pple complain i nv blog 4 so long.. so here m i blogging away.. yeah its e holiday season once again.. christmas n 2005 coming so soon.. had a great time hanging out w frenz.. geez gave christmas cards n lit' pressies 4 my frenz n buddies.. every1 close to my heart.. im broke, but its e thot tt counts.. yeah~! haha.. manage to kip in contact w sum of my old pals n its great to hear tt they r doing fine.. sch's kinda sucks esp when every1's enjoying themselves ar.. well lyk wad pris said, e faster poly starts, e faster u get out of poly.. its true... cant wait till nx fri.. new yr eve.. sure to be v happening again la.. countdown to 2005~! yeah.. im so hungry now.. lz to blog le.. shall blog sumwhere nx wk ba.. haha~! au revoir!!

oops.. its been more den a wk since i last blogged.. been real bz w sch n other stuff recently.. anyway i seldom go online at home nowadays.. many stuff haf been happening dis mth.. too much to say, too lit' time to finish.. haha~! dis sem modules r indeed v 'challenging'.. no mood to really study.. hmm got sum assignments due soon alr.. fast ar.. haben start yet.. sigh~ im down w cold n sore throat.. due to e changing hot n cold weather.. madness sia! haha at least i got sexier voice ar.. lolx!! blocked nose n ears, hoarse voice n a totally shag body.. sigh.. but i hope every1's doing fine now. at least christmas' round e corner.. only consolation is that we get to c our classmates n lecturers dis time.. plus half day sch lor.. lolx.. no diff ar.. no choice la.. okok gtg do my stuff le.. peeps, do take care ar.. *hugs*

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!! im finally 18!! hahaha...

wow.. sorry 4 e lit' updates dis mth.. haben been online recently... alw working n out w frenz n him.. my bdae is finally comin soon.. 1 more wk! so exciting!!! yeah.. finally gonna be 18 yrs old.. woo hoo~~ peeps.. stop luffing ur aSS off.. i noe im e youngest among all.. be it w my buddies or classmates.. geez.. but hey. im 1 of e tallest gals.. hahaha~! aniwae mark dis date 10th dec!! lalalalala~~~

ooh.. juz had a chat on msn w jacqueline, my pri sch fren who went tuition w me in e past.. she's finally coming back to spore!!! omg~~ i miz her so much.. e last time i saw her was on 15th dec 2003.. almost a yr.. she's coming back on e 13th... great... cant wait to catch up w her.. ooh btw, she's a beautiful n tall gal... who's a national swimmer..

okok gtg makan lunch.. *yum yum* later gotta settle my remaining furniture stuff.. gonna drill a hole into e wall to hang my new mirror! my bedroom has finally been revamped! frm a pinky girlie pig sty.. to a classic n modern, closed-concept bedroom.. its beautiful.. i love e choice of furniture.. so did my papa.. i was surprised yet pleased though.. hee~~! so glad he decided to increase e budget frm $1200 to $1500.. thank God 4 his blessings!

geez tml still gotta work sia.. sian 1/2.. starting to dread sch even though e new sem haben start yet.. hee~~! enjoy e last 3 days of e holidays peeps! cya soon!

geez.. no work till sat.. sad.. no $$ to earn.. my GUESS watch n wallet r gone.. sobz~! so fed up.. sat n sun work at sentosa.. sat got free flow event for 2h, den work w yan for 3h.. oni earn $30.. sun i replace yan, 11am to 7pm.. $40.. so little.. im gonna continue to work nx wk.. sigh~ my plans all went haywire..

yest was chaos, went to ikea w my sis.. went to order furniture n bought sum stuff home.. rugs, storage units, study tables, chairs, bed frames, mattress, wardrobe etc... *phew* exceeded e budget juz abit.. papa scolded me cos of sum stupid delivery conditions set by Ikea.. so i promised papa tt i'll pack my room aka pig sty by sat, b4 i go work lor.. stuff will be delivered by nx tue lor.. but i felt great to haf done all my shopping in less den 3h..

although i was v late to mit shi yun.. lolx~ free movie to Shark Tale at Lido.. not as funi as The Incredibles.. free popcorn n drinks.. wow! 1st time we finish e whole popcorn cos we were so hungry.. a v packed day.. not to 4get e drama btw me, yan n jennifer.. v funny, wanted to luff.. not bcos we were cracking jokes but bcos she was such a pest... bloody nuisance, tt's wad yan smsed her.. she insulted us back n we juz played cool.. she called non stop n e drama continued till dis morning.. i was dreaming so sweetly n dis silly gal n her fren kept disturbing me.. wad a spoiler.. alw disrupt my day sia..

anyway time to pack my pig sty.. enjoy ur wkend peeps!

*yawns* wad a tiring morning i muz say... muz help yan n zhi wei w their IS enrolment.. sacrifice my slp juz 4 'em.. mine at 5pm sia.. nvm aft tt i go mit him.. too bored at home.. i off till wed.. thurs onwards work at expo again.. yest finally got to hang out w my buddies.. feels so gd to be w 'em.. no politics n stuff.. juz laughter n jokes in e air.. hmm i had a fantastic dinner w our popcorn collegues.. at Genkis Khan at Takashimaya.. was fun crappin w jonathan, soon feng, ben, stella, auntie suying n her 3 kids.. but we tok abit to ken la.. dun bother abt him *humph* crazy guy.. bleah! finally got my pay! got so little sia.. i rem i slog lyk crazy yet oni earn so little sia.. now every fingers on both hands haf ugly burns n scars.. damn~! l

last whole wk haf been real crazy 4 me.. extreme mood swings due to certain reasons.. tears n laughter were part of my wk.. usually i wld haf called han ping to get him to listen to my troubles.. but he's away 4 e mth.. i felt so miserable.. n miss dis great buddy of mine so terribly! *sobz* so i ended up telling yan abt it.. i felt real gd aft pouring out everything... he seems to understand me even more aft tt.. which is better.. haha~! every1 seems to be so scared whenever i get angry.. he said my face super black n scary.. as if i'd bite tt kid's head off if e kid tok to me.. haha~ buddies.. m i tt scary?!

*bored to tears* shall catch sum winks b4 11am, zhi wei's enrolment time.. bloody tired.. too bored alr... wad's life~?

been so long since i last blogged.. v sorry peeps 4 no updates. been so exhausted working non stop.. at expo, popping popcorn non stop, spinning cotton candy, cut sticky muai chee n steam loads of corn.. everyday 9am start work, end at 10+ at nite.. sucks e life outta us, young kids lor.. e money we earned was miserable ok, but i had to work 4 e sake of my new furniture.. btw i've alr ordered my new wardrobe, cool man.. sliding doors de.. haha~ call me auntie la.. i bargained 4 a lower price cos my pa set a budget 4 me..

finally i got off today n tml.. but tml nite, our popcorn bosses r throwing a dinner 4 us staff, 4 all e hard work we put in, n of cos e profits they haf made over e mths.. haha~ japanese food at sum gd hotel la.. haha~ cant wait! i love food~ *yum yum* hah anyway thurs my job will be slack, got free flow event at M1 HQ.. my fave job.. me n shen feng, pop popcorn n spin cotton candy... hee~~ 1-4pm.. earn $30 in 3h.. cool~! e past wk of work at expo, due to John Little Warehouse Sales, i've bcum such gd pals w jonathan, shen feng, ben, auntie suying, her 2 daughters: yan fang mei mei n her jie jie.. haha~ its great fun working w 'em.. lotsa laughter n craps although work juz sucks..

been so exhausted but at least today i get to rest well... *phew* been so paranoid recently cos i scared i oversleep den late 4 work.. michelle has alr warned me n i was late.. so well... old habits die hard, but they'll die sumday.. btw, haben had time to catch up w my buddies, esp u Shi Yun.. tml afternoon u free we mit up awhile ok? n i miz han ping alot~! miz e chats we had on e fone every nite.. sigh~ gtg makan lunch alr.. *oops, haben brush teeth yet* hee~! ciaoz!

worked today.. 14h straight... 8am to 10pm.. so shag.. was so bz.. but had fun w jonathan, auntie suying, michelle n yu qing.. haha~! ate alot today.... wow! aft work i went to find him... due to sum reasons... its been a wk since i last came online.. IE seems to kip giving me lotsa probs,, esp my lappy.. feel lyk brainwashing dis damn stuff.. duno wad to blog alr.. bored to tears!

woo hoo~! yest 3rd nov~ zhi wei's bdae.. plus we celebrated our beloved dudes' bdaes in advance~ yupz.. to cher hao n alvin, our bez buds since sec sch.. hohoho~ hope u 2 lyk ur pressies me n shi yun chose w care n love~! had fun catching up w 'em, having dinner at Sakae Sushi, watching Doll Master, n supper at BK~! moronic kids we are.. but tt's wad makes us so special to each other.. been sum time since every1's so onz liaoz..

nx mth its my turn.. YAY~! finally sia.. finally im gonna be 18 yrs old.. although many says i dun look my age.. ( in other words, i look older den my age..) sigh~ compliment or insult, i welcome tt remark w open arms.. haha~~ aniwae tings r going on pretty smooth 4 me now.. great~ had 1 whole wk to slack b4 i pia work at popcorn at expo 4 e rest of e mth lor.. i need lotsa strength n energy sia.. so broke.. wana get my bew bedroom furniture soon too~! han ping's leaving 4 thailand soon.. gonna miz e times when i cant slp n need to chat.. sigh~ nov, a boring mth.. yes it is.. to me.. wana watch tv le.. cya~!

hmm.. i feel real blessed whenever i tink abt e gd tings tt happened in my life... w God, my family, my buddies n frenz, and of cos him in my life.. aLL these has made me so complete.. w/o God in my life i tink tt nuthin in my life can be made possible.. my studies, friendships n e lit' tings in my life wld not be so smooth..

my family.. ever so supportive n understanding towards us children.. i really admire my parents 4 being such gd tchers to us, e 4 irritating kids in e family.. w/o papa n mummy, i tink all 4 of us r notti kids now.. they were strict 4 a reason.. we all knew it yet we din lyk it.. but e fruits of their labour is sweet aft all.. we r gd kids now.. its true.. my 2 big bros haf bcum much more matured n nice now.. me n my sis.. haf grown frm crybabies to matured ladies too.. haha~! alw nurturing us in God's way.. hasn't been a ez task 4 pa n ma.. but well tks to 'em~! i love my papa n mummy so much~! of cos my sis, Joanna! woo-hoo~! w/o her, im so helpless.. she's 1 gd listening ear n my helper.. although we piss each other alot..

my frenz.. hmm i love 'em loads too.. they r part of my life! Shi yun, Alvin, Madeline, Cher Hao, Angelina, Ying Xi, Shi Ru.. my sec sch buddies who haf seen me grown frm a introvert to an extrovert.. yupz its true... we hang out tgt loads aft sch everyday, unlike now.. all full of activities.. i miz 'em so much! not to 4get Han Ping, Daniel, Jean.. v gd pals to be with.. esp han ping~!

