Laptop Throws Tantrum Yet Again :(

This 3.5 year-old laptop has done it again. GRRRR!! Throw tantrum at me again! Stupid screen is dropping out anytime now! What did I do to deserve this treatment from you, Mr Lappy? >:(

I was happily watching MobTV: the past episodes of "Say It If You Dare" - Season 3, hosted by Mark Lee and Jeff Wang. Decided to tilt the screen slightly more inward, when suddenly I heard this dreadful crack sound.... -slaps my forehead hard and groans loudly- Oh man....

Actually I had heard that awful sound last night when I closed the laptop, b4 going to bed, but I chose to believe my ears were playing tricks on me. Well, looks like its true after all, can't bluff myself any longer. Off to the service centre, yet again, for the dunno-how-many-times now.


Happily mobtv-ing =)

Front view: Screen and cover got lobang* (hole/gap) :(

Side view :(

Back view :((

The last time I fixed this stupid screen, cost me a crazy $100 lah! What the heck!!!! Arghhh!!!! I'm fuming mad!!!

Birthday Plans Coming Up!

I had initially thought of what to blog but suddenly my mind went blank. Sighs.

Cher Hao and Alvin's 21st birthday chalets are just 1 week apart. Both dudes are part of my buddies' clique. I have helped to plan for both of them, not forgetting Madeline's precious help too!

A rare pic of Cher Hao and Alvin together. This pic was taken 5 years ago, at Changi Airport T1, after sending Titus off to Australia. They still look pretty much the same now lah.


One of my favourite neoprint pics taken with my buddies! -hugs- We just look so so good together ^^v

Can't wait for the dudes' birthdays, bcos after that they should start planning for mine! Wahahahaha! Make me surprised leh, please.... (although I kinda have a plan in mind already)

Speaking of birthdays, we had a lil surprise birthday party for Yi Xian on 2 days back, on Sunday. It was fun, sneaking into her house like mice, all 30 of us! Happy 22nd Birthday to you, Yi Xian!

Oh, I enjoyed the nasi lemak and the Nintendo Wii most! LOL~ and I realised that she looked just like her mother. Literally copy-and-paste face, so as my sister said.


Yi Xian with her toy dinosaur, 22 choc fudge cupcakes and a choc birthday cake!

No idea why the pics I took of her, always her eyes closed one...


I got this birthday card last year from some of the church people, its proudly done by Sylvia Sun =) So pretty card! The "Chocolate makes it all bearable" chocolate bar, is given by Han Ping.

Yes, my best friend only gave me a choc bar for my 20th birthday last year. Sighs. That's why I have not eaten that precious bar for almost a year yet =\ Haven't expire yet lah! I dun have a sweet tooth nor cravings for choc, so well, its in the freezer for now. I'm expecting sth BIG this year from him though. -waiting in great anticipation-

Still on the birthday topic, this year VFC youth camp will be on 10-14th December! Yes, it falls on my birthday. I'm still contemplating whether to go anot though. It'll be at Rompin, Malaysia =D Sounds like fun eh, high chance I will go. Of course, that's if I ever remember to renew my soon-expiring passport by November =X

VFC Youth Camp'07: My Generation!

Ah yes! Happy 22nd Birthday to Karina! Its kinda belated wishing you here on my blog, but still, glad you have enjoyed a whole week of celebration already! Wahahaha! Dun bother to step onto the weighing machine lah. Christmas coming in 2 months time, step on it in January 2008 lah.

I went for Karina's net group last Friday, well, dinner with them was great, arcade games with them was fun, chatting with them was interesting :)

Me with Karina's net :)

Pic in negative effect: We look like creepy figures standing with Taz devil, in the dark =\

Hahahaha! Initially had nothing to blog, now I'm all done writing a long entry with pics. Say WOW! Please.

Adorable lil En Jie!

Meow~ he always reminds me of cats, I just dunno why ^^


That white box up there... its a CCTV installed in our MRT trains now. Now I'm surprised...

Oh yeah, AO2 exam is in 2 weeks time, right after Alvin's birthday. Ok, I better starting pulling up my socks now and stop slacking as if it is the summer vacations already. I know I super slack this month, haven't been sitting down much to revise lately.

