I realised how much I've changed over this bull-shit year, for the worst.
I realised how much I've taken my family, bf, God and His blessings for granted.
I realised how much more I needed to be moulded by God and great people of my life.
I think that I've not done my role as a Christian, very well this year. I've slackened off so much for no reason. Well, maybe bcos of my discouragement in certain people, and for not finding a decent rat-race job, despite much emailing of resumes out to screwed-up HRs all over Singapore!
My temper has worsened hundredfold, and it has reverted back to my ol' ways in secondary school. Sighs. I remembered telling myself that I'll never be that monster again, but sadly I fell back into that since August this year. I dunno what went wrong with me lately, I just snapped at every single thing I felt frustrated at.
I hate nagging so much, especially from Mama and bf.I hate being rejected despite doing my best for job interviews.I hate being the last-minute substitute for roles that cannot be filled.I hate going to church with a heavy heart and guilty conscience.I hate being the role model to the younger kids, when I feel unworthy to be called one.I hate it when I just tear up and sob like a baby (literally), just to relieve the frustrations off my heart.I hate it when the devil uses all my weaknesses to attack me when I'm totally unguarded.I hate the fact that I lack the discipline to do my daily personal devotion, unlike some other leaders or youths.I hate the fact that I'm starting to feel like a dunno-what's-going-on-with-the-world-outside ignorant housewife, when I dun even do housework or isn't a housewife.I hate myself, my stupid temper, my intolerance of people asking me trivial stuff and more.
AAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!
Over this period of all-time low, I appreciate the fact that my family and bf loves me unconditionally, even though I can be a total jackass to them. I told God that I must really learn to control my disgustingly bad temper from now on. I dun want to be a grumpy monster at all! I hate it when people do that to me too lor.
I know that I've particularly hurt my mother and bf alot over the past 7 weeks, just bcos I was so damn impatient and peeved at every single thing I hear. I said hurtful things, I do hurtful stuff and I think hurtful thoughts. I'm a super meanie girl.
I remember somewhere last month, bf and I had a extremely bad quarrel, that threatened our relationship to the verge of breakup. After sobbing hard like a stupid baby the entire night, I realised that my ego and pride has gotten a big fat stronghold upon my life, and it is bad!
I find it so difficult to swallow my pride to verbally apologise to bf, when I'm at fault and was the baddie. Yet, I could easily apologise to anyone else. See, I've taken my dearest bf for granted, big time. I hate to let people see my weak and vulnerable side, bcos I hate to be pushed around like how I was in my childhood days.
I spent some days reading this particular blog and its archives, from a very down-to-earth and humble person I know. I read her posts about the love she had for her family and bf. Her love languages were slightly different from mine. She expressed her love best in Quality Time and Personal Touch. I'm more of a Words of Affirmation and Quality Time.
I felt that I got so much more to reflect on and do to clean up my acts. Indeed it was timely for me to read her blog, so I can understand how much God is working in her life too, bcos she has somewhat-almost the same character and personality as me. The temper problem is the big one.
Digressing just abit, I just realised there are 5 languages for Apology too! Here's a lil test for you to do and know which language of apology you prefer =)
Ok, back to where I was, I just wanna take this time and space to say this to my bf.
