I'm not really a person that has homesick experience since I left home for studies. Only once, during end of my 1st year in Uni, i did. But somehow, I won't blame it as it was my own decision to stay during that 2-months long holidays, as I was preparing myself to overcome some situation. Life at England is different, I can't really find anyway to get back to my comfort zone. Well, I knew this from start and that's actually part of my reason to choose here! (Just to be brave for once in my life!) and when I decided to say YES to sunderland, I never though I'll miss Malaysia so much! and how good is Malaysia! especially the foods!! and yes... i miss travelling around with own transports. I miss driving around the town! Everytime I saw youngster driving around, I'm so so jealous and I miss it! especially driving together with frens and brian!
Meeting new frens and ppl aren't as easy as I think, mostly because our culture aren't the same, so our thinking are not as well. Some of the words or thing, they couldn't accept and often... very often lead to misunderstanding that causes lot of explanation to be made. So everytime I talked, I'll end up explaining my points, unless when I'm talking to Malaysian. Sometime, u'll be amazed how Malaysian could understand each other without saying in details! =D oh well, it's a good training in communication as well, yet, somehow makes u feeling homesick that u can't shared it with ur loved ones.
I miss my sista! all those close sista! in miri, in bintangor, in kuching, in johor, all of them! Well, I dun reli have close girls at here at the moments. Feels weird of myself sometime, I'm close with boys here and I feel like surrounded by brothers at home. Maybe I miss my brothers too much till that way! Well, they're lovely and caring as well, especially when they walked me back home, I feel touched and appreciate it so much! Seeing the boys talking to each other also sometime makes me feel missing my brothers, those moments that 4 of us could sit down and chit-chat anything! Those funny and crazy thoughts... those intimate feeling of siblings... and those noisy that we make during cny, even till now still make dad and mum feel annoying...
Gosh!! I miss everything in Malaysia as I write this. I miss my Johor's housemate! They're like part of my life already! Especially whenever aiden msn or skype me, when ah bui facetime with me, when christopher skype me, when flo facebooking me!! All of them! all of this, I couldn't explained more if I am not at my position right now. Yeah... when u're out of ur comfort zone, u'll see the whole picture of how much does the loved one should be appreciate, how much you miss them and how tiny are you in control of your life.... I admit... I'm slightly homesick or maybe lots and lots of homesick currently.