November 13, 10pm, marks the end of 1st year of studying BEngSc. Aerospace Operations. Woohoo! -shaking my bon bon- Left with 1 more year of studying. I know lah, working is worse, but I guess every1 eventually still needs to work in the end mah =\ but it won't be for long either lah.

I can't wait to PLAY!!!! -still shaking my bon bon-

Meanwhile, do check this article out, on Changi Airport newly opened T3 =) I have been waiting for this day to come, for so long already! Esther, if Janice really dun wanna bring us along with her kids, we go together lah!

Stay Tuned for My Birthday Wishlist!

Ok, my 21st birthday is nearing as the year has reached almost the end. In 47 days time, to be exact, it will be the day =D

Go count yourself to find the actual date lah.

Well, everyone is starting to ask me what I want for my pressies. I'm glad they asked XD

I have decided to put up a wishlist soon, so you guys dun have to think so much of buying what for me.

The usual lah, Cold Hard Cash is the BEST!!

But I know no1 is sane to do that. They rather give in practical or material forms.

Stay tuned for my wishlist, it's gonna be at the side of the blog.... very soon =D

Hopefully with pics and proper descriptions. Of course, hope your budget extends to that amount that the item costs -evil grins- heehee! We'll see....

Penal Code 377a Hoo-Ha!

Ah! Regarding the big hoo-ha about Penal Code 377a, the whole repeal and keep issue, I'll write about that now. Haha! All about gayism and lesbianism. I've been waiting for months to write about this issue and now it is the right time to do so!

Still, I hope the government retains the current law to criminalise consensual private and/or public heterosexual sex.
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**Warning to ALL readers: "This very wordy, and no pics entry discusses about the very sensitive issue of same gender relationships, attached alongside with some Christian preaching and bible verses.

So if that's what you dislike to read, so be it, I dun blame you. You can choose not to read this if you feel uncomfortable or unhappy about what I'm gonna say below."
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Moral values should always be remembered. What have the parents out there been teaching their kids? What is Sex Education in school for? Its not just about the teachers telling you the lil hush-hush bedroom stuff or how kids are created. Students giggling when teachers make a fool outta themselves up on stage, talking about sex.

Dun upset the family life and human nature and its balance to pro-create! Life isn't just about making love and satisfying your sexual lust/desires/cravings/abnormality! GROSS!!!!

Yes I know that society now has become more open about same gender relationships, sexually, physically or emotionally. I may be one of those traditional Chinese kids, where families have taught their kids that girl must marry boy and likewise for boy to girl.

Yes, I'm a Christian and I've been taught that the Bible says same gender relationships is sinful, and that man and woman together is the correct way.

Read Romans 1:18-32 (God's Wrath Against Mankind)
1:18
The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness,
1:19
since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them.
1:20
For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
1:21
For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened.
1:22
Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools
1:23
and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles.
1:24
Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another.
1:25
They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator--who is forever praised. Amen.
1:26
Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones.
1:27
In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.
1:28
Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done.
1:29
They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips,
1:30
slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents;
1:31
they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless.
1:32
Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.
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I know the last verse is kinda morbid, that the punishment of such immoral sins is Death, if w/o true repentance. Well, I have to agree with that. God is holy and pure, as white as snow, unblemished and w/o spots. He can't possibly tolerate such indecent acts in His creation!

Yes, this whole abnormal same gender relationship thing is getting weird. I may be old-fashioned but imagine if your future kids are like that, how would you feel and react? LOL! I reckon you will blow your top or cry out loud and blame God for giving you weird kids. No1 seems to be blaming the devil for bad stuff. Whenever bad stuff happens, God gets the blame. Why ar?

This is not about equality, happiness, prosperity and peace in this country (so as some people in the alleged Repeal says), neither is it about being open-minded and moving on with times/new lifestyle trends. This is about being moral and sane in your emotions!

You get all sorts of STDs, HIV and AIDS when you do such abnormal sexual acts. Yes, I may not understand how those gays and lesbians feel right now, and/or how happy they are in their current same gender relationships, or the rejection and hurt and unhappiness they had went thru in the past when they were still in normal boy-girl relationships, aka BGR.

Well, all I can say is, turn back to the straight path. Same gender relationship is a sign of perversion =\ really, its disgusting. I'm sorry to say that, but it truly is.