3 cheers to him, my bez bro in dis world! *hip hip hooray!* alw there 4 me whenever i needed him most.. he'll be there whenever im feeling high or low.. alw there to hear my happiness, joy, tears n sorrows.. plus CRAP! alw listening to me crap on e fone till he's bored to tears.. Shi Yun too~ my pretty sista~! hahaha~~ alw there to gif me advice n listen to me too.. alw hanging out tgt.. crapping n shopping r our fortes~! Daniel.. haben been hanging out w him since e exams period.. but he's a great jiejie to me~ n always will be.. juz lyk Shi Yun, Daniel's always there to help me whenever possible.. n in return i hope to be e 1 who can listen to help ya thru dis difficult time u r going thru.. i really dun wan u to be hurt anymore.. *hugs* take care my dear buddies! frenz lyk Alex, Dawn, Priscilla, Clarice (my dear childhood fren since PY), Annabella n Adelina etc.. so many to list.. yet i wana say dis... u all juz rock my life!

last but not least, my dear... i love him loads.. dis whole ting started 1 yr ago. yeah~ ups n downs, ins n outs.. tears r shed, hurt, regret, confusion, doubts etc.. all cleared now.. aft much patience of waiting 4 e final result of dis r/s.. everyting seems gd now.. we tok tings out, hang out lyk any other usual couple.. oni ting is tt no1 noe who he is.. oni my 4 bez buds noe.. *wrinks* everyting i've done 4 e past few mths has been worth it.. i got my reward.. his love.. frankly, gd tings nv last 4 me.. u noe y.. but i wana embrace dis happiness within me now.. i treasure him loads..

wow~! my 1st time doing a thank-you speech on my blog.. cool~! whole day at home muz blog more ar.. haha~! love ya all *muacks*

sumtimes it feels real gd to juz stay home n slack.. its been a long time since i stayed home e whole day.. everyday im juz so bz outside w frenz, at sch, at work.. been a long time since i watched tv e whole day too.. yest nite i watched America's next Top Model.. wow~! e competition n pressure n stress is horrible! juz 4 fame n glamour n $$, they gotta saricifice so many tings in their lives.. izit really worth it juz 4 e sake of ur dream job?

being a model is not a lifetime job. once a woman lose her figure n firmness of her physical n facial features, no1 wld wan u as their model anymore.. being tall n having beautiful legs is 1 ting.. yet e X-factor is impt too.. beauty, personality, character muz be there.. hoho~ pple tell me to bcum a model cos i got e height.. so wad.. there r much more taller n prettier out there who haf better looks n figures den me.. aniwae im not e least interested in dis industry.. i wana be an air stewardness! its been my dream since young! reasons being tt i love travelling.. miting new pple.. n i love tt SIA stewardness uniform.. tt batik kebaya! i wana wear tt~~! hahaha~~! so tell me, wad's ur dream job?

YAY~! finally got time to blog abit.. *phew* work was tough dis wk! been standing 4 10h straight since wed, popping popcorn, steaming corns, cut muai chee n washing those dirty stuff non stop.. blisters n burns r up again.. but slightly minor so its ok.. haha~

today spin 8h of cotton candy at st. margaret sec.. geez it was a fund raising event.. we made $1152 (572 sticks in total!~!) w e gals who helped me.. v interesting sec 2 gals.. they shout shout shout n i oni 1 spinnin ge candy lyk crazy.. we all went home so sticky.. they even gif me a poster of e stall they made.. n sign their names, sending their bez wishes to me.. to kip in touch n rem 'em.. cute n sweet gals.. din take a pic of 'em cos the were so shy plus my hp batt flat... haha~~!

anyway although its been tiring dis wk, yet i still feel happy.. at e thots of my great buddies, him, frenz n family n God in me.. tml sunday go church, den miting alex 4 lunch to do sum catching up! been looking fwd to sunday e whole wk! haha~~ :D so happy.. *grins frm ear to ear*

gtg bathe n wash off those sticky candy off my hair, body n clothes.. eeks! so tired.. legs aching lyk crazy.. plus my whole body la.. shoulders, neck, hands, fingers, feet etc... lolx~! shall blog again soon.. nx wk no work wor~! byebye dear peeps.. shall slack alot...

i hate blogger! alw muz retype my blog! gif me a break man!

*phew* managed to slack e past few days.. got to spend time w my buddies, him n my frenz.. haha~ went to ikea yest to c bedroom furniture w my sis.. hoho~~ we had lotsa fun choosing our ideal furnitures n stuff.. had a new floor plan to revamp dis whole bedroom n its gonna be great! hahahaha~~ our budget oni $1300 4 e whole room.. obviously not enuff.. therefore i gotta work hard dis holi to pay e remaining amt lor.. wad to do.. its MY bedroom.. okok, w my sis la.. but dis whole revamp is gonna be worth it man! hahaha~

btw i'll be working at expo dis few days lor.. got metro sales.. hmm no $$ to shop shop lei.. hee~~ hands r itchy 4 retail therapy! i gonna sell popcorn again.. fortunately no more Walls ice-cream! no more fatty benny! but oso no more free ice-cream.. ooh i rem.. maddy is there.. *evil luff* selling popcorn's not as ez as u tink ar.. lotsa sacrifices to make.. *sobz* esp ur beautiful hands.. i got sum scars le.. frm prev holi i pop pop pop lor.. still halfway thru recovery stage.. hope no more lor.. muz wear gloves hor.. cant la.. lidat how to pop e corns.. not ez.. *shake head* not ez.... sigh~ its late.. i sure oversleep tml.. 12-10pm 4 e mx few days.. JIA YOU~!

au revoir peeps.. im signing off le.. be back soon.... =D stay tuned!

*phew* managed to slack abit e past few days.. managed to clear bit of my bedroom n head down to ikea w my sis to check out our new bedroom furniture.. we've came up w our new floor plan n im proud to say tt i love dis new revamp plan of ours! we went hunting ard 4 low prices so as to kip under e budget papa has given to us.. obviously $1300 not enuff 4 e whole bedroom.. therefore im working hard to fork out e remaining amt.. its all worth it! haha~! tml i gonna work at expo.. sell popcorn etc lor.. there oso got metro warehse sales~ shall c my old metro frenz there again! lolx~! its late.. therfore im signing off.. cheers peeps!

oops! so sorry peeps.. haben been finding time to update my blog.. aniwae e exams r finally over.. haha~ yet im suffering frm after-exams effects.. head spinning lyk crazy n bit headache.. hope i not down w flu or sth dis holi.. wun be fun.. haha~~

been hanging out w him alot recently.. im v glad.. at least we found more time to hang out tgt.. yest met 4 awhile but i enjoyed e time we spent tgt.. aft tt met han ping hang out 4 dinner.. had great fun crapping w him.. watched Ouija Board.. n i ended up laughing n he being scared.. sth lyk Ju-On.. but dis is slightly better la.. haha! had supper n chat alot more! great fun...

my mood's getting better now.. hoho~~ going to ikea for window shopping 4 my bedroom furniture, w my sis! hee~~ been looking fwd to new furniture 4 so long! my bedroom stuff r more den 10 yrs old! haha~~ shall revamp my whole bedroom.. nx yr CNY it'll be MUCH different! YAY~! gtg le.. buaiz peeps! :D

sorry peeps.. its been a real long time since i last blogged.. my blog script had prob n i dun haf time now to resolve e prob but i'll change dis skin soon.. hee~! haf been real bz preparing 4 e exams.. haf 4 papers on hand, oni 2 down.. left 2.. EM3B, DEL ok liao.. left w IA + MAMS.. tml is IA.. 4got how to do those PLC diagrams.. but hydraulics ok le.. cum to tink of MAMS.. 6 chps full of formulas to practise n memorise.. i duno how to get those thru by sat lor.. i'll drop dead...

last wk went to my aunt's place at woodlands to isolate myself, so as not to cum online n get distracted.. haha~ it helped but i was rotting terribly alone there.. no1 to tok to, oni w my bks! but i going there again aft tml's IA paper till sat to practise hard 4 my MAMS! jai you peeps~! everyting will end soon!

ooh btw.. my taggie seems to be having sum prob yet i duno y either.. im sorry 4 all inconvenience caused.. hmm if u wana tag sth, juz msg me on my hp instead lor.. haha~ if u c e need to la.. or else its ok.. my blog had so much trouble recently tt i almost wana delete dis off.. hoho~ chill peeps.. i wun la.. lolx~!

hmm.. wanted to blog summore but 4got wad i wana blog le.. nvm la.. aft e exams i blog more k.. hee~ back to IA! sobz.. take care pple!

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Eyes:
Will always see you for the way you really are, your true self.

Ears:
Will always have them open to listen.


Mouth:
To always tell you the truth and give their opinions, tell you when you mess up or do something good.

Shoulders:
Will offer when you need one to cry on and will be your strength when you find it hard to carry yourself. Will always let you lean on them.

Heart:
To love you for who you are and not judge. Will always have a place there for you.

Hands:
To hold yours when you need a little guidance, to lend when you need help, and to help you up when you may fall.


Arms:
Will always make you feel comfortable in them and to offer hugs when you need one. Will try to warm when you are cold.