Shit lah, I cried so much while typing out this post. My blanket full of mucus liao. Now, my ultimate prayer to God."Baby, you know how much I love you, and how much I need you in my life. I sincerely and truly apologise to you for all the hurtful things I've said and done to you, over the past year. Indeed, we tend to easily forget and assume that our closest ones will accept the flaws of us no matter how ugly it is. However we forget that they are human beings too, with feelings and emotions just like ourselves.I know that I'm the jerk in this relationship. I can be very wilful, annoyingly mean, impatient and crazily kuku. I cry so much whenever I know how much hurt I've caused you each time we quarrelled, on the phone or in public. Yet, I lack the courage to apologise to you, always.All this while when I was acting all crazy and mad, you were so patient and loving to me. I caused you so much inconvenience, loss of face and frustrations till you went bonkers too. You are super duper good to me. How can I ever find another boy like you? I thank God everyday, for bestowing you, the special someone, into my life. W/o you, I think I'd still be that stupid girl in the past, wound up in all the regrets of my mistakes.You know me inside out, well just slightly more than my sister. 10 years of knowing you, my dear. Our relationship has been thru all sorts of patterns and we are still learning and working towards a happy future marriage life together too.How could I ever thank God enough for you in my life, right? I treasure you so much, baby. Thank you baby, for loving me unconditionally, just like how my parents and God do. You are all I ever wanted, and I know you are always mine =)I love you, my dearest Teh Cher Hao! -MUACKS!- "To my mama,"I know I'm a very impatient person. I always lose my cool ever so easily at you. Let's compromise, you stop nagging incessantly and I'll talk calmly with no annoyance in my voice ok? I really dun wish and I hate to be a grumpy girl to you. I dun wish to hurt you in any ways again. I always remember that verse about honoring my parents, but it's easier said than done. God, help me please! I hate being so irritating and bad to my mother. I'm such a bad daughter.I'm sorry, Mummy. Forgive me. "
"God, I'm truly sorry for everything I've done in Your eyes. My life seems to have so many untold secrets and lies yet I know they can't be concealed forever. I've always struggled with accountability and temptations of the flesh. Please, God, help me to be strong and to have courage to beat that darn devil off my back and mind.Indeed it's so difficult to go the right path, yet it's so easy to stumble into the sinful ways. Jesus is so wonderful, how He ever conquered sin so effortlessly? Your Word has spoken to me umpteen times, it is obvious that I'm stubborn and stupid to listen to You. Humble me, O Lord! I really need Your wisdom and courage to defend that donkey devil!!Dun let me lose that passion for Your kingdom. Help me to be a warrior of Yours! Forgive me of all my transgressions, help me to overcome these stumbling blocks, guide me thru the deep dark valleys of death, sin and false leadership (abit random but true) too. Give me Your discernment and directions. Renew in me a clean heart, one that is after You only.Thank You Lord, for loving me so unconditionally. I love You more and more each day, whenever I learn about Your grace and mercy for us. A God that never sleeps nor slumbers, the Only One I can depend on. Thank You Lord! "
I feel better after pouring out my deepest feelings from my soul (for 1.5 hours nonstop). Hopefully I regain some directions, drive and determination in my walk with God and with man.
p/s: I'm not crazy ok.... I just need an outlet to let my mind do relax-therapy!
Jesus loves you!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Happy 23rd Birthday to Shi Yun!
Location: TM Cafe Cartel
Date: 13.09.09
Attendance: ALL were present, finally!
In lieu of Shi Yun's 23rd birthday on 911, we had a slightly belated dinner celebration last Sunday. It was a great time spent together as buddies, even as we are so busy with the rat race this year. Almost all of us were late, but we still had lotsa fun catching up!
Fits her rather well and looks darn good lah! It's very her anyway!
The staff at Cafe Cartel were really polite, I like. Haha! The food tasted really good that evening too. Maybe it's just our good moods affecting our judgement lah. Haha!
Happy birthday to you once again, Shi Yun! Buddies forever~! See ya all in November for all the boys' birthdays!!!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
MLTR Eternity Concert
I was thinking of blogging between Sydney trip Day 3-4 or Shi Yun's 23rd birthday dinner. Well, I think I should blog about the recent MLTR concert I went with the Tehs. Haha!
I won 2 FREE pairs of tickets from Class 95 contest, thanks to Cher Hao's "magical" handphone. His phone has the special ability to win radio contests when all our phones always can't seem to even get thru the phone line. Haha!
We decided to ask his brother and cousin along, since we have somewhat heard of their songs in the 90s era. It was a good 2 hours spent there, clear weather and great "live" concert music.
At Fort Canning Park, open concept.
The moon that evening was especially bright and full. Lighted the night sky very luminously.
The lead singer of MLTR (Michael Learns to Rock) sings live really well. The only time he was off was when he hit the wrong key on the keyboard. It was pretty obvious though.