This is the reason why God gave Man a woman. Notice the Almighty God, He, din create another man for Adam, the first man on Planet Earth.

Genesis 2:21-24 (God's Gift to Man)
2:21
So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh.
2:22
Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.
2:23
The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman,' for she was taken out of man."
2:24
For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.

(Bible verses stated here are in New International Version, thanks to Christianity.com)
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Last but not least, read this Christian article on gay Christians, that's if you aint that tired after this much of reading yet =) Is it accepted or even biblical? Haha! I'm waiting to hear from Joan! Oh yes Karina, I reckon we can write about this on the regional blog too!

I guess I better stop here, else I dun need to sleep already. I feel much better getting this gay issue out. -phew- I'm ready to hear all good and bad remarks/comments from you guys.

Disclaimer: What I write on that topic, will be of my personal comments and I dun discriminate them at all. I just wanna give my point of view and hear what you guys have to say =)

-The End-

XD

Elmo, Laptop Skins, Safety First!

Say Hi to Elmo!

The sight of smiling lil Elmo just cheers me up so much. Heehee! Never mind that this lil red kiddy monster is ear-less and has a growth stunt. His voice is simply so adorable! Oh, I like his trademark Elmo song too! Hahaha~ back to the ol' days of Sesame Street! Lalalala...

Saw this video while checking out Shaun's new blog. So enjoy this video, Elmo is super hilarious! LOL! Everyone say Awww~~~


*p.s: The Aussie TV talkshow host is quite cute too =D What's his talkshow name again? Covo Live?

I checked out this blog site Laptop Skins, as intro-ed by Elijah! Does look good and I'm just as tempted to get one for my lao-kok-kok* (old and problematic) laptop too! It needs a new face makeover anyway. Grey sucks, for a laptop colour.

**Warning: You might be VERY spoilt for choice, especially girls!

Oh, Twang told me this afternoon about his missing secondary schoolmate, Felicia. Its scary to suddenly disappear from the face of this earth, while walking home. Every1 knows how safe Singapore is and walking home alone is not a big problem, even for me.

But when I heard what Twang said, I know that God is certainly protecting me every single day, to and fro home. Every1 knows I always walk home alone as I seldom have people sending me home, except for those few gentlemen frenz ;p

My place is certainly one of the most ulu* (remote) housing estates in Tampines. Darren, Simon and Thiams has warned me before, to watch my back when walking alone on that LOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGG stretch of road back home.

I always say to them, "I've lived in this area for the past 10 over years, nuthin has happened to me as yet." Well, I better take back my words b4 anything happens to me =\

So back to what Twang told me, I actually had the shivers down my spine, literally, as he was telling me about Felicia. Singapore ain't that safe after all.

I listed the more obvious possibilities that might happen to her, but still, no1 knows what exactly happened to her and where she is now. We concluded that she's definitely not in Singapore anymore, due to the fact she had been missing for the past 5 months already.

Read the blog that her frenz had set up, just to find her, to understand the situation slightly better. Last seen with her La-selle Arts frenz partying. Continue to keep this young 21 year-old girl in your prayers.

Geez, you girls out there, better take care when going home. Ensure that a guy sends you home, for safety sake! Always pray for safety and journey mercy, protection from all harm and danger, never ever take them for granted!

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Pray that God will protect her!

This entry is quite random bcos there's too much to say in a day. Wait up for my next entry on the recent 377a hoo-ha and my personal views about same gender relationships!

Aching Ol' Body

I think I've lost abit of weight during the recent weekend, muscles are aching terribly now.

Played that Race @ Vivo with the VFC youths, a lil version of Amazing Race. Stupid Vivo is big lah, make us run all around the place like retards for 1 hour plus. Second to arrive, but we might still stand a chance to win the prize though ;p

-nudges organiser, Mr Ho- Darren, please make sure Group 6 is the winner hor!

We solve silly questions for the next clue, bask like idiots to get 10 signatures from strangers, at the Bonus Checkpoint, actually perspired in Vivo and did lotsa running, no doubt about that. Esther Tan and I were commenting while running, about the amount of potential weight we would lose. Well, I can feel it now! Hahaha!

Too tired to go for Edge svc, so Jian Lin and I decided to lunch at Jia Xiang Kuching Kolo Mee. -smiles to di- you get it? The food there is sure expensive, but filling for our stomachs and is quite nice.