Feet:
To walk with you throughout your life and be the best friend they can be.

i wana change my blogskin aft my exams! arghh~ having prob w dis blog script... aniwae my projects r finally over! had a hard time solving tt darn programming crap! though still cant work perfectly, at least still got but of mks la.. mdm told us tt moronic jeremy sir wun be marking our project, but instead its mdm herself! YAY~! tt's gd news 4 my class.. haha~ now oni left revision 4 e coming exams.. 4 papers.. geez.. EM3B, DEL, IA + MAMS~ :( maybe tml go out airport study la.. hope there not so noisy wor.. hmm wanted to update alot of stuff today but i 4got le.. inspiration left me long ago.. din wait 4 me either.. haha~

aniwae today i had a real hectic day.. solving tt PFEA project n doing my DEL web tutorials.. literally walked ard e whole sch campus e whole day.. *zZzZz* tiring.. jean din cum to sch today, so i was e oni gal hanging out w e guys.. most of all, i had sum time w him.. it was gd.. we met b4 heading 4 sch.. den we went to e com lab at 8am to find no1 there, so we ended up chatting for 2h sumwhere.. plus e cool morning breeze n e after rain air, it was a gd atmosphere.. yupz~ :D if everyday's lidat, i'll be v contented..

he asked me wad i wanted 4 my bdae.. lolx~! yeah its another 2 mths to go yet he's been asking since last mth.. seriously, i myself duno wad i wan.. no specific wants.. he wanted to get sth i really love or like.. i told him juz get me anyting.. *it was a hint to him to say tt he isn't spending enuff time w me.. to understand wad i really lyk etc..* den i told him abt e GUESS watch i saw online.. i noe s'pore cant find de.. so well its alright.. all i wan frm him... is his time.. juz set aside sum time juz 4 me.. im more den happy.. i dun ask 4 much.. haha~

at least he did tell me once tt he agreed tt he wasn't spending enuff time w me n all.. he promised to make it all up to me aft e exams.. seriously i duno whether to believe anotz.. aft all "once bitten, twice shy"... but i'll still hold onto tt piece of hope frm him.. i was juz wondering.. m i a simple-minded gal? is my mindset matured at all in e 1st place? sld i even bother abt these~? i duno either.. ;p

i wana prepare myself 4 e mid-sem exams war le.. revision shall offically start tml.. i go print past yr papers now.. *sobz* i feel so guai today.. haha~~ ciaoz peeps~! take care n jia you 4 e exams ba.. ^^v

still struggling w PFEA project.. sigh~ MAMS juz finish yest... now chiong dis.. so tired sia.. tml gtg sch to mit mdm w e others to troubleshoot dis.. now ton thru e nite to crack dis crap out... slack abit dis wkend.. slept lyk a pig.. had to recoup back my lost slp ma..
still got DEL web tutorials to do lor.. sian 1/2..

went out to get my new hp today.. w e intention of getting samsung E600C.. but due to last min changes we got sony ericsson k700i instead.. my bro took it instead.. he paid 4 it aniwae.. so i now using his panasonic x300.. better den tt panasonic GD 92 la.. had a diff time persuading papa to get tt hp aniwae... was yelling so loud at e shop.. geez.. aniwae i had a free webcam w a hp purchase.. lolx~! intended to buy 1 w joshua.. but now can save $$ le.. gd gd~

..... juz now was so bz online when suddenly e fone rang.. i wasn't expecting any1 to call but e ting was.. HE called.. wow~! miracle man~ chat awhile lor.. it was gd he finally made e effort to call.. haha~ v happy.. =D sigh~ stuff r running thru my mind once again.. well okok better concentrate on studies 1st.. take care peeps.. esp those chiong PFEA project.. HELL will end tml~! YAY~! gtg zzz early but well doubt i can.. byebye~

*zZzZz* now in sch blogging.. supposedly in library doing up the touch-ups 4 my MAMS project.. but im v shag to continue on for now..so i decided to blog.. geez.. tt grumpy librarian juz walked past.. 2 china kids nx to me haf been yakking non-stop in e library, ever since i sat nx to 'em.. damn~ wad's e library 4? to chit chat or wad? buai tahan 'em.. so irritating ar.. y librarian nv catch 'em?! X(

sigh~ wad a bz wk tt juz passed.. had v lit' slp n i kip dozing off in e train everyday, w/o fail.. plus oversleeping.. alw ended up late 4 class, as usual lor.. lolx~!

finally.. DEL pract test over yest.. did careless mistakes again.. lost abt 20-30 mks.. :( today PFEA test.. omg~ i came 20mins late 4 e test but managed to finish on time.. tks to references ard me.. tks jean n candy.. n mdm~! haha~ wasn't as ez as e revision ex we did.. geez im juz not cut out to be a programmer la..sucks! MAMS sir 'extended' e project deadline till tml so at least i can rest abit tonite.. bit so hectic.. tink average dis wk i oni slp 3h each day.. PFEA project is due on sunday 12am.. well i haben really started on target 3 yet.. i need a break man~

later going out w shi yun, zhi wei n lowina.. faster finish e test n let's makan la~ so hungry lei~~ lalalala~~ i look lyk a walking zombie now.. so tired.. eyes so sore n eye bags r so big n black lyk PANDA ='( i wana orh orh~~!

nx fri exams start. n im not e least prepared yet.. i rem common tests period i was so enthu to study.. but aft receiving e gd results i alw tend to slack.. its a pattern since sec sch le.. lolx~ tt's y i ended up here in engineering coz ar.. hahaha~~

okok i gtg get back to my MAMS project le.. almost done, i guess.. omg~ i cant wait 4 e wkend to end.. tt's when i can really rest.. my bed dis wk.. nv really touch much, still look so neat w lit' creases... bleah~ feel lyk napping instead.. temptation's so great~ *zZzZz*

yupz.. im still struggling w my projects~ MAMS.. due tml at 5pm.. damn~ its really v difficult to do tt research on small aircraft landing gear mechanism.. argh~ killing my poor brain cells.. :( still haben start practising 4 my PFEA test tml yet.. cham~ i alw do tings last min.. but tt's when my efficiency is at the peak! lolx~! i noe all my classmates now oso chiong project lor.. all of 'em ma jiam panic~ n im 1 of 'em..

had to skip my revision lessons today cos i was too shag to study.. overslept in e train n ended up at pasir ris~ when i last open my eyes it was Tanah Merah.. e nx was Pasir Ris.. cos sum1 shook me n i woke up stunned.. e lady beside me jumped.. lolx~ so i was so blur n alighted at simei.. walked home lyk a zombie~ slept from 1230 till 7pm.. shiok~ therefore im gonna burn thru e nite.. chiong ar~~ so hungry.. today oni ate 1 meal.. DINNER... wad sld i eat 4 supper later.. *looks at nutrition bar box* ok.. i shall haf 1 nutrition bar later.. cookies n cream flava! *yum yum~*
gtg le.. sweet dreams peeps!

omg~ im so shag.. slept at 4am again dis morning.. juz couldn't get to slp.. woke up at 6am, stoned to e bed, so tempted to skip classes today. yet i decided to be a guai kia n go 4 revision classes.. IA was full of hydraulics formulas! MAMS.. did past yr paper.. wow~ juz realised how many formulas i gotta memorised 4 dis darn exam.. 6 full chps of formulas.. omg~ n its abt 40 diff formulas.. nv bluff.. sigh~ EM3B, simply engineering maths.. *sobz* past yr papers r so difficult! omg~ esp... erm.. actually everyting's difficult except probability la..

den MAMS Sir juz told us tt in 2 days, its e deadline 4 our project.. im getting e jitters now.. im oni done w half of it.. geez its v difficult compiling all e crap info.. n i need my pics.. no scanner :{ PFEA project due on sunday so i can chill abit.. tml is DEL pract test at 8am.. omg~ so early.. hope i rem my stuff.. fri is PFEA test~ argh~ C++ programming was much easier in yr 1.. yr 2 now is a disaster~! totally horrid~! *pulling hair now*

time to chill~~ take a deep breath.. okok my whole class is in a mess now.. all panicking lyk morons cos we r so NOT used to projects in our class.. lolx~! time to do lotsa typing n practice 4 every module.. time seems so little now.. so is my slping time~ *yawns* im tired.. arghh~ JIA YOU, JULIA~! gtg~ cant watch tv.. sad~

=au revoir peeps=

Primary sch days...weren't they the best...sigh.. i juz lyk to 'xiang dang nian'.. nv fails to put a smile on my face~
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1.You grew up watching He-man,
MASK,Transformers, Silver
hawk ,Mickey Mouse, Ninja turtles, My Little
Pony,
Smurfs and Power Ranger!!!!

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a
mug
in
Primary school during.You will squat by a
drain
with all ur classmates beside u,& brush your
teeth
with a coloured mug.The teachers said u
must
brush each side 10 times too.

3.You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or
Strawberry
MILK every week in class.

4.You find your friends with pagers and hp
cool
in
Sec school.

5. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity
Elephant every Children's Day .

6. You've probably read Young Generation
magazine.u know who's Vinny the little
vampire
and Acai the constable.

7. u were there when they 1st introduced
MRT.
u
went for the first ride with ur parents & u
would
kneel on the seat to see e scenery.

8.Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

9. u longed to buy tibits called Kaka(20 cents
per
pack),& Ding Dang(50 cents per box), that
had
a
toy in it & it changes every wk,not forgetting
the 15
cents animal crackers and the ring pop,
where
e
lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

10. u watched TV2(also known as Ch 10)
cartoons because Ch 5 nv had enough
cartoons
for u.

11. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew,e 3
Investigators,
Famous 5 & Secret 7 are probably the
thickest
story books you ever thought you have read.
Even
Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.

12.The most vulgar thing you said was
asshole
&
idiot .THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super
white'...

13. Your English workbooks was made of
some
damn poor quality paper that was smooth &
yellow.

14. Waterbottles were slinged around your
neck
and a must everywhere u go.

15. Teng-teng, batu lesung, chapteh, hentam
bola
and zero point were all the rage with the girls
&boys too..

16.Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and
John,
eternalized in our minds from the
textbooks.Miss
Lala & Zaki and Tini in Malay textbooks.

17.We carry out experiments of our own to
get
ourself badges for being a Young
Zoologist/Botanist etc.

18.Every children's day& national day u either
get
pins or pens with 'HappyChildren's Day 1993'
or
dumbfiles with Happy National Day1994'.

19.We wear BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.

20.You went to school in slippers & raincoat
when
it rained, & you find a dry spot in the school to
sit
down, dry your feet, &wear your dry and warm
socks and shoes.

21.Autograph books were loaded with "Best
Wishes", "Forget Me Not", &small poems
like "Bird fly high, hard to catch.Friend like
you, hard to forget".

22.Class monitors & prefects loved to
say "You
talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

23.When bullied by friends..we tend to
say.."Teacher,u see he take my pencil"..