We never knew there was a female band member, who was a bassist. During one of the interludes, she was performing a rather high-pitched song. Conclusion of her performance: CH and I agreed that she should stick to her bass guitar, she's doing a good job there already.
All in all, it was a good evening.
We thank God for his blessings, bcos of our honesty when we found a wallet full of ringgits when we were in Langkawi. Haha! It was of equal value in Sing dollars, with the 4 tickets. How good and faithful He is!
Monday, September 14, 2009
JUMP!
It was a last-minute decision to go for this live comedy show, as I only booked the tickets 2 days b4 the show itself. After watching the JUMP! advertisment numerous times on TV, I thought it would be nice to bring Cher Hao along to catch this Korean performance, since he's so into Korean culture etc.
Thank God I managed to get 2 tickets at the cheapest category, yet at students' 10% discount. Haha! The view was superb, I almost thought we were given the wrong seating. LOL!
Rushed straight after afternoon church class yesterday, in the stupid heavy thunderstorm, w/o lunch and was drenched to the skin. It was worth it, given that it was an awesome performance by those talented and flexible performers!
The student-priced ticket =)
(L to R): "Mother", "Daughter", "Son-in-law", blocked chap, "Robber 1"

Ever-smiling grandfather and handsome husband.

Ever-smiling grandfather and handsome husband.
It was a wonderful Sunday afternoon, other than the crowds at City Hall and Suntec areas. We are kinda interested to watch more arts performances now, however it is the prices that always make us hesitant. Ha! Someone, bless us please!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Sydney Graduation Trip: Day 1-2
Well, this is few months overdue from my Sydney graduation trip, so I thought since I'm free today, why not pull in the best few pics I got in my album of 1200 pics =)
So here we go, a massive galore of lovely G'Day pictures and collages!!
Day 1: Off to Sydney!!
Arriving at Changi Airport Terminal 3 @ 2230; all ready for boarding!! -excited me!-
Inside boarding gate area! Must walk about 10 mins to our gate B9! Crazy terminal design!!!!
Sunrise in Australia =)Inside B747 flight to Sydney via SQ222!
In-flight entertainment never upgrade, ever since the last time I took an SQ flight 9 years back =\
Snack time in the middle of the night =.= and Breakfast at 6am!
Various terrain types of the country! Lovely morning skies and deep waters!
Landed in Sydney International Airport!
Woohoo~ my butt was so sore, my legs were so cramped and were aching so badly! I need A380 Suite treatment!!
The cab drivers here in Sydney need their trusty GPS although it is so darn lousy!! No1 seem to know the way very well =\
Interesting way of advertising DHL services =)
At Waldorf Apartments!
Our apartment for the next 10 days in Sydney!!
A decent 1-bedroom and living room, kitchen and balcony, like a standard HDB 2-room flat.
The rooftop and the autumn scenery from up there, is fantastic!!
Our daily breakfast is just cereal and coffee, for 10 days straight.
Lovely cooling autumn weather. If only Singapore is like this every single day, this would be a perfect Singapore. Hahaha!
Day 2: Graduation Day! (the main purpose of the whole trip)
I'm in the Credit section (better than a normal pass cert)!
Jittery camera skills taken by a fellow UTS kid. LOL! Not with my (actually CH's) camera, definitely. Credits to Bryan's camera =) He smuggled it in, with much trouble. LOL!
The 4 of us from Singapore, officially graduating on Sydney campus! Woohoo~!
(L to R: Tay, Bryan, Julia, Hirlie)

I'm in between the boys, kana blocked =\
Proud and relieved me, with my gigantic degree certificate =)

I think Hirlie's wife told me to pose like this, to show the mixed emotions of leaving school finally and all. LOL!
I din like the pic bcos my face look like a flatfish, especially my big nose =\ Eeeks!
We had quite alot to eat for dinner that day, since we were all frizzled out totally by the day's happenings. The food was sadly, not very yummy, given that it is HK and Macau style. Ha!
Isn't great to have long picture posts once in awhile eh? Day 3 onwards, coming up soon lah. Wait up ya. Meanwhile, savour slowly on this. Good day!
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