Kolo Mee! With char siew, minced pork, prawns, wanton, vegetables and a choice of mee pok or mee kia ^^ to add kick to the mee, put lotsa sambal chilli, very nice smell! One word: SHIOK!

After 15 minutes of enjoying lunch, this is what's left in my bowl. YUMMY!! Please exculde those yucky fried onions =\ -pukes-

My late Ah Gong used to eat his meals with this 'orange chicken' bowl!

Even the spoon has an 'orange chicken' imprinted there! Wahahaha!

Digressing just a bit, add $2.90 for few slices of abalone to your bowl of Kolo Mee. LOL!

One day I shall go Kuching and try their authentic Kolo Mee. Singapore version like too expensive leh. Read from kennysia.com that Kuching people love their Kolo Mee so much, that its like their staple meal at their kopitiams. Hmmm.. I wonder how true and how nice it really is over there.

Yeah, Sunday was a long day. Well I stood for almost the entire day, alongside with the other video crew. Thank God morning class was cancelled =) had video duty for morning svc. Afternoon class skipped since Uncle Melvin, aka Boss, wanted to brief us on the ATCEM (Asia Theological Ccentre for Evangelism and Missions) graduation sequence during the evening svc later.

You should have seen the way Boss strategised everything. I was commenting to Samuel that we seem like we were going for war =\ kinda ironic for a happy occasion eh. Heehee! Anyway the video-ing for evening was a stressful experience for all of us, including Boss. Sound crew could literally hear Boss shouting thru from my headphones. -phew- tough being the boss eh.

Crap sure happens especially when you are planning big stuff. Just as Ps. Kenny was closing the morning svc, Jon Tay gave a loud shout in the video room! Its real rare to hear Jon make a sound, let alone shouting. Basically we in the video room, were so into the closing of the svc till we din realise smoke emerging out from Zhi Lin!

Nope, it wasn't her fart. The massive wirings from behind the video equipment and consoles, were the source. Apparently there had been a loud sound that sparked it all, that only Jon heard. Weird, no1 else noticed or heard it.

First typical reaction, PANIC!! Next, Zhi Lin wanted to off the main console switch but scared to disrupt the service. Boss quickly off it and the smoke continued to emerge from the wirings. The smelly burning smell came. Whoa! Thank God the svc ended just in time lor.

Video room smelt like there had been a fire man. Close one there. Thank God for His protection over us too, else I think we, the faithful and loyal VFC R5/6 video crew, have become BBQ-ed already.


Yes, the massive wirings for the video equipment =\ Boss pro leh...

The crew was in shock. Dunno what was the exact thing that overheated. Boss was quite upset upon seeing the massive wirings to deciper to find the exact source. But still, by evening svc, everything had seemed to have resumed back to normal. Nothing else screwed up after that, thank God. Salute to Boss too!

Yeah, by the time everything ended, my legs became jelly and my lower back was aching badly. I feel old already =( Woke up this morning with legs, hands and lower back aching.

Today I went pressie-shopping for the dudes, along with Madeline. It was fun and fast. Finished within 4 hours! I lugged everything home alone, as dark clouds loomed above me. Hope the guys like their pressie. Can't exactly say what we got for them as they read this blog of mine too ;p


The dark and gloomy clouds looming over me...

Will show the pics when the celebrations are over... in November! Hahaha!

Tutorial classes are resuming again tml evening, after a nice 1 week break of slacking ^^v Din touch my notes at all for the past 10 days =X nope, not feeling guilty either =D

Just had KFC for supper, its been so long since I last ate it. Geez, I think I just had it last month o.O -giggles to self- You mean its fattening? Nah, its very healthy. C'mon, stop bluffing yourself. No lah, I din eat KFC supper for fun lah.

Papa decided to treat us KFC tonight, to thank God for his recent lil promotion at work. Nuthin big really, just a better position name, that's all =D But still, thank God for His continous blessings to our family. AMEN!

Come to think of it, forget my initial 1st line of this entry. I think the lost weight is back, much thanks to KFC supper. Heehee!