24. You brought every single book to school,
even
though there was one thing called the
timetable.

HAHAHaHAHaHAHAHaHAHA~~

my hopes r dashed.. no more hp le.. damnit~ papa ask me get nokia 3100 instead.. over my dead body! no tks.. i rather use my own $$ n get e hp i want! i still wan my Samsung E600C~ ask my frenz ar.. who even saw me carry a nice new hp b4? no1... u noe y.. bcos i no $$, all e new hps is my bros take.. :( i'll earn my hp aft e exams! humph~

last wk haf been a horrid wk.. so blue n full of ups n downs.. n i've finally gone thru tt long wk.. hasn't been ez, i muz say.. lotsa tears n laughter involved.. its over le.. i juz hope dis wk will be a gd wk ahead.. although i smell lotsa deadlines bugging me now.. eeks! haben really been updating n i cant really rem wad i wanted to update too.. paiseh sia.. maybe u can call or msg me instead for a how-are-you or sth? sum stuff r better left unsaid on e blog *wrinks*

take care peeps..im off to rush my MAMS n PFEA projects.. gonna get my new hp tonite~ w my papa! hope its Samsung E600C wor.. den i'll mit my buddies for movie.. 'White Chicks' =D gd gd~~

tks pals 4 all ur concern.. im much better now.. done lotsa catching up w all my buddies.. lotsa stuff to settle b4 e sch sem ends dis fri.. v bz till end of oct.. will try my bez to update though.. take care peeps..

wow~! a long day 4 me today.. had french oral n written test today.. overslept in e morning when i was supposed to mit zhi wei at 8.30am.. as usual i was late miting jasmine n zhi wei.. we had lotsa fun luffing lyk morons as we practise our script.. well my translation wasn't v gd so tcher editied our script last min.. zhi wei went chaos during oral.. omg~ me n jasmine memorised our lines in sequence so when he skipped many lines.. we went BLUR~! we luff at our mistakes e moment we steppe outta e classroom.. so funi..

mit yan aft class to pass him his bdae pressie~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U, YAN~! almost left his pressie in class cos i was too excited to finish my french paper.. tks to zhi wei 4 getting my pressie.. lolx~! well i managed to squeeze in sum toking to check on how he was n all.. n of cos to cfm y he was so bz today to go out w me la.. damnit~ u noe how disappointing it was.. sigh~ den his hp line got cut off so diff to sms him.. msg oso nv call me back.. hey~ he still can receive my sms but juz no reply... :(

aft tt went to ah ma hse to pass her stuff.. den ate lunch there n chatted awhile w her.. ah ma's cooking's great.. i miz e yummy food she cooks man.. haha~ i realised ah ma is a woman of lit' words.. she dun speak much yet her grand-daughter, me.. tok so much.. *shake head* y sia.. haben seen ah ma since CNY 1st day.. lolx~ me so bad nv visit her.. cos we literally stay on e extreme ends of S'pore.. tampines n jurong.. omg~ wanted to visit my precious cousins too.. but din haf time le..

so i ended up miting daniel n jia bao 4 movie at lido! we watched "new police story" nice! i lyk nick tse's role.. so funi n cute~ n i lyk e movie's OST too.. i wan~ apart frm e smelly fat guy sitting nx to me n tt moron who keeps kicking my seat frm behind thru-out e movie, i muz say jackie chan's storyline is alw as gd as b4.. got humour n action etc.. a MUZ-WATCH~!

wanted to mit shi yun n vin 4 dinner.. but ended up no1 wan so i go home.. literally dragged my tired body home.. was v broke.. aft buying dinner i was left w $1.10 in my wallet -.- so pathetic.. i spent my dis wk allowance on yan's pressie.. hope it was worth it ar.. 1st time buy such an expensive pressie alone.. but well seriously i dun mind at all.. *wrinks*

its still early but im v worn out le.. gtg zzz soon.. gonna be a bz wk again.. mon i nv go sch so i feel bit weird.. kip tinking tml mon.. not used to pon-ing sch la.. lolx~! okok off to bed le.. nites peeps! *yawns*

its a monday n here am i at home.. n not in sch.. decided to skip an entire day of sch, which is so unlike me.. needed time off to juz chill.. haben been feeling myself recently.. these few days has been damn rotten.. damn upsetting.. when i needed a shoulder to lean on, tt sum1 wasn't there.. yet oni my buddies were by my side.. sigh~

i duno wad im doing.. juz waiting n waiting lyk a dumb ass.. dis is so damn unlike me la.. tml is his bdae n i dun even noe is he free or rather sld i make myself available anotz.. wait 4 him to ask me? *wait long long* .. i alw end up making e 1st move, so unlike typical gals nowadays? well sum1 has to make tt 1st move sumhow.. y bother scared shy or paiseh.. im so used to rejection n shit~

but at least i let tings out yest when i was out w my buddies.. w/o 'em i really feel so helpless.. n i tink i'd haf continue to punch e 4 walls ard me.. when ur heart's in pain, indeed physical pain seems nuthin.. e more i punch e walls, e better i felt.. i din feel e pain i had inflicted on myself.. oni e poor wall suffered my wrath.. i duno wad to say..

i still got a whole load of assignments to settle.. so i better get started soon.. PFEA target 2 is due tonite.. n as usual, my program has prob AGAIN~ damnit~~ tml french oral n written test.. n MORE deadlines due.. okok i better fly~ take care peeps.. esp u, pris.. hope u r doing fine now... cheers ^^v

feeling damn moody today.. couldn't concentrate on my revision today.. mind kip wandering off la.. v fed up n irritated.. spent a long time in e toilet earlier cos i duno wad exactly to do anyway.. many thots ran thru my mind.. unhappy, happy, stupid, dumb thots juz flashed by as i squatted in e shower.. damn~ i feel v rotten now..

AND i kip having my frequent headaches again.. yeah~ stressed, gan jiong wadeva.. juz tt i really hate tt freakin' pain tt juz tortures my poor brain.. been trying to zzz well since thurs.. din really helped but well at least i can pia my work tonite.. mama prayed 4 me earlier on.. felt so down tt i cried.. sigh~

PFEA, finally settled w target 2.. al tks to Mdm Tan~ ooh~ i love her man~! haha~ left w french oral.. bleah~ all i noe is "Bonjour~!"...

now all i wan is my new hp.. papa say i'll get it nx nx mon.. 4/10.. gd gd~ cant wait.. i wan Samsung E600C.. YAY~! hope his budget not tt low ba.. hee~~

i gtg do my stuff le.. nitez peeps.. getting tired of coming online le.. *zZzZzZ*

got dis great stuff frm a fwded mail.. took out e main pts but its v v long~~~ but its v meaningful n interesting.. worth e time to reflect n read dis.. enjoy!

"YOUR ATTITUDE DETERMINES YOUR ALTITUDE"
i rem our sec 3 POA tcher, Mr Lee Kim Tai, used to say dis phrase to 'motivate' us to do better in our a/cs.. although we din take much heed to his words.. cos he totally suck in teaching us POA.. anyway now i understand dis pharse totally.. yupz.. n it is so true.. w/o e rite attitude to do e ting u wish to accomplish, no matter how much u do, ur work wun be as gd as expected..

dis particular phrase has the following meanings...

[A dream without a positive attitude produces a daydreamer.

A positive attitude without a dream produces a pleasant person who can’t progress.

A dream together with a positive attitude produces a person with unlimited possibilities and potential.]

"WHO AND WHERE YOU ARE TODAY RESULT FROM YOUR ATTITUDE"

dis phrase.. another way of saying "you reap wad you sow"..

Your attitude not only directs your future but also affects who you are today. Psychologist-philosopher William James said, “The greatest discovery of my generation is that people can alter their lives by alter­ing their attitudes of mind.” The choices you’ve made up to now have come as the result of your attitude. Your attitude determines your actions, and your actions determine your accomplishment. You may or may not like to think about it, but the person you are and where you are today are the result of your attitude.

When you’re born, everything is out of your control: You don’t choose who your biological parents are, when and where you’re born, or any of your circumstances. But as you grow older, you start making decisions, and you become accountable for what happens in your life. In adolescence, the number of decisions you make multiplies, and by about the time you reach the end of your second decade, your choices are all your own, whether you like to admit it or not. Right now, if you’re over 21, you’re completely independent and responsible for your choices—and your attitude..

"YOUR CURRENT ATTITUDE IS A CHOICE"

Your attitude is not based on

• Circumstances: You may not be able to control what happens to you, but you are completely responsible for your reaction to what happens to you.

• Upbringing: The past is gone and outside your control. You are responsible for not allowing it to control you in the present.

• Limitations: Since everyone faces limitations of some kind— whether lack of talent, limited money, few opportunities, or poor appearance—you need to learn to live with them. As Robert Schuller said, your limitations should be guidelines, not stop signs. They should direct and guide your path on the jour­ney, not prevent you from taking it.

• Others: No one but you is responsible for the choices you make today. You may have been hurt or abused in the past, but it’s up to you to overcome that injury—just as you would a physical one—and move beyond it.

The truth is that anyone, no matter how good the circumstances are, can find a reason to have a negative attitude. And everyone, no matter how bad the circumstances are, can find a way to maintain a good attitude.

"YOUR ATTITUDE DETERMINES HOW YOU APPROACH THE JOURNEY"
interesting story ther've got:

Several years ago, an experiment was performed in a school in the San Francisco Bay area. A principal called in three teachers and said, “Because you three teachers are the finest in the system and you have the greatest expertise, we’re going to give you ninety selected high-IQ students. We’re going to let you move these students through this next year at their pace and see how much they can learn.”

The three faculty members, the students, and the students’ parents thought it was a great idea. And they all especially enjoyed the school year. By the time school ended, the students had achieved from 20 to 30 percent more than the other students in the entire San Francisco Bay area.

At the end of the year, the principal called in the three teachers and told them, “I have a confession to make. You did not have ninety of the most intellectually prominent students. They were run-of the-mill stu­dents. We took ninety students at random from the system and gave them to you.

The teachers naturally concluded that their exceptional teaching skills must have been responsible for the students’ great progress.

“I have another confession,” said the principal. “You’re not the brightest of the teachers. Your names were the first three drawn out of a hat.”

Why, then, did the students and teachers perform at such an exceptional level for an entire year? The answer can be found in their attitudes. They had an attitude of positive expectation—the teachers and students believed in themselves and one another. They performed well because they believed they could.

Your attitude toward life determines life’s attitude toward you. How you think affects your approach to the success journey in a powerful way.

"What I believe about life determines

How I perceive life, which determines

What I receive from life.."

If you expect the worst, you will certainly get it. If you expect the best, even when negative circumstances come your way—and they will because a positive attitude doesn’t stop them—you can make the best of it and keep going.