Pickup Lines

Have you ever encountered those door-to-door surveyers before? You do a 10-minutes long survey, and in turn, you are given some form of voucher, as a show of appreciation for your time. I like that, bcos God will bless me with vouchers so I can save $$!

Well I just occurred another one today, while I was happily watching this Korean show, 黄色手帕, aka Yellow Handkerchief. That drama series is being aired every Thursday and Friday afternoon on Channel U, for 2 hours straight. I have been chasing this long and draggy show for months lor! Where is it ever gonna end, happily??!!!

Ok, that was not the main thing I wanted to blog about. It is about the surveyer, who came at the critical moment when the main actor and actress were fighting over their child's custody lah. That dude knocked on my gate rather loudly lah, for that moment I thought it was my Papa who had decided to come home early from work and to do a surprise spot-check on me =\ -close shave there, phew!-

Well, partly our doorbell was not working, at least for the past few years. We were too lazy to change the batteries anyway. Hahaha! I guess he must have pressed the bell umpteen times b4 decided to knock on the door and shout, "Excuse me!! Anyone home?"

By the way, the main door was open, there were tv noises, so what do you think? Of course there is people in the house lah! Retarded, that's how some people can get sumtimes eh.

So I answered the shout, in my sloppy and embarrassing sleepwear, and bad hairdo, and shot him that what-you-want kinda look.

Me: Yes?
Retarded Dude: Eh, Hi! I'm doing a survey here and I need some time from you.... May I know your age and name?
Me: *gave him that what-the-heck look* I'm 21, name's Julia.
RD: Oh? Ju-li? Ok, wait ar, how do you spell that?
Me: It's Ju-lia.
RD: Ju-li? Ok... *takes out pen to write*
Me: It's J-U-L-I-A.
RD: *writing and spelling aloud* OH! Your name is Julia. Oh I see. Haha!
Me: *not very amused, roll eyes and let out lame laughter* HA-HA.
RD: Oh, dun worry, its only a survey, not gonna sell you anything k..

*so he quickly rattles on about the survey and starts asking me dumb questions about bird nest brands in Singapore*

Me: *just answering boredly and giving dumb answers back*

*10 minutes later... End of survey =D*

RD: Ok done. Now I just need your surname and address and handphone number, to complete this survey.
Me: Ok, my surname's Leow. *decided not to give address bcos he's standing in front of my main gate - with unit number BIG BIG there*
RD: Ok, so your number?
Me: 9xxx-xxxx

RD: So... *he starts giving me that I-wanna-get-to-know-you-better kinda look* You are a student eh? University?
Me: *looking at TV, rather frustrated and annoyed, for missing out the drama bits* yeah...
RD: What facility?
Me: Engineering.
RD: Majoring in?
Me: Aerospace.
RD: *open eyes real BIG now* WOW!! That's rare to hear girls doing aerospace nowadays. Nice.
Me: *roll eyes with more effort this time round* Ha-ha! Yeah I guess so too. *gives a one-million-dollar-dimpled-smile* I know what you mean.
RD: Cool. *attempts an in-awe smile to me*

*awkward silence*

I know he's waiting for me to ask the same questions back to him, but RD look like a stupid nerd, so no way!!!!!

RD: By the way, do you have MSN?
Me: *taken aback by the sudden random question*... *tiptoes to peep at the survey form thru the gate, to double check if email was needed* Huh? Yeah I have, but for what ar?
RD: Oh. No lah. It's not required in the form, just asking lor. Thought I can get to know you better lor.
Me: *gives that what-the-heck look again, this time with eyes open so BIG* Oh..... *then realising he was trying to use a pathetic and lame pickup line on me*

RD: So how? Can I have your MSN?
Me: Errrrr...... No? *giving that are-you-mad kinda look now*
RD: Oh. *very disheartened look* Never mind then =D *nervous laughter* Ha-ha!

*quickly opens file to take out 3 McDonalds $1 vouchers for me, after much struggle*

RD: *hands me the vouchers* Oh yes, I need you to sign on the survey form.
Me: *smiling happily bcos of Mac's vouchers* SURE!!
Me: So that's all, right?
RD: *relunctant answer* Yes =)
Me: Ok, bye.

*he leaves... I went back to continue watching the drama, or rather tv commercials >:( *

Me: SIAO KIA! *shouted rather loudly*

Moral of the story: Use better pickup lines please. Oh yes, before even saying that, take a good look in the mirror b4 asking for people's MSN. Desperate retards.

Oh well, I din know I could get such a pickup line, esp in that kinda cannot-make-it attire lor. LOL! I guess I'm blessed with the looks eh.

Okok, I see every1 laughing loudly at their computers now. It's just a joke lah. Haiya!

Contact Lenses or Not?

Should I get contact lenses??

Hmmm.....

I confirm want a new pair of spectacles though.

How??

Happy Birthday to Wei Bo!

Happy 13th Birthday to my dear lil cousin, Wei Bo!

May God bless you in your studies in Hwa Chong Institution! Wheet~ You are one smart boy in our family! Hahaha! Can't wait to see you this coming school holidays!!

I remembered the days when we were at your old house in CCK...

You were still a lil baby back then, still blubbering in baby language. You were super adorable, you carried your smelly lil pillow everywhere, even now! The days where we played in the bathroom when I'm supposed to bathe you, I squatting and you in the bathtub.

As time past, you grew up and started kindergarten. That's when you were crazy over Power Rangers and Digimon. I remembered the days I always tried my best to entertain you by singing that silly Power Rangers song to you, and we played all sorts of Power Rangers' poses and games -.-!

Soon, your family moved to Jurong West....

You started primary school already. Wow! Time flew so fast eh. Pokemon and other cartoons came into Kids Central, I could no longer keep up with the ever-changing anime shows. Haha!

Your lil sister, did joined in the fun, alongside with my sister too. 4 of us went crazy everytime we were together =D

We played badminton, played board and computer games, you tried to teach me Chinese Chess but to no avail, went shopping occasionally, stayed up to help you with homework, for fear that your mama will scold you again =\ and so much more memories.

13 years old already, a new phrase in your life has started. It is just the beginning of a teenager's life. I can foresee lotsa changes in you over the next 8 years, b4 you step into another new phrase of your life - adulthood. Well, that's my phrase for now. LOL!

Here's me, your nice and tall cousin, wishing you many happy days ahead in life. Although you may not be reading my blog nor this special birthday tribute to you, I hope that you will make the right choices as a teenager and do your family proud always ;p

We got so much to catch up this holidays. Hopefully you are not busy studying or having CCA lor. Miss you and Weiwen and of course your mama too! -hugs hugs-

Going Kuku!

I Drive Myself Crazy - *NSYNC

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lay awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
Lonely got myself to blame

(chorus)

Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance
(interlude)

- I miss you so): empty from deep within =\ this song is just what I feel now -

I need to stop being so emo lah... Arghh!!!!

Gone - *NSYNC

If You're Not The One, then Who Is?

The drama has ended.
Tears have flowed and been dried.
Looks like the time is just not right yet.

All the memories still so fresh in our minds.
Such a blissful feeling to have,
but there's more to just that.

Thank you for giving me that second chance,
but I'm still not ready to accept it from you.
You alone know my heart and everything else.

I treasure every moment spent with you, no doubt.
In turn, it causes me to have that ache within. Sighs.

Seems that roses hold a ironic significance to my life.
Supposedly to represent love and romance to all,
however it usually seem to represent heartbreak and sorrow to me.

Learnt something new about pain in life once again.
It's time to pick myself up and get back on with life.

We are back to square one now.
Things will definitely be different from today onwards.
Back to harsh reality.
Needs lotsa getting used to, yet again.

So.. Hello there to you, my dearest beloved friend.

Yours Truly,
Julia

*dun bother to ask me what exactly is it. Thanks all.

Daniel Bedingfield "If You're Not The One"



If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away
But I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Up and Down

I feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster right now. One moment I'm high up, the next I'm down under, then back up high again, rather quickly, and on and on....

When will this ever end? I still think that eventually I'll be on the losing end, bcos whatever I do or say, never seems right.

Lord, I really need Your comfort to strengthen me right now. I think I'll break down soon. if this carries on.

This is not just mere miscommunication, neither is it misintepretation of words and/or actions. Expressing ourselves is just so difficult.

I wanna resolve this issue by this week.....

..... and No, I'm not being emo here hor. I'm just not very happy by the sudden change of how things has become, over a short span of 1 month only. Will this ever end? -sighs-

We'll see....