"THE BETTER YOUR ATTITUDE IS, THE FARTHER YOU WILL GO"

If you talk to people in the top organizations across the country, the higher you go, the better the attitudes you’ll discover. A Fortune 500 study found that 94 percent of all the executives surveyed attributed their success more to attitude than any other factor.2 That just goes to show you that if you want to go far, have a good attitude.

Attitude affects more than just your ability to succeed in business. It affects every aspect of your life—even your health. An article about a study at King’s College Hospital in London, England. It was conducted among cancer patients who had undergone mastec­tomies. Researchers at the hospital tracked the progress of fifty-seven women. Of the ones who had a positive attitude when they were diagnosed with cancer, 70% of 'em were alive ten years later. But those who felt a sense of hopelessness during diagnosis, 80% had died. And ongoing medical research continues to present similar findings. You can go a lot farther in life—and live longer—with a good attitude than you can without one.

"YOUR ATTITUDE MEANS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SUCCESS AND FAILURE"

A good attitude makes it possible for you to be successful. It gives you fuel so that you want to pursue your purpose, grow to your potential, and sow seeds benefiting others. It can give you the staying power to improve. But it also makes the journey more enjoyable along the way— no matter where it takes you. As former UCLA basketball coach John Wooden said, “Things turn out the best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out.”

You can change your attitude. You may not be able to change other things about yourself, but you can definitely make your attitude more positive. If you try, you’ll soon discover that the best helping hand is at the end of your own arm..

"SEVEN SIGNS OF A GREAT ATTITUDE"

What does it mean to have a great attitude? You’ve probably heard the old expression that a positive person sees a glass as half full instead of half empty. That’s true, but it tells only a small part of the story. I believe positive people share seven qualities:



[1. BELIEF IN SELF]

Herb True observed, “Many people succeed when others do not believe in them. But rarely does a person succeed when he does not believe in himself.” He was exactly right. Positive self-worth is a prime characteristic of a person with a good attitude.

Anyone who doesn’t believe in herself expects the worst not only of herself but also of others. If you have low self-confidence, you will likely have to struggle to focus on anything but yourself because you will always be worried about how you look, what others think about you, and whether you’re going to fail. But when you believe in yourself, you’re free to see yourself in a more objective light and focus on improv­ing yourself and reaching your potential. And that makes all the differ­ence. No wonder psychologist Dr. Joyce Brothers said, “It is no exaggeration to say that a strong, positive self-image is the best possible preparation for success in life.”

[2. WILLINGNESS TO SEE THE BEST IN OTHERS]

The ability to do this with others is significant for a couple of rea­sons. First, you usually see in others what you expect to see. If you constantly expect and see good things in others, it’s much easier to maintain a positive attitude. Second, people generally rise to meet your level of expectation. If you treat them positively, they tend to treat you the same way. If you expect them to get the job done and you show your confidence in them, they usually succeed. And on the relatively rare occasions when people don’t treat you well, it’s easy for you not to take their behavior personally because you know you have done your best, and you can move on without letting it affect your attitude.

[3. ABILITY TO SEE OPPORTUNITY EVERYWHERE]

Greek philosopher Plutarch wrote, “As bees extract honey from thyme, the strongest and driest of herbs, so sensible men often get advantage and profit from the most awkward circumstances.” No mat­ter what the circumstances, positive people see opportunities every­where. They understand that opportunities aren’t based on luck or position. They are the result of the right attitude. Opportunity exists where you find it.

[4. FOCUS ON SOLUTIONS]

Likewise, people with a positive attitude focus their time and atten­tion on solutions, not problems. Just about anybody can see problems. That doesn’t take anything special. But positive people maintain a solu­tion mind-set, seeing a solution in every problem and a possibility in every impossibility. As noted by Louis D. Brandeis, the Supreme Court justice after whom Brandeis University was named, “Most of the things worth doing in the world had been declared impossible before they were done.”

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HOW FAR CAN I GO?

By Dr John C Maxwell



Whenever I travel to Washington, D.C., I try my best to get to the Smithsonian Institution. I love history, especially that of the United States, and the Smithsonian houses incredible artifacts and dis­plays from our nation’s two hundred plus years. Of all the exhibits, my favorite shows a video clip of a speech made by President John E Kennedy to Congress on May 25, 1961. Every time I see it I get goose bumps. It records the moment that Kennedy called America to execute the most incredible and improbable real-life journey ever conceived. He cast the vision for the achievement of an idea that had been written about as early as A.D. 160 by Greek satirist Lucian of Samosata and thought about for eighteen hundred years since then. Kennedy said, “I believe that this nation should commit itself to achieving the goal before [the] decade is out, of landing a man on the moon and returning him safely to earth.”

With today’s popularity of science fiction stories, traveling to the moon seems almost mundane. After all, on television you can see people living in deep space or trekking around the galaxy every day of the week. But in 1961, it was just about the wildest goal imaginable. Today it would be like proposing that a person swim the Pacific Ocean from California to Japan—and back again.

Back in the late 1950s and early 1960s, America was in a space race with the Soviet Union, and we were falling way behind. I was about ten years old when we heard that the USSR had launched the first satellite, Sputnik, into orbit. It felt like going to bed one night as the best athlete in your school and waking up the next morning only to find out that Babe Ruth was the new kid in class. What a shock! Then they launched Sputnik II, which carried the first space traveler, Laika the dog. And in 1959, they sent off Luna I, the first spacecraft to escape the earth’s gravitational field and fly by the moon. The Soviets seemed to be landing one knockout punch after another. They also sent the first man into space, and one of their ships made the first orbit of the earth. The Soviets were winning.

In the midst of the hopelessness of the situation, President John F. Kennedy came forward, stood before the United States Congress, and said we would see a man on the moon by the end of the decade. Most people thought it was impossible. Even some of the people running NASA thought it couldn’t be done. They were the ones who told Kennedy they wanted to do it someday, but it had been only a dream. The technology required to make it happen didn’t exist, and they weren’t sure that it could exist. But that didn’t stop Kennedy. He not only made the impossible our goal, but he gave it a deadline.

Despite all the doubts, on July 16, 1969, Apollo 11 lifted off from pad 39 at Kennedy Space Center and began a journey of 244,930 miles to the moon. Four days later, Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin Jr. landed the lunar module Eagle on the surface of the moon, and 500 million people watched on television as Armstrong took his first step into the powder-fine gray dust of the moon and uttered his famous line, “That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind.” We had done it. We had achieved the impossible! It’s unfortunate that President Kennedy didn’t live to see it.

What an awesome event in human history! You may find this hard to believe, but it was such an incredible event at the time that in the small rural community of Indiana where I lived, many people refused to accept that it was really happening. I talked to people who were convinced that the black-and-white images on their television screens were being broadcast not from the moon but from a sound stage on some secret base in the United States.



YOUR ATTITUDE DETERMINES YOUR ALTITUDE



That trip shouldn’t have been possible, but it happened. Incredibly, the Soviets (and now the Russians), who were so far ahead of us in 1961, still have not put anyone on the moon. What propelled us to accom­plish such a feat—and in record time? It wasn’t the strength of our technology or the Cold War threat of Soviet superiority. We put people on the moon because we believed we could do it. In the blink of an eye, John F. Kennedy’s speech took the idea of a lunar landing from an impossible dream to an obtainable target. It hardly mattered where we were technologically. A moon landing became a reality because of a change in attitude. You see, when our attitudes outdistance our abili­ties, even the impossible becomes possible.

I’ve talked to people who worked in the space program, and they have told me that the atmosphere was electric with expectation back then. Every day as they worked, one thought was foremost in their minds: We’re putting a man on the moon! The president’s goal contained the dream and prompted the positive attitude needed to make it happen.

That’s the power of a dream coupled with the right attitude. If you have one without the other, you can’t go very far on the journey.



• A dream without a positive attitude produces a daydreamer.

• A positive attitude without a dream produces a pleasant person who can’t progress.

• A dream together with a positive attitude produces a person with unlimited possibilities and potential.



To go far (and in the right direction), you need both. Kennedy knew that. A dream by itself won’t do it. In fact, your attitude isn’t just a nec­essary contributor for you to be successful. Your attitude—not intelli­gence, talent, education, technical ability, opportunity, or even hard work—is the main factor that determines whether you will live your dream. Attitude determines how far you can go on the success journey.

Yogi Berra, whose comments always seem to contain both humor and truth, said, “Life is like baseball; it’s 95 percent mental and the other half is physical.” Despite the unusual math, Berra knew how much the average person underestimates the role of the mind in the suc­cess process. If you have intelligence, talent, education, technical know-how, opportunities, and a strong work ethic, yet lack the right attitude, you will never enjoy the success journey. That may be a revolutionary idea to you, so I’m going to say that again: If you don’t have a good atti­tude, you will never enjoy the success journey. Having a good attitude makes all the difference in the world. Lowell Peacock remarked, “Attitude is the first quality that marks the successful man. If he has a positive attitude and is a positive thinker, who likes challenges and dif­ficult situations, then he has half his success achieved.”



WHO AND WHERE YOU ARE TODAY RESULT FROM YOUR ATTITUDE



Your attitude not only directs your future but also affects who you are today. Psychologist-philosopher William James said, “The greatest discovery of my generation is that people can alter their lives by alter­ing their attitudes of mind.” The choices you’ve made up to now have come as the result of your attitude. Your attitude determines your actions, and your actions determine your accomplishment. You may or may not like to think about it, but the person you are and where you are today are the result of your attitude.

When you’re born, everything is out of your control: You don’t choose who your biological parents are, when and where you’re born, or any of your circumstances. But as you grow older, you start mak­ing decisions, and you become accountable for what happens in your life. In adolescence, the number of decisions you make multiplies, and by about the time you reach the end of your second decade, your choices are all your own, whether you like to admit it or not. Right now, if you’re over twenty-one, you’re completely responsible for your choices—and your attitude.

I read a funny story about President Abraham Lincoln that shows the relationship between our choices and their effect on who we are. An adviser to Lincoln recommended a particular person for a cabinet position, but Lincoln balked at the suggestion. He said, “I don’t like the man’s face.”

“But, sir,” said the adviser, “he can’t be held responsible for his face.”

Lincoln replied, “Every man over forty is responsible for his face.”

Who you are and how you think can be read in your face too. When you look in a mirror, if you see a sour expression, you’re seeing the out­ward expression of your attitude.



YOUR CURRENT ATTITUDE IS A CHOICE



Most people with bad attitudes usually point to something other than themselves to explain their problem. But you can’t rightfully blame your attitude on anything or anyone but yourself. It’s not what happens to you but what happens in you that counts. Your attitude is not based on



• Circumstances: You may not be able to control what happens to you, but you are completely responsible for your reaction to what happens to you.



• Upbringing: The past is gone and outside your control. You are responsible for not allowing it to control you in the present.



• Limitations: Since everyone faces limitations of some kind— whether lack of talent, limited money, few opportunities, or poor appearance—you need to learn to live with them. As Robert Schuller said, your limitations should be guidelines, not stop signs. They should direct and guide your path on the jour­ney, not prevent you from taking it.



• Others: No one but you is responsible for the choices you make today. You may have been hurt or abused in the past, but it’s up to you to overcome that injury—just as you would a physical one—and move beyond it.



The truth is that anyone, no matter how good the circumstances are, can find a reason to have a negative attitude. And everyone, no matter how bad the circumstances are, can find a way to maintain a good attitude.

Take a look at the cartoon below from the popular “Crock” comic strip by Bill Rechin and Don Wilder. It illustrates the point that attitude is a choice. Background and circumstances may have had an influence on who you are, but you are responsible for who you become. What you do today determines who you’ll be tomorrow.

In his book Go for the Magic, Pat Williams recounts a story told by St. Louis sportswriter Bob Broeg about baseball Hall of Fame player Stan Musial, who was known as one of the game’s most consistent players. One day when Musial was playing for the St. Louis Cardinals, a teammate came into the clubhouse whistling. He turned to Stan and said, “I feel great. My home life is happy. I’m in a groove. I feel like I’m going to get two hits today. Ever feel like that, Stan?”

Smiling, Musial looked at him and said, “Every day!”

One of the greatest discoveries you can ever make is that you can change. No matter where you were yesterday or how negative your attitudes have been in the past, you can be more positive today. And that makes an incredible difference in your potential and life.

A quote over a door in the Phoenix Suns’ locker room sums up the importance of choosing a positive attitude. It came from former Boston Celtic Bill Russell. It says: “The game is scheduled, we have to play it— we might as well win.” What a wonderful insight—and from a real win­ner. While Russell played with the Celtics, they won an incredible eleven NBA titles in thirteen years. Having a positive attitude worked for him, and it can work for you.



YOUR ATTITUDE DETERMINES HOW YOU APPROACH THE JOURNEY



Several years ago, an experiment was performed in a school in the San Francisco Bay area. A principal called in three teachers and said, “Because you three teachers are the finest in the system and you have the greatest expertise, we’re going to give you ninety selected high-IQ students. We’re going to let you move these students through this next year at their pace and see how much they can learn.”

The three faculty members, the students, and the students’ parents thought it was a great idea. And they all especially enjoyed the school year. By the time school ended, the students had achieved from 20 to 30 percent more than the other students in the entire San Francisco Bay area.

At the end of the year, the principal called in the three teachers and told them, “I have a confession to make. You did not have ninety of the most intellectually prominent students. They were run-of the-mill stu­dents. We took ninety students at random from the system and gave them to you.

The teachers naturally concluded that their exceptional teaching skills must have been responsible for the students’ great progress.

“I have another confession,” said the principal. “You’re not the brightest of the teachers. Your names were the first three drawn out of a hat.”

Why, then, did the students and teachers perform at such an exceptional level for an entire year? The answer can be found in their attitudes. They had an attitude of positive expectation—the teachers and students believed in themselves and one another. They performed well because they believed they could.

Your attitude toward life determines life’s attitude toward you. How you think affects your approach to the success journey in a powerful way.



What I believe about life determines

How I perceive life, which determines

What I receive from life.



If you expect the worst, you will certainly get it. If you expect the best, even when negative circumstances come your way—and they will because a positive attitude doesn’t stop them—you can make the best of it and keep going.



THE BETTER YOUR ATTITUDE IS, THE FARTHER YOU WILL GO



If you talk to people in the top organizations across the country, the higher you go, the better the attitudes you’ll discover. A Fortune 500 study found that 94 percent of all the executives surveyed attributed their success more to attitude than any other factor.2 That just goes to show you that if you want to go far, have a good attitude.

Attitude affects more than just your ability to succeed in business. It affects every aspect of your life—even your health. I once read an article about a study at King’s College Hospital in London, England. It was conducted among cancer patients who had undergone mastec­tomies. Researchers at the hospital tracked the progress of fifty-seven women. Of the ones who had a positive attitude when they were diag­nosed with cancer, seven out of ten were alive ten years later. But of the ones who felt a sense of hopelessness during diagnosis, eight of ten had died. And ongoing medical research continues to present similar findings. You can go a lot farther in life—and live longer—with a good attitude than you can without one.



YOUR ATTITUDE MEANS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SUCCESS AND FAILURE



A good attitude makes it possible for you to be successful. It gives you fuel so that you want to pursue your purpose, grow to your potential, and sow seeds benefiting others. It can give you the staying power to improve. But it also makes the journey more enjoyable along the way— no matter where it takes you. As former UCLA basketball coach John Wooden said, “Things turn out the best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out.”

A while back I was playing golf with my friend Zig Ziglar, one of the most positive people I’ve ever met. And he told me a story about a boy named Jeb. Every day when Jeb was growing up, his mother would come into his room and wake him at 5:30, saying, “Jeb, it’s going to be a great day.”

But that wasn’t what the boy wanted to hear at that time in the morning. It was his job every day to go outside first thing and get coal to start the fire and heat the house. And he hated it. One day when she came in and said, “It’s going to be a great day,” Jeb snapped, “No, Mom, it’s going to be a lousy day. I’m tired. The house is cold. And I don’t want to get up and get the coal. It’s a crummy day!”

“Sweetheart,” she replied, “I didn’t know you felt that way. Why don’t you just go back to bed and get some more sleep?”

Jeb thought he had hit pay dirt. “Why didn’t I think of this before?” he asked himself.

He woke up about two hours later. The house was warm, and he could smell breakfast cooking. He rolled out of bed, put on his clothes, and went out to the kitchen table. “Boy, am I hungry,” he said. “I’m all rested up. Breakfast is already cooked. This is great.”

“Sweetheart,” his mother said, “you don’t get any food today. Remember how you said it was going to be a terrible day? As your mother, I’m going to do my best to make it a terrible day for you. You go back to your bedroom and stay there all day. You’re not allowed to come out, and you don’t get anything to eat. I’ll see you tomorrow morning at 5:30.”

Jeb walked dejectedly back to his room and got into bed. And he was able to go back to sleep—for about an hour. But there was only so much sleeping a person could do. He spent the day moping around his room, getting hungrier and hungrier. And when it finally got dark, he went back to bed again and tried to sleep.

He woke up hours before daylight, and he put on his clothes. He was sitting on the edge of the bed when his mother opened the door to his room at 5:30. Before she could say a word, Jeb jumped up and said, “Mom, it’s going to be a great day!”

What was true for Jeb is also true for you. You can change your attitude. You may not be able to change other things about yourself, but you can definitely make your attitude more positive. If you try, you’ll soon discover that the best helping hand is at the end of your own arm.



SEVEN SIGNS OF A GREAT ATTITUDE



What does it mean to have a great attitude? You’ve probably heard the old expression that a positive person sees a glass as half full instead of half empty. That’s true, but it tells only a small part of the story. I believe positive people share seven qualities:



[1. BELIEF IN SELF]

Herb True observed, “Many people succeed when others do not believe in them. But rarely does a person succeed when he does not believe in himself.” He was exactly right. Positive self-worth is a prime characteristic of a person with a good attitude.

Anyone who doesn’t believe in herself expects the worst not only of herself but also of others. If you have low self-confidence, you will likely have to struggle to focus on anything but yourself because you will always be worried about how you look, what others think about you, and whether you’re going to fail. But when you believe in yourself, you’re free to see yourself in a more objective light and focus on improv­ing yourself and reaching your potential. And that makes all the differ­ence. No wonder psychologist Dr. Joyce Brothers said, “It is no exaggeration to say that a strong, positive self-image is the best possible preparation for success in life.”



[2. WILLINGNESS TO SEE THE BEST IN OTHERS]

I’ve never known a positive person yet who didn’t love people and try to see the good in them. And an effective way to help you see the best in others is to do what I call putting a “10” on people’s heads. Here’s what I mean: We all have expectations of others. But we can choose whether the expectations are negative or positive. We can think that others are totally worthless or absolutely wonderful. When we make the decision to expect the best, and we look for the good instead of the bad, we’re seeing them as a “10.”

The ability to do this with others is significant for a couple of rea­sons. First, you usually see in others what you expect to see. If you constantly expect and see good things in others, it’s much easier to maintain a positive attitude. Second, people generally rise to meet your level of expectation. If you treat them positively, they tend to treat you the same way. If you expect them to get the job done and you show your confidence in them, they usually succeed. And on the relatively rare occasions when people don’t treat you well, it’s easy for you not to take their behavior personally because you know you have done your best, and you can move on without letting it affect your attitude.



[3. ABILITY TO SEE OPPORTUNITY EVERYWHERE]

Greek philosopher Plutarch wrote, “As bees extract honey from thyme, the strongest and driest of herbs, so sensible men often get advantage and profit from the most awkward circumstances.” No mat­ter what the circumstances, positive people see opportunities every­where. They understand that opportunities aren’t based on luck or position. They are the result of the right attitude. Opportunity exists where you find it.

A statement in Success magazine made by Lois Wyse, president of Wyse Advertising, Inc., impressed me because it displayed an under­standing of the importance of a positive attitude and how to apply it in everyday life. She said, “I tell my daughter, ‘Always say yes, because nothing ever happens to people who say no.”’ That can be very good business advice. It’s obvious that she believes there are opportunities waiting to be seized.



[4. FOCUS ON SOLUTIONS]

Likewise, people with a positive attitude focus their time and atten­tion on solutions, not problems. Just about anybody can see problems. That doesn’t take anything special. But positive people maintain a solu­tion mind-set, seeing a solution in every problem and a possibility in every impossibility. As noted by Louis D. Brandeis, the Supreme Court justice after whom Brandeis University was named, “Most of the things worth doing in the world had been declared impossible before they were done.”



[5. DESIRE TO GIVE]

Nothing has as much positive impact on people as giving to oth­ers. Karl Menninger, psychiatrist, author, and one of the founders of the Menninger Foundation, said, “Generous people are rarely men­tally ill people.” And they are also rarely negative people. People who have a giving spirit are some of the most positive people I know, because giving is the highest level of living. They focus their time and energy on what they can give to others rather than what they can get from them. And the more people give, the better their attitude.

Most unsuccessful people don’t understand this concept. They believe that how much people give and their attitude about it are based on how much they have. But that’s not true. I know many people who have very little but are tremendous givers. And I know people who have been blessed with money, good families, and wonderful careers who are stingy and suspicious of others. It’s not what you have that makes a dif­ference. It’s what you do with what you have. And that is based com­pletely on attitude..

[6. PERSISTENCE]

Don B. Owens Jr. stated, “Many people fail in life because they believe in the adage: If you don’t succeed, try something else. But success eludes those who follow such advice... The dreams that have come true did so because people stuck to their ambitions. They refused to be dis­couraged. They never let disappointment get the upper hand. Challenges only spurred them on to greater effort.” Those characteristics—the abil­ity to stick with it, overcome discouragement, and keep going in the face of disappointment—are all the results of a good attitude.

When you have a positive attitude, it’s easier to be persistent. If you think success is just around the corner, you keep going. When you believe everything turns out for the best, you don’t mind a little discom­fort. And when everything goes haywire, you remain persistent if you have a positive attitude; after all, you believe help is already on the way.

[7. RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR LIVES]

The final characteristic of positive people is their willingness to take responsibility for their own lives. Unsuccessful people duck responsibil­ity. But a successful person understands that nothing positive happens until you’re willing to step forward and take full responsibility for your thoughts and actions. Only when you’re responsible for yourself can you look at yourself honestly, assess your strengths and weaknesses, and begin to change.

*psst~ all these +ve attitudes stuff.. does it reminds u on the spirit of being a gd entrepretreur? lolx~!*

TOP TIPS FOR GETTING YOUR ATTITUDE IN TIP-TOP SHAPE

W. W Ziege said, “Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.” If I could share only one thing that I possess, it would be my way of thinking, for that more than anything else has helped me the most on the success journey. Attitude has always been my greatest asset, and it can be yours too. Andrew Carnegie asserted, “The man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled.”

If you’re constantly in a battle to keep your attitude positive, you can use some help. Here are some tips to assist you in taking full pos­session of your mind and making your thinking positively powerful:



CLAIM RESPONSIBILITIES, NOT RIGHTS

A predominant source of discontent among people is caused by their fight to secure their rights. Think about your situation. Have you ever been wronged? Have there been times when you haven’t gotten everything you deserved? Your answer to these questions is almost cer­tainly yes. We live in an imperfect world, and because of that, as long as we live, we won’t see a time when everything we do is rewarded justly.

So you’re faced with a decision. Are you going to spend your time and energy on what should have been, or are you going to focus on what can be? Even when truth and justice are on your side, you may never be able to right your wrongs. Continually fighting for your rights in an imperfect world can make you resentful, angry, hateful, and bitter. These destructive emotions tap your energy and make you negative. And besides, when you focus on your rights, you’re often looking backward rather than forward. You can’t make any progress when you’re facing the wrong way. Glenn Clark remarked, “If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light. Take off all your envies, jeal­ousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears.”

When you stop worrying about your rights, you turn your focus in the right direction, and you can move forward on the journey. You recognize the wrongs, but you forgive them and focus on what you can control—your responsibilities. Doing that increases your energy, builds potential, and improves your prospects.



ASSOCIATE WITH POSITIVE PEOPLE

Charles “Tremendous” Jones said that the only difference between who you are today and the person you will be in five years will come from the books you read and the people you associate with. Who you spend your time with especially influences your attitude. The old adage is true: Birds of a feather do flock together.

Think about the people you spend your time with. Although you are born into a family, and you may not be able to choose the people you work with, you can choose your closest friends. If you choose neg­ative friends, you are also choosing to have a negative attitude. But when you spend time with positive people, you help yourself to see things in a better light. Henry Ford maintained, “My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me.” Think about what your friends bring out in you, and if it’s not your best, it might be time for you to make some changes.



MAKE THE PRESENT MOMENT YOUR HAPPIEST

U.S. diplomat and former child star Shirley Temple Black told a story about her husband, Charles, and his mother. When Charles was a boy, he asked his mother what the happiest moment of her life was.

“This moment—right now,” she responded.

“But what about all the other happy moments in your life?” he said, surprised. “What about when you were married?”

“My happiest moment then was then,” she answered. “My happi­est moment now is now. You can only really live in the moment you’re in. So to me, that’s always the happiest moment.”

Charles Black’s mother showed wisdom in that statement. When­ever you focus on the past or the future, you rob the present of its potential. But when you give your attention to what’s happening at the moment and try to have a positive attitude about it, you open your­self up to all the possibilities that the present holds.



FIND WAYS TO RELIEVE STRESS

Stress fatigues people and pushes them toward negative thinking. That’s why it’s so important to find ways to release tension and regroup mentally.

Find a positive way to release stress in your life. I recommend some­thing active that requires both mental concentration and physical effort. Play golf, shoot darts, hit baseballs, play raquetball, dig in your garden, or go for long walks with a friend. What you do is not important as long as it relieves stress and has a positive impact on your thinking and health.



DON’T TAKE YOURSELF TOO SERIOUSLY

I heard a story about three business professionals who were com­paring ideas on what it meant to be a success. “I’d say I had arrived,” said the first, “if I were summoned to the White House for a private, personal meeting with the president of the United States.”

“To me,” said the second person, “success would mean meeting with the president in the Oval Office, having the hot line ring during our talk, and watching the president ignore it.”

“No, you’ve both got it wrong,” said the third one. “You’re a suc­cess if you’re privately consulting with the president, the hot line rings, he picks it up, and he says, ‘It’s for you.”’

The problem with many unsuccessful people is that they take them­selves too seriously. They think of success in the same way the three people in the story did. But success depends more on your attitude than it does on how important you think you are. Life should be fun. Even if your job is important and should be taken seriously, that doesn’t mean you should take yourself seriously. You’ll go farther in life and have a better time doing it if you maintain a sense of humor, especially when it comes to yourself.



TAKE ACTION TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE

The quality of your life and the duration of your success journey depend on your attitude, and you are the only person in this world with the power to make it better. Dr. William Glasser maintained, “If you want to change attitudes, start with a change in behavior. In other words, begin to act the part, as well as you can, of the person you would rather be, the person you most want to become. Gradually, the old, fearful person will fade away.”

Change requires action. Most people wait until they feel like it to change their attitudes. But that only causes them to keep waiting because they have the whole process backward. If you wait until you feel like it to try to change your attitude, you will never change. You have to act yourself into changing.



"An act of your will

Will lead you to action;

And your positive action

Will lead to a positive attitude!"


According to Henry Ford, “Whether you think you can or think you can’t—you are right.” The mind, more than anything else, deter­mines how far you can go on the success journey.

What is the condition of your attitude? Will it take you very far on the success journey?


[STEPS TO TAKE ALONG THE WAY: HOW FAR CAN I GO?

Now is a good time to take a look at your attitude. Respond to the following questions and statements as honestly as you can.

1. RIGHTS OR RESPONSIBILITIES: Which am I more likely to think and talk to others about? If the answer is “rights,” what can I do to change that attitude?

2. PEOPLE: Who is the most positive person I know? Write his or her name below. Make an appointment to talk to that person and ask what he or she does to remain positive.

3. STRESS: Name some positive ways you can relieve stress, and schedule some time in the next week to do at least one of them:

4. HUMOR: During the next week, tell at least one person a funny story about something that you recently did wrong or an inci­dent that made you look foolish. Enjoy the joke together. (If the per­son is a friend and looks shocked or uncomfortable, you may have a history of taking yourself too seriously.)

5. ATTITUDE STATEMENT: Write a positive attitude creed for yourself, stating your intention to become a positive person.]

--> hope u manage to squeeze sum 'cheese' outta dis long topic.. hee~~ i happen to be a +ve gal.. so i really lyk dis attitude ting.. haha~ anyways cya peeps~~ back to projects.. now in sch library lor.. *yawns* v tired..

*shag* cant blog le.. eyes r closing... nitez.. shall uodate tml.. too mnay deadlines to mit.. too lit' slp 4 me..

*phew* feel so guai dis wkend.. haf been studying sia.. actually is to rush thru my unfinished assessments as well as to revise thru wad i miz out during my tutorials.. cos i was either too bz yakking away w jean or playing silly games w daniel -.- lolx~!

yest went out w him.. though it was a short while but well.. at least we did hang out tgt.. im contented.. den went to mit daniel study lor.. alw had fun studying w him, besides e tortoise drawing part la.. *hint hint daniel* lolx~! today went church.. asked darren 4 help 4 my MAMS project stuff.. practically rushed thru cos we were both in a rush.. well at least i understand slightly better la.. haha~ went to kfc to study again.. alone.. but it was too boring 4 me cos no1 to tok to.. so call han ping down.. haha~~ rushed down eh.. gd gd~~ yeah at least i finished part of my stuff le.. quite satisfied.. hp batt went flat n i was waiting 4 impt msgs frm pple.. finally i received tt SMS.. so i packed up n rushed home.. aft all i was quite tired of studying.. haha!

today was his boxing competition.. couldn't go down to c e match due to sum reasons.. but ended up he lost e match.. yupz its a pity but aft all so long u gif off ur bez, losing e match doesn't really matter la.. so i went back to call him.. din sound fine though he said otherwise.. bleah~ chatted awhile lor..

sigh~ cum to tink now.. got PFEA project to finish.. sian 1/2.. gtg la.. feel lyk zzz sia.. @#$%^& *curses*

its gonna be a hectic wkend.. lotsa deadlines to mit as mentioned in earlier entry.. well literally every module got sth to revise or do.. well of cos find time to slack if u get too stressed.. juz lyk darren.. alw say how stressed is it to be taking a part-time degree while working.. yeah i agree its v tiring but he still tahan w juz 2h of slp a day.. tt's y i dubbed him "superboy".. he can juggle church, God, work, studies n frenz in juz 24h.. wow~! i salute him manz!

yest was a packed day too.. had IA quiz.. anyhow do.. halfway 4got how to do.. sian 1/2.. saw A earlier too.. 4 a moment i thot we were ok le.. but he changes lyk e wind.. e nx moment i was treated lyk transparent glass again.. sigh~ im used to tt alr.. suan le la.. i hold no hopes on him le anyways.. since he bear a silent grudge on me, i cant help it either.. even though i duno wad i did to be a foe of his la.. who cares.. i msg him last nite 4 a simple how-are-you.. i received no reply till now.. sigh~ maybe he changed no alr or he purposely ignore me.. okok i treat it as e latter.. cos sum of my frenz received calls frm tt usual no la.. wadeva~ y m i so bothered by him anyway.. darn~ he's alr outta my heart n mind.. GET LOST~!

sum1 has taken tt pain away frm my heart alr.. anyways later i gonna mit *him* awhile.. so me now pia abit of work 1st.. ok till den i cya peeps!

every1's juz so bzbzbz now.. so much deadlines to mit.. projects n tests.. every1's juz rushing thru dis term.. v hectic 4 us.. i juz hate ot.. y muz we shorten our sch term.. even our holi r shortened.. damn~

IA sir sent us an email regarding tt ECO adventure camp trip in Genting.. i m v v interested to go.. yet no1 in my class wana go.. not even alfred or jean.. sigh~ all buai onz de.. e trip sounds real fun judging from e itnerary Sir wrote 4 us.. yet.. no company to go wif.. or rather to room wif either.. no pt sia.. i dun wana room w strangers in a 'ulu baba' place.. v disappointed n sad tt i cant go 4 dis trip.. closing date for application is tml.. bleah~ looks lyk im all SET 4 e coming church camp in dec den.. to Rompin.. sumwhere in ulu M'sia too la..

sem exams r coming in mid-oct.. PFEA n MAMS projects r due in 1st wk of oct.. french oral n written tests coming in 2 wks.. geez *stressed* haben been zzz well recently.. late nites, nightmares kip haunting me.. stress.. too used to waking up at 5.30am.. im freaking out slowly.. worn-out.. yeah many of us oso now lidat too.. hope all these sufferings will end aft e exams ba.. :{ so tired now but cant zzz.. e feeling's so miserable la.. darn~~

so hungry now.. *gRRR~* stomach growling sia.. feel lyk eating.. recently i kip eating alot.. tt awful tummy's back.. had a hard time getting rid of tt last mth.. yet now its back! arghh~ muz ren le.. okok i try zzzz now.. hope no more niightmares.. buai tahan tt stupid paralysed feeling.. u noe how horrid tt can get rite... eeks!
bedtime le.. *zZzZz*

bloody hell~ u juz duno how much i feel lyk smashing my lappy onto e ground.. its making my blood BOIL.. arghh~! 1 prob aft another.. freakin' fed up.. 1st, e LCD screen spoil, den dl windows xp svc pack 2.. den virus attack, den home wireless internet haywired, now stupid popups reappearing, aft 1 wk's peace.. din e svc pack reassured us sumhow tt we'll suffer no more popups or sth? y computers alw end up w so many irritating probs?!

bloody mood swing now.. lack of zzz.. on e verge on dying.. headache, stomach growling, eyes damn sore n tired, strength depleted to zero n now dis bloody com making my blood pressure increase! damn~ i wana pom pom n orh orh liaoz.. sch sux~ everyting juz pisses me off now.. X(

finally back to blogging.. aft almost a wk... com had tt stupid virus n tt silly internet connection prob.. virus was settled by han ping's fren.. had to delete sum application file.. aft tt Windows had slight prob.. den came along tt moronic internet.. called darn Starhub n all tehy did was say "we'll contact as soon as our technicans r free.. they r bz w other customers now.. we'll gif ya a call by 2 hrs.." i ended up waiting for 2 days n they finally called.. yet e technican was an ass.. a useless bum.. i had to call Starhub again... almost wanted to complain sia.. poor svc n low efficiency! luckily i called again, n dis time i received better svc frm a lady.. b4 tt guys answered my calls.. anyway e whole troubleshoot process ended w dis conclusion.. router network key.. i haf to call Linksys Co. dis mon 4 help again.. waste of time again.. bleah~

anyway 11/9/04.. shi yun's bdae.. yeah we went out to orchard 4 lalalala session~ n makan along w crapping.. geez it was fun man.. luff e hell outta our minds.. w cher hao, vin, maddy n shi yun.. we r MADNESS! hohoho~ its been so long since we last hang out tgt so happily.. getting her pressie was a diff task 4 me.. it literally pressurize me.. ended up buying sth out of our agendas.. but its ok, all i hope is tt she'll lyk tt pressie la.. went to get it w him.. well at least we finally got to hang out tgt lor.. kinda contented n happy.. *cloud 9*

its been a real tiring wk n i hardly had enuff slp recently.. i finally can eat seafood n chicken n all i've miz over e past mth.. daniel, jean n alfred~~ stop luffing at me le.. i ate lotsa sotong n calamari rings today.. *yum yum* FREEDOM.. tastes so sweet.. YAY~! anyway i got projects to do now.. so well i muz chiong le.. all i wan is a gd nite sleep.. *hugs to all esp him* =bedtime=

com half dead w tt cursed trojan virus.. damn~ tt really spoilt my mood today.. so restless in class.. cant even concentrate.. bleah~ everyting seems to go wrong in my hands.. tmlmuz bring lappy tohan ping's fren to c c lor.. wun be going online.. till now oni started abit on my MAMS project.. no mood sia.. today wana sms oso sian 1/2.. hp alw hang.. back still pain w sunburns.. kip daydreaming in class.. nuthin seems to haf gotten into tt brain of mine.. thot tml i can go out w him... been looking fwd to tml.. yet it turned out to be a disappointment.. expected ma? maybe.. dun wana say le.. im trying my bez to understand him.. i hope he dun take me 4 granted.. dun feel lyk blogging le.. freakin' low spirits now..

arghh~~~ i wana throw my com on e floor! kip showing tt stupid blue screen everytime i try to do sth impt.. i blog so long TWICE n now its my 3rd time.. omg~ so fed up.. my com really got prob alr.. i lz write wadeva i had planned to write le.. pissed!

anyway yest i went sentosa w R3 youths.. had great fun.. esp crapping w darren n dawn.. almost beat darren to death.. we got toolame sumhow.. sigh~ had oni bee hoon n otah 4 lunch cos i cant eat seafood lor.. bleah~ i hate restricted diet.. eeks! anyway i juz got to noe amos oso kana shingles b4.. its comforting to hear tt sum1 frm our age grp oso kana dis b4.. at least im not alone.. im juz waiting 4 e scars to disappear ASAP!

aft sentosa.. i headed down to pasir ris beach 4 shi ru nyan ru's bdae bbq, w ying xi, angelina, erienne, hui qing, jermaine n rebecca.. as usual cant eat seafood n all.. so i ended up eating otah again 4 dinner.. left at 10+ aft e bdae cake n ended up reaching home at 12am.. mama was not happy n all.. hee~~ at least i got to relax e whole day.. i realised how sunburnt i was.. ma jiam lyk lobster sia.. whole top back n shoulders pain!! arghh~~

had a long bath to clean e sand n tt bbq smell off my hair.. since waiting 4 hait to dry, i decided to call yan to chat.. haha~ tok tok tok till almost 2am.. as usual i did most of e toking but well its ok.. my forte is entertaining pple.. lalalalalala~~ at least we finally chatted on e fone a few times rather den juz smsing lor.. :D
n of cos i managed to zzz real well last nite.. hee~~ *blush*

tml's daniel's bdae.. went ard scotting 4 his pressie today.. miind-boggling but well, mission was accomplished! hee~~ daniel.. u'll get ur pressie as promised.. hope u'll lyk it.. i'll c every1 tml den.. gd day to all of ya peeps!

great~! i finally found time to blog.. haha~ okok dis wk went real fast w everyting esp since sch juz started AGAIN dis wk.. rite aft common tests juz finish.. nv seem to haf enuff rest.. arghh~ but at least im satisfied w my results sumhow..

at least i managed to calm my tired nerves n poor brain w sum funi movies recently.. '13 going 30', 'A Cinderella's story' & 'Garfield'~! hee~~ me now so broke sia.. lolx~! been hanging out w shi yun almost e whole wk.. yeah.. we had time catching up n toking abt silly stuff, wif vin too.. lalalala~~ buddies r juz so great to be wif.. u can tell 'em almost everyting n u juz feel so relaxed w 'em..

frenz r as impt as our family members.. w/o 'em, our lives feel so empty n boring.. even tt special sum1 in our lives, w/o him/her, maybe ur life wun be as beautiful as now.. im sure we all haf our fair share of heartbreaks n stuff, but still gif sum time 4 fate to play a part in ur life by showing ya who's ur true partner.. no pt rushing tings through.. ;P love is not everyting to us now.. y not priortise our time more wisely tinking abt sum other useful stuff instead..? studies is silly but well, aft all u'll get gd results if u study hard.. juz chill n hang ard w frenz instead la.. they r much more fun to be wif..

ooh.. dis mth's sept.. n i got a whole load of frenz bdaes dis mth -.- *sad* my bdae is taking ages to cum.. i wana take my driving license asap so i dun haf to waste time taking train to sch ANYMORE! n of cos i gotta buy bdae pressies 4 those babes n dudes of mine.. daniel, shi yun. shi ru, alfian etc.. *broke* :( bleah~ im so bored of so many stuff now.. so tired.. bleah~ wana zzz soon.. thot of going sentosa tml w e youths tml.. sld i go? sigh~ who else going?

can blog le?! YAY~! so happy.. finally.. duno y recently blogger seems to be having prob.. could not type in anyting... shi yun oso kana same prob.. hmm siao le la.. anyway its oni e starting of e wk n im feeling so tired alr.. argh~ *slap slap* wake up gal~! its gonna be a long wk ahead.. many stuff to handle.. common tests juz over last wk.. so relieved yet shag.. got back EM3B N SAB le.. did quite well but i expected better cos its juz common tests.. MAMS n DEL.. sld be gettingback tml ba.. hee~ hope to get wad i wan.. as 4 PFEA, im on e verge of giving up although its bad.. well i muz jia you le.. muz try to understand those crap language asap.. mdm say got project coming up.. :( i hate tt word 'project'... bleah~ internet recently v siao siao de.. duno y.. anyways gtg zzz le.. nitez!

Congratulations, Julia!Your IQ score is 117

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet.
* not bad ar.. ;p*

You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman.
Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.
You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems.
You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.
You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments.
You weakness is that you lack endurance.
You are born good natured and a hard working person.
But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness.
This makes you have a disadvantage.
Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly.
You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea.
You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.
You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.
You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.
After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife -.- ( daniel alw say tt abt me.. dun tell me so zun sia..)