*Di, what should I do? ='(
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Got this pic from Shirgin's blog, I thought that it was very apprioprate anyway.


[God just reminded me of verses 4 and 5.... I understand already... Lord, You are fast in answering me leh ^^ thank you!! Grant me more patience!]

Life Is Great With Caring Friends Around You

-EDITED- [Waraku dinner pics are up!]

Saturday, 061007: Community work at AMK with some of the R5/6 youth net leaders: check out the pics here. Too lazy to put onto the blog. Very tired lately to really blog nice nice.

By the way, great job guys =) and a nice big pat on our shoulders! We did something meaningful to the needy ^^v We sure had our fun, unglam and retarded moments.

YES! I caught Joan at the most unglam moment of the day: wearing a newspaper hat!! ^^v

Paiseh that my trusty SE W700i phone only have 9 christian songs and was playing 4 loops. LOL! I put more Justin Timberlake songs in mah, hence memory card space very low lah =X heehee!

Had the last lecture class by Mr George at 2pm, rushed all the way from AMK to Eunos. I was so tired until I looked like a zombie. My clasmates thought I ton at chalet or went out to have fun; bcos I was the last kid to arrive. Usually I'm one of thosoe few kiasu and studious kids ok. You see, I'm not always the latecomer hor.

Din missed out much except for the 1st few pages of lecture. He gave lotsa obvious and helpful exam tips ^^ he's such a nice Aussie dude man. Haha!

Sunday was rather relaxing, 1st time no meetings or classes to attend. Literally nuah* (relax) for 5 hours straight. Regretted not bringing my tutorials to do, really felt I was wasting precious time stoning around. Maybe I'm starting to get the nerdy syndrome from the O levels and JC kids already.

Shopping is fun, I miss my own sprees. I wonder when I can buy all those pretty clothes and shoes and all. Simon sure knows how to indulge himself, especially at Raoul today ;p But... retail therapy is absolutely good for everyone, so go INDULGE man!

Dinner today at Waraku, Marina Square, was quite fun!


No, this isn't Waraku's food. It is Yoshinoya Kids' Bento Set No.2. Cute, isn't it?

Great company and friends around, God blessed us with the use of their private room for us - the entire bunch of 12 adults, a crazy photo taking session with 4 cameras, a waiter appears almost instantly after tapping the 'magic bell' (p.s: ask Simon to teach you if you dunno how to do so) - it goes ling ling ling~~ rather loudly though. After all he was the only one who kept playing with it. LOL!

We sure laugh alot and rather loudly bcos we were simply having so much fun together. Hahaha! The dinner was actually to hang out with Molly and do some catching up. Once I get the pics from all the different cameras, I'll try my best to post them up here ya ;p

Click the pictures here, here and here!! Enjoy~!


The entrance to our private room of fun and laughter!

The loooonnnnnngggggg table :0)

Decided to snap a random pic of myself since I was having a good hair day =D

I was just thinking during dinner, maybe I should go reserve this room for one of my 21st birthday celebrations this year - of course with my great ol' buddies lah! 老朋友们, so what do you think eh? =D its not as troublesome as the initial plan I proposed to you guys. Reply back via email ya =)

I had a weird dream last night, must be the excessive amount of lectures last week. Kept thinking I was airborne; flying amongst the clouds on tatami mats -.- I'm going crazy man. LOL! Ok lah, time to sleep!

Negativity

Frustrated
Hesitant
Upset
Disappointed
Accused
Annoyed
Irritated
Peeved
Regretful
Affected
Unhappy
Hurt
Confused
Sad
Insignificant.. in some sense...

Basically all these words sum up my feelings for the recent weekend. Its a hell lot of negativity, I'm very sad to say. I'm usually not like this, but I am currently.

Sorry that I always seem to be at fault in your eyes. Dun understand why either, but I'm having second thoughts once again. I know, I'm so contradictory :(

I can't help it, given the circumstances and the current situation. I've really tried my best to be different from the past, but apparently you din notice or was aware of the changes in me.

What-air-veril*~~~
(Watch this video to get the prononuciation for this special word!)

I need to sort out lotsa thoughts once again. I'm such a dumb ass sumtimes... -sighs-

This week will be very different for me, at least. You dun even appreciate me much anyway, stupid big ego! Booooooo.......

Facebook

Yes yes, I have finally succumbed to the dark side and joined Facebook. Add me only if I know you personally.

After many weeks of bombarding from different friends, using all sorts of communication devices; I decided to sign up and see what's so captivating about this site - as compared to Friendster and Multiply.



Facebook indeed has many cute stuff to play around with lah.

Eh, there's Booze Mail - to buy 'drinks' for your entire group of friends, SuperWall - to display friends' comments, graphics and graffiti, X Me - to send different actions to your friends e.g. hugs, The Wall - the usual comments box, Mini Feed - very regular updates on your profile site and MUCH MORE!!! I've yet to really explore this yet as this is my 1st day at it =X

Facebook definitely loads faster than Friendster, never-ending stuff to play and explore like comparing different traits and all amongst your friends. Haiyo, how to play finish? No wonder every1's saying that they are so addicted onto this Facebook site. No good lah, I wanna study more and use less internet one. Ok lah, that's all I'm gonna review for Facebook already - not paid one leh.

Nerdy

This week is AO2 lecture week.

On 1st impression, our Aussie lecturer, George Mylonas, looks like Mr Nice Guy. Very cleanly-shaven face, that charismatic smile, neatly attired, very brown hair despite his age, and not forgetting a pleasant voice.

No no no, I din go for lecture to look at guys hor; just that the lecturer was particularly different from our previous Aussie lecturers leh. Haha!

What I like about this George is that:

1. He dun rush thru his lectures, takes time to answer every question well,
2. He make sure we students understand him well enough despite his strong Aussie accent,
3. He shows us relevant and helpful teaching materials to aid our learning more,
4. He patiently teaching us despite us not actively participating in his questions,
5. His teachings are super detailed even though we can read the lecture notes ourselves - I reckon he knows that every1 is busy working and not having sufficient time to read up either,
6. He shows us lotsa realistic examples using that SIA replica aeroplane model - scaled 1:7000, I think.
7. He reminds us to come for lectures to get potential exam hints and tips, then he'd tell the tips so loudly to ensure no1 misses them out.
8. Only BAD thing about him: he tortures us by not giving us break at the stipulated time. So tired and hungry lah!

Ok, enough of Mr George. Assignments and tutorials are on its way, I smelt them since Sunday already. I'm proud to say I have somehow read thru the entire thick chunk of lecture notes in the file, so I shall start attempting on my tutorials later this morning!

Woo hoo~ can't you see I'm trying to be a nerd here???!!! Better start on them now, else later panic again like the previous 3 modules this year - (not forgetting my bad habit of procrastination too!). Hopefully this module will be less stressful although exam is just 1 month away =\ so fast hor :(

Oh yes, GOOD NEWS!! I must really thank God for this!! I passed that stupid maths module: EAM (Engineering Analytical Modelling)!! Woo hoo (x1000) I'm so happy!! The lecturer din call me last Friday, he mentioned that all 3 girls in the class PASSED!!

Although I'm not expecting a distinction for EAM, unlike AO1 and Eng Comm, I really am glad and grateful that I made it thru this mathematical hurdle =D You know how much I studied and practised for this EAM exam, I do until I wanna break down.

Thank God that one of the 11 marks questions, came out EXACTLY as the one I practised at home =DD Give away marks to me one lor! Thanks to every1 who really prayed for me so that I may pass well this time. Heehee =) Pardon the many exclaimation marks eh, too happy lah... When I get the actual grade and marks, I tell you hor.

Ok, I'm trying hard to sleep early these few days so I can concentrate well in lectures. Its late, no good to be an owl anyways. Meanwhile, enjoy the 2 videos below. Nites!

One Republic - Apologise

I love the 30 sec piano intro with the power drum beats~!

Scott Simons - Under My Umbrella; Resident Evil: Apocalypse OST

[R&B remix done by Rhianna]

I am an ESFJ kid

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

I dun really agree with the part with trouble with change, I dun mind changes in my life. The rest are quite accurate =) you reckon? ^^v

Wait For You

Remember I wrote about some love songs I liked lately, this song has been stuck in my head ever since I first heard it from P, a nice friend of mine. A song that only you and I can identify with =\

Elliott Yamin - Wait For You

[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting